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  by Bernhard Guenther
 April 22, 2012
 
			
			from 
			
			VeilOfReality Website 
			
 
 
 
  
 
			  
			
			A topic that has been coming up recently in a conversation with some 
			friends is the idea of "Wanderers" in relation to esoteric work, the 
			awakening process and the Time of Transition we are in.
 
			  
			It is 
			something that has been on my mind for a while and wanted to explore 
			a bit deeper, also reflecting on my own life.
 
			I first came across this subject when I 
			read the 
			Ra 
			material in the 90's as well as Barbara Marciniak's "Bringers of the Dawn".  
			  
			According to Ra, Wanderers are individuals whose 
			souls have incarnated from a higher density (4th or 6th density) 
			into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish in order 
			to assist humanity, helping with
			
			The Harvest or Graduation to 4th Density during this Age of 
			Transformation.  
			  
			However, due to the "veil of forgetting" when 
			entering a lower density, the mission/task by the Wanderer is 
			forgotten and he/she needs to awaken to what they came here to do. 
			 
			  
			Ra tells us: 
				
				
				Questioner: You 
				spoke of Wanderers. Who are Wanderers? Where do they come from? 
				  
				
				Ra: Imagine, if 
				you will, the sands of your shores.  
				  
				 As countless as the grains 
				of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity. When a social 
				memory complex has achieved its complete understanding of its 
				desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others 
				with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, 
				to any entities who call for aid.  
				  
				 These entities whom you may 
				call the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling 
				of sorrow. These entities are from all reaches of the infinite 
				creation and are bound together by the desire to serve in this 
				distortion.  
				  
				 Entities are from all reaches of infinite creation, 
				bound together by desire to serve in Earth's 3D. 
				  
				  
				
				Questioner: How 
				many of them are incarnate on Earth now? 
				  
				
				Ra: The number is 
				approximate due to an heavy influx of those birthed at this time 
				due to an intensive need to lighten the planetary vibration and 
				thus aid in harvest. The number approaches sixty-five million. 
				  
				  
				
				Questioner: Are 
				most of these from the fourth density? Or what density do they 
				come from? 
				  
				
				Ra: Few there are 
				of fourth density.  
				  
				The largest number of Wanderers, as you call 
				them, are of the 
				
				sixth density. The desire to serve must be 
				distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and what you 
				may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your 
				distortion complex judgment.  
				  
				
				The challenge/danger of the Wanderer is that it will forget its 
				mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the 
				maelstrom of which it had incarnated to avert the destruction…. 
				
				It was the aim of Wanderers to serve 
				the entities of this planet in 
				whatever way was requested and it was also the aim of 
				Wanderers that their vibratory patterns might lighten the 
				planetary vibration as a whole, thus ameliorating the effects of 
				planetary disharmony and palliating any results of this 
				disharmony.  
				  
				Specific intentions such as aiding 
				in a situation not yet manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. 
				Light and love go where they are sought and needed, and their 
				direction is not planned aforetimes." 
				  
				…The energies of the Wanderers, 
				your teachers and adepts at this time are all bent upon 
				increasing the harvest. 
				  
				 
				However, there are few to harvest." 
			Carla L. Rueckert, the 
			"instrument" through which Ra spoke wrote
			"A Wanderer's Handbook", exploring this topic in more depth and 
			also incorporating other channeled material: 
				
				"In addition to those lessons which 
				are learned in a manner native to those who work through the 
				third density for the first time,
				those who are what you call 
				Wanderers bring a certain task and a certain responsibility, 
				which may be viewed as operating so as to put into an unique 
				light, a particular slant or bias, those precise lessons which 
				within third density all must learn.  
				  
				And so in a sense, the task is 
				compounded proportionate to the unique gifts which have been 
				brought from other densities, so that they may be laid down in 
				service to the souls which seek, so hungrily, to reach beyond 
				the limits which are those of third density, a density of 
				choice." 
			The Pleiadians in Barbara Marciniak's 
			"Bringers of the Dawn" refer to the same concept of Wanderers as
			"Renegades", 
			"System Busters" and "Family of Light": 
				
				"You represent the renegade group of 
				light, and you have agreed to come back on the planet.  
				  
				You are 
				on assignment. You come into these physical bodies and take them 
				over, and you intend, through the power of your spiritual 
				identity, to change the physical body.  
				  
				You all selected with 
				great care the genetic lines that would best give you head 
				starts with all of this. Each of you chose a genetic history 
				through which members of the Family of Light have threaded… 
				  
				As members of the Family of Light, 
				you have incarnated on this planet to prepare yourselves to do 
				your work.  
				  
				What is your work? 
				Your work is quite simple: you carry frequency into systems that 
				have limited light frequency, because
				light is information. 
				This is not cold, computer-data information; it is information 
				that is transmitted biologically through an electromagnetic 
				send-out of consciousness.  
				  
				This is what you are experts in. If 
				you were to have a business card printed up for yourselves when 
				you are in full memory of your identity, 
				
				it would say something 
				like:  
					
					"Renegade Member of 
				Family of Light. Systems Buster. Available for altering systems 
				of consciousness within the free-will universe. On call"… 
				You go for it! This is what you do. 
				 
				  
				This is an aspect of your identity that you all have in common, 
				and you are here in the millions at this time. You are here 
				primarily to remember who you are, to operate multi- 
				dimensionally within the system,
				and to teach humans-the natives 
				in this place that have been under frequency control for a long 
				time… 
				  
				The task for you members of the 
				Family of Light who have desired to take this information inside 
				of yourselves is to anchor a new frequency on the planet by 
				anchoring it impeccably inside yourselves. 
				 
				  
				 
				This is not easy. It was not meant to be easy. You did not come 
				here to have an easy assignment. You are renegades, and 
				you have been renegades… 
				  
				Before you came into the body, all 
				of you committed to designing events that would fire your 
				codings, or blueprints that would activate your memories.
				Then you came into the body and 
				you forgot. All of you have had your blueprints and 
				codings fired to some extent because you understand that there 
				is a divine purpose or Divine Plan that you are a part of… 
				  
				
				Part of the friction you feel with others is that 
				you are on this path of evolution and bursting forth.
				Others don't like this because they 
				are not coded at this time to respond the way you are. Some 
				people are not coded at all for this… 
				  
				As members of the 
				
				Family of Light, 
				you are renegades.  
				  
				You are systems busters, here to conquer your 
				own fears and to show the rest of the planet that there is no 
				reason to fear anything. You love to go in and cause trouble. 
				You are famous, your branch of the Family of Light. You are 
				famous for going into systems of reality and altering the 
				frequency, thus bringing information.
				It is not your task as members 
				of the Family of Light to proselytize.  
				  
				You simply go 
				into systems and act as receptacles; you receive the creative 
				cosmic rays into your bodies, the bodies that you occupy as 
				humans. You are in disguise as humans, and you allow a process 
				to take place… 
				  
				
				You are coded, and as your memory begins to rise, 
				you will respond to the plan with which you came here to 
				participate to alter the frequencies. 
				You will begin to hold, keep, and maintain a certain frequency 
				and then to line it. Identity as frequency is the sum total of 
				your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies broadcast 
				as electronic pulsations.  
				  
				 
				As you live your frequency, you affect 
				everyone, every place you go. That is what you are doing now. There 
				are many who already understand their assignment, and there are 
				those whose memories are just beginning to rise… 
				  
				As members of the Family of Light, 
				you have access to a tremendous amount of understanding that 
				others do not have. You came in with it, you are being reminded 
				of it, and you are now learning it and accepting it… 
				  
				Light 
				is information, so the Family of Light is the family of 
				information… 
				  
				Believe us when we say that 
				you, as members of the Family of Light, made a vast study of the 
				historical manipulation that has been going on on this planet, 
				just as anyone sent on assignment would be trained for a long 
				period of time before they were sent out into the field. Each of 
				you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside you.
				 
				  
				
				Our part is to hit key chords 
				and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead 
				and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. 
				Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover 
				it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become 
				very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this.  
				  
				You will 
				also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not 
				stop because you are frightened. 
				Light is 
				information; ignorance is darkness… 
				  
				We speak to you as if you are not 
				human because, to us, you are not. To us, you are members of the 
				Family of Light, and we know your multidimensional selves.  
				  
				We 
				speak to you about dealing with humans because it is your 
				assignment to integrate with them, soothe them, and awaken a 
				spark of light within them so that they are not all destroyed 
				and so that this place can house a new species and a new realm 
				of activity… 
				  
				You have been hired and are on 
				assignment from the future to catapult back into this cycle of 
				existence to incarnate many times so that you can understand 
				what has kept humans controlled. In this way, you can operate 
				from the inside and change the system… 
				  
				As each of you has been assigned to 
				become informed and to bring about a frequency alteration on 
				this planet, you must learn to become Keepers of Frequency.
				 
				  
				You must rise to a certain 
				place of knowledge and consistently stay there. You 
				must become in command of your body so that you can will it into 
				stillness or into activity. You 
				must be able to go inside yourself and heal what needs to be 
				healed emotionally and physically.  
				  
				You must begin to 
				part the jungle of self and find the clearing so that you can 
				show others the way…" 
			The topic of Wanderers or higher 
			dimensional-beings who have incarnated for the purpose of assisting 
			humanity is somewhat popular in the New Age movement.  
			  
			There are 
			plenty of people these days who claim to be "Star Seeds" or "Light 
			Workers" from planet this or that.  
			  
			However, some of them seem to use 
			this identification to enhance their ego and self-importance, 
			over-estimating their level of Being and Awareness, appearing "special" and 
			"mysterious", clouded in a very fluff talk of Love and 
			Light.  
			  
			Especially nowadays, where it is hip to be "spiritual", many 
			self-proclaimed lightworkers dress accordingly and give themselves 
			fancy spiritual names which are supposed to reflect their higher 
			state of awareness, claiming to be awake. It's easy to identify 
			oneself with such an idea but does one's life truly reflect that? 
			 
			  
			Does one truly KNOW what it means to be a lightworker or Wanderer 
			and the work it entails? Or is it just another label used for 
			appearance's sake and to make oneself feel better?  
			  
			There are many 
			distortions and people tend to project their own filtered view into 
			it. As with everything these days truth is mixed with lies. 
			  
			Personally I don't dismiss the idea of 
			higher density souls coming back in time with a specific mission to 
			fulfill. However, I also take it with a grain of salt at the same 
			time.  
			  
			Reflecting on my life, I can see that I could fit the profile 
			of a Wanderer and learning about it has given much clarity and 
			understanding of myself and what I felt deep inside all along. 
			However I don't see myself as being special or better since I have 
			to learn my lessons as everyone else in this 3D human experience. 
			  
			Throughout my whole life I felt 
			different and was very much a loner in high school, not being able 
			to fit in, dealing with a high sensitive nature and a deep emotional 
			life which was confusing to say the least.  
			  
			Obviously many children 
			feel this way growing up in our pathological world and is by no 
			means an indication that one is automatically a Wanderer.  
			  
			My 
			parents did their best in raising me according to their knowledge. I 
			didn't have a bad childhood or was abused by any means. 
			  
			I just felt 
			I wasn't from here and even as a young kid in my pre-teens I used to 
			look at the stars at night thinking and longing, 
				
				"Take me home… Why am 
			I here?… Why am I so alone?".  
			However, I never truly made the 
			connection that I was maybe a Wanderer, nor was I conscious of this 
			idea. It was just natural for me for me to stare at the night sky 
			asking these questions and it had a soothing affect on me. 
			  
			Scott Mandelker who has published 
			several books on the Ra material and Buddhism came up with a
			 
			questionnaire (similar to determining personality types) which 
			can help to find out if one is potentially a Wanderer.  
			  
			Obviously 
			there is no true scientific way to prove one way or another. I think Mendelker's quiz is over-simplified, short and vague and missing 
			some important points which can also lead to misinterpretations. 
			Deeper introspection and understanding of what being a Wanderer 
			entails is certainly needed.  
			  
			I would not go by this questionnaire 
			alone and proclaim "I'm a Wanderer" even if I can answer most 
			questions with a yes. It's easy to read into things and "bend the 
			truth" in order to fit it for oneself.  
			  
			As Laura (Knight-Jadczyk) mentioned 
			earlier, what is it you truly DO about it? 
			  
			I started questioning the world as we 
			know it more consciously when I went to the University of Munich 
			studying business in 1991, a choice I made due to social pressure, 
			being confused, not knowing myself and just doing what everyone else 
			did: 
				
				getting a degree, so I can have a secure job and make a living. 
			I was depressed and felt just like I did in High School, doing 
			things that I didn't like to do but thought I had to do in order to 
			"fit in". 
			  
			I kept thinking there must be more to life than this! 
			Well, as the saying goes, ask and you shall receive and I was asking 
			sincerely from the depth of my being. The call was answered when a 
			good friend I met around that time asked me to try out playing drums 
			for his band.  
			  
			My life changed completely. Music has always been my 
			ally in my life. 
			  
			Listening to it helped me to deal with my complex 
			emotional life. But I was so conditioned and lost that I never 
			thought to make music myself. I was in awe when I saw bands playing 
			live and especially intrigued when watching the drummer.  
			  
			My low 
			self-esteem didn't even make that connection that I could be doing 
			this myself since I thought I had to study and be a good student in 
			order to get a degree in something more practical and secure to fit 
			into society and also please my parents. 
			  
			Playing drums connected me to something 
			deeper within me and for the first time in my life I truly knew what 
			I wanted to do. I was so infused with inspiration and sudden 
			self-confidence that I dropped out of university, saved up money and 
			moved to Los Angeles to study drums and percussion at the Musicians 
			Institute.  
			  
			At that time I realized there must be even more to life 
			and more to who I am, that there is purpose to my life, that there 
			was something I'm here to do.  
			  
			A lot of things came up for me and it 
			was not always a happy time.  
			  
			Dealing with depression, childhood 
			programming, social conditioning and this seemingly never-ending 
			feeling of loneliness, unable to connect with people on a deeper 
			level, I started to look for answers, trying to figure myself out as 
			I was going through the "dark night of the soul" with suicidal 
			thoughts and even drug abuse (which didn't last long, since it 
			interfered with my passion for playing drums. Music literally saved 
			my life). 
			  
			My search and asking fueled by intense internal suffering 
			lead me to the works of Carl Gustav Jung, J. Krihshnamurti, 
			Alan 
			Watts, Joseph Campbell and other spiritual/psychology/philosophy 
			literature as well as Astrology, which helped me in the process of 
			seeking answers to deeper life questions and understanding myself 
			better. 
			  
			  
			
			 
			  
			  
			Another big shift in my life started 
			when I first read "Bringers of the Dawn" (BOTD) by Barbara Marciniak 
			in the late 90's.  
			  
			No other book has had such a deep impact on me. It 
			was almost like an instruction manual I've read before, awakening 
			something within me that was always there. It was more a recognition 
			than learning something new.  
			  
			It resonated with me deeply. Readers of 
			my blogs know that I don't take the idea of "resonating" lightly 
			since I believe that there is such a thing as "false resonating". 
			  
			While there is validity to the idea of 
			"resonating" with a certain teaching or source, it can easily be 
			misapplied if the "reading instrument", the Self, is not "tuned" 
			correctly. Some fundamentalist Christians also "resonate" with the 
			Bible in literal terms, believing the earth is only 5000 years old. 
			 
			  
			"Feel good" messages are no proof of truth and can also be very 
			emotional manipulative. Disinformation is always lies mixed with 
			truth.  
			  
			Enough truth to use as a bait to get the seeker's attention 
			and then put him/her on a false lead so to speak, keeping him asleep 
			while he believes to awaken. 
			  
			In order to find the true resonance one 
			needs to separate the false self (with its assumptions, 
			conditioning, expectations, wishful thinking, buffers, emotional 
			hooks and ego desires) from the true self which is grounded in 
			Knowledge, connected to the small voice inside that can always 
			separate a lie from truth, using intuition and critical thinking 
			alike, even if the truth is not very "pleasant" and challenging to 
			one's world view. In other words, honest self-work is needed in 
			order to resonate with truth.  
			  
			Within and without. 
			  
			Marciniak's book started my quest for 
			truth on a whole new level, confirming my feeling that there is 
			something else happening on our planet besides what we have been 
			taught and told by official culture.  
			  
			For many people the information 
			in BOTD is too far out or laughable, however that also makes sense 
			as I'll explain later on. 
			  
			It was not only the idea of higher density 
			souls coming "back in time" incarnating in human form (Renegades, 
			Family of Light) with a mission profile to assist humanity during 
			this time of transformation which I resonated with, but also the 
			more disturbing topic of hyperdimensional control and that humans 
			are not on top of the food chain, nor in control of themselves, but 
			have been manipulated genetically and controlled by "Aliens" 
			(hyperdimensional 4D STS forces). 
			  
			Her work led me to the Ra material, as 
			well as the Cassiopaean Experiment and the work of 
			
			Laura 
			Knight-Jadczyk who wrote in depth about the Theological Drama with 
			hyperdimensional forces working through humanity, incorporating a 
			vast array of esoteric teachings, channeled material (Ra, 
			Marciniak's Pleiadians) and research into ancient history, 
			connecting the dots scientifically, esoterically, historically and 
			mystically.  
			  
			Her personal story and discoveries are written about in 
			"The Wave" and "The Secret History of the World". 
			  
			According to the Ra material and 
			Cassiopaean transmissions humans have been of 
			STO (Service to 
			Others) orientation before the "Fall".  
			  
			Both sources talk about the "Fall" from this state happening about 300,000 years ago when 4th 
			density STS (Service to Self) entities (called 
			
			the Orion Group by Ra 
			or Lizzies/Reptilians by Cassiopaea, Pleiadians) "raided" this 
			planet, took over control (from a hyperdimensional point of view as 
			in frequency/consciousness control) and humans became STS 
			(development of ego, false personality, worship of physicality, cut 
			off from the higher centers).  
			  
			We're now at the end of a big cycle 
			where mind/body/spirit complexes (Ra) of 3rd density (humans) have 
			the opportunity to "graduate" or "evolve" to 4th density STO 
			orientation (The "harvest" according to Ra).  
			  
			However, this is a 
			choice.  
			  
			According to both sources as well as various ancient 
			esoteric teachings, conscious self-work and effort are required to 
			move on to the next level so to speak, activating the higher centers 
			by gaining knowledge, engaging in sincere self-work and being of 
			service. 
			  
			Planet earth as it is now is of STS 
			orientation. We all are STS and cannot be otherwise, however one can 
			become a STO candidate and polarize oneself to that 
			vibration/frequency through esoteric work.  
			  
			4th density STS entities 
			try their best to manipulate 
			
			our "free will" through frequency and 
			genetic control which has been going on since "the fall", keeping us 
			in a lower form of consciousness as they feed off those lower 
			vibrations.  
			  
			It's simply 
			
			food for them and sustains/nourishes them, 
			like plant and animals (2nd density) serve us for food. 3rd density 
			feeds off 2nd density and 4th density feeds off 3rd density. Humans 
			are not at the end of the food chain.  
			  
			As above, so below.  
			  
			The UFO 
			phenomenon relates to this and is for the most part a manifestation 
			of the hyperdimensional matrix control system as examined in more 
			depth in the documentary "UFOs, 
			Aliens, and the Question of Contact" I made with Humberto 
			Braga. 
			  
			Now is a window of opportunity to break 
			free from this control and evolve to a higher level of existence. 
			 
			  
			Not everyone will "graduate". It's everyone's own choice/calling and 
			doesn't depend on anything or anyone "out there". No one can do it 
			for another, but one must do the self-work in order to activate the 
			higher centers, raising one's level of Being and Awareness above a 
			certain minimum.  
			  
			This is also not something that happens over night 
			or on a specific date (like the much popularized end of the 
			
			Mayan 
			Calendar 12/21/2012) but is related to the shift of ages spanning 
			over a many years and we are already in the midst of it. 
				
				There is a choice to be made very 
				shortly, and it would be preferable if all of the people of this 
				planet understand the choice that is to be made. 
				  
				It will be difficult for many of the people of this planet to 
				understand what this choice is, because it is a choice that they 
				have not considered. They have been much too involved in their 
				daily activities and their confusion and their desires of a very 
				trivial nature to be concerned with an understanding of the 
				choice that they are very shortly to make.  
				  
				Whether they 
				wish to or not, whether they understand it or not, regardless of 
				any influence, each and every one of the people who dwell upon 
				planet Earth will shortly make a choice. There will be no middle 
				area.  
				  
				There will be those who choose to follow the path of love 
				and light (knowledge) and those who choose otherwise. 
				  
				This choice will not be made 
				by saying, "I choose the path of love and light," or "l do not 
				choose it." The verbal choice 
				will mean nothing. 
				This choice will be measured by the individual's demonstration 
				of his choice.  
				  
				This choice is measured by what we term 
				the vibratory rate of the individual. 
				  
				It is necessary, if an 
				individual is to join those who make the choice of love and 
				understanding, for his rate of vibration to be above a certain 
				minimal level. 
				[…]
 
				At the time at which each of you incarnated, my friends, each of 
				you was aware that certain lessons, hitherto unlearned, were to 
				be the goals for achievement in this incarnation.
 
				  
				If it seems to 
				you that your entire incarnation within this illusion has been a 
				series of difficulties of one particular type, then you are 
				almost certainly aware in some manner of one of your lessons.
				 
				  
				
				As you 
				can see, these lessons are not to be avoided. They are to be 
				learned. 
				
				
				from Hatonn, L/L Transcripts 
			Going back to the topic of Wanderers and 
			renegades who have incarnated in this time and age with a specific 
			mission relating to the shift we're in, there is also this 
			insightful writing by 
			
			Marshall Vian Summers about the deeper meaning 
			of purpose, our "ancient home" and how it is intrinsically connected 
			to gaining Knowledge.  
			  
			Purpose is not a definition or an end in 
			itself, but a journey to be discovered as we work on ourselves and 
			separate truth from lies within and without.  
			  
			This process is 
			different for each as everyone has different lessons to learn and 
			talents to develop. 
				
				PURPOSE IS SOMETHING YOU WILL 
				UNDERSTAND as you climb higher on the mountain of life.  
				  
				As you 
				gain a greater vantage point, you will understand more of the 
				journey itself, by looking behind and by being increasingly able 
				to anticipate what is up ahead.  
				  
				Purpose is realized by taking 
				the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating 
				explanation or a definition for oneself. Purpose is not a 
				justification. It does not compensate for anything.  
				  
				Purpose is 
				something that is waiting for you to discover. You can only 
				discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by 
				learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and 
				understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of 
				Knowledge. 
				  
				As we have said before, you have 
				come from someplace and you will return to that place. You have 
				come bearing gifts for the world. Your greater purpose is 
				embodied in this idea.  
				  
				Because of your origin and your destiny, 
				you have something greater to give to the world, something that 
				the world cannot give to you.  
				  
				
				Your gift is hidden within you like a secret cargo, but you 
				cannot gain access to it until you have advanced. Then it will 
				begin to emerge, slowly and incrementally, all on its own. 
				  
				
				Your calling in life is very specific. It 
				involves engaging with certain people for specific reasons at 
				certain junctures of your life. The greater purpose that you 
				share with everyone is to keep Knowledge alive in the world and 
				to bring something from your Ancient Home into the world. 
				This is a definition that you can abide with because it will not 
				limit you and it will not deceive you, but go no further in your 
				definitions.  
				  
				 
				Allow the manifestation of your purpose to take 
				place naturally, as it will if you follow in The Way of 
				Knowledge. Your purpose now is to prepare to gain a greater 
				understanding of the world, the world's evolution and the 
				world's destiny.  
				  
				 
				Within this larger context you will gain a new 
				vantage point for understanding your role in the world and your 
				reason for coming here. 
				  
				Your life must be fulfilled. It must 
				be justified. The world is a difficult place to come to. It is 
				not a vacation spot. It is not a place where you are sent for 
				punishment. It is not a place 
				where you are sent for pleasure. 
				  
				It is a place that needs your 
				gifts from your Ancient Home, and for this reason you have come. 
				 
				  
				[…] 
				  
				
				Your purpose is not to escape the world. 
				Your purpose is not to run home to your Creator. 
				  
				 
				Your purpose is to give what 
				you came here to give, to reunite with those whom you are 
				intended to reunite with and to contribute all that you have 
				brought with you - that secret cargo that you carry even 
				at this moment.  
				  
				 
				[…] 
				  
				You are here in the world for very 
				specific reasons.  
				  
				They are not your personal reasons. You are 
				here to contribute to and participate in a greater order of 
				reality that exists within the world and beyond the world and 
				even beyond the physical manifestation of life. 
				  
				
				With greater awareness comes a greater ability. 
				This all comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to 
				respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment, 
				discretion, communication and affinity. 
				These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself. From the 
				first step to the last, you will be learning these things, and 
				life will be your laboratory. 
				  
				
				As you come to realize that your purpose is not 
				for you alone, then you will realize that you must not allow 
				yourself to become self-possessed or self-absorbed. 
				 
				  
				 
				Indeed, the great liberation is a liberation from this 
				self-absorption which returns you to life with an open mind and 
				with all of your faculties fully activated.  
				  
				 
				[…] 
				  
				The ones who will succeed are the 
				ones who focus on their preparation and allow the course of 
				their life to unfold without determining its result and without 
				determining what it will look like, how it will be and so forth. 
				 
				  
				Here you must develop a great and growing faith in yourself, in 
				the beneficence of those people who assist you, in the Unseen 
				Ones who guide you and help you and in the power and presence of 
				Knowledge within you. 
				  
				[…] 
				  
				Purpose is a process; it is 
				not a definition. It is not a validation. 
				  
				It is not a form of 
				self- comfort. It is something that awaits you. It is a great 
				journey. It is a door that is open to you now, a door that you 
				can pass through. It is a journey where you do not lead yourself 
				alone, but instead become a part of the greater education that 
				exists throughout the universe.  
				  
				The Creator is at work 
				everywhere, reclaiming the separated through Knowledge. This is 
				the Creator's purpose. 
				Your purpose is to give what you are designed to 
				give, according to your nature and your true abilities. 
				  
				
				In this, 
				your life becomes fulfilled because everything you have done can 
				now serve a greater purpose. 
				  
				
				This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. 
				Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, 
				tolerance and compassion - these are qualities that result from 
				preparation and advancement in The Way of Knowledge. 
				 
				  
				 
				These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in 
				life.  
				  
				 
				[…] 
				  
				Your purpose is the same as everyone 
				else's.  
				  
				However, your calling is specific. It is a specific set 
				of tasks with specific people and in specific relationships for 
				certain purposes. That is a calling.  
				  
				But for a calling to be 
				genuine, to be real and to really bear fruit in life, it must be 
				fundamentally based within the greater purpose that you share 
				with everyone.  
				  
				[…] 
				  
				It is not wandering around blindly, 
				speculating and having big ideas. 
				  
				Instead, it is engaging in a 
				process of development that has been provided for you by your 
				Creator and by your Spiritual Family to initiate you in this 
				life into the greater calling and purpose for which you have 
				come. Only through this discovery will your life be fully 
				justified and fully realized.  
				  
				Here you will enter a greater 
				range of relationship and understanding which will make you a 
				person of incredible value in the world. 
				  
				
				The world is a hungry and lonely place. It is 
				full of fantasy and folly. Its suffering is profound. Its 
				confusion is deep. Its violence is sickening. Its possibilities 
				are great. Who can see these things but those who realize that 
				they have come from beyond the world to give something?  
				  
				
				They 
				realize this because it is something they can feel. It is not an 
				emotion; it is something they feel. They feel that they have 
				come here for a reason. It is something that they cannot yet 
				define, but they cannot make it go away either.  
				  
				
				Something 
				greater is calling them. This is purpose. 
				 
				  
				[…] 
				  
				Their awareness of the mystery 
				of life will grow more and more profound, and their ability in 
				life - in their relationships, in their career, in all their 
				activities - will deepen. This is purpose. 
				 
				  
				
				At some point, 
				they will give themselves to something that involves other 
				people in service to the world in one capacity or another 
				according to their nature and their design. It will be natural 
				for them to give themselves in this way, as it would be 
				unnatural for them to decline it.  
				  
				
				This is purpose. 
				  
				As we describe this process of 
				preparation in a very general way, do not think that you are 
				near the end. Do not claim that you are anywhere in the process, 
				for how can you tell?  
				  
				You cannot pull yourself out of life and 
				examine your life. You do not have that vantage point yet.
				Accept that the journey is 
				great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult.  
				  
				But in all 
				ways it refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential 
				in you and reveals that which is permanent and meaningful.  
				  
				Your 
				real purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and 
				conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, 
				and that becomes welcomed and embraced. 
				  
				[…] 
				  
				This is the time that you are here, 
				and this is the condition of the world and the evolution of the 
				world at this time. 
				  
				Though your specific calling may seem to 
				have little to do with the Greater Community, you are serving 
				the world in its emergence into the Greater Community. You are 
				fostering goodness, Wisdom and the reality of Knowledge in the 
				world through your own demonstration.  
				  
				This is your purpose. 
			Let's summarize what we can see so far 
			from these quoted sources. 
			  
			Wandereres/Renegades are souls from a 
			higher density (4th or 6th) that have incarnated in a human body in 
			order to be of assistance during this Time of Transition.  
			  
			They are "system busters" challenging the status quo who don't fit in with 
			most of humanity. Due to entering the lower density of physical life 
			they have forgotten that it was their conscious choice to do so in 
			order to perform certain tasks according to a mission profile.  
			  
			Their 
			memory from the "ancient home" is buried deep within them which 
			needs to be awakened. This purpose is an ongoing discovery that 
			depends on conscious self-development and gaining Knowledge.
			Love is Light, is Knowledge. 
			 
			  
			Ra says that the reason for this "forgetting" is also rooted in respecting the free will of 3D 
			entities: 
				
				"Free will of 3D entities needs to 
				be preserved.  
				  
				Thus Wanderers volunteer for 3D genetic or DNA 
				connections to mind/body/spirit complex. Forgetting process can 
				be penetrated to extent of Wanderer remembering what it is and 
				why it is upon the planet.  
				  
				However, it would be an infringement 
				if Wanderers penetrated forgetting so far as to activate more 
				dense bodies and thus be able to live in a god-like manner.  
				  
				This 
				would not be proper for those who have chosen to serve." 
			
			
			The Ps (Pleiadians) tell us that 
			wanderers/renegades are, 
				
				"committed 
			to designing events that would fire [their] codings, or blueprints 
			that would activate their memories." 
			In other words, 
			the friction and struggle many people (who could be Wanderers) 
			perceive can be used as catalysts to help them awaken and remember 
			what they came here to do.  
			  
			
			The 
			lessons are not to be avoided, but are to be learned. 
			The obstacle that is in the way of a Wanderer to awaken is that 
			he/she becomes karmically involved and conditioned/programmed 
			through upbringing and society, steering him/her off the path.  
			  
			In 
			order to activate the higher centers, connecting them to their 
			higher selves and giving them access to their "blueprints", sincere 
			self work is necessary to cut through the lies and conditioning of 
			the false personality, which everyone has to one degree or another. 
			  
			This shows us that despite their hidden 
			higher knowledge and awareness that Wanderers bring with them, they 
			need to deal with the challenges of life like everyone else on the 
			planet.  
			  
			It is of no use to proclaim proudly that one is a Wanderer 
			without realizing and engaging in the work that is necessary to 
			truly walk the talk. 
			The verbal 
			choice will mean nothing. This choice will be measured by the 
			individual's demonstration of his choice.   
			  
			However, due 
			to being "foreign" to 3rd density, Wanderers do have more problems 
			adjusting to the planetary vibration of physicality than humans 
			whose home is 3D.  
			  
			Ra tells us: 
				
				"Due to the extreme variance between 
				the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more 
				dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule 
				some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation 
				which is severe.  
				  
				The most common of these difficulties are 
				alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by 
				personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex 
				ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary 
				vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them". 
				  
				"Possibility of such problems due to 
				6D incarnating in 3D is rather large. Not necessarily a problem 
				- it depends upon unique orientation of each m/b/s complex 
				having this situation or placement of energies." 
				  
				"There are, in case of Wanderers, 
				not only a congenital difficulty in dealing with 3D vibratory 
				patterns but also a recollection, however dim, that these 
				distortions are not necessary or usual in home vibration." 
			Many people who resonate with 
			being a Wanderer do so because of the
			most common of these 
			difficulties, alienation, that is severe (and I can 
			certainly relate to that), which is probably due to the difficulty 
			of dealing with 
			3D vibratory patterns that are not necessary or 
			usual in home vibration (6D). 
			  
			These difficulties are crucial and can 
			be approached in two ways for better or worse. 
			 
			  
			One can use them as 
			an excuse to not deal with 3D life because one feels "too 
			spiritual" or "too good" to do so or claiming to have "transcended" 
			anything that may require too much work to confront, be it within 
			oneself or in the world. 
			 
			  
			I have heard many times from people 
			(Wanderers or not) that they are "too spiritual" for politics or 
			speaking out against injustices in the world (and ultimately the 4D 
			STS control system) because they have "transcended" it all and just 
			want to live in the Light (misunderstanding that Light actually 
			means Knowledge). 
			 
			  
			But as Marianne Williamson said, addressing that 
			at a
			
			talk at "Lightning in a Bottle": 
				
				"There is a difference between 
			transcendence and denial". 
			Others even use their "spiritual 
			highness" as an excuse to not pay their bills, get a source of 
			income or just managing ordinary daily affairs and reject anything 
			that is part of life in our current 3D reality.  
			  
			They tend to manipulate, leech (and essentially feed) off others, which can keep 
			them in 3D STS frequency with the potential of getting "stuck" 
			there, not graduating (or not going back "home") and having to 
			repeat the 3rd density cycle. 
				
				"If Wanderer demonstrated through 
				action a negative orientation towards others it would be caught 
				into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, possibly 
				repeat master cycle of 3D as a planetary entity". 
			One needs to watch out that seeing 
			oneself as a Wanderer doesn't become an escape and is not used as a 
			buffer/excuse, which will only be in the way of living up to one's 
			potential and purpose.  
			  
			Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an important point 
			in that regard: 
				
				"This is another area where there 
				are some misunderstandings in the spiritual life.  
				  
				Many seekers 
				believe that their inability to function in the real world is 
				like a badge of merit - a proof of their great spirituality. 
				 
				  
				Physical ailments, loss of function, inability to manage 
				ordinary daily affairs, and so on and on are all excused because 
				the person is so "spiritual" that they cannot be expected to be 
				bothered with such things. 
				  
				Well, that's all fine and good but 
				wouldn't you think that a person who is supposed to have 
				graduated to higher spiritual realms did so because they 
				mastered the lower ones?  
				  
				And, if that is the case, what is so 
				hard about remembering those lessons and activating them at a 
				higher level of competence this time around?  
				  
				If you have graduated to sixth 
				grade, surely you can ace all the tests of third grade?" 
			The healthier approach, which will 
			actually help Wanderers to truly remember what they came here to do 
			and act on it, is to confront these difficulties, learn the lessons 
			and use the friction and shocks to create the fire within, 
			transmuting lead into gold, building the magnetic center within, 
			which connects them to their higher self, the real "I" and the 
			hidden knowledge within them.  
			  
			This is where esoteric works come in. 
			 
			  
			Wanderers actually have a better disposition to engage in this work 
			but, 
				
				"this is not more than a 
			bias and cannot be called an understanding" as Ra said 
			(more on that later). 
			Instead of rejecting these experiences 
			and lessons due to an unconscious feeling that this is not their 
			natural habitat, Wanderers have actually all the "tools" and 
			knowledge to deal with them, especially since they chose to 
			incarnate due the "the call" and request.  
			  
			Hence, being "spiritual" 
			and/or being a Wanderer implies taking absolute responsibility for 
			one's life regardless what the challenges and difficulties may be 
			without blame, self-pity or self-importance.  
			  
			This also relates to 
			the work of 
			Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan's teaching of the "warrior": 
				
				"Only as a warrior can one withstand 
				the path of knowledge. A warrior cannot complain or regret 
				anything. His life is an endless challenge, and challenges 
				cannot possibly be good or bad. Challenges are simple 
				challenges." 
				  
				"What seems natural is to think that 
				a warrior who can hold his own in the face of the unknown can 
				certainly face petty tyrants with impunity. But that's not 
				necessarily so.  
				  
				What destroyed the superb warriors of ancient 
				times was to rely on that assumption. Nothing can temper the 
				spirit of a warrior as much as the challenge of dealing with 
				impossible people in positions of power.  
				  
				Only under those 
				conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and serenity to 
				withstand the pressure of the unknowable." 
			So regardless of Wanderers being "higher 
			evolved" or old souls, they're on the same playing field as everyone 
			else on 3D earth and must do the work to access their knowledge.  
			  
			The 
			only "help" they have is that they may get triggered in some way and 
			the right book appears at the right time for example or 
			synchronicities and coincidences may lead them to the information or 
			life situation they need to come across and experience in order to 
			be awakened.  
			  
			But they need to do the work themselves with 
			discernment, separating truth from lies within and without. The 
			friction and limitations of 3rd density actually serve as a catalyst 
			for faster learning, growth and polarization.  
			  
			What seems clear is 
			that Wanderers didn't just choose to be of assistance with their 
			coded mission and potentially teach/heal but also to learn the 
			lessons they need to learn for their own evolution and polarization. 
				
				"[The] Wanderer has potential of 
				greatly accelerating density whence it comes in its progress in 
				evolution.  
				  
				This is due to intensive life experiences and 
				opportunities of 3D. Positively oriented Wanderers choose to 
				hazard danger of forgetting to be of service to others by 
				radiating love of others.  
				  
				If 
				forgetting is penetrated, amount of catalyst in 3D will polarize 
				Wanderer w/ much greater efficiency than shall be expected in 
				higher, more harmonious densities." 
			They may also be guided and awakened by 
			higher density STO forces to be triggered through subconscious 
			impulses but not to do the work FOR them.  
			  
			As the Ps said: 
				
				"All of you jumped at the chance to 
				be here in such a challenging place at such a challenging time. 
				 
				  
				You were certain you could do it. Also, you were told before you 
				came here that there would be much assistance and that, at 
				different junctures of your development, different entities 
				would present themselves upon the planet in different capacities
				to trigger you, fire you up, 
				and remind you-not to do it for you. We are one of 
				those triggers, a catalyst.  
				  
				...You yourself chose to be here. You 
				are on assignment to bring memory forward and to bring the value 
				of human existence back to the forefront of creation. You are 
				needed…" 
				  
				Each of you has been trained, 
				and you have the knowledge inside you.
				Our part is to hit key chords 
				and play your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead 
				and make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. 
				 
				  
				Your knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover 
				it, it will awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become 
				very self-sufficient, those of you who agree to this.  
				  
				You will 
				also become incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not 
				stop because you are frightened. 
				Light is 
				information; ignorance is darkness… 
				  
				
				Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, 
				yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in 
				such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in 
				order to be empowered… 
				  
				It is very important to observe how 
				you deal with events. Different events are brought to you so 
				that you can observe them.  
				  
				Learn to observe your behavior and to 
				spend much more time alone even if sometimes it is difficult for 
				you and you feel lonely. 
				In the long run, you will thank us for directing you to have a 
				more meaningful encounter with yourself… 
				  
				
				Who's going to bail 
				you out when the going gets rough? Where is the rescue team? You 
				are it. 
				In order to have this transformation take place, you must use 
				what you have to bring it about.
				There is incredible assistance 
				from all kinds of realms; however, it all depends on you, not 
				us.  
				  
				 
				You are going to change the frequency simply by 
				commitment, determination, and willpower…" 
			And from the Ra material: 
				
				"The methods used to awaken 
				Wanderers are varied. 
				  
				The center of each approach is the 
				entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way as to 
				avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an 
				understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the 
				entity. Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many 
				activities during the waking hours.  
				  
				The approach is flexible and 
				does not necessarily include the 'Close Encounter' syndrome." 
			This is also where free will comes 
			in.  
			  
			Wanderers incarnated because of the "request" and "answering the 
			call".  
			  
			Their mission is not to preach, impose or 
			give without being 
			asked. From an STO perspective one can only give when asked and many 
			people choose not to wake up, they choose not to seek truth or do 
			conscious self-work.  
			  
			They choose to stay asleep, dreaming to be 
			awake.  
			  
			Many even choose to be STS on a soul level, just as many 
			choose not to "graduate" to 4D. Free will needs to be respected, 
			even if it is the free will to stay ignorant. Only STS violates free 
			will through self-serving manipulation and non-asked interference.  
			  
			This also relates to the esoteric sayings, 
				
				
				"Being wise as serpents and 
			gentle as doves" and 
				"Do not give 
			what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or 
			they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to 
			pieces." 
			Asking can come in different ways and it 
			not necessarily verbal, however, not every asking is sincere, so 
			knowledge, discernment and awareness are required to truly 
			distinguish between STS and STO, especially within ourselves as we 
			all have STS tendencies, mistaking them for STO (remember that STS 
			is the default polarity for this current 3rd density we are ALL 
			subjected to).  
				
					
					
					Are we giving to another without expectation and to 
			truly help the other person?   
					
					What part in them are we supporting? 
			Sometimes NOT giving is actually STO in order not to support the STS 
			feeding dynamics.   
					
					Are we being externally considerate? 
					  
					
					Or are we 
			considering internally and are trying to make ourselves feel better 
			by "being of service" or for the sake of image/appearance/status, 
			inflating our self-importance?  
					
					For example, if people donate money 
			to various causes, what is their true underlying drive? 
			  
			*** 
				
				"How we admire you. 
				  
				We remember 
				third density. It is the shortest of the densities, the density 
				of choice. You are here to 
				choose to serve the Creator by serving others or by serving the 
				self and manipulating others.  
				  
				As you serve others, you 
				may be asked to do outrageous things, to go beyond your 
				limitations, to do what cannot be done yet which shall be done 
				because it must. 
				  
				And in those situations we strongly advise that 
				you release your personal personality and move to an impersonal 
				portion of your deep self, that god-self of unmitigated and 
				straightforward compassion.  
				  
				To 
				determine what is pleasing as opposed to what is serving another 
				entity is sometimes difficult, especially on the spur of the 
				moment." 
			People have to learn their own lessons 
			even if we can see how much they're lying to themselves and are in 
			their own ways.  
			 
			  
			Free will is essentially tied to learning the 
			lessons and understanding that everyone has their own lessons but 
			also that there are collective lessons for all of humanity to learn. 
			 
			  
			From the
			
			Cassiopaea 
			Material: 
				
				Q: What creates this environment of 
				limitation? 
				A: It is the grand illusion which is there for the purpose of 
				learning.
 
				  
				Q: And who put the illusion into place?
 
				A: The Creator who is also the Created. Which is also you and us 
				and all. As we have told you, we are you and vice versa. And so 
				is everything else.
 
				  
				Q: Is the key that it is all illusion?
 
				A: Basically, yes. As we have told you before, if you will be 
				patient just a moment, the universe is merely a school.
 
				  
				And, a 
				school is there for all to learn. That is why everything exists. 
				There is no other reason. Now, if only you understood the true 
				depth of that statement, you would begin to start to see, and 
				experience for yourself, all the levels of density that it is 
				possible to experience, all the dimensions that it is possible 
				to experience, all awareness.  
				  
				When an individual understands 
				that statement to its greatest possible depth, that individual 
				becomes illumined.  
				  
				And, certainly you have heard of that. And, 
				for one moment, which lasts for all eternity, that individual 
				knows absolutely everything that there is to know. 
			As an STO candidate one cannot interfere 
			with the learning process of another, but only assist with advice, 
			mirrors and suggestions if it is asked for.  
			  
			One can also spread "seeds of awareness", share information and show the 
			"door" if 
			appropriate but people will have to walk through it themselves. Each 
			situation is different and specific. No one can do the work for 
			another, nor can anyone "save" another.  
			  
			As Morpheus told Neo in "The 
			Matrix":  
				
				"Unfortunately no one 
			can be told what the matrix is, you have to see it for yourself."     
				"[The wanderer's] desire is service 
				to others with the distortion towards reaching their hand, 
				figuratively, to any entities who call for aid… Specific 
				intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are 
				not the aim of Wanderers.  
				  
				Light 
				and love go where they are sought and needed, and their 
				direction is not planned aforetimes."   
				"[Different attitude toward 
				unharvestable Earth entities?] Not substantially. To those 
				who wish to sleep we could only offer comforts designed for 
				sleeping. Service is only 
				possible to extent it is requested. We were ready to 
				serve in whatever way we could. This still seems satisfactory as 
				a means of dealing with others in 3D.  
				  
				To be each entity which 
				one attempts to serve simplifies grasp of what service is 
				necessary/possible". 
				Ra   
				***   
				"It 
				is not your task 
				as members of the Family of Light to proselytize.  
				  
				You simply go into systems and act 
				as receptacles… Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, 
				yet others cannot do things for you because you designed life in 
				such a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in 
				order to be empowered… 
				  
				Not 
				everyone is going to make the shift. Not everyone is in the 
				vibration that wants to work in harmony at this time." 
				Ps 
			Laura Knight-Jadczyk writes: 
				
				"Ra tells us about 
				'wanderers,' or higher dimensional-beings who have incarnated
				for the purpose of assisting 
				humanity without violating free will. This 'service to 
				others' is described as a 'dispassionate attempt to share 
				information without concern for numbers or growth among others.'  
				  
				
				
				The attempt to make the information available is the service.
				There are no shortcuts to 
				enlightenment. It cannot be taught. It cannot be achieved with 
				rituals or formulas.  
				  
				
				The only thing that can be shared is 
				information, stories of inspiration, love and mystery, and 
				experiences that may spark another person to reach out and begin 
				seeking on their own… 
				  
				Ra warns that the challenge and 
				danger of the wanderer is that he or she will forget the 
				mission, become karmically involved, and thus be swept into the 
				maelstrom. The question here is, of course, how does one become 
				karmically involved?  
				  
				Ra answers: By acting in a consciously 
				unloving manner in action with other beings. As the readers have 
				discovered, 
				what is or is not 'love' is a 
				huge issue.  
				  
				
				And it is in this subject that the most intensive 
				disinformation has been promulgated, or so it seems." 
			All of this also relates to the topic of 
			
			Organic Portals (OPs), the possibility that half of humanity does 
			not have an individual soul and has no ability to access the higher 
			centers, which would enable them to engage in esoteric work in order 
			to graduate.  
			  
			There is nothing wrong with them, it is just part of 
			the evolutionary process.  
			  
			However, one must be aware not to project 
			one's own soul potential into OPs who can serve as portals through 
			which 4D STS forces can work through in order to keep souled 
			individuals from advancing (esoterically speaking), just like agent 
			Smith in "The Matrix" was able to insert himself into humans 
			(programs) trying to keep Neo from awakening.  
			  
			The reader is 
			encouraged to read "Organic 
			Portals - Soulless Humans" to get a better 
			understanding of that important topic. 
			  
			Especially Wanderers need to be 
			conscious and aware of the traps, deceptions and distractions in 3rd 
			density which may interfere with their mission since most people are 
			NOT like them, but have a different inner wiring so to speak.  
			  
			Ra mentions that, 
				
				"the Wanderer is 
			less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore does 
			not recognize as easily as a more negative individual would, the 
			negative nature of thoughts or beings".   
				***   
				"Ra tells us that wanderers 
				are vulnerable because they become completely the creature of 
				third density in mind and body, and are, by nature, less 
				inclined to deviousness and manipulation.    
				For this reason, they 
				often do not recognize as easily the negative nature of other 
				beings or thoughts before they become involved with them. 
				   
				
				Then, very 
				often, because of this very lack of perception of negativity, 
				they often persist in relationships that are negative because 
				they repeatedly attribute to the other person their own 
				benevolent motives and perceptions.   
				
				Additionally, there is just as much chance of 
				negative hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence 
				being brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. 
				The only difference occurs in what Ra calls the "spirit complex" 
				which, if it wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to 
				recognize more clearly that which is not appropriately desired. 
				This is not more than a bias, and cannot be called an 
				understanding.    
				So, in other words, you just have an 
				instinct about things that are not right. But then, with all our 
				be-nice programming, we generally override the instinct and 
				shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly for 
				reasons to excuse bad behavior…   
				Ra and the Cs 
				both confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are most 
				definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix Controllers." 
				Laura Knight-Jadczyk 
			Wanderers are not only subject to 
			hypedimensional manipulation in this Matrix Control System as 
			everyone else, but are PRIMARY targets of the 4D STS forces (Orion 
			STS according to Ra.  
			  
			The Lizzies/dark shirts according to the Ps) 
			because their mission obviously interferes with the plans of the 
			controllers of this world and they don't want this to happen. They 
			don't want to loose their food source.  
			  
			Laura Knight-Jadczyk wrote 
			about it in "Soul Hackers - The Hidden Hands Behind The New 
			Age Movement" (The Wave Book 2), chapter "All There Is Is Lessons, 
			or Wandering Around in Third Density Can Be Hazardous to Your 
			Health."  
			  
			Here's an excerpt: 
				
				[…] The problem seems to be that of 
			"waking up" [of the wanderer] to the nature of the mission and this 
			presents special problems. Ra gives us several more clues: 
					
					 "Wanderers become completely the 
				creatures of third density in mind/body complex.    
					There is just 
				as much chance of [them being subjected to Orion STS mind 
				programming attempts] as to a mind/body complex of [strictly 
				third density].    
					The only difference occurs in the spirit complex 
				which, if it wishes, has an armor of light, if you will, which 
				enables it to recognize more clearly that which is not be 
				desired by the mind/body/spirit complex.    
					
					This is not more than a bias 
				and cannot be called an understanding." 
				
				 So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are 
			subject to corruption and deception. 
				   
				They do seem to have a bit of help in separating the wheat 
			from the chaff, but Ra describes it as, 
					
					"not more than a bias and 
			cannot be called an understanding." 
				The problem is, the "bias" often comes 
			into direct conflict with the mind programming efforts of the Orion 
			STS and a lot of suffering and torture can result.    
				And there is also 
			a special weakness of those who are configured to STO - since they 
			don't have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can take 
			almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to 
			keep them from awakening!    
				Ra remarks on this as well: 
					
					 "Furthermore, the Wanderer is 
				less inclined to the deviousness of third density and therefore 
				does not recognize as easily as a more negative individual 
				would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings…   
					[If the 
				Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS it would be] 
				caught into the planetary vibration and, when harvested, 
				possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density as a 
				planetary entity." 
				
				Ra also confirmed Don's remark that those with missions, Wanderers, 
			are "high priority targets" of the Orion STS faction.
				   
				That's a scary thought!   
				What it means is that if a 
			person comes into incarnation from a higher density with a mission 
			to serve, not only are they enveloped in the "veil of forgetting", 
			they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and 
			murderers who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of 
			vague Law of Free Will which still allows every imaginable trick and 
			deception to be perpetrated on them so that they will engage in 
			relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions designed to "bring them 
			down a few densities," so to speak!   
				And they only get a "bias" toward what 
			is Truth, and not a clear understanding!   
				So with all of this information we are 
			trying to put together about what is out there just waiting to trap 
			and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to have a clue as 
			to what is going on?    
				Just who are the Good Guys here?! 
					
					"[In terms of STO contacts from the 
				higher densities] the infringement upon free will is greatly 
				undesired.    
					Therefore, those entities, which are Wanderers upon 
				your plane of illusion, will be the only subjects for the 
				thought projections that make up the so-called "Close 
				Encounters" and meetings…" 
				Ra seems to be saying that only the 
			"Wanderers" have any hope of being in contact with the higher level 
			"Good Guys" because they are, ipso facto, already of STO 
			configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon 
			their free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third 
			density being who has not yet graduated to the higher densities.   
				Of course, they all look alike here on 
			the Big Blue Marble, and they are all mostly engaged in living 
			relatively normal lives side by side with one another. And they do have to be "awakened"! Also, there is a special condition 
			under which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much 
			eliminates your "weekend seminar" in channeling.   
				It seems that there 
			is an almost mathematical law involved in being able to communicate 
			with higher density beings: 
					
					The calling of a group of 
			people whose square overcame the integrated resistance of those 
			unwilling to search or learn… 
				
				If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most 
			people on the planet who do not want to search or learn; 
			they do not want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a 
			"vessel" for the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be "saved" 
			with as little effort as possible, then you begin to understand the 
			odds against contact with truly higher density STO beings. 
				   
				That is the operation of the Law of Free 
			Will.   
				The majority of beings of third density
				are STS - they would not be in this density otherwise. By 
			this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are part of 
			this "con job".    
				Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to 
			experience in order to learn, but let's not get ahead of ourselves 
			here.   
				
				By the 
			very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who might 
			truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass choice 
			according to the law of Free Will!   
				
				Even if 
			the being is a fourth or sixth density "Wanderer", by entering this 
			density, they have chosen to "play by the rules" and cannot abridge 
			them!   
				Thus, in order to penetrate this 
			"veil of forgetting", extreme effort is required 
				in a 
			mathematical ratio. A consistent "call" by a group, 
			must go out. And the energy required to penetrate the veil must be 
			built up over a period of time in order to meet this requirement. 
				   
				This principle is expressed in two of the purported sayings of 
			Jesus:  
					
					"Wherever two or more are gathered in my name…" and 
			you must "ask and keep on asking, knock 
			and keep on knocking, and it will be opened to you." 
				So, just by thinking about this very 
			simple Law of Free Will and its implications, we come to an 
			understanding that the likelihood of the many "sources" of 
			information that purport to have "serendipitously" contacted this or 
			that channel who was just humming along one day and - ZAP! - along 
			came Swami Whosits or Koot Hoot or Lord Sandyando or whoever, are 
			very likely victims of the deception - possibly even Wanderers being 
			"neutralized" by STS forces, or simply those who are "agents" of the 
			STS forces, including those programmed a la Greenbaum.   
				
				Ra did 
			give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time he 
			was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every hundred 
			on the planet.    
				
				But how many of them survive the attacks? How many of 
			them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when we must 
			expect them to be objects of special "attention" in terms of "attack"?   
				But, apparently all is not lost! 
				   
				Those 
			Wanderers who have struggled and worked or survived the 
			attack/lessons to the point that something inside them is ready can awaken via subtle "contacts" or inner urgings: 
					
					"The feeling of being awakened or 
				activated is the goal of this type of contact…   
					The methods used 
				to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of each approach is 
				the entrance into the conscious and subconscious in such a way 
				as to avoid causing fear and to maximize the potential for an 
				understandable subjective experience that has meaning for the 
				entity.    
					Many such occur in sleep, others in the midst of many 
				activities during the waking hours.    
					The approach is flexible and 
				does not necessarily include the "Close Encounter" syndrome." 
				So we are given to understand that such 
			"wake up" experiences can be varied.
			   
				Considering the deceptions and 
			manipulations of the Orion STS that have already been described, we 
			also must consider that there will be many efforts to block, 
			obfuscate, or mimic such awakenings. Again, only knowledge 
			can give us the tools with which to discriminate. 
				   
				Again Ra 
			brings up a special class of attack that can occur to those who are 
			on a destined mission, as the Cassiopaeans call it: 
					
					"Wanderers do have "Close 
				Encounters" with Orion STS, though it is rare.    
					[Such] occurs 
				either due to the Orion entities' lack of perception of the 
				depth of positivity to be encountered or due to the Orion 
				entities' desire to, shall we say, attempt to remove this 
				positivity from this plane of existence…   
					A mistaken Orion 
				STS contact with highly polarized positive entities can wreak 
				havoc with Orion troops unless [they] are able to depolarize the 
				entity mistakenly contacted.   
					This occurrence is almost 
				unheard of. Therefore, the Orion group prefers to make physical 
				contact only with the weaker-minded entity…    
					
					The most typical 
				approach of Orion entities is to choose what you might call the 
				weaker minded entity that it might suggest a greater amount of 
				Orion STS philosophy to be disseminated." 
				So now we begin to understand the 
			special traps set up for these Wanderers wherein human agents 
			are used to manipulate and control them.   
				If they cannot be corrupted 
			directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around them - including 
			family, friends, spouses and associates of all kinds.
				   
				While 
			I would never claim to be one of these "Wanderers", even if the 
			profile does fit (since I am not inclined to "true believership" in 
			anything), there was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one 
			session which included another individual who also fits this profile 
			that gives some clues as to how this occurs:   
					
					May 3, 1997   
					Q: (L) Reading through the session 
				of May 23, last year, when TK was also here, and the issue of 
				his living in isolation from the rest of the world was 
				addressed, you asked who had begged him to stay there even 
				though he wanted to move to a place where he could have more 
				contact with other people and more opportunities for growth and 
				stimulation.  
					  
					The answer to this question was that it was his 
				wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear that he 
				was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector.  
					  
					The way I understood it is that you 
				were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that possible?   
					A: Vector means focuser of 
				direction.     
					Q: (L) So his wife is the one who 
				controls the focus of his direction. But how? Could that mean 
				that a human being can vector EM waves simply by their presence 
				and that these EM waves are part of the control system that 
				manipulates people?  
					  
					Can it be that such "agents" are used as EM 
				vectors in the sense that they emanate a special frequency that 
				literally affects the mind in terms of shutting down clarity, or 
				even actually transmitting pre-coded thought loops?   
					A: Precisely.     
					Q: (L)
					I also noticed that several of 
				us have been involved with persons and relationships that seem 
				designed to confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, 
				as well as drain our energy.  
					  
					
					Basically, keeping us so stressed 
				that we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some 
				significance to this observation?   
					A: That is elementary, my dear 
				Knight! […]     
					Q: (L) Were the individuals in our 
				lives selected for the extremely subtle nature of their 
				abilities to evoke pity, or were we programmed to respond to 
				pity so that we were blind to something that was obvious to 
				other people?   
					A: Neither. You were selected to 
				interact with those who would trigger a hypnotic response that 
				would ultimately lead to a drain of energy.     
					Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because 
				my energy is sure drained. (L) What is the purpose of this 
				draining of energy?   
					A: What do you think?     
					Q: (T) So you can't concentrate or 
				do anything. You can't get anywhere with anything.   
					A: Or, at least not the important 
				things.     
					Q: (T) Is that why my concentration 
				is so low?   
					A: Yes. You are dealing with a 
				no-win situation!! As you know.     
					Q: (T) So, if I don't get out, I 
				will just keep going down. Is it the area or the person?   
					A: Both. One is wrapped within the 
				other. […]     
					Q: (L) Is it true that being in the 
				presence of such people, that one is under the influence of an 
				energy, an emanation from them physically, that befuddles the 
				mind and makes it almost impossible to think one's way out of 
				the situation?   
					A: It is the draining of energy that 
				befuddles the mind.     
					Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?   
					A: 4th density STS.     
					Q: (L) These people we are 
				associated with drain our energy from us and fourth density STS 
				harvests it from them?   
					A: 
					
					"They" do nothing!!!! 4th density 
				STS does it all through them! […] 
						
						
						Lesson number 1: Always expect attack. 
						
						Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same. 
						
						Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same. 
					
					When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is going 
				to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn how to "head 
				it off," thus neutralizing it. This is called vigilance, which 
				is rooted in knowledge.  
					  
					
					And, what does knowledge do?     
					Q: (L) 
					
					Protects! I 
				guess that a person just has to come to the full realization 
				that 
					virtually everything that happens on the planet - no exceptions 
				- is a symbol of some interaction of STS vs. STO energy at 
				higher levels.   
					
					A: 
				Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must be 
				part of a natural learning process.     
					Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us 
				tend to keep one or another area sacrosanct and think that it is 
				not subject to attack, or that we can use logic and third 
				density thinking to explain it.  
					  
					Until a person realizes that 
				attack can come through even one's self, wives and husbands, 
				children and parents, friends - virtually anybody - nobody is exempt.   
					A: The block is a lack of 
				faith in the concept.  
					  
					
					Remember, when one has been indoctrinated by 
				religion, culture and/or science, they are predisposed to view 
				all things in the sense of the measurable physical reality 
				exclusively.  
					  
					
					One must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical 
				attack. 
				One major thing we see from the 
			above is that our associations can be crucial.  
				  
				Of course, if we are aware that anyone and everyone can be used as an "EM 
			vector" to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we 
			have some protection.    
				
				But to be unaware of it, to be in close association 
			with those who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this 
			manipulation, is to be firmly "in the trap".   
				But suppose one person in a relationship 
			begins to "wake up", and becomes aware (even if only vaguely), that 
			all is not as it seems.    
				They will have continual glimpses of the 
			reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other individual. 
			They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not 
			right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. 
				   
				But the 
			instant the other person is physically present with their EM 
			vectoring capabilities, the glimpses of truth are "damped" or even 
			shut down and the waking person begins to feel schizophrenic or 
			crazy in some way for having such conflicting and opposing thoughts. 
				   
				Add to this the social and religious enculturation to "turn the 
			other cheek" or "suffer because it's noble and holy," and you have 
			the recipe for cooking the Wanderer's goose!   
				Another of the factors in the control 
			system is the "self-destruct" program. Obviously the aliens have no 
			problem abducting and killing and eating many people who are still 
			lost in the initial choice for STS/third density.    
				But there are the 
			special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders 
			don't want to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, 
			so they have a rather clever way around this little 
			stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide game.   
				This is a very cunning setup, I can tell 
			you! It can follow a variety of lines in the lives of different 
			people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of fiendish 
			delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, 
			but the gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born.    
				Obviously they have 
			to be born somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is 
			also equally obvious that the choices probably don't 
			include having Wanderers for parents or siblings, (though there are 
			exceptions).    
				There they are, innocent little babies, volunteers for 
			a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie 
			agents!    
				And the game begins!   
				
				Abuse - physical, sexual, and psychological - comes into play to "set them up" for a later fall 
			- if in fact they are not just simply 
			killed by same right at the beginning. But the special 
			characteristic of the Wanderer type is that they continue to "shine" 
			with a sort of "inner purity" of the questing spirit even in the 
			face of such treatment. 
				   
				As a result 
			of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of "dead dudes" or 
			elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through 
			wounds in the psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.   
				
				The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be 
			attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of "false 
			image" of STO. 
				 
				  
				
				This can be what researcher
				
				Eve Lorgen calls 
			a  Love Bite  relationship where a great "cosmic love" is 
			simulated, only to fall flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off.
				   
				The intended result of this betrayal 
			is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for the next variation of the game. 
				  
				What happens now is that the Wanderer is 
			set up by the previous dramas to seek out marriage or love partners 
			who are also abusive either overtly or covertly. And, of course, the 
			Wanderer's special characteristics of being unable to really 
			understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own 
			make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. 
				   
				They 
			always seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others 
			that are in themselves.    
				They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to 
			themselves and others with the idea that if they just love the other 
			long enough, hard enough, pure enough or stand by them through thick 
			and thin, that the abuser will overcome their hurts/wounds 
			which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and they will then be 
			able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to be a 
			person similar to themselves!   
				Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, 
			doesn't it? Perhaps that "way" was created just to trap such 
			positive individuals and to use them as energy food for STS.   
				Then there is the constant 
			projection of the suicide program by the many EM vectors that the 
			Wanderer finds in their environment. 
			It takes careful observation to determine who these individuals may 
			be, but it can be done!    
				
				The natural feelings of being lost and alone 
			and alienated from this environment are intensified and twisted so 
			that the Wanderer begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting 
			out from under this enormous psychic pressure. 
				   
				
				Spirit attachments 
			can also be used in this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the 
			"inside", so to speak.   
					
					April 15, 1995   
					Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] 
				Is this physical danger or just harassment danger?   
					A: Mind attack for purpose of 
				self-destruction.     
					Q: (L) 
				Is there anything that can be done to shield against this kind 
				of attack?   
					A: 
					
					
					Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.     
					Q: (L) And what form should this 
				knowledge take? Does this mean channeled information, books, 
				videos, what?   
					A: All and other. Networking of 
				information now, warning!!! All others will very soon experience 
				great increase of same type of attack, two of you have had 
				episodes in past from same source for similar reasons, but now 
				your association puts you in different category!!
					Remember all channels and those 
				of similar make-up are identified, tracked, and "dealt with". 
				Suicidal thoughts?     
					Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and 
				that's all we need to do to prevent the attacks from being 
				nasty?   
					A: You do not have all the awareness 
				you need! Not by any means! Remember, all there is is lessons. 
				Daily prayer helps. 
				Through it all, the Wanderer never 
			whines or complains that others are "doing it to" them; they always 
			tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the 
			events or the treatment they receive.    
				They react with the idea that 
			somehow they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they 
			are entirely naive about what "giving" really is because, as 
			mentioned, they have been brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the 
			third density STS environment which are manipulations to induce 
			service to an illusion.   
				
				With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer 
			has to face and do is to learn to not give in some 
			instances, because this not giving is actually a form of
				giving at the soul level.
				   
				Ra 
			exemplifies this in a curious series of comments: 
					
					For many of your centuries, both the 
				[STO group] and the [STS group] busied themselves with each 
				other upon planes above your own, shall we say, planes in 
				time/space whereby machinations were conceived and the armor of 
				light girded. Battles have been and are continuing to be fought 
				upon these levels.   
					…Picture [your mind] in total unity 
				with all other minds of your society. You are then single-minded 
				and that which is a weak electrical charge in your physical 
				illusion is now an enormously powerful machine whereby thoughts 
				may be projected as things. 
					  
					…In this endeavor the [STS group] 
				charges or attacks the [STO group] armed with light. The result, 
				a standoff, as you would call it, both energies being somewhat 
				depleted by this and needing to regroup; the negative depleted 
				through failure to manipulate, the positive depleted through 
				failure to accept that which is given.   
					…[To explain "failure to accept that 
				which is given"]: At the level of time/space which this takes 
				place in the form of what you may call thought-war, the most 
				accepting and loving energy would be to so love those who wished 
				to manipulate that those entities were surrounded and engulfed, 
				transformed by positive energies.   
					…This, however, being a battle 
				of equals, the [STO group] is aware that it cannot, on equal 
				footing, allow itself to be manipulated in order to remain 
				purely positive, for then though pure it would not be of any 
				consequence, having been placed by the so-called powers of 
				darkness under the heel, as you may say.  
					  
					It is thus that 
				those who deal with this thought war must be defensive rather 
				than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in service 
				to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fully 
				what the [STS group] wishes to give, that being enslavement.   
					 …The 
				only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of the 
				energies available to this planet so that these energies have 
				less necessity to be balanced in this time/space, thus lessening 
				the chances of planetary annihilation. 
				So we see here a guiding principle 
			of balance.    
				For those who believe that it is Love to "accept 
			enslavement" - which is to respond to manipulation and thereby serve 
			the STS faction, it becomes clear that to do so is to neutralize 
			their effectiveness as an STO candidate because they are then no 
			longer "purely positive"!    
				
				By accepting the manipulations, they become part 
			of the other side!   
				
				The bottom line here is 
			this: if you are duped or sucked into the illusions of the 
			machinations of STS, you are effectively "one of them", no matter 
			what your intentions, and you thus further contribute to the 
			unbalanced energies.    
				
				This neutralizes the true nature of Service to 
			Others. […] 
			  
			[end of excerpt]     
			We can see now that being a Wanderer is 
			not a walk in the park, nor a "free ride" on this planetary 
			experience. 
			  
			It doesn't matter what knowledge they have brought with 
			them. It takes tremendous work, vigilance and discernment to bring 
			it forth and act on it, being aware of attacks from the "other 
			team".  
			  
			This entails much conscious struggle and suffering, 
			especially at the beginning, as the Wanderer is activating his/her 
			higher centers linking him/her to his/her higher self more 
			consciously, so they start to remember and align themselves with 
			their life's purpose. 
			  
			This purpose is not a definition and 
			task one realizes over night. It's a process and since the future is 
			open with different potential outcomes, the tasks based on the 
			wanderer's inherent gifts will reveal themselves more specifically 
			according to specific situations and the choices they make.
			 
			  
			
			Their direction is  
			not planned 
			aforetimes. This also depends on the Wanderer's 
			conscious self-work to learn the lessons he/she needs to learn in 
			order to be truly of service.  
			  
			This implies not only remembering 
			themselves but also  gaining Knowledge on a continuous basis. 
				
				"Purpose is realized by taking 
				the journey, not by establishing a favorable or fascinating 
				explanation or a definition for oneself.  
				  
				Purpose is not a 
				justification. It does not compensate for anything. Purpose is 
				something that is waiting for you to discover. 
				You can only 
				discover it by taking the journey, by following the way, by 
				learning as you go and by gaining the greater perspective and 
				understanding that one acquires as one matures in The Way of 
				Knowledge. 
				  
				
				This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. 
				Humility, honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion, 
				tolerance and compassion- these are qualities that result from 
				preparation and advancement in
				
				The Way of Knowledge. 
				 
				  
				 
				These things are what provide inspiration and true ability in 
				life…..With greater awareness comes a greater ability.  
				  
				 
				This all 
				comes from Knowledge. Here you 
				are asked to follow, to respond and to learn the great lessons 
				in discernment, discretion, communication and affinity. 
				These lessons are inherent in the preparation itself… 
				  
				 
				Accept 
				that the journey is great. It is marvelous. It is at times 
				difficult. But in all ways it refines you. It washes away that 
				which is nonessential in you and reveals that which is permanent 
				and meaningful.  
				  
				 
				 Your real 
				purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides and 
				conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what is real, 
				and that becomes welcomed and embraced." 
			I can relate to this in my own life.  
			  
			As 
			mentioned before, I came to the Los Angeles to study drums and 
			percussion and play in bands. It was the beginning of my journey 
			towards self-discovery. I was following my bliss, as Joseph Campbell 
			would say.  
			  
			Back then I thought that was my purpose, what I really 
			wanted to do. Nothing else mattered. I played drums 4-6 hours a day, 
			rehearsed with my band and put my heart and soul into it. 
			  
			All I 
			wanted to do was make music, tour and make a living as a musician. 
			 
			  
			However, I was still suffering and struggling internally. A lot of 
			things came up during that time for me which I was forced to look 
			at, otherwise I would have not survived as my depression and despair 
			put me on the edge of insanity. 
			  
			At the same time new friends and and 
			situations came into my life which introduced me to the healing 
			arts, in particular yoga, qi gong, and bodywork as well as shamanism 
			and medicine plants, which also helped me in my inner process. 
			Interestingly I wasn't seeking these things out fully conscious. It 
			just happened in the flow of life as I was seeking answers and 
			trying to heal and understand myself.  
			  
			Something else was guiding me. 
			During that time I also discovered another talent: bodywork. My 
			roommate back then, who was a yoga teacher and body-worker, 
			introduced me to it, worked on me and started to teach me some basic 
			massage techniques.  
			  
			He became my mentor. Having had tremendous 
			breakthroughs and healing moments physically and emotionally through 
			receiving bodywork, I experienced first hand the healing power of 
			it. I began to do bodywork on friends and seemed to have a healing 
			touch for it based on the feedback I received.  
			  
			People came to me 
			asking me to work on them on a regular basis, yet I didn't think of 
			doing it professionally back then. My focus was still on music and 
			drumming. 
			  
			I started to write during my time with 
			my band
			
			Revolve in early 2000. We gave out writings at our shows to 
			spread awareness, but eventually my drive to seek truth and 
			knowledge overshadowed the musical aspect of my life and it seemed 
			very natural when the band broke up.  
			  
			Writing helped me to learn and 
			clarify the new information I was taking in. Many insights came 
			along with it. I was inspired and wanted to share all this amazing 
			hidden Knowledge about our reality and what was happening on our 
			planet.  
			  
			Looking back I can see how this at times was not externally 
			considerate and I was trying to give without being asked. I can also 
			see how I was gullible and not discerning about some of the 
			information I came across back then. I was drinking the New Age 
			cool-aid at one point, driven by wishful thinking, emotional hooks 
			and was not very discerning. However, it complicated my life even 
			more.  
			  
			Thankfully the universe didn't give me what I "wanted", but 
			what I "needed" at that time to snap me out it. 
			  
			When my band Revolve broke up after 
			inspiring years of musical creativity, recording and touring, I 
			enrolled in Massage School to pursue bodywork, the new talent I had 
			discovered. It seemed the universe literally pushed me to do it and 
			I was answering the call. 
			  
			I have been working as a professional bodyworker ever since. It was a complete shift in my life path and 
			it seemed that certain triggers lead me to it without my "conscious" 
			choice. Looking back at my life, connecting the dots, I feel like 
			what the late Apple founder Steve Jobs said.  
			  
			When discovering your 
			bliss, sometimes you just have to do things because you are drawn to 
			them for reasons you can't fully understand in the moment and only 
			in retrospect can you connect the dots in your life and see how it 
			all works together.  
			  
			For example, I know now that without my years as 
			a drummer, using music and drumming for healing and emotional 
			exploration (even if I wasn't fully aware of that back then), and 
			without my suffering and crisis, I wouldn't be the body-worker and 
			healer I'm today nor write about the things I'm writing now. 
			However, I never "planned" to become a body-worker or writer.  
			  
			I know 
			now that I had to confront my dark side, programming and 
			conditioning and heal myself, however painful it was, in order to 
			become my real Self (and there is always more work to do).  
			  
			As Carl 
			Jung said: 
				
				"There is no coming 
			to consciousness without pain." 
			It's the mythological 
			Journey of Chiron, the Wounded Healer, who in his search for his own 
			cure discovered how to heal others.  
			  
			The lesson of Chiron teaches us 
			is that we can overcome pain and transcend into knowledge. 
				
				"You can't connect the dots looking 
				forward; you can only connect them looking backwards.  
				  
				So you 
				have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. 
				You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, 
				whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made 
				all the difference in my life." 
				Steve Jobs 
			I also had many assisting forces, seen 
			and unseen, spirit guides and non-physical STO forces that guided me 
			along when I was able and willing to "listen".  
			  
			There were many 
			friends, mentors and teachers that came in and out of my life who 
			helped me along the way, assisting me on my path or giving me just 
			the right book to read.  
			  
			And of course, in light of the Knowledge I 
			have now, I can also see how STS forces and 
			
			the Matrix Control 
			System have tried to steer me off my path (sometimes disguised as "angels", 
			"friends" or romantic relationships) working through 
			people (and my own "predator-mind") with temptations and 
			distractions, getting at my weak spots.  
			  
			However, I felt very 
			strongly throughout my life that I came here with a specific purpose 
			that is beyond what I "think" I want to do at times and this purpose 
			seems to crystallize itself and becomes clearer as I learn my 
			lessons, "get myself out of the way" and remember more of who I 
			truly am.  
			  
			There is still much more to learn and to remember. 
				
				"A hero is someone who has given his 
				or her life to something bigger than oneself." 
				Joseph Campbell 
			  
			
			
			 
			  
			  
			My intent for sharing my personal story 
			throughout this article is also for you to reflect back on your own 
			life and see how you "got here", so you can understand your past and 
			your life choices better, when you have been truly acting in 
			alignment with your higher self or self-sabotaging because of 
			conditioned/programmed patterns and beliefs.  
			  
			That way we can 
			understand our present better and create our future more 
			consciously. What worked for me may not work for another.  
			  
			We all 
			have our own story, individual lessons to learn, karma to work out 
			and talents to develop. 
				
				"Each Wanderer has unique abilities, 
				biases, specialties so that from each portion of each Density 
				represented among Wanderers come array of pre-incarnative 
				talents which may be expressed so that each Wanderer, in 
				offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to 
				offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love/light 
				[vibrations adding to the planet just as electrical polarity or 
				charging a battery] and basic function of serving as beacon or 
				shepherd… 
				  
				The best way of service to others is 
				the constant attempt to seek to share the love of the Creator as 
				it is known to the inner self. This involves self knowledge and 
				the ability to open the self to the other-self without 
				hesitation.  
				  
				This involves, shall we say, radiating that which is 
				the essence or the heart of the mind/body/ spirit complex… 
				  
				The best way for each seeker in 
				third density to be of service to others is unique to that 
				mind/body/spirit complex. This 
				means that the mind/body/ spirit complex must then seek within 
				itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it 
				may best serve other-selves.  
				  
				
				This will be different for each." 
				Ra 
			Let's take the archetypal Hero's Journey 
			a bit deeper and look at the awakening process more closely, knowing 
			now that there are other forces acting against us, trying to keep us 
			from advancing esoterically.  
			  
			The initiatory process is the same in 
			all true mystery teachings. It is not a sudden "enlightenment" where 
			one feels One with everything. 
			  
			It is not a pleasant event at all, 
			but is a decent into the underworld, fighting demons, coming to 
			terms with the predator within and the lies one is telling oneself, 
			dying and being reborn, crossing the threshold which enables one to 
			engage in esoteric work consciously.  
			  
			Laura Knight Jadczyk writes in "The 
			Wave" Volume 5&6 "Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown": 
				
				"The moment of true 
				initiation. It seems that, as the great masters teach us, it is 
				not a moment of "great enlightenment." It is not someone who 
				comes to "show us reality."  
				  
				It is not a "seeing all the world as 
				a oneness." It is seeing the self as a liar and a feeder on 
				others. 
				It is measuring the self with TRUTH. It is seeing that the 
				predator has been feeding on the self, that the self has been 
				feeding on others and propagating the infection on to all those 
				who one claims to love and wish to help. 
				  
				Initiation is not a glorious 
				in-pouring of life and love and tears for the beauty and oneness 
				of the world. 
				  
				It is sheer terror. 
				  
				It is a descent into Hell. It is the 
				Shamanic descent into the underworld to do battle with demons. 
				It is the dismemberment of the body, the flaying of the flesh 
				from the bones, and the subsequent rebuilding of the self on a 
				different foundation - a foundation of spiritual verity. 
				  
				And if I could convey to you that 
				Hell, that sensation, that solitary test in which the soul is 
				weighed, BY THE SELF, finally and completely and seen for what 
				it has truly done, you would see how little truth there is 
				because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have been 
				inculcated and promulgate and tended so carefully by our 
				emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who 
				convinces us that we are "good" and "pure" and there is 
				"oneness." 
				  
				Indeed, one sees that there is 
				"oneness," but one sees that the aspect of God that is 
				experienced at this level is the black, sucking, feeding maw of 
				STS (Service to Self).  
				  
				One sees how little true Love is actually 
				manifested at this level of being.
				One sees that all of our 
				illusions about "goodness" and truth and beauty are LIES. 
				They are masks for more feeding. And that is so horrifying an 
				initiation that few survive. 
				That is "paying everything." 
				  
				Now, re-read what Gurdjieff had to 
				say about the matter; how he pointed out that a person has to 
				"pay in advance," that the key is to accept the idea that one is 
				not what one thinks, that there is a different reality from 
				which our own is projected, and that developing this idea in the 
				realm of pure thought, and then using it as the platform by 
				which one can observe and analyze, is the key to being able to 
				see for a moment, and then again.  
				  
				One must be able to see the 
				interactions of the Petty Tyrants in our lives, the Predators 
				who prey on us in the Theological Reality.  
				  
				And then, one must be 
				willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of 
				the Predator reveals itself just as the Vampire reacts with 
				violence to being exposed by the presence of a mirror.  
				  
				Because, 
				it must be kept always in mind that there ARE predators who are 
				predators by choice - even if that choice is made at some level, 
				in some part of themselves that is not available to even their 
				own conscious awareness.  
				  
				They, too, are part of the Matrix, and 
				they wouldn't be able to play their roles if they were not 
				consciously convinced that they are right, that they are "good," 
				that they are righteous and long-suffering." 
				  
				  
			
				
				 
				  
			As I was diving deeper into Esoteric 
			Science coming across Gurdjieff's 4th Way Teachings as well as 
			Boris Mouravieff's "Gnosis", it all seemed to confirm in many ways what 
			I've encountered throughout my life in the process of awakening and 
			in relation to my inner state and to outer circumstances, people and 
			the world at large, from "moral bankruptcy", the death of the "personality", to struggle with forces trying to keep me from 
			advancing/waking up, to seeing the light and forming the "magnetic 
			center".  
			  
			All of which is still a process and much work is still to 
			be done.  
			  
			We are all works in progress in our own ways. 
				
				"The Way is the ensemble of 
				practices which, carried out properly according to the 
				principles of esoteric science, will allow man to evolve." 
				Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis I 
			As mentioned before, every once in 
			a while a book or teaching presents itself, which acts like a 
			"guide", appearing sat just the right moment in time, helping and 
			showing me that I'm "on track", describing things I've been through 
			and hinting at where it is all leading to and what one must do or 
			not do in order to awaken. 
			  
			What follows are some insights into 
			Esoteric Science as transmitted by
			
			Boris Mouravieff in his trilogy "Gnosis" 
			  
			Maybe some of you can 
			recognize yourselves in these words as well. For some these writings 
			may strike home, touching something deep within beyond the 
			personality of the false "I".  
			  
			For others it may sound very foreign 
			and complex. This also relates to what Ra said about Wanderers 
			having a disposition towards esoteric work or other souled 
			individuals who have the seed that can sprout and grow, activating 
			the higher centers. 
			  
			This work is 
			not for everyone.  
			  
			As Mouravieff said in his introduction to 
			"Gnosis": 
				
				"Some people complain that the 
				subject of the fundamentals of esotericism is not simple. Others 
				have said that it leads to great clarity.  
				  
				This apparent 
				contradiction is explained by the fact that esotericism is 
				addressed to readers who are predisposed to esoteric culture by 
				their nature, formation or personal experience." 
			We also know that no steps can be 
			skipped, the lessons need to be learned and that starting with the 
			right foundation is imperative so one doesn't over-estimate one's 
			level of Being at the start of the journey.  
			  
			I know out of personal 
			experience that I was grasping certain esoteric ideas intellectually 
			at first, but it wasn't matched up with my Being and Understanding 
			to truly apply the Knowledge I gained. In other words I didn't 
			embody it. It's the fine balance between Knowledge, Being and 
			Understanding  
			  
			A false foundation can also result if one gets hooked 
			by a false teaching for example, mistaking lies for truth or having 
			"sacred cows", which are beliefs one is identified with, hence 
			taking any challenge to ones beliefs as a personal attack 
			(Identification with a nation/country is a good example for that).  
			  
			As the Cs said: "Gaining false 
			Knowledge is more dangerous than gaining no Knowledge." 
			 
			  
			Gurdjieff makes this point in Ouspenky's 
			"In Search of The Miraculous": 
				
				"In the history of humanity there 
				are known many examples when entire civilizations have perished 
				because knowledge outweighed being or being outweighed 
				knowledge.  
					
					"What are the results of the development of the line 
				of knowledge without being, or the development of the line of 
				being without knowledge?" someone asked during a talk upon this 
				subject. 
				"The 
				development of the line of knowledge without the line of being 
				gives a weak yogi," said G., "that is to say, 
				a man who knows a great deal but can do nothing, a man who does 
				not understand" (he emphasized these words) "what he knows, a 
				man without appreciation, that is, a man for whom there is no 
				difference between one kind of knowledge and another. 
				  
				
				And 
				the development of the line of being without knowledge gives a 
				stupid saint, that is, a man who can do a great deal but who 
				does not know what to do or with what object; and if he does 
				anything he acts in obedience to his subjective feelings which 
				may lead him greatly astray and cause him to commit grave 
				mistakes, that is, actually to do the opposite of what he wants. 
				In either case both the weak yogi and the stupid saint are 
				brought to a standstill. 
				  
				
				Neither the one nor the other can 
				develop further. 
				  
				In order to understand this and, in 
				general, the nature of knowledge and the nature of being, as 
				well as their interrelation, it is necessary to understand the 
				relation of knowledge and being to 'understanding.' 
				  
				
				
				Knowledge is one thing, understanding is another thing. 
				  
				People often confuse these 
				concepts and do not clearly grasp what is the difference between 
				them. Knowledge by itself does not give understanding. Nor is 
				understanding increased by an increase of knowledge alone.
				Understanding depends upon the 
				relation of knowledge to being.  
				  
				Understanding is the 
				resultant of knowledge and being. And knowledge and being must 
				not diverge too far, otherwise understanding will prove to be 
				far removed from either. At the same time the relation of 
				knowledge to being does not change with a mere growth of 
				knowledge. It changes only when being grows simultaneously with 
				knowledge. In other words, 
				understanding grows only with the growth of being. 
				  
				In ordinary thinking, people do not 
				distinguish understanding from knowledge. They think that 
				greater understanding depends on greater knowledge. Therefore 
				they accumulate knowledge, or that which they call knowledge, 
				but they do not know how to accumulate understanding and do not 
				bother about it." 
				  
				"…A man must first of all 
				understand certain things. He has thousands of false ideas and 
				false conceptions, chiefly about himself, and he must get rid of 
				some of them before beginning to acquire anything new. Otherwise 
				the new will be built on a wrong foundation and the result will 
				be worse than before.  
				  
				To speak the truth is the most difficult 
				thing in the world; one must study a great deal and for a long 
				time in order to speak the truth. The wish alone is not enough.
				To 
				speak the truth one must know what the truth is and what a lie 
				is, and first of all in oneself.  
				  
				
				And this nobody wants to know." 
			The path toward "Ascension", to rise 
			above this world (Being in this world but not of it), 
			The Way of esoteric work is also told in stories in form of 
			symbols.  
			  
			The clues are everywhere for the Initiated to see.
			It relates to seeing the unseen. 
			There are 'B' influences, not of this world which are conscious 
			in their origin and have been created consciously outside 
			life by conscious people for a definite purpose.  
			  
			These influences 
			are the "soul" of any culture and they are embodied in the form of 
			religious systems and teachings, philosophical doctrines, art, etc., 
			as opposed to 'A' influences ( such as race, nation, country, pop 
			culture, family, profession, entertainment, current ideas, customs 
			and so on) which relate to "The General Law" and "Law of Accident", 
			keeping man asleep at the mercy of the external world , lost in the 
			wilderness of everyday life.  
			  
			Discernment between those two is vital 
			for the wanderer, esoteric student and seeker, separating truth from 
			lies. 
			  
			A and B influences have been mixed 
			throughout history. Many spiritual inclined people tend to mistake A 
			for B influences. Much of the popular New Age material with its 
			superficial and vague spirituality falls into that category.  
			  
			We can 
			see millions of well intentioned people in our world wanting to 
			change the world for "the better" through voting or pseudo new age 
			spirituality a la "The Secret", wanting to "create" a new reality.  
			  
			However, most of 
			them don't confront their interior but stay in the "wilderness" of 
			'A' influences, the lies that are the basis of the Illusion/Matrix. 
			 
			  
			And so instead of breaking out of the prison, they re-enforce it 
			through the distortion of their conditioned personality and wishful 
			thinking, enhancing their false "I" instead of strengthening their 
			essence. In many ways what we see in today's popular spiritual 
			concepts and self-help books is the opposite of what the ancient 
			esoteric traditions have taught.  
			  
			People can be very successful 
			within the matrix of A influences, make a lot of money, have a 
			successful career, become famous, etc. but not have progressed 
			esoterically/spiritually one bit.  
			  
			From Mouravieff's Gnosis: 
				
				"If man spends his life without 
				distinguishing between 'A' and 'B' influences, he will end it as 
				he started, one could say mechanically, driven by the Law of 
				Accident.  
				  
				However, according to 
				the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to which he 
				is subjected, it can happen to him to make a brilliant career, 
				in the meaning the world gives to this expression.  
				  
				Yet he will 
				come to the end of his days without having either learned or 
				understood anything of Reality." 
				  
				"Man 
				can delude himself and, believing he is absorbing 'B' influences 
				and making the necessary selection all the while, he in fact 
				absorbs 'A' influences. 
				  
				
				This will put him into contact with 
				people who possess magnetic centers of the same nature: who are 
				themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or 
				indirect link with the esoteric Centre.  
				  
				What 
				guarantee can man have that he will not dupe himself and that he 
				will not fall into the latter situation? The answer is simple. 
				 
				  
				The purity of the magnetic centre must be scrupulously 
				maintained from the start and all through his evolution." 
			One can see now very clearly that much 
			of the New Age and pop-spirituality is in actuality 'A' influences 
			packaged in a 'B' wrapping.  
			  
			Truth mixed with lies, which can divert 
			the seeker from his real "I" and true awakening. An example would be 
			the whole abstract new age bits of "sending love and light into the 
			world", focusing just on "good" thoughts, visualizing the "light 
			body" as a means of ascension, or just "being open", avoiding 
			anything "bad" or "negative", ignoring the "unpleasant" and just 
			focus on manifesting one's desires, etc… 
			  
			As long as one has not established the 
			purity of the magnetic center through deep self-work and conscious 
			suffering one just acts in STS, putting the false personality's 
			(ego's) subjective will on to the world which only fuels entropy and 
			feeding dynamics, strengthening the STS polarity while lying to 
			oneself about one's state of being and awareness. 
			  
			In that sense much New Age material is 
			just like fundamental Religion. It works on blind belief, wishful 
			thinking, not Knowledge and Truth.  
			  
			And so many seekers are 
			developing a false magnetic center, a false foundation, 
			 
				
				"who are themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no 
			direct or indirect link with the esoteric Centre."
				 
			That's also how wanderers can be duped and being vectored away from 
			the mission they came to accomplish. 
			  
			Furthermore, the one's promoting just to 
			focus on "love and light" (without understanding the true meaning of 
			these words) and ignoring the "bad/negative" the loudest are the 
			ones most heavily duped, more duped than the average sleeping man, 
			because the former actually thinks he has awakened and can "see" 
			now… little does he know that he's going in circles vectored by 'A' 
			influences and staying in the "wilderness", dreaming to be awake. 
			  
			On that note, there is nothing "wrong" 
			with desires of the ego/personality and just creating reality based 
			on unquestioned desires of the "I", nothing "wrong" with shutting 
			off anything "bad" and "unpleasant" and keep living in a subjective 
			tunnel vision and wishful thinking based on Service to Self (STS). 
			 
			  
			Enjoy! It's a free will universe. Everyone can do as they want to, 
			be it you, me, Bush, Obama or anyone else.  
			  
			However, what needs to be 
			kept in mind is that this approach has nothing to do with conscious 
			spiritual evolution or the "path of ascension". It is the reason why 
			the world and its people are on a course to self-destruction. It's 
			not a spiral upward but a spiral downward that grinds itself into an 
			abyss.  
			  
			Humanity has evolved technologically, but not 
			spiritually/consciously really at all and man is still mostly driven 
			by his lower centers and mechanical personality. 
				
				"What strikes us from the very 
				beginning is that man confuses moral progress with technical 
				progress, so that the development of science continues in 
				dangerous isolation.  
				  
				The brilliant progress that has come from 
				technology has changed nothing essential in the human condition, 
				and will change nothing, because it operates only in the field 
				of everyday events. For this reason it touches the inner life of 
				man only superficially." 
				Mouravieff, Gnosis 
			Life on Earth as we know it, this 3rd 
			density experience is based on STS, Service to Self.  
			  
			
			STO, Service to 
			Others, is something man can aspire to through conscious evolution. 
			During this Time of Transformation the choice to be made is really 
			between STO and STS and truly understanding what that means, 
			differentiating between A and B influences, separating lies from 
			truth, inside oneself and outside in the world.  
			  
			This is the age of 
			awakening but also the age of deceit and deception, not only through 
			the obvious political circus, but through corrupted spiritual 
			teachings as well, be it dogmatic religion or New Age hype. 
				
				"The next is manipulation of 
				spiritual values and tendencies. 
				  
				It is no accident that in the 
				last four years that we've seen in new religious thought the 
				religion of acquiescence and passivity: trusting in the process; 
				whatever happens is what needs to happen; everyone is right 
				where they need to be;… you don't resist; you acquiesce; to 
				resist is to be negative, is to be fearful, is to be 
				unconscious.  
				  
				A great prescription for convincing the natives to 
				give over the keys to the kingdom, a very good, clever form of 
				manipulation." 
				M. V. Summers 
			It's like taking the red or blue pill 
			(as in the film "The Matrix"), truth or illusion, waking up or 
			staying asleep.  
			  
			There is no "right" or "wrong" choice. There is only 
			choice, as it is, respecting free will.  
			  
			However, most people do not 
			even know that there is a choice to be made in this time of 
			transition and are in the dark about what is happening on this 
			planet, manipulated through hyperdimensional STS forces working 
			through, 
				
			 
			  
			
			
			 
			  
			  
			Interestingly, one can also see how the 
			mystery teachings were also describing a "Hyperdimensional Control 
			System", the "General Law" in esoteric terms, acting on man, keeping 
			him in line with mechanical unconscious behavior to be "Food for the 
			Moon". 
			  
			In order to escape the Matrix/General Law man needs to align 
			oneself with "The Law of Exception", engaging in esoteric work with 
			conscious effort. There is a threshold to be crossed, a void, which 
			puts the seeker on The Way.  
			  
			The process and necessity of 
			moral bankruptcy, which initiates the seeker into "The Way" of 
			esoteric work, is described in more detail in Boris Mouravieff's "Gnosis".  
			  
			This also relates to the idea of wanderers and their 
			initiation/awakening process. 
				
				"This void, which can only be 
				crossed at the cost  of considerable effort or even of 
				super-efforts, operates selectively.   
				  
				The 
				character and the quantity of effort necessary differs for  each 
				person, depending upon the nature and degree of deformation of 
				the  mind of each exterior man; an individual factor… 
				  
				Man was compared to a cell of 
				organic life on Earth.  Because he belongs to this organism,
				man is subject to the General 
				Law, and  it is only when he has escaped it that he is elevated 
				to the Law of Exception.   
				  
				We are not aware of how much 
				we are bound by the action of the General  Law. Acting on us as 
				it does on our cells, this law immobilizes us or  constantly 
				tends to bring us back to our place. Its strength leaves us 
				little  freedom of action outside the limits of its direction 
				and scope. It acts in  various ways.
				 
				  
				One can say that if man lives 
				'like everyone else', if he does not venture off the beaten 
				track, he will never perceive the existence of this force, or 
				rather this force will ignore him." 
			We can see this very clearly in our 
			world.  
			  
			Everyone who is just going along with the masses and the 
			accepted reality of official culture has not much struggle in the 
			world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, buy a TV, consume, 
			reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your 
			desires and impulses unexamined, etc… 
			  
			Not knowing himself, but a 
			slave to the outside world, fully asleep, dreaming to be awake under 
			the control of the General Law/Matrix, the common man has no free 
			will, although he thinks he does.  However, whenever someone 
			awakens, steps up and tries to "escape" the General Law/Matrix by 
			speaking up and seeking truth, forces are put on to him to put him 
			back in line, back to sleep.  
			  
			They will be ridiculed or even silenced 
			(Gandhi, MLK, John Lennon and many other truth seekers most people 
			haven't even heard about), depending on their impact.  
			  
			Anything that 
			is not a threat to the MCS (Matrix Control System) or General Law 
			will be ignored or even promoted heavily, be it dogmatic religion, 
			politics, entertainment or new age fluff which works in favor of 
			
			the PTB (powers that be). 
				
				"But 
				if his enterprises are out of the ordinary,  no matter what 
				field they are in, but especially in esotericism,  this force 
				begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in order to 
				bring  him back to the point where - according to the General 
				Law - he must  reside.  
				  
				Even without knowing this force, 
				we have an intuition of its  existence and of the many forms 
				which clothe it. The Holy Scripture s speak of it more than 
				once, especially where esoteric work is concerned. 
				  
				
				Thus, if this conservative force, which is the 
				 servant of the General Law, does not succeed in 'calming' man 
				by acting directly upon him, it 
				tries to reach him indirectly through the people of 
				his household, either through the feelings they invoke or the 
				coolness and  contempt they openly show him.   
				 
				  
				
				As long as it is not 
				mastered, the force of illusion keeps  each one of us in his 
				place, obliging him most often to  mistake the false for the 
				true.  
				  
				Submerged in unreality, instead of 
				advancing,  man marks time; one step forward and two steps 
				backwards; two  steps forward and one step backwards, and so 
				on. 
				  
				We generally agree to recognize the existence of the danger 
				of  Illusion, but rather theoretically; most often, we see its 
				action on those  round about us, but not on ourselves. We 
				continue to live day by day in the  same old way, so that the 
				power we know as the Devil still triumphs.  Whatever name we 
				give it, it remains ever-present. 
				  
				
				We live in an artificial,  illusory world.   The 
				power of illusion which chains us exerts its action individually 
				on each  one of us, as well as collectively. Each mind is 
				falsified in a way peculiar to  it. 
				What can be the outcome of such a situation? If we keep quietly 
				to our place, human careers open to us… just as long as we stay 
				far away from t he void.  
				  
				 
				We may have a happy or unhappy life; a 
				family life; a life of loves; we may make discoveries, travel, 
				write. Then comes the end. Our reasoning starts to become more 
				realistic if our attention is concentrated on this end. 
				  
				 
				Everything can happen to us in life; or nothing.  
				  
				 
				Our aspirations 
				can be fulfilled or unfulfilled, but there is a sure end, which 
				is death." 
			"The Threshold" to be crossed out of the 
			wilderness which grants the access to the "The Way" and staircase to 
			transcend the Matrix/General Law is described in esoteric parables: 
			  
			  
			
			
			 
			  
				
				Lost in a forest full of wild 
				beasts, moved by confused but deep feelings, a bewildered man 
				searches for the way.  
				  
				Exhausted after running the gauntlet of a 
				thousand  dangers, he emerges at the edge.  Spread out before 
				him is a view which fills him with admiration mixed with fear: 
				a great castle of primitive beauty is on the other side of a 
				large moat filled with clear and living water.  
				  
				Behind the castle 
				a happy valley opens out, lit by the last rays of the sun. To 
				the left, a dark reddish horizon warns of a coming storm.  
				 
				  
				Marveling, and seized by a passionate desire to reach the 
				castle, he forgets the  dangers and fatigue to which he has been 
				exposed. 
					
					- 'How do I get there?' He asks 
				himself. 
				Suddenly he hears a Voice speaking 
				to him from his inmost heart. 
				  
				'The moat', it says, 'can only be 
				crossed by swimming… the current is strong and  the water icy. 
				  
				'In spite of this, the man feels a 
				surge of new strength mounting within him.  Committed, he throws 
				himself into the moat. The cold paralyses his breathing,  but by 
				an extreme effort of will he reaches the other side in a few 
				strokes and jumps  onto the first step of the stairs, where he 
				gets a foothold. Three more immense granite steps tower above 
				him.  
				  
				They lead to a large stage in the form of a semicircle,  
				defended by two towers. Two closed doors give access to them.  A 
				roaring sound comes to his ears. The man turns.  
				  
				At the place 
				where he stood only instants before, a pack of wolves paw at the 
				ground. The day is coming to an end. In the dusk he can still 
				distinguish the blazing eyes of the hungry beasts.  
				  
				Again he 
				hears the Voice telling him: 
					
					- 'All in all, the risk was not that 
				great. If you had refused, you would have been torn to shreds by 
				the wolves.' 
				Terrified by his escape from that 
				danger, the man estimates the difficulties that will  accompany 
				his climb.  
				  
				He had hardly started to climb the second step when a 
				deluge of rain falls, making  the stones slippery and 
				obstructing his movement - yet he ends by getting a foothold. 
				 The storm passes and the rain diminishes.  
				  
				His face and clothes 
				drip heavily onto the stone. 
					
					- 'Little does it matter,' says the 
				Voice, 'you had already got wet crossing the moat' 
				The man regains his breath again and 
				starts climbing. Night falls, and the crescent of the new moon 
				appears pale and golden on his right, towards the setting sun. 
					
					- 'A good sign,' he hears within 
				himself.   
				The man smiles.    
				Now he clings to a tiny ledge, 
				reaching for the third step. He  reaches it, hands and legs 
				stained with blood. No sooner had he stood up than a gust of 
				glacial wind almost throws him off again.    
				Clinging to the 
				ground, he climbs up to  the wall forming the fourth step, and 
				finds shelter there. 
					
					- 'That is not all,' says the Voice. 
				Do not waste time taking shelter. The step can split, and then 
				the earth will swallow you up.' 
				His resistance to the storm, instead 
				of exhausting him, redoubles his strength.   
				  
				Now he climbs the 
				fourth step with little difficulty, although it is as high as 
				the  preceding ones.   Standing, he hears an alarm trumpet like 
				thunder. Suddenly, a scorching wind strikes him in the face.  
				  
				He 
				lifts his eyes. 
				  
				In the obscurity of the night, a shining  figure 
				stands to attention before him: It is the Guardian, clad in 
				armor and shining  helmet, arms outstretched, a blazing sword in 
				his hand and pointed towards the man. 
					
					- 'Who are you, pilgrim?' he asks. 
					'To what end and in whose name have you passed these obstacles 
				and climbed the steps of paradise?' 
				Overcome by a surge of ineffable 
				joy, the man repeats in a loud voice the words he  has just 
				heard in the depth of his heart.  
				  
				He feels as if they are now 
				his, and answers  the Guardian with courage. 
					
					- 'I am the Soul in search of divine 
				happiness; a particle aspiring to unite with the Creative 
				Principle I'   
					- 'Your answer is correct', replies 
				the Guardian. 
				The door to the tower on the right 
				opens. The sword returns to its sheath. The  Guardian takes the 
				man by the hand and leads him across the threshold of the 
				open door… Dawn gilds the eastern sky.  
				  
				Precursor of the Sun, the 
				morning Star shines above  the happy Valley. 
			Here is another one of these fragments, 
			taken from classical literature, a passage from Turgenev: 
				
				I see a great building, one enormous 
				mass. In the front wall is a narrow arch with open doors; behind 
				them, dark mists. In front of the high threshold there is a 
				young  girl… a pretty Russian girl. 
				  
				A breeze comes from the dark and icy 
				mists, a current of freezing air, bringing with it from the 
				depths of the building the sound of a slow and muffled voice. 
					
					- 'You who aspire to cross this 
				threshold, do you know what awaits you here?   
					- 'I know,' answers the young 
					girl. - 'Cold, hunger, hate, mockery, scorn, injustice, prison, 
				illness and even death?'   
					- 'I know it. '    
					- 'Do you expect to 
				be shunned by everyone? Do you expect to be totally alone?'   
					- 'I am ready. I know it. I shall 
				bear all the suffering and all the blows'.     
					- 'Even if they do 
				not come from enemies, but from parents, from friends?' 
					   
					- 'Yes… 
				even from those…'   
					- 'Good. Do you accept the 
				sacrifice?'     
					- 'Yes'. - 'An anonymous sacrifice? You will perish 
				and nobody… but nobody will even know whose memory to honor?'   
					- 'I have no use for recognition 
					and pity. I have no use for a name.' - 'Are you ready for crime?' 
				The young girl bowed her head.    
					- 'Even for crime.' 
				The voice which was questioning her 
				did not continue right away.  
				  
				At last it started  again:  
					
					- 'Do 
				you know that one day you will believe no more in what you 
				believe in now, and come to think that you have been a dupe and 
				that it was for nothing that you have lost your young life?' 
					   
					- 'That too I know. Well though I know it, I wish to enter.'  The 
				young girl crossed the threshold. 
				A heavy curtain fell. Gritting his 
				teeth, someone uttered behind her:  
					
					- 'A foolish girl!' 
				At which, from another place, a 
				voice replied:  
					
					- 'A saint!' 
			Mouravieff explains the meaning of those 
			parables: 
				
				"These two fragments, both of 
				esoteric origin, give some idea of the access to the Way.  
				  
				The 
				further our studies progress, the better we will decipher their 
				meaning, as everything they say is significant. For now, we draw 
				the attention of the reader particularly to the first clue, the 
				most important for him: the way 
				is a one-way street.  
				  
				Meaning that whoever begins to 
				walk it is forbidden to turn back.  
				  
				This is not because of some 
				kind of external imperative, but 
				due to the fact that each step forward on the Way irrevocably 
				modifies the content of whoever has started walking it. 
				 
				  
				
				 
				It 
				follows that he will become more and more of a stranger to his 
				surroundings; that he will lose more and more interest in 
				exterior life, in which only yesterday he participated fully.
				 
				  
				
				 
				The appearance of things, and 
				especially of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes.  
				  
				
				 
				He 
				will one day be surprised to constate that certain faces which 
				only yesterday he found very beautiful now reveal to him marks 
				of bestiality behind their features: not all, but many of 
				them!" 
				  
				"The more man progresses on the Way, 
				the more his feeling of being a stranger is intensified. Soon he 
				will become boring: later still he will become unbearable, and 
				finally, odious.  
				  
				That is why, 
					
					
					'the 
				prophet is despised in his country, among his close relations 
				and in his own house.'  
				That indication is precise 
				and leaves no room for doubt.  
				  
				He who wants to start esoteric 
				studies is invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, 
				before he rushes to cross the moat-threshold.
				We repeat that it will not be 
				possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his 
				place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the past. 
				  
				However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results 
				of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting 
				impressions, especially in his human relations.
				 
				  
				He will be surprised to 
				perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday 
				appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a bright 
				beauty. 
				  
				It is because his sight, sharpened by esoteric work, has 
				acquired the faculty of penetrating beyond the external crust.
				It is amongst these brighter beings 
				that he will find his new friends.  
				  
				
				Their society will welcome 
				him as one of their own.  
				  
				
				He will be understood among them, and 
				their community of common aims and interests will be a stimulus 
				and a help for all." 
			Looking back at my life I can certainly 
			relate to this and maybe others who are in the same process of 
			seeking truth and starting esoteric self-work can see this in their 
			lives and associations as well.  
			  
			Literally all the friends I thought 
			I had showed dis-contempt toward the things I was getting into and 
			was talking about, be it through ridicule or making fun of me or 
			even attacking me for daring to question their beliefs. 
			  
			As I was coming to terms with my own 
			predator, programming and mechanical behaviors I saw it even more in 
			others. I saw the feeding and the lies people were telling 
			themselves. Not only that, but I realized that I have been feeding 
			on others myself and they were feeding off me. 
			  
			It seemed something 
			else was in control of humanity and working through us. 
				
				
				'Think for a 
				moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction 
				between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity 
				of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory 
				behavior.  
				  
				Sorcerers believe 
				that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our 
				ideas of good and evil, our social mores. They are the ones who 
				set up our hopes and expectations and dreams of success or 
				failure. They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. 
				 
				  
				It is the predators who make us complacent, 
				routinely, and egomaniacal'… 
				  
				In order to keep us obedient and 
				meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous 
				maneuver - stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a 
				fighting strategist.  
				  
				A horrendous maneuver from the point of 
				view of those who suffer it. 
				They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators 
				give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators' mind 
				is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being 
				discovered any minute now…" 
				  
				
				Through the mind, which, after all, is their 
				mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings 
				whatever is convenient for them. 
				 
				  
				 
				And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as 
				a buffer against their fear." 
				
				
				Don Juan Matus 
				The Active Side of 
				Infinity (Carlos Castaneda) 
				  
				  
				"There are a thousand things which 
				prevent a man from awakening, which keep him in the power of his 
				dreams. 
				  
				In order to act consciously with the intention of 
				awakening, it is necessary to know the nature of the forces 
				which keep man in a state of sleep. First of all it must be 
				realized that the sleep in which man exists is not normal but 
				hypnotic sleep.  
				  
				Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic state is 
				continually maintained and strengthened in him.  
				  
				One would think that there are 
				forces for whom it is useful and profitable to keep man in a 
				hypnotic state and prevent him from seeing the truth and 
				understanding his position." 
				G. I. Gurdjieff 
			I was living a lie based on my false 
			"I", dreaming to be awake. 
			  
			I also realized that all the talk and 
			notions about love and happiness were buffers and illusion people 
			tell themselves for self-calming and had nothing to do with real 
			love. I mistook many things for love myself.  
			  
			During my "dark night 
			of the soul" and "moral bankruptcy" I had intense periods of deep 
			despair and depression, sometimes not being able to get out of bed, 
			but lying in fetal position and crying a lot.  
			  
			As I mentioned before 
			I was even contemplating suicide a lot back then. It was emotionally 
			and physically intense as if something within me was dying. 
			  
			Later on as I gained more knowledge 
			about the process I was going through esoterically and 
			psychologically, I realized that my depression was actually a 
			stepping stone towards becoming my true self. 
			  
			  
			
			 
			  
			  
			Kazimierz Dabrowski is a Polish 
			psychiatrist and psychologist who developed the Theory of Positive 
			Disintegration (TPD).  
			  
			The Theory of Positive Disintegration is a 
			novel approach to personality development and relates to "depression 
			as a stepping stone". 
			  
			What is very interesting about this 
			model is how it is similar in ways to certain esoteric teachings, 
			such as Gurdjeff's Fourth Way, Mouravieff's Gnosis or Shamanism as 
			transmitted through Don Juan Matus. 
			  
			It sees crisis such as 
			depression or maladjustment to social norms as important stepping 
			stones and potential for personality development. 
			  
			Contrary to mainstream psychology, which 
			tries to adjust the individual to society and its norms (sometimes 
			through anti-depressants or any other mood-influencing 
			pharmaceuticals), the Theory of Positive Disintegration sees it as a 
			"good" sign if one is getting maladjusted to society, seeing it as 
			potential for higher integration and values (non ego-centric). 
			 
			  
			Certain generic New Age teachings also merely avoid the aspect of 
			positive Disintegration through denial and a distorted understanding 
			of negative emotions (such as just focus on the "positive", avoid 
			anything "negative", meditate on "peace", etc…) 
			  
			The levels of development as defined by 
			Dabrowski can be compared to the staircase of esoteric evolution and 
			the moral bankruptcy man experiences when his old conditioned self 
			conflicts with the emerging individuality. 
			  
			Like Gurdjieff, Dabrowski saw the 
			"average" man as mechanical robot-like beings (Level I) who simply 
			exist on lower impulses as dictated by society and "official 
			culture", living in a reactionary state of external stimuli and 
			influences. No true individuality can be formed on that level. 
			  
			Certain people who experience so-called 
			
			
			overexcitability (OE) ("Supersensitivities" in terms of Psychomotor, Sensual, Emotional, Intellectual, and Imaginational) 
			have the potential to grow out of the lower levels and integrate 
			their being into the higher ones.  
			  
			However, just as explained in the 
			aforementioned esoteric teachings, Darbrowski also points out that 
			this process requires conscious work and it doesn't happen by 
			itself.  
			  
			In other words, if one does not use the "shocks" to further 
			one's evolution and does "the work" to gain self-awareness, one will 
			stay at the lower level where most of humanity exists, mechanically 
			and reactionary, feeding one's little "I's" based on conditioning 
			and programming. 
			  
			In light if what we've explored so far, one can see 
			how OE (especially in children) could also be an indication that one 
			may be a wanderer. I certainly can relate to Darbowski's TPD and see 
			how it applies to my upbringing and personality development. 
			  
			From
			"A 
			very brief sketch of Dabrowski's theory of Positive Disintegrstion" 
			by W. Tillier: 
				
				
				Suffering, aloneness, self-doubt, sadness, inner 
				conflict; these are our feelings that we have not learned to 
				live with, that we have failed to appreciate, that we reject as 
				destructive and completely negative,
				but in fact they are symptoms of an 
				expanding consciousness. 
				 
				  
				 
				Dr. Kazimierz Dabrowski has spent 45 years piecing together the 
				complete picture of the growth of the human psyche from 
				primitive integration at birth; the person with potential for 
				development will experience growth as a loosening of the stable 
				psychic structure accompanied by symptoms of psychoneuroses. 
				 
				  
				 
				Reality becomes multileveled, the choices between higher and 
				lower realms of behavior occupy our thought and mark us as 
				human.  
				  
				 
				Dabrowski called this process positive disintegration,
				he declares that psychoneurosis 
				is not an illness and he insists that development does not come 
				through psychotherapy but that psychotherapy is automatic when 
				the person is conscious of his development... 
				  
				
				Without intense and painful introspection and 
				reflection, development is unlikely. 
				Psychoneurotic symptoms should be embraced and transformed into 
				anxieties about human problems of an ever higher order. If 
				psychoneuroses continue to be classified as mental illness, then 
				perhaps it is a sickness better than health. 
				  
				To Dabrowski, real therapy is 
				autopsychotherapy; it is the self being aware of the self 
				through a long inner investigation; a mapping of the inner 
				environment.  
				  
				There are no techniques to eliminate symptoms 
				because the symptoms constitute the very psychic richness from 
				which grow an increasing awareness of body, mind, humanity and 
				cosmos.  
				  
				Dabrowski gives birth to that process if he can. 
				  
				
				Initially, 
				people who are acting on low impulses or who are simply 
				robotically emulating society have little self conflict. Most 
				conflicts are external. 
				During development, the clash between one's actual behavior and 
				environment and one's imagined ideals creates a great deal of 
				internal conflict.  
				  
				This conflict literally motivates the 
				individual to resolve the situation, ideally by inhibiting those 
				aspects he or she considers lower and by accentuating those 
				aspects he or she considers higher. At the highest levels, there 
				is a new harmony of thought, emotion and action that eliminates 
				internal conflict.  
				  
				The individual is behaving in accord with 
				their own personality ideal and consciously derived value 
				structure and therefore feels no internal conflict. 
				Often a person's 
				external focus shifts to 'making the world a better place. 
				  
				"Without 
				passing through very difficult experiences and even something 
				like psychoneurosis and neurosis we cannot understand human 
				beings and we cannot realize our multidimensional and multilevel 
				development toward higher and higher levels." 
				K. Dabrowski. 
			It is part of a necessary process and 
			even today there are times of depression (although not as intense 
			anymore) as I keep working on myself and peel off the layers of my 
			false "I".  
			  
			The work never stops, it just becomes more refined and 
			deeper. At the same time the moments of true love as a state of 
			being and consciousness increase (not dependent on anything or 
			anyone outside myself) as opposed to an chemical emotional 
			experience. 
			  
			I feel more and more aligned with my real "I", making 
			the personality/ego a vessel/instrument for the higher self to work 
			through and not letting the ego be in the driver's seat.  
			  
			Just as 
			noted in the quote above, there happens a shift at one point away 
			from pre-occupation with oneself towards
			"making 
			the world a better place.", not acting on mechanical 
			self-absorbed lower impulses but conscious actions based on the 
			higher centers. 
			  
			This can also be related to a shift from STS towards STO activating the Wanderer's mission profile to be of service and 
			assistance. However, I still slip into the mechanicalness of my 
			little "I's" if I'm not watchful and make the effort to stay 
			conscious. 
			  
			Despite society's view that there is 
			something wrong with you if you are depressed and selling you 
			anti-depressants, it is actually a GOOD thing. The soul and true 
			self is screaming for attention.  
			  
			As J. Krishnamurti said:  
				
				"It 
			is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick 
			society."  
			One shouldn't avoid it or numb it with 
			medication, drugs or "feel good" pop-psychology but go with it and 
			trust that it is actually a natural process that can be used as a 
			catalyst for growth and esoteric development. 
			  
			Laura Knight-Jadczyk talks about this 
			process in an exchange with the Cs: 
				
				Q: (L) My experience has been, over 
				the past couple of years, that whenever there is a significant 
				increase in knowledge, that it is sort of cyclical - I go 
				through a depression before I can assimilate - and it is like an 
				inner transformation from one level to another. Is there 
				something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or 
				facilitate this process in some way?
 
				A: It is a natural process, let it be. 
			People support each others' pathologies 
			and neediness, mistaking that for love and their emotional and 
			physical addictions for happiness.  
			  
			There are no conscious actions, 
			just pre-recorded patterns playing themselves out. People are not in 
			control of themselves, not realizing the prison they are in. 
			  
			I saw 
			the "horror of the situation" and what Gurdjieff told Ouspensky in "In Search of the Miraculous": 
				
				"'What do you expect?" said G.  
				  
				"People are machines. Machines have to be blind and unconscious, 
				they cannot be otherwise, and all their actions have to 
				correspond to their nature. Everything happens. No one does 
				anything. 'Progress' and 'civilization,' in the real meaning of 
				these words, can appear only as the result of conscious efforts. 
				 
				  
				They cannot appear as the result of unconscious mechanical 
				actions. And what conscious effort can there be in machines? 
				And if one machine is unconscious, then a hundred machines are 
				unconscious, and so are a thousand machines, or a hundred 
				thousand, or a million.  
				  
				And the unconscious activity of a 
				million machines must necessarily result in destruction and 
				extermination. It is precisely 
				in unconscious involuntary manifestations that all evil lies. 
				You do not yet understand and cannot imagine all the results of 
				this evil. But the time will come when you will understand... 
				  
				…A considerable percentage of the 
				people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, 
				that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us 
				that we do not see and do not know it. 
				  
				If we knew what a number 
				of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead 
				people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror." 
			These were trying times since I realized 
			I had no authentic friends, because I hadn't been authentic myself. 
			  
			I tried to wake up my friends and family, but this just created more 
			conflict and attacks. I still hadn't learned the basic lesson of 
			esoteric work and what STO truly means:
			Don't give without being asked 
			and be externally considerate.  
			  
			Free will needs to be 
			respected, even if it is people's free will to stay ignorant and 
			asleep. No one can be forced to wake up. However, as I started to 
			wake up and engaged in the work, letting go of my associations and 
			friends, new people and help came along, just as Mouravieff wrote, 
			fellow seekers who saw what I saw and who were struggling with the 
			same things.  
			  
			The importance of networking with like-minded and 
			collinear people was imperative, because alone a man can do nothing. 
			There were not many, but it is about quality over quantity.  
			  
			During 
			that time I also spent much time alone, not engaging in 
			relationships or drawn to exterior life at all. I didn't enjoy the 
			things I used to enjoy. Everything seemed so shallow, empty and 
			fake. 
			  
			I knew I had to disengage from certain associations and be 
			conscious about who and what I gave my energy to, so I didn't slip 
			back into the "wilderness" where the Matrix/General Law is trying to 
			keep man to be food for our hyperdimensional overlords. 
				
				"When man goes in search of the 
				Way, it generally signifies that something within him has 
				collapsed. Apart from exceptional cases, this collapse is 
				preceded by a re-assessment of moral values, which in the 
				searcher's eyes lose the value he had previously given to them. 
				  
				"Interior collapse leads to certain 
				consequences. Man starts to see things in a different light. Two 
				diametrically opposed effects can result. If man is sufficiently 
				strong and impartial, he will not lower his eyes before 
				implacable reality.  
				  
				He will 
				have the courage to face things directly, and to accept the 
				constatations which are imposed on him, no matter how 
				disagreeable they are. This signifies that he has 
				firmly started on the track which leads to the path of Access to 
				the Way. 
				  
				On the other hand, if the man is 
				weak, this experience will weaken him even more.  
				  
				The law is explicit: 
					
					'To whosoever hath, to him shall be given. But 
				whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that which 
				he hath.' 
				If man does not accept his situation and, in 
				particular, his inner state as it appears to him, thanks to 
				brief illuminations from the consciousness of the real 'I'-
				if he is obstinate against all 
				evidence, justifying his Personality by protecting himself 
				behind logic, legitimacy and justice, he will then turn his back 
				on the path of Access, and thrust himself further into the 
				wilderness. 
				  
				"Nobody 
				can reach the path of Access to the Way, without first passing 
				through an interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse." 
				  
				"Economy 
				of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on the Way demands 
				their total mobilization. Any unjustified expenditure can lead 
				in the end to failure.  
				  
				
				We must always keep this in mind. In 
				general, the reaction of those around towards someone who begins 
				to search for the Way is negative.  
				  
				
				
				This negative attitude is the result of the action of the 
				General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man in his place. 
				Not being able to do this directly by the action of Illusion, 
				the General Law, when it loses its dominion over the man who 
				'moves', acts indirectly by the mediation of those around him." 
				  
				"It is a classic situation. 
				From his side, after having passed through moral bankruptcy, he 
				who seeks the Way becomes different from men who continue to 
				live within the limits permitted by the General Law, and thus 
				take mirages for reality.  
				  
				Due to this, he will feel himself more 
				and more isolated. The centre of gravity of his interest will 
				progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by absorbing 
				him completely.  
				  
				
				But it is entirely in his interest not to show 
				the new attitude which he has taken towards exterior life. The 
				'World' will be hostile to him, because its own purposes are 
				different; it is not in his interest to provoke this tendency, 
				and even less to keep it alive.  
				  
				
				The day will come - if he 
				remains in the same milieu - where, apart from rare exceptions 
				he will be openly or secretly hated." 
				  
				
				"If we ponder this in depth, we shall understand 
				that psychologically this hostile attitude of the 'World' 
				towards someone who carries on esoteric work is not only a 
				normal phenomenon but is so to 
				speak, a necessary one. 
				  
				 If 
				he who lives in the wilderness - and is satisfied to be there, 
				were to approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, 
				it would be equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy.  
				  
				 That 
				is why the 'World' considers the latter as a failure. The more 
				he progresses with his work, the more he becomes an object of 
				hate.  
				  
				 That is why it is said that:  
					
					'no prophet is acceptable in 
				his own country' and also: 'A prophet is not without honour, 
				save in his own country, among his own kin and in his own house.'" 
			Let's examine the part, 
				
				"If he who lives in the 
			wilderness - and is satisfied to be there, were to approve of the 
			attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be equivalent to 
			recognizing his own bankruptcy" a bit closer in 
			relation to today's' world and events.  
			One can easily refer this to 
			people who keep denying that 9/11 was an inside Job or that UFO's 
			are and have been visiting this planet for ages and human beings are 
			being farmed for "food".  
			  
			The common man lives in the wilderness of 
			the General Law/Matrix and has a very conditioned/limited view of 
			reality.  
			  
			If he'd approve the truth of 9/11, the hyperdimensional 
			manipulation of humanity or that Psychopaths with no conscience are 
			ruling the world, it would produce an immense internal and 
			psychological discomfort forcing him into moral bankruptcy as his 
			long held beliefs would be shattered and he would have to face 
			himself, confronting the illusionary existence he's been living 
			since birth based on lies.  
			  
			The common man has much invested in his 
			illusion, psychologically and materialistically, his image, career, 
			rank and status, and he will protect it against whoever threatens 
			it, defending the prison he is in. 
			  
			As Morpheus tells us in "The Matrix": 
				
				The Matrix is a system, Neo. That 
				system is our enemy. 
				But when you're inside, you look around, what do you see? 
				Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters. The very minds of the people we are 
				trying to save.
 
				But until we do, these people are still a part of that system  
				and that makes them our enemy.
 
				  
				
				You have to understand, most of these people are 
				not ready to be unplugged.  And many 
				of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, 
				that they will fight to protect it.   
				  
				The Matrix is everywhere. It is all 
				around us.
				You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on 
				your television.
				You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church… when 
				you pay your taxes. 
				  
				It is the world that has been pulled 
				over your eyes to blind you from the truth. 
			We can see now how esoteric work with 
			all its struggle, suffering and attacks relate to the awakening 
			process and initiation of the Wanderer.  
			  
			Super efforts are needed to 
			truly wake up and accomplish one's mission, whatever it turns out to 
			be. There is also nothing "special" being a wanderer.  
			  
			The opposite, 
			it takes great humility, awareness and responsibility combined with 
			sincere self-work, gaining knowledge and learning the lessons to 
			walk the talk and be truly of service. 
				
				"Disillusion" is a painful process 
				and can be prolonged, depending on how much time the individual 
				takes to realize he is living artificially and that this 
				condition is a product of his internal dreams.  
				  
				Great courage is 
				required to face reality and to destroy the mirage of a pleasant 
				dream." 
				John Baines, 
				
				The Stellar Man 
				  
				  
				"Every time a man sets himself to 
				learn, he has to labor as hard as anyone can, and the limits of 
				his learning are determined by his own nature. Therefore, there 
				is no point in talking about knowledge.  
				  
				Fear of knowledge is 
				natural; all of us experience it, and there is nothing we can do 
				about it.  
				  
				But no matter how frightening learning is, it's more 
				terrible to think of a man without knowledge." 
				
				
				Don Juan Matus 
			We live in intense times.  
			  
			A lot of 
			things are happening on our planet. Technology has advanced 
			exponentially, yet human consciousness has not evolved at the same 
			rate. We are in the midst of a major transformation, the shift of 
			the ages, which many prophecies and mystery teachings have talked 
			about.  
			  
			It won't be over
			by 12/21/2012. Far from it... 
			  
			  
			
			 
			  
			  
			This work is also open for any souled 
			humans, not just Wanderers.  
				
				
				Many are called, yet few choose to answer the call.
				 
			Wanderers are not any better than "humans".  
			  
			We all are 
			
			multidimensional beings who have access to the deeper knowledge 
			within us. We are them in the future.  
			  
			They may just have come back 
			
			in "time" (since time doesn't really exist but is a 3D concept, 
			which doesn't apply on higher densities) for assistance, but not to 
			do the work for us. There is a spiritual war happening with forces 
			at work most people are not even aware of.  
			  
			Understanding the 
			Theological Drama behind STO/STS dynamics and the how the matrix 
			control system works through ourselves is crucial for the awakening 
			process of the wanderer and any sincere truth seeker. 
				
				"And as we have learned from Jesus, 
				Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, 
				the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are 
				controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long 
				time.  
				  
				Each and every time the revelation of this Control System 
				is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it.  
				  
				And 
				it is clear that this is the present situation….It 
				is in "seeing the unseen" that we become aware of higher levels 
				of being; it is in ordinary human interactions that we 
				experience the "battles" between the forces of STS and STO!
				And it is most definitely this 
				factor that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to 
				conceal!…  
				  
				In other words, we are not just talking about 
				a "petty dispute," we are 
				talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting - as ALWAYS 
				- in human dynamics." 
				Laura Knight Jadczyk 
				"The Wave" 
				 
				Volume 5&6 "Petty Tyrants & Facing the Unknown" 
			It takes much work and effort to anchor 
			TRUE Love and Light, freeing ourselves from this current STS 
			frequency.  
			  
			Just as individuals who have soul potential are called to 
			engage in sincere self-work, making the darkness conscious and 
			understanding what it truly means to 
			BE the change we want to see, so the world needs to go through a 
			collective "moral bankruptcy" and "dark night of the soul" before 
			any true shift of consciousness can occur.  
			  
			We are in the muck and 
			mire of the
			
			Kali Yuga. 
				
				"This is the hardest time to live, 
				but it is also the greatest honor to be alive now, and to be 
				allowed to see this time.  
				  
				There is no other time like now. We 
				should be thankful, for creation did not make weak spirits to 
				live during this time. The old 
				ones say 'this is the time when the strongest spirits will live 
				through and those who are empty shells, those who have lost the 
				connection will not survive.'  
				  
				We have become masters of 
				survival -we will survive- it is our prophecy to do so." 
				Tiokasin Ghosthorse 
				  
				  
				"I wish it need not have happened in 
				my time," said Frodo. "So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all 
				who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. 
				 
				  
				All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given 
				us." 
				from 'Lord of the Rings' 
			These are difficult times but also 
			exciting times. 
			  
			There is love, help and support out there and good 
			things are and can happen, but it all depends on us. The shift into 
			4D, 
			the ascension and transformation into the STO vibration of
			Love in Light in the Deepest Meaning it these 
			Words (below video) is an 
			opportunity, a choice - not a guarantee - for the ones answering 
			the call.  
			  
			The struggle, for the most part, is with oneself. 
			  
			  
			  
			  
			  
			
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