Iteesha stood upon her Sphere, no longer able to re-merge herself
with it. Sorrow began to ring through her as the urge to be
surrounded by others like herself started to grow within the cells
of her body. She began to think and imagine new dreams which rippled
out into the darkness.
Stellar lines of thoughts criss-crossed and wove themselves together
until a large web like crystalline pattern hung like a snowflake in
the darkness. As she looked upon this form, a new and exciting
thought began to form in her mind. Could she awaken and activate
this structure of her own thoughts? Could she breathe life into it
and create life like those before her?
With the energy given to her from the Unesseia, her lifeblood, and
her urge to create through love, she sent a thought. It was a
thought so whole, so powerful, it carried her consciousness through
the darkness and, as it hit upon the Web, it shattered into a
thousand tiny pieces. It cascaded like showers of liquid light into
the web, awakening it, giving it life. The Zeta were born.
Each Zeta, an idea, a dream, was given life from Iteesha's pure
intent. Working as a whole unified mind, the Zeta's took the ideas
that had been given from above and structured them into conceptual
theories, concepts that would later become experimental dimensional
experiences. They dreamed and created dimensional realities capable
of housing beings connected to the Web as a whole, yet also
individually experiencing themselves as unique and singular
The Web's strands twisted and wove the ideas together,
adding to the pattern, creating a giant evolutionary ladder. This
ladder held all the ideas, all the ingredients to create beings to
live upon the worlds they had imagined. Alloya had almond shaped
eyes, eyes that strongly represented the little greys or, as I'd
rather refer to them, the Zeta. I had always been fascinated with
the Zeta. I had strange dreams, dreams where I was Zeta on the home
world. I felt like they were watching me. I must admit I thought I
should be scared but I wasn't.
They seemed friendly in an
unemotional sort of way.
I found that whilst dancing to weird dark trance techno, they would
enter my body. My body was fine with it as it felt strangely
pleasant, even sexual, but my mind would disappear. I would
literally be a Zeta. I could feel my perspective on the world
changing. They seem to look upon reality and see the web-like
structures, the pattern or blueprint that reality hangs upon. They
channeled through me the following:
We can move, realign, and rearrange whole pictures of reality by
understanding the workings of reality at a deep level. We rearrange
it according to preset cosmic .They exist on a very high mental
plane. They let their emotional bodies entropy in order to achieve
their state of mental agility. They do not appear to have emotional
Their whole level of consciousness is very similar to a
computer and can seem extremely alien to us because we experience
deep levels of emotion. They are capable of time travel on an atomic
level. They also use mind maps of the universe to travel great
distances. It is very hard to understand them, as they are extremely
alien to our way of thinking. They experience themselves as the
'WE', as we experience our-selves as the 'I'. If you tune into them.
you will know what I mean.
Working as a 'WE' consciousness, they are singular and separate in
form yet work as a whole mass mind, moving like a swarm of bees or a
flock of birds. They sent my rational mind into absolute turmoil.
Their whole way of looking at things was so radically different from
my usual ego-based rational approach that I thought I was losing my
mind. Worse still, perhaps I was being taken over by some weird,
evil, alien entity.
Without an emotional body that I could recognize, they worked not
unlike a huge intricate and highly complex computer system. Their
whole nature works on a level above polarity, and without the
comfort to me of their having an emotional body, they frightened the
hell out of me. They saw nothing wrong with either good or bad
experience. They moved me to see the inner workings of reality and
how the mind creates realities around itself. These were mirror
images of its conscious awareness. They told me that they were
formulators of reality, taking inventive ideas from other dimensions
above, and working them into intricate formulas that later
manifested on denser dimensions as reality that could be perceived.
The Web exists on a dimensional reality that is slightly denser in
form than The Unesseia. As far as my understanding will allow, the
Zeta is a giant network of beings that exist in civilizations upon
dense physical planets. They are quite close to humans as they are
very close in our genetic makeup. However, their perspective, the
way they look at reality, is very different to ours.
They seem to see reality as patterns; complex structures made of
thought. Instead of experiencing reality and themselves as
predominantly physical as we do, they see their world as layers upon
layers of thought that are manifesting. They see everything as
separate constructs, yet all intricately tied together as one
synergized entity. They experience themselves as one whole mind made
up of separate individual components functioning as one.
They showed me, by playful and creative example, how my physical
reality was formed. They taught me how the many levels of our
interaction are mirror experiences designed to allow us to see our
true natures. They played with me, taking me on many mind warping
reality shifts, allowing me to see how finely tuned the whole
universal system was.
One of these incidents occurred when I was with a group of friends.
The Zeta entered me more strongly than before. It was as if the
right side of my body were Zeta and the left was my sense of 'I'. It
was a very strange and a little frightening. I got to experience the
disappearance of my sense of self. I was part of a giant 'WE'
consciousness. I went through so many levels of fear; I could
literally feel them rewiring my circuits in left side my brain.
They used a special form of communication that can only be described
as binary code. My friend started to channel. The Zeta told me that
she was talking about my sense of 'I' so that I could hear my truth.
I listened to what she had to say. She was aware of what she was
As I listened, I would hear truth and then she would talk but the
words did not ring true. The Zeta said this is the truth and
bullshit game. When she says your truth, then stand up, and when she
tells you your bullshit, sit down. Without any control on my part, I
had no choice but to do this It was if my body had been taken over.
My friend said that she could see the Zeta in the right side of my
body. It fascinated her. She was also completely aware of what I was
going through as she was holding my integrity as Alloya or I could
After some time, I began to get tired so I stamped my foot and said,
" I don't want to do this any more. Can't I just have the feeling in
my stomach or something." It was amazing. I could literally feel my
stomach responding to the truth and going flat with the bullshit. To
this day, I have used this as a gauge to weed out the truth.
Their energies were very strange and caused me to cry out in the
strangeness of the sensations as they rewired my brain. I looked out
and saw everything being an aspect of myself, a representation of
some part of psyche and Spirit. It was very overwhelming.
Everywhere I looked, I could see aspects of myself. It was then that
the Zeta said,
"Close your eyes."
I did. I could see loads of Zeta
faces looking at me. They said,
"It is at times like these that you
close your eyes and know who you are."
I immediately thought, 'I
As I did this, all the faces merged into one Zeta face and it was
Alloya. I knew then that they were aspects of myself and I was one
of them. I was indeed an alien. They taught me the significance of
what your mind experiences as reality, and how we can all live in
totally separate reality states.
The things I was experiencing should have been bizarre to the two
boys in the room. When I apologized to them for being weird, they
said they didn't see me as being weird at all. It was then that I
realized the Zeta had completely altered my reality, and I was no
longer on the same level as the two boys were. I was to have many
more encounters with the Zeta.
They were the cosmic jokers in the
pack. I spent many weird hours of amusement with them. They seemed
to want to dance through me, a dance with such intricate hand
movements. It allowed me to rearrange not only my own energy fields,
but also the energy bodies of those around me. I realigned web-like
structures in the mental plane allowing for creative and
evolutionary happenings to occur. Reality shifts happened at
parties, and social chats. All who experienced them, whether they
were consciously aware of it or not, were moved by them. They had
their perspectives on reality radically altered by their presence.
I used the Zeta's talents of working with the mental body to realign
other people's brains in my healing sessions. This helped people
remove what they called 'devolutionary mind states and patterns'. I
was fascinated by the dance. I could see myself making etherical
patterns in the air. I was forming ideas to manifest on the physical
plane. I realized that I was helping align our realities to the Zeta
and was allowing others to experience them also. My friend was
introduced to them at a party one night.
I watched as they entered her body. I saw their faces shimmer across
her face. It moved me to tears. She then got up and began to dance
the exact same dance. Together we were literally changing the energy
of the room. What we in fact did was create a space so the angelic
counter-parts could be introduced to their earthly partners. I was
told that she and I had created the space.
Integrating my Zeta self was an incredible experience even though
those around me thought I was losing it. I felt completely alien.
The idea of being this physical body appalled me, as did the gender
of sex. I referred to the body as 'The body.' I would say things like
"The body wants a drink."
Those around me found it very difficult
to handle. I was at home totally. I must admit I lost it a little in
the whole situation. I felt completely non-human and detached from
my loved ones. It was only when the Zeta were totally integrated
that I seemed human again. However, I felt that now I was Zeta plus.
When I had finished integrating the various aspects, I would be
rewarded by something happening in my outside reality. I went to a
party and was introduced to this guy. I just said, "Hello" and went
off to dance. He knew absolutely nothing about me, and yet he said
that from the time I met him, he had "The girl's an alien" going
around and around in his head. It disturbed him so much that he told
a mutual friend who later told me.
What confirmation. ! I could no
longer deny what I was becoming.
As the Zeta analyzed those they imagined, they created a great gene
pool of ideas. Some of their ideas failed and fell short of their
purposes. Each one had its unique creative talent. Gathering all the
best ingredients from each of their ideas, they spun together their
ideas like silks of colored light. Slowly the warp and the weft
wove itself together into intricate patterns until a new form, a new
creature, stood proudly before them. Alustra, The Dragon, was his
name, a conceptual idea taking shape and form. Contained within it
was a message that could be communicated through the idea that came
from the highest source, the Star.
With eyes to see and ears to hear, Alustra's mind was powerful and
wise, holding within it many secrets for those he encountered to
discover. With scales of light to represent the many ideas that had
created him and a voice of fire in which to sing his song, his voice
could be heard ringing through the universe.
With a tail to steer
him and a pair of giant powerful-feathered wings to propel him, he
set off on his magical journey, his quest in flight through space
and time. The Zeta held their breath in awe as they saw him take to
the air and fly in spirals out into the unknown darkness, seeking
out information he could transmit back to be stored within the Web.
A mighty dragon energy that represented the ley lines that flow
throughout the universe. He taught me the magic in objects. Through
his guidance, I realized that every action can be a part of a ritual
if applied with intent. Alustra is unlike the other entities I have
experienced. They are based in one place, whereas Alustra seems to
come from everywhere. He is a great cosmic dragon. He is a psychic,
astral entity that exists on a realm that you could call
imagination. He seems to live in a world of myths and legends where
unicorns and the like exist side by side with ancient civilizations.
He operates on a level of higher mass consciousness, which is where
our archaic records are. Within this realm, are all records of past,
present, and future realities. He is capable of time travel. He does
this in the most amazing way; he recreates himself where he wants to
be. He has a great awareness of cycles and movement. His energy
helps ascend the etherical and astral bodies into higher light
bodies. He is the activator of the Merkabar vehicle that allows you
to consciously project yourself into any time or space.
Working with him, I saw the pattern in time. He taught me how to
energetically decode DNA. He represented the aspect that records all
the information of soul. He channeled through me energy that
released karma and realigned people in soul agreement relationships.
Alustra allowed me to see the creative imagination energy at work in
my reality. He danced around me for some time, hiding every time I
thought I could see him, a mysterious and fascinating entity. He
taught me how to see the plays that unfolded in my everyday
By using my imagination, I could see a drama of cosmic
significance in every interaction in my life. He showed me with
stunning and amazing clarity how even though we like to think of
lives as being past lives, they are, in fact, going on at the same
He taught me how to tap into myths and legends in the mass
consciousness. I began to live many different times all in the same
space. With Alustra's help, I learned how to decode the information
stored within the DNA and release etherical implants that had been
put there to hinder my spiritual growth. Whilst I was working very
closely with him, my whole life seemed to grow and blossom into one
great fairy tale.
This is where 'The Story' began.
I cannot tell it for it is not mine
to tell. For my friend began to tap into this realm and we lived in
the fairy tale together. She was indeed a dragon, too; she helped
guide me to integrate this particular aspect. Let's just say that
she began to write and draw the characters of a mighty story. It was
an Atlantean story where all the members of our close friends were
main characters. It wasn't like we chose them for each character;
each person over a space of months would literally act our story
symbolically in their life in the way they behaved and reacted to
life. The symbolic nature made it a very creative and inspiring
I will never forget the night when Alustra decided to totally
integrate into my body. I was at a party. It seemed so unreal. These
parties were beginning to become very creative. I could see myself
in other people. It was so obvious to me that they would represent
different aspects of myself and channels information from their
Alustra flew in spirals in my mind's eye and then entered my body.
Being Alustra, I could feel all my files, my records going back to
God. It was explained to me how the aspect that was 'I' on the
highest level was accessing my information and that I was the first
gardener of creation to come home with the harvest.
It is at this point that I feel I need to explain something to you.
I was living in a paradox. I was experiencing myself as all the
different aspects and, yet, was also totally aware of myself,
experiencing it, too. I could see my friends being themselves but
also representing different aspects of myself. How can I explain
this further? It was as if two realities were going on in the same
For example, I was sitting on a chair when Alustra began to download
my information. At my feet, resting against the chair, was a very
close friend of mine. He had represented the Source during the
night. You could say to me in my reality that he was channeling the
aspect of himself that is the Source. He was channeling it so
strongly and completely that he had become the Source looking out of
human eyes. Amazed at this, I asked him if he knew he was the
Source. " Of course," he said and smiled.
I could feel the connection that was going on between us. He was the
Source and I was Alustra, downloading my information to him. I lay
my head on his neck; feeling like light ,in information ,as it
streamed out of my third eye. When the process was complete, another
friend came into the room carrying tea. She passed me a cup. As I
turned it round to hold it, I was amazed at what it said on it.
Under a picture of a vegetable garden were the words, " Number One
Gardener." What confirmation!
Alustra is a wise and knowledgeable entity and of a high
intelligence. He seemed to be a bridge between the higher spiritual
and mental selves and the emotional and more human selves. He uses
his wings to fly from within the creative space of my imagination to
ground his vision within my physical realm. Whilst I was working
closely with him, my whole life seemed to grow and blossom into one
great fairy tale.
He awoke my dormant childlike imagination and gave
me the trust to allow my mind to expand without limits, knowing I
was safe and secure, nestled in his energies.
Alustra flew far and wide discovering many star systems and
galaxies. Contained within these systems was information and he
gathered it and sent it back to the Zeta. Great cosmic currents took
him far from his original home. Finally, he hovered above the
heavenly realms of the beautiful planet, Earth. The heavens swirling
beneath him were shimmering colors of rainbow light.
They were all
touched with silver and gold of the highest stars. Mesmerized by the
exquisite patterns, he, too, created a being from the color and
sound. As the sounds beneath him created a symphony of light, his
heart was moved and as he quivered with the vibration, a single lone
feather fell from his powerful-feathered wing.
As the feather
floated silently down, circling within the currents of the heavens
below, he watched in awe as the love he had felt wove about itself
the most beautiful being he had ever seen, an angel of rainbow
light. Shektar was her name, with wings of love and light in which
to fly. All who looked upon her were overwhelmed by the love from
her heart; it glowed like the embers of a sacred fire.
Alustra watched as she shimmered and hovered in grace and love in
her heavenly realm. With held breath, he watched as she unfolded her
wings and took flight, rippling the very light and sound that
surrounded her, moving all in exquisite bliss as she flew near by.
She glided and flew upon the currents of the uppermost strata of the
heavens of love, not wanting for anything else than to express and
give her love to all whom looked upon her radiance. Circling and
spiralling down, her attention was captivated by the watery
emotional realms below.
Alustra sighed as she disappeared from his
Shektar was so beautiful with wings of turquoise and silver. Her
beauty and grace warmed me like the sun on a summer's morning. I
could not believe the amount of love that I felt for her. She opened
up my heart and allowed me to see the vulnerability that was inside.
I felt so na´ve and cherished in her presence. As she enveloped me
within her wings, I moved into the very purest part of my Soul. All
darkness was kept at bay by the blinding light that radiated from
her being. She hovered and shimmered in front of me.
Her whole form looked as if it were breathing with the gentle ripple
of her wings. Shektar warmed my very being, sheltering me against
the harsh winds of everyday reality. She gave me a free and safe
environment in which to truly awaken my pure inner child. She guided
me to see that my weakest moments could also be great moments of
hope and strength. She helped me heal. She opened up my heart, which
had been locked away, and she allowed the floodgates to open.
so safe and secure with her wings around me that my emotions of pain
and hurt flooded out, leaving me feeling clearer and more
purposeful. I was becoming more aware of who I really was. Within
these feelings were signs and messages, signposts pointing me in new
and exciting directions, directions that would ultimately lead me to
discover more of the aspects of the selves and their individual
A few months went by. Working closely with my angel, Shektar, I was
able to heal enough pain that I could start to move forward on to my
path with confidence. My service began to develop. I learned, or
rather remembered, that I was a healer and began to dedicate myself
to healing using Shektar's energy. I had some quite remarkable
results. She showed me how to hold people in their truth by placing
my hands on certain parts of their body and holding a pure thought
that they were perfect.
I would watch as I lay my hands on people's hearts and they would
instantly cry, releasing pain from the heart centre. She showed me
how to see the beauty, not only of myself, but of others, too. All
who experienced her felt honored and loved by her. Other people
have commented to me how they had called upon her in hours of worry
and had felt her unmistakable presence surrounding them.
Spending hours and hours communicating with Shektar, I learned about
the nature of angels and their connection to us on Earth. Shektar
explained to me that she was a Solar Angel, her place of origin, our
Solar Source, the Sun.
"The sun and all the myriad stars in the night sky
are portals, the pure concentrated energy of God. The Source
projects its energy as light through these portals to penetrate your
dimension. Angels, such as I, act like prismed crystals reflecting
the pure white light of God. I am like a prism differentiating the
light into many colors or aspects."
She explained to me that there
are different frequencies of love. It is as if there is red love,
green love, and violet love. All is love yet of different
All angelics work on different rays. Shektar is an angel of the
turquoise ray. In order to more fully understand the nature of
angels and their function, Shektar guided me through a visualization
where I saw a symbolic representation of God. I saw God as a giant
white light. From God, beams of light radiated out in all
directions. These beams were not individual or defined. The beams
began to criss-cross; beginning to make up a mighty grid which
creation and all its dimensions exists upon. At each angle of this
complex grid (which resembled a snowflake pattern) was an angel.
Angel, angle, amazing the play on words. Angels allow the undefined
light of God to become differentiated.
She also went on to say,
"We are non-physical energetic beings
whose function is to guide all manifested beings. We are the
non-physical counterpart of the self that experiences a denser
reality. Our sole purpose is to be a guide of love and support. Some
angels are the guardians of the land, the elements, animals, plants,
etc. Archangels hold in grace whole planets and solar systems. I
guide and support you through your earthly existence."
Intrigued, I asked her about the dark angels. I was surprised at her
"They are still God's love manifested and hold you in
grace, too. They allow everyone to experience negativity and dense
realities. They are merely angels working on the dark ray. Their
constant dedication to their purpose or function allows you to tap
into different levels of energy because they magnify or hold this
energy in which you experience."
Shektar began to guide me to certain books that somehow seemed as if
I had written them. The words would somehow jump out at me and
resound through me as truth. There was no denying it; the truth
makes your body feel as if there can be no other reality. It just
is. One such book struck me to the core. It was ' The Return of the
Bird Tribes' by Ken Carey. One chapter seemed to hold me in its
fascination. It described how in the days of old, angels would come
to Earth and awaken their physical earthly partners, the initiates.
They would awaken them with a symbol that would be their glyph. When
I read these words I was strongly remembering an experience I had at
a medicine wheel workshop.
I had somehow found myself at this workshop recommended by a friend.
I was not sure why I was there because I thought I was not into
rituals and the like, thinking them irreverent. But I was there,
nevertheless, and I was going to stay open to what ever happened.
One evening, we were sitting down by the fire, chanting and calling
in the ancestors when the leader of the group said that we were to
call on one of them when we went to bed and ask them to give us an
important dream. So, when I went to bed, I simply asked my chosen
ancestor to give me a dream, not thinking for one minute that I
would have anything of significance.
How I surprise myself!
In my dream, I found myself in the garden of
the place we were staying in at Lamorna, in Cornwall. I was with
Shektar. Everywhere I looked there was this glistening hair-like
substance hanging off the trees and bushes. It reminded me of the
angel hair, the type you put on Christmas trees.
"What shall I do
with this?" I asked Shektar. "You are the weaver, weave!" she
I began to gather the hair like substance until I had a great pile
on the lawn. As I parted and played with it, it turned into multi-colored
thread. I began to weave it into a beautiful multi-colored banner
with a dark black symbol on it. I put it on a pole and marched
around the garden with pride. It was my banner.
When I awoke, I quickly drew the symbol. When we went down for
breakfast, we were asked if anyone had had a dream. I left it to
last to say anything, not being terribly confident in those days.
When I told them the dream, the leader looked on me in amazement and
"Wow, you are a dream weaver."
Dumb, as you like, I just
smiled, not really understanding what she meant. Too nervous to ask.
Now, reading 'The Return of the Bird Tribes' the experience came
flooding back, and, finally, I knew and understood what the dream
and the symbol meant. The symbol really opened me up, and it seemed
easier to access information whilst in meditation. Shektar explained
to me that the image I had seen in the mirror was a symbolic
representation of all the different beings that make up my Spirit.
She said she was one of these aspects, and, in fact, was me in
angelic form. I found this very hard to own, as I could not believe
that I could be a beautiful being of love and light. Shektar opened
up my heart and allowed me to see my beauty.
One day I was in a quandary. My doubt had got the better of me and I
doubted all over the place. Such is my nature. Was Shektar really
real or was all this a figment of my imagination? Shektar told me
that white feathers were her trademark, so to speak, and that
whenever I saw one, she was around. "Oh, yeah," I thought. I live
by the sea. There are seagulls everywhere, white feathers galore!
After this particular meditation, I got up to change the tape I was
listening to. Above me was a very small
skylight, only open by about an inch. No way could a feather just
drop through it; it was at the wrong angle. However, just as I
looked up, a beautiful, large white feather came gliding through the
very small opening and landed on the table in front of me. There was
no mistaking it; it was a sign from Shektar. The love was
overwhelmingly unmistakably hers. Yes, living by the sea, you see an
awful lot of white feathers. Not all of them are sent by angels. The
ones that are, are unmistakable. They carry with them an energy that
is loving and expansive. It catches your heart when you see them.
I used the feather sign as a gauge on how well I was doing on my
spiritual path. I would ask Shektar to send me one whenever I was
flowing with my Spirit because, as yet, I could not feel whether I
was or not. I am a very doubting person. It wasn't that I didn't
believe that Shektar was real. It was more that I believed that I
was not capable of aligning with an angel with whom I could really
Being bombarded by proof, I was finding it very hard to
deny my experiences sent me many feathers, some your normal common
or garden feathers, some amazing and beautiful. One was a silver
pendent sent in the post by a friend who just happened to think of
me when she was out shopping. It landed on my doorstep seconds after
having yet another meditation with Shektar. These gifts filled me
with joy and contentment. I was doing all right and I had the badge
to prove it.
This began another fascination, the fascination with inanimate
objects. Shektar explained to me how inanimate objects such as
feathers could be impregnated with angelic love to act as a symbolic
reminder of the energy it represents. I was beginning to understand
the true nature of rituals.
Swooping down on wings of light, Shektar's attention was captivated
by the watery realm of emotions below her. She watched in curiosity
as the love from her heart rippled the surface of this beautiful
blue ocean. She was intrigued by the soulful sounds that cascaded
like the fire of her heart. She experienced a desire to dive into
the ecstasy that was this realm, swooning from the intensity of the
feelings that rose like a song of love As the song dropped into the
ocean, a ripple, a movement was forming.
From this swirling whirlpool of sound and color a beautiful dolphin
of turquoise and silver leaped in joy from the centre of the
swirling colors and Demina was born. Shektar could not believe her
eyes as she watched the weaving of the beautiful patterns that
formed within this watery realm, intricate in nature and complex in
As she watched, these designs rang out a tune, a song of both
sadness and joy. Demina played, leaping from the ocean and diving
back just beneath the surface. Shektar cried tears of joy, as she
had never done before as she watched the light play on the back of
her daughter, Demina. She leaped high into the air and cried a
sorrowful song of goodbye to Shektar, her creator, as she dived down
deep into the darkest depths of the mighty ocean. Shektar, now,
alone sent a wave of love to carry her little Demina on her way.
Demina is a dolphin energy that taught me about being empathic to
other people's emotions. Demina is of dolphin race. She, or rather
her kind, originally came from the Vega system in the Lyra
constellation. She is semi physical in form; she has more of an
astral body in our understanding. She is mainly in a form that is
somewhat like the dolphin bodies that we have present on earth.
hues and colors of her body are more vibrant and iridescent than
those of her are earthly brothers and sisters. Demina exists in
waters of the astral plane that surrounds this planet. In this
realm, there are myths and legends from an emotional perspective.
Demina exists as a character in one of these stories, the story of
Thousands of years ago on this planet, there lived, side by side,
Reptoid /Dinoid races and the Dolphin races. Demina was one of
those beings that could live on land and in water. This is where the
mermaid stories come from. She communicated to me through emotions
Can you see another pattern emerging? Each self is coming in and
healing the chakra to which it belongs. It empowers the energy in
these centers and allows me access to other dimensions. She brought
with her the blue ray. Her energy ebbs and flows like currents in
the sea. She is very closely connected to the breath. She taught me
about the sacred art of breathing, the universal breath.
Out of all the aspects, hers was quite painful emotionally. Some
times I would feel like giving up and want to drown in the sea. I
had a sadness to leave my earthly body and swim in the sea. Demina
showed pain and the hurt I carried within my emotional body, not
only the pain from this lifetime, but the torture I had endured in
I would wince and cringe at the harshness of the energies that were
present on this planet every time she walked, or rather, swam into
my body. She showed me how to have the courage and power that were
present in my most powerful emotions. She showed me the ways of
creativity that are present in my deepest emotions.
My creative writing took off as she plunged into the murky waters of
my emotional body. Not only did she bring great pain and distress
from the depths of my Soul, but she also showed me the ways of joy,
praising God through innocence and trust in play.
Demina helped me love not only the divine within but also the more
human aspects. Unlike the other aspects that express themselves on
mental planes, Demina exists on the emotional plane and communicates
to me through feelings, feelings which are hard to logically
understand and communicate to others. The easiest way to experience
her and her kind is to gaze at the sea on a moonlit night and ask to
feel the true nature of the sea. You will be over-whelmed by the
response that you will receive.
She worked predominantly on the turquoise ray. She heightened my
sensitivity. I began to become empathetic to
other people's feelings. In my healing sessions, Demina allowed me
to stay open and empathic. Demina became a bridge between the larger
starry identities and the more human aspects.
Demina dived down deep, letting the currents of this mighty ocean of
emotion carry her deep into realms as of yet unfelt by those above
her. Currents of joy whispered by in swirls of blues and greens.
Sorrow rippled past her, calling her heart to truly feel. Demina
experienced them all, pain and sorrow, joy and laughter. Playfully
she leaped and splashed in waves of emotion that lapped all around
Sometimes the sea was peaceful and calm and sparked in the midday
sun. Sometimes it crashed and rolled in thundering fury during a
mid-night storm. Demina swam through it all, singing her song to
those above her, letting them know what it was like to live in the
watery realm of emotional feelings. Her voyage took her far and wide
until she came across a foreign land, a dimension more physical in
As she swam about in the warm waters of the shallows, she could hear
the sweet sound of love that was made by the sea lapping the shore
of this denser realm. If she listened carefully, she could hear a
song that the foaming surf created, and, as she listened, the song
moved her heart in love and from that love two beings were born,
Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah.
Male and female in joyous union, one and the same. As Demina watched
them spiraling and flowing around each other in ecstatic bliss, she
was moved to tears. Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah could be seen as a
beautiful God and Goddess of love in the waves that lapped against
the shore. Demina sent them the gift of creation that she, too, had
been given by those above her. As they spiraled around in their
love making, they created a vortex that spun and penetrated the
dimension below them. As Demina watched them disappear from her
sight, she, too, sighed with the wonder of creation that she herself
As I dropped down through the levels after healing and balancing
those above, I began to enter deeper and lower chakras. I knew of
the idea that we all have an inner male and an inner female.
However, I did not understand the significance to me until I met
Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah.
Deehs Arah's energy I was familiar with. He was strong, with a sense
of direction. His energy took me to the stars. He encouraged my
conviction and dedication and purpose, showing me the ways of the
inner warrior. Tall and proud, he cut away at the weeds of my
consciousness, making way for the entrance of his true love, Hara
Sheed. He awoke the energetic enthusiasm
within me, heightening my sense of excitement, and allowed me to
feel the strength and power of truth. He moved me in leaps and
bounds and gave me physical energy that made me sometimes
hyperactive and somewhat manic in nature.
He had a sense of desperation about him, like the sense of
exhilaration that you feel when you go into battle. Situated in the
sacral centre area, he would force my energies up from this centre
to surge out of my head. Needless to say, he would fly me straight
out of my body. Pulling me down to earth with a loud dump was his
harmonious and perfect partner, Hara Sheed, my inner female, earthy
in nature, the Goddess of my Soul. I found her difficult to
She revealed issues around my femininity, negative
feelings about the physical body. Never before did I really consider
myself feminine. I was a true tomboy. She worked with me
relentlessly until I could feel her Goddess energy surging through
me, concreting me into the earth, making me Gaia incarnate. She
pushed me into new levels of physical sensitivity for the first
time. I realized then just how out of my body I was most of the time
and it was time to get into body.
Sexual and sensual energy flowed from me as they entwined and
twisted themselves around in my body. I was moved by their presence,
which healed me and grounded me.
The Hara dance was very important. I had to spiral my hips around
like a snake. This enabled me to have energy and information drop
directly through the top of my head and go down and anchor in the
ground. This felt very important, as though they were preparing me
I could clearly see Hara Sheed in my head. She wore gowns of dark
blues and greens and peacock feather headers. After having a
particularly intense day with her, I described her to a friend. As I
finished, the second post arrived. In it was a card from a friend in
London. It was Hara Sheed, headers and everything. My friend and I
were stunned. I knew then that I would move on even faster.
In the atom, there are energy spirals called quarks. One is a
negative or feminine vibration, one is a positive, male vibration,
and one is a neutral vibration. A quark, according to the dictionary
is a hypothetical elementary particle, supposed to be a fundamental
unit of all earthly life. These quarks and their function are
closely connected to Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah.
Their names are
equal opposites of each other. Saying them backwards or in reverse,
gives you the other's name. Deehs Arah becomes Hara Sheed and vice
versa. They are self-perpetuating reality, a perpetuating existence
that is the foundation of all life and expression. This explains the
atomic theory of a God's energy, expressed as the quarks, existing
not only at the base of all life, but also being a continual,
In the chakric system of our being, there are three lines of energy
channels that weave their ways around the physical spinal column,
one masculine, one feminine, one neutral. This energy presence is
Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah.
Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah, male and female, positive and negative,
hot and cold spun around each other. A mighty tornado of their
creating swirled into a vortex of such intense power and energy that
they, too, travelled down through their realm, and as they
penetrated the barrier to the dimension below, a mighty storm was
created from their interaction. Clouds billowed grey and heavily
laden with sweet rain. With every heartbeat synchronized in time
with each other, thunder crashed and rolled all about them. Their
frenzy heightened their lovemaking, getting closer to the peak of
As they surrendered themselves to each other in orgasmic bliss, two
mighty lightening bolts were sent from each of their hearts. As the
lightening bolts touched and entwined themselves about each other, a
new being was forming. A mighty lightening lizard, serpent of light,
Acrumead was born. Hara Sheed and Deehs Arah held their breath,
tumbling in each others arms, not sure of whether to fear the
creature or not.
Acrumead roared and swept his mighty tail through
the darkened sky, lighting up the darkness in sheets of blinding
light. Flashing and crackling in static fusion, he carried their
message of love down into the realm of physical feeling and
sensation. Deehs Arah and Hara Sheed, their mission completed,
watched as Acrumead, untamed and alive, spiraled down, until he,
too, was lost from their sight in the dimension below them.
Acrumead, Lizard Being. Acrumead and his kind exist as semi physical
beings on a planet that orbits in the Bellatrix system in the Orion
constellation. He is Reptoid in nature. Encountering these beings
brings up our ancient fears. There are fear codes within our body;
they are survival codes that were implanted long ago to allow us to
physically survive our encounter with these beings. His energy is
dynamic and awesome. It is a thrill to activate his energy.
showed me how to activate the fire in the belly. He is the internal
alchemist transmuting, through fire, the physical matter of the body
to cosmic light, turning lead into gold like the alchemists of old.
Christians saw Acrumead energy as the realms of hell. To step into
the fire, to transmute the body, is to be the Phoenix, re-birthing
Acrumead taught me about the biological level of life and death. He
showed me the magic of the natural world and
introduced me to the realm of the elements. He explained to me that
He was a representative of my elemental self. His energy was
particularly sexual in a primal sort of way. He made me look at my
issues around sex, sensuality and lust. He gave me a new sense of
confidence, strength and stability within my physical form.
As I was lying on a mattress whilst my friend gave me healing,
Acrumead entered the room. I could feel someone whom I presumed to
be my friend .Starting to rub up the inside of my thigh. It was such
a sexual feeling. I thought, " That can't be my friend. She wouldn't
touch me like that." Then, I realized my friend was holding my head.
Acrumead crept into my body in such a physical way I was shocked.
His energy did make me think that perhaps I had fallen into bad
company. He had a great zest for life and taught me the value of
biological life. He taught me how to activate my Kundalini energy.
Acrumead taught me about the magic of the natural world and
introduced me to his world of the elements. I revelled in my new
sense of sexual and physical power, making my body strong in
appearance and in grace of movement.
We have a lot of karma with these beings. Encountering these beings
brings up our ancient fear as hundreds of dinosaur films depict. It
is now time to readdress this problem by integrating the 'Lizzies'.
This is a prerequisite for transformation and enlightenment for our
species as a whole.
Acrumead is closely connected with our DNA (deoxyribonucleic acid)
which is the main constituent of the chromosomes of an all
organisms. Acrumead taught me all about the physical form and the
energetic counterparts, the elements. He is an entity such as the
electrons, neutrons, and protons that are the lesser complexes of
Acrumead is closely associated with this realm and exists in the
elements of the body. He is closely connected to the planet and
exists in a simpler, rudimentary level of existence. He is the
environment itself and influences atmospheric conditions and powers
of nature and weather. His energy is dynamic and awesome and a
thrill to have in your body.
He is one of the last aspects to
activate as he allows the recipient to access the spiritual fire
present in the centre of the planet. This powers the physical realm,
allowing manifesting forces to express through physical from. He is
the internal alchemist, transmuting fear into light, lead into gold.
Integrating our Lizzie selves will enable us to heighten our
vibratory state to a higher fifth dimensional world of light.
Ida Crone Woman
Acrumead's electrical body, crackled, hissed, and popped as he flew
through the dense atmosphere. He circled and dived, playing with his
lightning rope that trailed behind him like a lasso of light,
weaving behind him a mighty complex network that resembled a huge
intricate nervous system.
Acrumead lit up the sky like a thousand
flaming torches. His roar, his energy, could be felt from a thousand
miles away and the Gods above him wondered at the creature their
creating had brought. The friction his flight created built, until
with a wink of his blood red eye, he used his tail like a lightning
rod and sent a bolt of lightning to the ground beneath him.
It created a fire of such intensity that the heat that radiated from
it set alight the very rocks that lay all around it. The fire burned
intensely and with passion, consuming the flesh of the land on which
it sat. Eventually, the fire died down until the last embers went
out. All that was left were the ashes of his fire. From this dark
and blackened soot, strong bones of rocks began to stir and with a
click and a clack they formed a being. Acrumead roared in
satisfaction at what he had created. Ida Crone Woman rose from the
very earth itself.
Ida Crone Woman represented the purely physical realm of my nature.
She comes from the planet. She is body of my individual self. She
represents the very building blocks of my body. As beings
self-manifest, they bring with them their history. Ida represented
the physical history of the planet. By activating my crone self, I
was raising the vibration of my physical form.
Ida and Acrumead are of the dense vibrations; these are
misunderstood as being hell. Yet if you pass through the fire, you
will find salvation. You remove all unwanted elements and free
yourself. We, too, will rise and fly in the flames of Spirit,
carrying our natures higher and higher into spiritual realms. These
realms of the earth are heavily guarded by so-called demons. They
prevent those ill prepared from entering. Only those adept, brave,
and centered can pass through the fears and come out into the
heavenly world of light.
When she looked into my eyes, it felt as though she could look into
my body, to the very skeleton. Later, I found out she could. She
rattled her bones at me, making me pay full attention to her. Her
directive was to get me into my body and ground me to the planet. In
healing sessions, I used her energy to re-ground others at the end
of the session. She introduced me to the energy in my bones. She
also realigned me with the structure of the planet. She guided me
through the ancient ancestral knowledge that was in the marrow of my
She led me into the dark cave of my physical body. On base levels,
we are nothing but more rocks and bones. Going deeper within myself,
I thought I was going backwards. She made me realize that my journey
was about taking the white light of my God aspect, my ' I AM ', and
taking it down through all the levels to plant it into the darkest
part of the planet.
There are, in fact, many ways to God. She allowed me to honor my
body and made me realize that I had slowed my progress by wanting to
get out of this dense realm. Ida, through transformation processes
is transforming her-self from a carbon element to a diamond that is
capable of housing the light of God. A prism, the diamond of the
bodily self, will radiate light, as does God. Our transformation
will be completed and we will have a diamond body, which is
Ida and Acrumead and those of their dense realms
are widely misunderstood by religion as being the realms of hell
fire and damnation. Yet to pass through the fire of purification, to
remove all unwanted elements, is to free oneself. We will, like the
Phoenix, rise and fly in the flames of spirit, carrying our natures
higher into spiral realms.
Ida Crone woman, bare foot soles like leather, set off on her
journey. Black and barren was the land that lay all around her.
Harsh was the wind as it wailed her song. She rattled her bones that
she kept in a leather pouch around her neck.
Ida, head down with unfailing determination, set off on her quest to
find the Sacred Mountain. With her wild, purposeful eye, she
gathered her cloak around her to keep out the cruel and biting wind.
In her desolation, she was all alone. As she rattled her bones, she
beat her pathway to the foot of the Sacred Mountain and came to the
mouth of a dark and ancient cave. This cave led deep down to the
very centre of the planet Earth.
With a wild cackle, she entered the foreboding cave, aware of the
danger, and yet defiant in her way. The darkness lay all around her.
The walls of the caves breathed an unseen breath, and she went
deeper and deeper down into the earth cave of the Mother, entering
into a cavern that lay at the very centre of the Earth. Crone woman
danced the sacred spiral dance, laughing like one who is mad.
Shaking her very bones, she whirled round and round. Drunk as in
trance, she beat an ancient rhythm into the hard rock that lay at
Out of the rhythm she had danced, out of the darkness, came a new
being, the hidden Shadow One. Ta-Tum-Bi was his name. Opening her
eyes, Ida could see that the light that shone from his eyes was the
light of the Star, The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons.
Pulling his midnight cloak about him, and with ancient hands, he
drummed out a new rhythm, a new idea that was sent from the Source.
The earth shook with its new rhythm, awakening to hear its new heart
beat. Gaia with her new pulse, awoke and in her awakening, her
dreams became real. Paradise was born. Where once there had lay
black and dark mountains, now stood crystal temples, shining in the
sun. Trees bore fruit and flower and everywhere looked like an
eternal springtime. The birds sang their songs, full of rejoicing.
The creators looked down from above. They knew their mission was
complete. The whole universe rang out in song, a song of joy at the
beauty of the landscape of the Soul.
Ta-Tum-Bi was the next and final aspect in the pattern that was
emerging. It seemed to me that there were so many levels, so many
aspects. It seemed that I had taken an idea from the highest aspect
of myself and, now, I was finally coming to the final aspect. It is
hard to write anything about him, as he is the unmanifested aspect
of myself. God has two faces, one being self and the other being the
unmanifested self, the tonal and the nagual, All THAT CAN BE NAMED
and all that cannot.
Ta-Tum-Bi sits in the very centre of the planet. As he sat quietly
and steadily in my body, I realized that he was the one with whom I
was most familiar. He had always been there, sitting, waiting for
the idea from the Source to travel through the levels to settle
lightly in his rich and potent soil. As he opened his eyes, the
light that shone forth was the same light as Alloya. He showed me
how to see the landscape of the Soul in the land around my home. I
could see and experience myself as the landscape. It was an awesome
He is anti-matter. Anti-matter is a hypothetical form of matter
composed of anti-particles. An anti-particle is an elementary
particle that has the mass as its corresponding particle, but with
its opposite charge and opposite magnetism. Anti-matter is like
negative space as opposed to positive space which is occupied by
something. Negative space is theoretically there, and yet it is not
something you can see. It is something not being there.
He showed me
how to create New Planet Reality, to dream my dream awake.
My friend and I spent an evening together. We knew that it was going
to be a special night as the atmosphere was alive with our guides.
As the evening wore on, each self came into my body, danced through
me and then the next aspect would come in and dance and merge with
the previous energy. Finally, one by one, they merged with the other
energies within my body.
One final dance and they settled
comfortably in my body. I then knew that the process was complete.
As the realization entered my mind, I was reminded of a piece of
channeling the Star had given me.
The entering of power into your body will activate the reunion of
the self. We see time as a point in space, a dot. This dot
represents the individual Spirit. Out of this dot travel lines of
force, which penetrate the dimensions surrounding it. Each line sets
up individual focal points. They take on a life of their own, some
believing they are the only one. Spirit pulls on the lines to
connect all the multi-selves. This is to reabsorb the energetic
signature of each self.
We see this reunion as a party where all the focal points are
invited to attend. They are asked as separate selves. As the party
commences, a strange attraction sets up between the selves and they
find themselves in couples and the dancing begins again. Moved by
the presence of the other, the transference and combination of the
essences begins to make all couples become one. As the couples
regroup through attraction once more, the guests reduce in number.
This continues until 'self ' stands opposite 'self ', two halves of
the same whole. They embrace in the ecstatic union.
As they swirl together, the energetic structures create a whole
being, Alloya +. You will ascend as an encoded pattern, which will
catapult you into the next dimensional journey. I was amazed. It had
been written all along. So the integration of 'self ' was complete.
Wow! What a journey!
Where I would go next was anybody's guess.
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