I, Alloya, I am the Oneness.
In my myriad expressions, I am many
things. I have an infinite amount of expressions, some physical,
others without shape or form. Some of my expressions are so abstract
that human minds would be stretched to imagine them. You could say
that I am a Super Hybrid and so are you.
If you are reading this, you are at the level where you are
beginning to become aware of the integration of the multi-selves.
Before you embark upon your adventure, there are certain principles
that you would do well to follow. Throw out your ideas of separation
and view everything and everyone as a mirror expression of who you
are. Do not search for answers through the rational mind, but
through the imagination and intuition. Integrate the beings that you
work with; look at them as if they are not separate to you and you
will be amazed at what occurs. We are calling you to a point in time
where you will integrate fully, all levels and move back into the
Oneness of who you really are.
It is not mine to say that each and every one of you will experience
the integration process in exactly the same way, for each self is
uniquely creative. What I can say is the energy that brings this
integration of the selves is a divine, evolutionary force that moves
through the dimensions. It is a creative spark that triggers
movement in the evolutionary path of species. These forces move as
waves through creative forces that belong to your planet and
activate within the DNA dormant codes designed to fire off at this
time in your history. This pulls all the multi-selves into a
dimensional reality where they can merge and become one.
Your planet is holding this frequency for you, to support the
integration of the selves. This is why your world is so important.
It is the only place where you can achieve this full process and yet
stay in human physical form. What a uniquely creative process!
It would be wise at this juncture to ask you to refer to the text
contained in the first part of the book, The Mission of the One Star
The book takes you on a journey through the various levels all the
way back to the Universal Dreamer. It gives you the flavor of what
the other realities have to offer and the type of communication you
can experience of these other dimensions. It also introduces you to
the energy of the various twelve selves that the channel is aware of
integrating. It is as if you are getting to know the various selves
that make up a hybrid. This is meant to allow others reading this to
tune into their own integration process. For there is nothing like
personal experience to awaken others to their own expression of this
For years I wanted to write down my experiences, but I found it
almost impossible due to the fact I was still physically integrating
my selves. Now, I can get it in order on paper as I get it into
order within myself. I am balancing these selves within me and
allowing their talents and abilities to channel through me as my own
gifts. I am now ready to tell my story.
It all started with
Shektar, my guardian angel. Shektar told me that
I was to undergo a series of initiations that would ground into my
physical body my Super Hybrid self, my multi-selves. Each of these
selves or aspects of my greater self introduced itself to me through
using inner dialogue, visual explanation, and as the integration
proceeded, emotional recognition. Through my interaction with each
self, I learned about the beings' history, where they came from,
what type of being they were, and how they experienced their
reality. Each self seemed to be unique in their gifts, talents, and
abilities. After hours of channeling their energies, I began to see
how unique and yet how integrated they all were.
After their initial introduction, they would, over time, walk in and
out of my body, each experience bringing its own tests and lessons.
The lessons would manifest in my outside world. My friends and those
around me would seem to play out symbolic type scenarios in order
for me to learn more about each aspect. My friends would seem to
represent one particular aspect of self, so that I could see myself
mirrored in them. In the early stages of this process, I thought I
was going mad. Yet curiosity took over and I threw caution to the
wind and surrendered to what was occurring.
The lessons came in many different forms and all sorts of situations
began to manifest in order for me to learn what I needed to learn.
If no one was around to be a mirror for me, then the television and
music was the next best thing. I would be having a conversation with
one aspect, and the next minute, a lyric in a song I was listening
to would answer any question so perfectly, I would laugh out loud.
Newsreaders would almost look as if they were going to wink any
minute to give the game away.
That's what it felt like, a game, a very funny cosmic joke. If we
are God, then we are everything, and everyone and I was being shown
just that in my outside reality. I wanted to jump up and down and
tell everyone what I was experiencing, but much to my horror, they
did not have a clue what I was talking about. I was alone in this.
Was I mad?
I investigated this phenomenon and discovered how there are many
levels of perception on which to operate. On the level of most human
beings, magi-cal, spiritual occurrences such as I was experiencing
were either not real or were evidence of insanity.
Surrendering to the madness, I soon discovered that each self 's
initiation lead naturally on to the next. I was healing various
levels of my being as each self took me through a period of lessons
and tests. On completion of each set of lessons, the self would walk
into my body and stay and integrate itself into my physical form. I
would go through an intense period where my conscious awareness
would be shared with this new and unique aspect.
Each self had its own unique way of looking at reality, its own
perception, and a unique way of experiencing itself. We played
together and shared each other's experience. Each self had a
vibration frequency on which it operated. Some of the aspects seemed
to work very much on the spiritual levels; others on the mental,
emotional, and physical. Some operated on a combination of all four.
Each self brought with it talents and abilities that manifested
mainly in my healing work and my everyday interaction with those
around me. Each self upon completion would bring in its own color
ray that it worked upon. For that period I would be obsessed with
the color, seeing it everywhere I went. This helped my body
familiarize itself with the frequency of that particular aspect. I
learned a very deep level of information about colors and how they
affect my being.
As I integrated more selves, I began to see a pattern forming. The
first stages of the process were the introductions on a spiritual
and mental level. Then, later on, came the emotional and physical
level. It was at the stage of
the physical body level that I began to become
I was shown that the best way to integrate these energies was to
dance. This allowed the energies to flow naturally around my body.
Each self had its own dance and movement. By surrendering to their
energies, I was amazed to see myself dance intricate hand movements.
It felt like I was weaving new pat-terns into my auric field, new
patterns that would allow the next self to layer itself upon.
As the process proceeded, I realized that each self correlated with
the chakra system and even though they all encompassed the whole
system, they seemed to relate to one particular chakra. By using
particular breathing techniques and by focusing on the various
centers, I could activate the self.
I soon found that I was automatically calling upon the appropriate
self whose talents were perfect for the situation I was in. Each
self lead on to the next as I watched the original idea of myself
start off from the highest level, the level of Alloya, through the
many levels to manifest finally on the densest, in the centre of the
On completion of the integration of each self, I would be given a
gift that somehow represented the particular self's energies. I
would place this in a special place in my healing room. It was only
when all my selves were complete did the story of their making come
through me. I was given a brief story for each one, symbolic story
to represent the various dimensions and the selves that lived upon
them. I feel that in story form their true natures are revealed. I
hope you enjoy their stories as much as I have had living them.
In the beginning there was only darkness, a velvety void that held
an unlimited, an undefined potential. The void lay sleeping, unaware
that it could dream that it could be. There was no direction, no
movement, no limits, and no boundaries. The omnipotent omnipresence
lay unconscious, unaware of itself. From this nothing, this void,
this nagual, came the ALL THAT IS, all that can be named.
The void began to stir. No one really knows why or how, but one day
the void had a thought, an inspirational
idea. This idea created sound and out of this sound and movement
came an inspired spark of light, a mighty nucleus, and an awesome
star was born, The Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons, each moon
being a dimensional universe of realities.
For the first time in the void, out of the nothing, came something.
The void recognized itself dreaming and for the first time this
awesome force knew itself as the Universal Dreamer. With a point of
light in a sea of darkness, there was now a reference point. The
Universal Dreamer gave this Star the ability to create. Out of this
Star, individual beams of light were sent into the darkness. These
beams went out and created more of itself and Alloya Ye Ra Har was
born. Her light spiraled and wove intricate patterns in the
The presence of the Star seemed to be around me a lot during this
period of the integration. I had a constant strange buzzing in my
ears. Or was it my whole head? I didn't know. I felt strange. The
most amazing feelings would subtly ripple through my body. It was a
strange sensation, very alien and foreign to my body. It was oddly
I would be sitting at home when it would come into the room. The
light would go very funny and the hairs on my arms would stand on
end. I would feel very 'not of this earth'. My perception would
change. I was accessing some incredibly high being or beings. I was
As they drew their consciousness and mine closer together, the
strange code in my head began to unfold. It is hard to describe the
state of consciousness I was in. I felt like all my thoughts had
calmed to the point of stillness, and that my awareness of myself
was purely automatic. I felt very calm, and yet my breathing was
shallow and fast. I seemed somehow unattached from my body and its
breathing. I felt really dreamy and my eyes were very off-focused
and I had very large pupils. Words began to form but they were too
fast to comprehend. I could literally feel it trying to tune into me
more and more. I was aligning myself to it.
One night, I sat down and started to write, 'What am I?'
page, and I wrote the first thing that came into my head, The Star
That Illuminates a Thousand Moons. The very next night my friend
loaned me a computer and the very next day, I started to write.
opening lines were,
"Hello and greetings Gaian beings. We have been
waiting a long time to communicate to you. You might be thinking,
'Who are we?' We are imagination in its first form. We are the
energy behind the urge to look into the unknown. We are the
curiosity behind the need for wisdom. We group together as a Soul
consciousness. We channel through the manifestation of a focal point
that can best be symbolically described as a Star. The energy from
the Star illuminates a thousand moons of imagination."
They were The
Star That Illuminates a Thousand Moons.
Months went by. Literally every evening they would come, and I would
find myself writing until the early hours. The information was
incredible. They explained how they were a group, a collective
"A collective consciousness is a group of beings or
energies that come together, and in their interaction, they create a
being or entity that is made up of many. Yet it experiences itself
as one singular identity. We become the 'I' and individualize our
being when relating to you."
Over the weeks of writing, we covered many topics. They talked about
how they were a vector,
"a vector is a coming together of energies
in a harmonious, creative and transformational way to create a force
that has magnitude and direction."
They helped me understand how
they were like a chakra in the body of God. They communicated
pictures to me to help me understand more fully. They talked in some
detail about the nature of the universe and consciousness, and how
our DNA was transforming us into light.
I was not shocked by anything that I wrote as it all seemed like I
already knew it, even though I knew that I
didn't. They covered information about how their energy affects our
planet and how they were dreamers dreaming our existence. They
talked about ET' s and about how they lived on different
frequencies. They talked about how I was one of these beings
incarnate in human form. I knew that was true.
They talked in detail
about the mechanics of the transformation of the cells of our
bodies. They talked about the other dimensions and how we have an
aspect of ourselves on each one. This made sense. I was both Shektar
and myself. They were different 'me's' on other dimensions. As well
as writing the information, I was given pictures and feelings in
information to enable me to fully understand what they were talking
Some books talk about how we all have a Spirit name that describes
our true nature. I knew some people who had changed their names to
their Spirit name and it had brought them both liberation yet it had
also ultimately made them social outcasts. Nevertheless, I wanted to
discover mine. I decided that I would set to it that very next day
.I didn't have to wait that long.
I was listening to some amazing
techno music when this sound came from nowhere. As it began to slow
down, I realized it was words. Then all of a sudden the words became
clear. It was my name, "ALLOYA YE RA HAR." I wrote it down and said
it out loud. In that moment, I knew that I was the Star and its name
was Alloya, my Spirit.
Then the communication became crystal clear. I heard this voice loud
"If you break up her name, her message is revealed.
'All-o-ya'... 'all of you' ... 'Ye' is old English for 'you' ...
'Ra' means 'to radiate', and 'Har' means 'life force'. Alloya Ye Ra
Har, all of you, you radiate life force."
The voice went on to
explain that she was my complete aspect of myself on all levels. She
holds within her all my aspects. She is a focal point in the body of
God. She is my aspect of God. My ' I AM'.
Alloya has many forms on many levels. A few images spring to my mind
to describe her energy. One is a great Star of all the colors of
the rainbow, vibrant and pulsating, radiating energy into the
darkness of space. Surrounding it, there are a thousand moons that
stretch into infinity in all directions. Each moon looks like a
shiny, reflective metal ball, reflecting the colors of the Star.
The Star expresses itself as one being, as Alloya, in order to
communicate and interplay with you. She radiates lines of herself as
starlight to criss-cross upon the surface of the moons. As these
lines criss-cross, individual focal points are created. Each one
experiences itself as individual, and yet each point is also part of
Alloya, the Oneness. They experience themselves as many different
levels of awareness and transfer their information of experience
back to Alloya and, thus, back to God.
The voice went on the say that I was a Super Hybrid that was made up
of twelve aspects, from twelve different places in the universe. If
I were to draw a line from each of these places into the middle,
they would cross to form a six-pointed star.
Another image that can describe her is the image I saw in the
"Who am I and what does my Spirit look like?" I asked one
I was totally amazed at what I saw forming in the mirror. My
face completely changed until I could see a beautiful yet terrifying
face looking back at me. I was not human, but extraterrestrial.
Large almond shaped eyes seemed to penetrate me to the core of my
being ,a strange elongated head ... bald with shimmering scales that
seemed to cover my entire face. They were iridescent. As I looked
closer, I could see an intricate nervous system just under the skin
that seemed to have light traveling along it.
The being that I was seeing was awesome. As I stood there, my Spirit
communicated straight into my body information that would later
surface to guide me along my journey. I realized that what I was
seeing was a symbolic image to describe and explain my spiritual
nature. It took me some time to pull myself from the mirror, my body
strangely excited and scared all at the same time. That was the
beginning of my journey.
My rational mind went into overload.
just a hallucination, a good one but only a hallucination," it kept
saying over and over again.
It was the only way I could handle it.
You see, I had seen things before, but they weren't real and I knew
it. This, however, was very different. You see I had inklings that I
was somehow not human. It sounds crazy because I have a very average
human body but my Soul is very different.
When I was a small child my Mother would find me sitting on my
windowsill in the early hours of the morning, looking out at the
"That is where I really live," I replied when my Mother asked
me what I was doing.
I always had the idea that I was from another
place or planet, a place that was very different to the one I now
inhabited. My home was made of light, and was so full of love, that
planet Earth seemed cruel and devoid of love. I found it very
difficult to exist in this world.
I was a very sensitive child; I could pick up on much different
energy and could communicate with Fairies and the energies of the
trees. As I grew up, I felt very out of place, as if I didn't
belong. I had a strange yearning to be somewhere else. This caused
me lots of pain as I grew up.
As I entered my teenage years, I had painfully learned that it was
easier on the psyche if I closed down my sensitivity and protected
myself. Looking at the face in the mirror only confirmed my
suspicions that I was, in fact, an alien. Can you imagine what that
does to the many levels that make up the self? I am sure that
without the love of this being, my body would have frozen in fear at
the prospect of realizing that it was housing a completely alien
I was excited and scared. My rational mind was totally confused and
kept hiding beyond my impeding doubt. However, within the chaos of
all these mixed emotions, I was overwhelmed by the response of my
heart. It literally sang. Tears flowed down my cheeks, tears of joy,
tears of knowing. I could not deny its message. It rippled through
my very being. It was real and it was true. I was from somewhere
else, somewhere far away.
Alloya showed herself to me in this form to make me curious as to
where I got such almond shaped eyes. She was made up of many
different aspects. These characteristics led me to discover all the
many selves that make up Alloya. Her energy was all consuming for
me. Electrifying energy ran up and down my spine. The integration of
her took many months and was one of the hardest aspects to
Issues of being separated from my true source, God, were very much
up for me. The lessons to heal through were about loneliness and
isolation, feelings from childhood. She was very difficult to
integrate into my physical body. I found that to break through the
blocks to her energy, I had to tone high-pitched sounds and later to
tone her name. This left me feeling shaky and emotionally
heightened. Tears of loneliness overwhelmed me.
She gave me a sense of self beyond the mundane physical realm. I had
to widen my perspective to encompass the idea that I was an aspect
of God. I was a universal entity experiencing itself on many levels.
I was introduced into my magnificence and allowed to see the world
and its reality through eyes that were far above ideas of judgment
and beyond polarities. I began to understand from this high
perspective my true purpose of being here on this planet.
Alloya taught me how to honor my true nature and feel and take on
my highest power and learn to use discernment in the way I lived my
life. She taught me the true meaning of life and death and allowed
me to truly feel the eternal nature of my soul.
Sharing my consciousness with this all-knowing, omnipresent entity
allowed me to see with new eyes. Alloya gave me a trust in God and
the universe. She showed me my true nature as herself, and this
allowed me to know myself as God.
The Creator, Alloya Ye Ra Har, lay dreaming and in her dreaming she
wandered into as yet an unformed part of creation. At first it was
all dark. As the creator opened her eyes, the light that shone from
within shone out into the darkness, forming two mighty stars. They
were Astrata and Astrea; their love warmed the darkness. They
watched with curiosity as the worlds formed around them. As galaxies
were born and planets formed, Astrata and Astrea watched and waited.
They watched as worlds created new potential, new beings, new
One such experience was the union of love to create a third, the
child. They pondered the possibility of their performing such an act
that would create a child from their union. They realized through
their observation that in order to create such a being; a little of
them would have to be given as a sacrifice in the name of their
love. Separating from themselves created an incomplete feeling
At first they were content to bathe in each other's
light. Now, they yearned to be with each other once more. Their
yearning to be with each other, their movement, created a magnetic
force, polarizing them into positive and negative forces, spiraling
them into a vortex of love.
In the dance of their love, the energy swirled around them, creating
movement and sound in creation. Their light reflected patterns of
light and sound and form. Within the spirals of love, the gifts they
had given combined to create the third, the child, the star child.
Astrata gave of his positive vibration and Astrea gave of her
negative vibration. This combined male and female created the child.
As they watched with awe, the blending of the colors, the blues and
the greens, swirled around and back upon themselves. They were
amazed to see the glistening of a new color, the silver of the
Within this grand display, an exquisite sound could be heard. From
the spiral of Astrata, the sound whispered out the song he had given
as his gift; from the spiral of Astrea, the song, thunderous and
loud. The beauty of the colors and the wonders of the sounds began
to form the child, Astara.
At first, she resembled her parents and the energies of love they
had given. She was a Star in a double spiral of
sound and color. Using her rainbow mind, she pondered, as had
Astrata and Astrea once be-fore her, about the possibility of her
creating a world, too. As her parents had done before her, she split
a part of herself away as a gift and sent it to create a New World.
As the gift which resembled a spark of light fell into time and
creation, it landed and solidified, forming a bluey-green sphere of
blissful love. Astrata looked upon her newly formed creation and
great love filled her heart. She watched in awe as the essences of
love formed the beautiful sphere of light and sound. As she watched,
a thought began to murmur through her mind. "What was it to be
named?" "Unesseia," was the reply.
Astrata, Astrea and Astara. These aspects are integral parts of each
other. Astrata, male energy, and Astrea, female energy, combined
make Astara. They are representatives of the Antares star system.
They are light beings, the consciousness of the stars themselves.
They are my Stellar Source. They feel like they come from the
future. They are what I will become in another existence. They have
an understanding of the intricately complex matrix, which is our
universal dimensional reality. They are universal consciousness.
They represent the light body, which is the vehicle into which we
are transforming in order to travel through different dimensions.
Sharing myself with this consciousness was very unique. They showed
me where I really sourced from in this universe, and gave me a base
from which I began my journey as an experimental Soul. They gave me
access to my greater self. Having a new perspective allowed me to
see beyond judgment to the many layers that are our relationships.
They taught me how to align to my light body and also realign others
to theirs. To do this, I had to dance intricate patterns with my
arms and hands. I could literally weave new pat-terns into the
etherical body, aligning the body to light. They had visited me; or
rather I had visited them, way back in the early part of my journey.
However, it was much later that I met them again and forged a new
relationship with them.
Several years previously, I had been lying on a couch having a
kinesiology session. The woman had placed a crystal at my feet that
instantly made me feel incredibly heavy. She then put a beautiful
crystal at my head. I closed my eyes. I could feel the couch moving
as if it were a hospital trolley. I saw lights pass over my head. I
thought, "Where on Earth am I?".
I saw Zeta in the distance. Then I was on this operating table. I
was on a ship. I wanted to have a look around but a being (Astrata)
"You are not supposed to see this. You are
supposed to be asleep on this level."
The being seemed so familiar
and loving even though it had an enormous head and an almost praying
mantis type body!
I looked down and could see that I was being operated upon. My
etherical body, at least I think it was, was open its whole length.
They were taking something out and putting a new part in. The parts
looked like fuses. The new one going in was glowing with light. The
whole experience was so real (see also 'Realignment to Light
Technology'). Yet it was much later in my journey that I came across
these beings again.
They are a navigation system, which is contained within my DNA and
light body. The light body is a higher vibration representative of
the DNA chains. The highways of light that I see as the DNA spirals
link all of God's creation as one. They give me a unique awareness
of my place in the universe and to my Stellar Source. Seeing myself
as a greater whole enabled me to free myself from the feelings of
isolation that had hindered me all my life. I came to know them as
my true Home selves.
Living out of the realms of time showed me how to use this level of
imagination to travel interdimensionally. They taught me how to
align my light body and integrate my light body, which is a
spiritual blueprint of a future vision.
They taught me how to rewire the etherical body to align the light
body. To do this, I dance intricate hand movements, programming
energy directly into the DNA. I was able to remove dark karmic
patterns that resembled dark, cloudy masses within the etherical
I began to see through their eyes, which saw throughout the
whole of existence.
Unesseia was a translucent blurry-green sphere, the heavenly home of
the stars. Upon this sphere lived an ancient race of beings,
ethereal in nature, called the Unesseia which means 'unified
essences'. They lived a transient existence, expressing themselves
as separate non-physical entities for only a short length of time
before they returned to the singular all encompassing energy of
They created themselves as thoughts, thoughts of their sphere. They
differentiated and transformed themselves into exemplar entities
existing as transparent images of forms, using light that radiated
from their source, the Star. They only existed as ideas, ideas as
living light patterns. Their urge to create these forms was sourced
from the sphere itself. The sphere is the representation of the
energies of the urge to create through love.
The sphere, like the beings that dwelt upon it, were etherical in
nature. It once was a thought; an idea which crystallized into a
denser light pattern which appeared like a misty crystalline
structure. The geometric pattern held the sphere in form and allowed
the unmanifested entities to manifest and appear in this ethereal
dimension. The entities or ideas were the direct creation of the
sphere and the sphere was the direct creation of the Star, the
For aeons they lived on the sphere, emerging and re-merging
themselves with the sphere over and over again. For aeons they lay
sleeping, dreaming in their crystalline realities. One day, it
occurred to them that in order to evolve; they would have to create
a new type of being. Giving a small part of themselves, they fused
and melded their love energies and with a surge of intention they
created a being consistent with their awareness and feelings.
Iteesha was her name.
One beautiful night I was privileged to go Home. I lay back on some
cushions and closed my eyes. The energy around me swirled and moved
me out of my body in spirals. I left the planet and traveled fast
into the darkness of the universe. Moving further and further from
Earth, passing through star gates that were strangely familiar, I
knew that I was no longer in the same dimensional reality as the
universe I was used to experiencing.
Before me in the darkness was my Home. It was a bluey-green Sphere
of light. I cannot describe the feelings of recognition and love
that I had for this place. I was finally Home. As I approached, the
strangest thing happened. I totally merged with the Sphere. I was
made of the same substance and was totally one with it. I learned
that the beings on this Sphere were an ancient race of beings,
ethereal in form. They were totally one with their Home, only
emerging in temporary form to dive within once more.
Finding the true Source of my Soul, my true Home Sphere, was both a
liberating and painful experience for me. The emotions and vibratory
rate of the Sphere was almost too overwhelming. Every breath I took
sent waves of energy washing over my body. I cried out in pain. I
was dropped into a conscious awareness of what it was like to be a
swirling mass of color, light, and sound. The energies swirled and
twisted constantly. With every movement, it rippled out into my
auric field. The whole experience moved me to the very depths of my
emotions. I was totally unaware that I was capable of such deep
feelings. I could experience myself as a substance that was capable
of shimmering through other bodies like cosmic wind. The sensations
this produced were truly amazing.
Working with this aspect was an opportunity for me to experience
more, and learn about what I really was. It was a very challenging
time for me, having to heal out issues that were not only connected
to my Soul's wounds, but also corresponded with the issues in this
earthly lifetime. I could literally see my personality changing,
becoming released from fear and gaining a sense of self-love.
Up to this point, it was only me who had these experiences. No one
else had experienced my being any different. At this time, I was
very frightened to show it to anyone. A number of fears prevented me
from sharing myself. I was afraid that it was all in my head, and
that no one else would experience it. I was afraid that they would
reject me. This was a wound currently in my personality, an
ingrained fear of rejection.
One evening, whilst dining with a friend, we got on to the subject
of what we thought we were on a soul level. I explained to her how I
thought I was not human on a soul level and, in fact was an alien.
She said, "Show me." Afraid to show the whole room, I told her to
come into the kitchen, where I would show her. My friend and I stood
looking at each other in anticipation. "OK," I said.
I closed my eyes and breathed in deeply. The fear was uppermost.
Then, all of a sudden, out of nowhere, my aspect appeared. I opened
my eyes and peered out. My friend stood looking in disbelief, amazed
at what she saw. Then I saw the realization flick across her face.
"Oh my God!" she cried. "She really is an alien."
She went to cry
out in fear just as I reached out to her heart and whispered,
"Please." She overcame the initial response of fear and gazed with
tears running down her cheeks at me as my ET self looked out of my
The energy was too much for me, as was the love I experienced in
those moments. My friend and I will never forget it, the first time
I had the courage to show my true self. Over the next few months,
many of my closer friends who were open to see saw my Soul looking
out with alien eyes. There was confirmation from every angle. I
could no longer deny who I was.
Months drifted by whilst I came to terms with my find, and slowly I
gained the courage to explore this new
concept. I began to open up myself to the energies of this new Soul
aspect. The information flooded in; concepts on God, the universe
and everything seemed to flow in on this new energy. I began to
write, keeping a complex journal that only I could understand. Any
one else reading it would think it was the journal of a madman.
You see writing had always been my passion, and, as of late, I had
begun to explore poetry. The poems just seemed to flow from me in
one stream of consciousness. They were beautiful; they talked about
other worlds. I used this medium to express the overwhelming
feelings of sadness that I had about being here and not being on my
sphere of love. I must admit I was slightly melodramatic.
higher perspective I can easily see that I perpetuated my pain. The
pain was sweet and writing reams and reams of poems expressing how I
felt seemed to be the most creative thing to do. It helped me really
get in touch with this aspect of my higher self. I would call her
down by sending my intent up into the stratosphere. I would feel her
arrive from a great distance, and with a 'whoosh' of energy, she
would enter my body for only a matter of seconds. Yet that was
She would move me to tears, the energy rushing up and down my spine.
It was strange; it was both painful and ecstatic. My body would
respond to her in a very strange way. I would get the overwhelming
urge to make sound. I began to tone the most incredible tones. They
were incredibly high pitched and dynamic, nothing like the tones I
had heard at toning workshops. In the workshops, it seemed as though
people were holding predetermined notes that were at the usual pitch
of their voice. These were different. They were almost like dolphin
sounds but much higher, far out of the range of my usual singing
As I experimented with this new talent, I realized that I was
actually communicating in a strange and alien language, a language
that only I could understand. I would sit in my room for hours
making these tones, much to the annoyance of my husband. It was very
painful, the yearning growing and growing. I felt so alone. As I
aligned more and more with this being of self, I felt less and less
earthy and more well, extraterrestrial.
Working with this aspect was
a very liberating thing for me to do; it seemed to answer so many of
my questions such as "Who am I?" and "Where do I come from?" I was
beginning to really see who I was. Her visits to me became more and
more frequent, the channels opening, more communication coming in
with much more clarity. Slowly, my discoveries started to make
sense, filling in more and more gaps.
My communication with
Shektar waned at this time due to my
fascination with my Soul aspect, and yet, through it all, I could
feel her loving embrace protecting me and supporting me. I had yet
another new friend. Working closely with my Soul aspect I realized
and remembered information about my Soul. It mainly came in
pictures, visions, and feelings. Through these pictures, I learned
that my home planet's inhabitants were called the Unesseia,
They are the origins of my beginning as a perceivable entity, my
true Soul Source. My Home Sphere is the place in the universe that I
can call Home. This self is the original self, the blueprint which
is the framework on which all the other selves were patterned upon.
The Unesseia exist on a dimension that is only just perceivable to
our senses. You could say they are a thought. If a thought were
physical, then that is what they are. They are an intrinsical part
of the Sphere. They are multidimensional; they can access
information from both the past, present, and future.
Sometimes, on a beautiful day whilst looking at the bluey-green of
the sea near my home, I would get a sense of their presence,
unmanifested, non-physical and invisible to me, yet real
nevertheless. They are a very lone expression of entities. I get the
feeling that they experience themselves as contained within the
realms of their Sphere. Whilst visiting their realm in my
imagination, I discovered that they resemble the misty blues and
greens of their Sphere. It is as if they are vapors. They do not
form into one set form,
but change and transform constantly. They take on vague bodies,
sometimes resembling humanoids.
Whilst working with them, I noticed a strange thing. They seemed to
enter my reality through a centre based a foot to two feet above my
head. While I was meditating upon this centre or chakra, a sphere
not unlike my home would appear above my head. I would reach up with
my consciousness and activate the centre. Bliss would flow down into
my body. I just had to surrender to their energies. I would feel
this free falling sensation. Opening this chakra seemed to send me
in a new direction of fascination, the fascination with colors.
Working closely with the bluey-green ray, I was totally amazed by the
vibrations of colors.
The loneliness that I felt in this stage of my life was very
overpowering. I really thought that I was somehow lost, out of
place. As I used to say to my best friend, it is as if I came here
on holiday and missed the bus home. I felt abandoned and forgotten.
Were their any others like me with this strange notion that they
Spirit had obviously heard my cries for help. Soon after, I found
myself sitting down in front of a video by Extraterrestrial Earth
Mission. They were a group of Americans who considered themselves to
be ET incarnate. I couldn't believe it when I read their literature.
They were basically saying all that I had learned over the past few
They start to tone, drawing in and
channeling their what
now I call their ET selves. I couldn't believe it! They toned the
same as I did. I cried tears of recognition, as I knew exactly what
they were saying. In those few minutes, I realized how these tones
were a universal language to express the energetic nature of the
being that was doing the toning. It is simply saying, "I am and I am
here." It is like an energetic signature. I was hooked. I wanted to
Mostly, I needed feedback on my ideas and they fitted the bill.
I borrowed all their literature and began to read. They talked about
all that I knew, some consciously, some information that was just
surfacing into my awareness. I listened to their channeled tapes
and began to piece together even more information about what I was.
The phrase that they used constantly and stills rings through me
even now is,
"You are the universe ex-pressing itself at a single
This concept amazed me. I seemed to understand it on such a deep
level that my rational mind was confused as to how I knew such a
thing. I had known it all along since I was a very small child. When
I was about four years old, I couldn't sleep; this was a constant
problem for my parents. I am lying in bed, wondering about life.
When I asked,
" Who am I?" the answer was loud and clear. "You are a
dot, a dot in space. You imagine all that you experience, pretend,
sight, sound, taste, touch and hearing. Prove your parents and your
I understood it completely. I was, in fact, in my childish fashion
talking about being God and creating all experience. It didn't phase
me at the time; I took it on board as if it were the most natural
thing to think. It was only later in my life that I realized what a
profound concept to have, let alone for the likes of a four-year-old
child who couldn't sleep.
The Unesseia took me upon an amazing journey of discovery. It was
the discovery of the many layers of colors, and how each one held a
certain frequency. I began to see certain colors and shapes
occurring more and more in my life. The Unesseia made me aware of
the ritualistic significance of everything that was coming into my
life. They showed me how pictures, stones, ornaments, all have great
teachings and secrets to tell.
Everywhere I went, messages from
spirit were appearing, calling, attracting my attention.
As Iteesha opened her eyes and looked around her; she was
amazed at the beauty of her Sphere, the home in which she had never
been separate. Never before had she had the level of consciousness
to comprehend the Sphere as separate from her. Living a transient
existence, she had an always re-merged her consciousness into the
sphere. Never before had she had this perspective.
She scanned the surrounding universe, dark in space. She was amazed
at her Godlike source, the Star, which could be seen in the far off
distance. Her consciousness spread wide and far. Her newly created
mind was capable of reading the entire local universe in detail. She
was awestruck; she took no delay in investigating all the wonderful
creation that seemed to lie all around her.
Energy pulsations and waves of light swept past her, waves of
Almighty Ocean. She stood in awe of all the wonders of all the
sights and sounds she observed. She wished to share this newly found
perspective with her loved ones, The Unesseia. With tears welling up
in her eyes, she was overcome with grief as she realized that she
could not return and re-merge with the Sphere. She was separated
forever from those she loved. Alone, she stood, staring out to space
and for the first time, a thought rippled and pulsated from the core
of her being out into the darkness that lay all around her.
The shock of seeing her very thoughts rippling out and affecting the
surrounding space sent her heart racing and made her breathing
shallow and nervous. Not sure whether to feel fear or exhilaration
at her new found ability, she stood holding her breath, unable to
decide how she should proceed. A murmur, a whisper, a message, a
sign was coming from far off in space from her Source, the Star. The
message could be felt deep within her heart.
"Go forth and create
new worlds and new beings like those before you."
I dreamed a strange dream. I was in this ancient Indian temple with
a beautiful statue of Kali in pride of place. This woman pressed
hard into my neck and I passed out. All went blue and I heard this
"What is your name on your home planet?" I awoke
Even though I can see myself in all aspects that I have discovered,
I hold Iteesha in my heart as the dearest. She moved me to tears
every time she walked into my body. Her innocence, her grace, her
loving presence was enough to make me swoon. She seemed to shimmer
through my body. She resembled the misty blues and greens of her
home planet; she was Soul aspect, now named. Her energy was cold and
frosty. It made me catch my breath. She seemed to represent death to
my physical form, being Soul energy.
Of course, my body found this difficult to handle. So, was it any
wonder she would make me want to hold my breath and stare in
disbelief. I became her for quite some months. I felt a level of
sensitivity and vulnerability that was new and exciting. It was also
very uncomfortable and frightening. Her perspective was one of
constant reverence and honor to God. Everything about her was in
prayer and praise to God.
She enabled me to firstly feel the intensity of the separation from,
not only her and home planet, but also the severance from God. She
made all my childhood yearnings to go home to the stars come back
with force. She gave me an exciting level of imagination that I
found so inspiring that I spent much of my time day dreaming about
my home world and often went there in imagination. I must admit that
people around me thought I was withdrawing from physical reality and
were a little concerned about me.
Even though she encompassed all my body, I was disturbed to discover
that she found the physical body and its organs somewhat of a
mystery. I went through a rather disturbing period where I found the
whole concept of having a physical body rather alien and
disconcerting. I would peer down at my legs and think, "Oh yes, they
are my legs." Through my interaction with Iteesha, I was taught how
I created my reality with pure loving intent. She taught me how to
activate my crown chakra and reconnect myself to my true Soul
She explained how she was a semi physical being. She is an
intermediate between the higher light realms and the denser
dimensions below her. She is the aspect of self that is untainted
and unstructured by denser levels of awareness. She expresses
herself as the oneness of her world and galaxy in which she lives. I
get a feeling that she and her kind, The Unesseia, are the etherical
counterparts of the Sphere.
She is like The Elohim. She is like the
breath of light and sound. Her energies fuse, penetrate the other
selves, and give them the air to breathe. Her Source centre, the
Sphere, Unesseia, is like a cosmic pump that breathes in and out God's breath. She can shape and mould herself into any self. She can
penetrate expression and carry messages of light to all that
encounter her messages. Her messages were transmitted to me in
pictures and very intense emotions and feelings.
She is a dream weaver; weaving dreams as she flies in consciousness
throughout her area of universal reality. Iteesha travels within her
domain and like a wind that leaves ripples in the sand; she leaves
lines that criss-cross and form a mighty complex matrix which is in
the dimension below.
I had an incredible time integrating this aspect but I was so home
sick that I found myself lying upon my bedroom floor. I felt so
light; I put stones from around my plants on all my major chakras.
Iteesha's energy moved into me and a voice said, "You have
complained for long enough. You can go home. All you have to do is
walk out of your body. Your body will die instantly you leave and
you will go home. Try."
I lifted my dream body arm out of my physical. I knew I could do it.
So I pondered the situation. All of a sudden a feeling of truth
rippled throughout me and I realized that I had been a total drama
queen and didn't want to leave at all. I felt such relief, I laughed
out loud. All my guides around me laughed too. I had passed the test
and again learned a worthy lesson.
This helped me heal a great deal
about being here in a human body.