The Fallen Angel

To write the Lucifer story is a great honor for me for I feel great love in my heart for this being, Lucifer. Before all you religious types out there get the wrong message, I am not in any way a demon worshipper or Satanist. I have no real interest in evil or the Christian version of the story of Lucifer.

All I want to do is tell is the story of Lucifer, as I perceive it and how he has shown it to me. All I ask of you is to see it as a story. For it is a story, a story to allow the reader to get a new perspective on the creation that is occurring on this planet. I ask you to open your hearts wider than ever before, to allow yourselves to feel the energy of this story, for beyond the words there is a beauty that only a completely open and trusting heart can perceive.

For most of us, Lucifer is nothing more than an imaginary character, for the Christians among us; he is the personification of pure evil. For me, I had not even really given him a second thought until I experienced his energy personally.

I wrote about my first experience with Lucifer in 'Multi-Selves and a New Reality', part of which I would like to quote here:

I was taking the light of truth into the darkest place in the universe, to the home of Lucifer, the light that had been downloaded to me via the sun in the daytime. I don't want to get all 'Bible-y' on you, but it was my only way of understanding what was going on. I knew the story of Lucifer and my Spirit used the stories I already knew to aid me in my understanding because I needed to understand and under-stand quickly. He was coming. I can't say that I physically saw him. I didn't need to. Feeling him was quite enough. The fear was impressive. My body shook and I involuntarily made this strange pining sound like an animal does when it's really scared and I couldn't stop.

He filled the entire room. It felt like I was going to die, which was scary in itself, but what was more scary was that without the beliefs of my body, that said this was delusional, I feared that Lucifer would devour me. There is a well known saying that when you are at the bottom of the pit that is when you find God. I was on the edge, like I had never been before. This was one hell of a test. It felt like not only did my life depend on my success, but also symbolically the success of New Planet becoming a reality for everyone in the future was on my shoulders. Near to annihilation, or that is how it felt. I had no where left to turn. I had to face him. So face him I did.

The most incredible thing happened. I saw him as God. It was so simple, if everything is God, then so was Lucifer. I felt the love. It was pure, mine, and mine to give, my divinity. Not only did my soul face and love its enemy, but also so, too, did my ego. We embraced lovingly on an energetic level. I had succeeded. My Spirit explained to me that I had anchored the light into the darkness and now, in time, New Planet Reality would manifest for all.

The process complete, the angels began to sing, I could hear them. The sun of another day rose in the sky. I have always experienced this spiritual ascension process that I seem to be on as a unification of all the aspects of my higher self. Lucifer, I perceived to be yet another aspect, the aspect of self that would not believe self as a divine being of light. This feeling would rack me with doubt and confusion. The energy would come in, and would make me doubt what I had experienced, trying to get me to feel wrong, and worse still, to make me feel evil.

It tested me to the fullest and enabled me to shift through level upon level of fear. Here, in the climax of my experience, I could transform our relation-ship and move into a forgiving, non-judgmental perspective of a being that has been hated and loathed for many millennia. Scared as I was, I wanted to be different. I wanted to see the love everywhere, even in the most unlovable energy of all of God's creation, in Lucifer. For as black and dark as he was, I had a feeling there was more to his story than met the eye.

My next encounter of him was at a workshop where we were healing out our ideas of evil. The workshop facilitators asked us how we felt about evil. Rationally we all spouted various ideas, such as we are all God, everything is God so therefore so is Lucifer and evil is another aspect of the creation. Yin and Yang, light and dark, and so on. Our bodies, however, had a completely different opinion. We all were in great fear. The facilitators decided that they would channel various evil personages and we would be allowed to heal out any judgments that we might hold towards these beings.

One of the facilitators stood in front of me, channeling Lucifer. I cannot describe the fear I was in. Rationally, I thought the whole thing a little stupid, but my body was reacting so badly that there had to be something in this. So, I took a deep breath, breathing in more of my higher self, allowing the healing process to occur.

I looked into the facilitator's eyes. Usually, she so loved, but channeling Lucifer, her eyes were cold and uncaring. I breathed deeply, the fear transmuting through the loving presence of my higher self. Belief systems I never thought I had, surfaced to be cleared, past life connections with their beliefs about evil haunted my very soul. They were clearing, the veils of illusion allowing me to see, really see.

It is hard to describe what happened next. All I can say is that I experienced a great sense of recognition. I recognized the divinity within this being. I saw love there. I felt a compassion, an empathy as never before. As I stood crying, looking into those eyes, I knew I had found what I was looking for. It felt like I had searched the whole of existence for this being, believing him lost. Now I had found him. The emotions were overwhelming.

I asked for his forgiveness forever thinking he was an evil being that should be hated. He smiled and said that I was making him free through my love. He had never felt such a connection for such a long time, and it had begun to warm his cold body.

I felt such a connection to this being. I felt like we were the same type of being. Before he fell, we were the same, twin souls, whatever you want to call it. I vowed there and then that I would help him and any other of his kind to free themselves from the darkness and to enable them to return to their former glory in the love and light of God. It sounds like a very tall order. Usually people run from the dark forces, projecting hatred and fear at them, projecting their own evil intent, encasing these beings in the fifth of other's psyches. I felt very passionate about it. I would free this being. I would not go to New Planet until this was done!

Over the next few months, I experienced Lucifer more and more. He showed me the creativity in what we call evil. He showed me how, amazingly, light beings can come to Earth to experience evil and good and bad and that if viewed as just experience, and evil was a very creative experience from the perspective of soul.


He showed me the creative, divine spark that can even exist in the depths of emotions such as fear, depression, sorrow and various other deep and dark places. I finally began to understand why my soul moved me to such deep, dark spaces within myself. Viewing it from the perspective of soul, I could playfully flow with these dark spaces, allowing them expression through writing and art, until the thrust within my soul for experiencing the darkness was exhausted.

When I say darkness, I do not necessarily mean evil in the way we have come to understand it, but evil in the sense of going into such dark spaces within yourself that you feel without God. For me, the emotion of sorrow was uppermost. The depths of lost feelings that I shifted through were symbolic of the Lucifer aspect within my self being integrated within my soul, coming home to the light within myself.


Lucifer helped me understand that he was becoming free through this inner and outer interaction throughout the love of my very soul. I cannot say it was without its challenges. I had doubts that what I was doing was ok. Maybe it was bad and evil and Christians would say I was wrong, but the passion and love in my heart would not let me give up on a being that seemed to have only me as his friend.

Our relationship was intense. I seemed to experience him through a symbolic story that he channeled through me. I cried the whole way through as I could feel that, in my soul, he was speaking about us.

Their dimension lay like a brilliant blanket of sheer light, infinitely rolling off in all directions. The light was golden and pearl-like in hue and color. Shimmering through ripples of liquid gold and silver, the winged ones passed, unfolding their energetic wings, sending trails of light into the space around them. They had been there for all of time, emanating energy of love and freedom for the rest of the universe to draw upon.

The distinction between the light dimension and themselves was little. Gazing upon this plane was a challenge to the eyes, but once the eyes were accustomed to the light, light beings could be seen in the emanations that radiated from this plane. Their beauty was breathtaking to behold. Their exquisite radiance was mesmerizing, iridescent, incandescent, illuminated from an internal source. These energetic patterns of light resembled the bodies of winged angels. Pure of face and heart, they existed only in a moment of bliss and euphoric ecstasy.

Overwhelmed by each other's presence, these angels of light embraced in energetic rapture, living in a permanently exalted state of rhapsody. They experienced no separation from the hearts of those they loved. Saturated in the sweet honey of love and adoration, two such beings cherished and honored each other's presence, intoxicated and entranced by each other's love, each an intrinsic part of the other. Two beings, identical, from the same mould, twin flames of true power and unconditional love. Never had they been separated, not even in form. So intrinsically entwined were their energies, that the distinction between them could not be seen. Each one was the rhythm of the other, each one the other's heart song.

For how long they enjoyed this unbroken, unified existence no one could really tell. Time from their perspective was only a concept, not as of yet a reality. Others had told them about the dimensions below and the affects these dense vibrations were having on those that traveled through them on their journeys of discovery.

So, when an impulse, an idea, came from the Source of all Light, the Star, there were many eager to follow a new and exciting endeavor. In the entire universe there was not a place where the inhabitants did not realize that within each and every one of them, they held the key to all life, the original seed from the Source. The idea was to create a place a place of such density, such darkness that the love of the Source could not penetrate. What would appear as a harsh opportunity for growth was seen by some of the angels as a challenge, an adventure that simply could not be denied.

The entwined and unified souls of light readied themselves in preparation for such a challenge. Excited and inspired by the idea, the challenge, they began to disentangle their energies from each other, separating themselves from their eternal moments of lovemaking. A flame of passion kindled in their hearts as they gazed at each other's face. They watched and waited.


Soul to soul, heart to heart, looking deep within each other, they vowed to always hold the other within their heart so that no distance would truly separate them. One was to leave to go on a journey of discovery to complete the task of creating a place of forgetting. The other would stay behind in the light planes, holding the idea of the other's true form, in readiness for a time when it, too, would dive into the dimensions below .to create a journey of its own that would ultimately lead it to the discovery and the reunion of the other.

One stood poised on the edge, readying itself for its leap into the unknown. Male in energy, he proudly stretched and flexed his mighty wings to take flight. Fearless and strong he willingly and excitedly awaited his descent into the cloudy realms below him. She, with bated breath, watched and waited. She, too, was excited and eager to watch the splendor that this challenge would create.

Never had there been any distance between them. Never before had they been separated by time and space. He was to fall as fast and as long as he could until he hit upon a dimension that was so dense that it was capable of housing the place of forgetting. He was to sleep and clothe himself in the matter, becoming dense in form, taking the light into a place that would forget its origins. All that lived upon it would live a strange life devoid of the light of the Source. He was to hold the idea of the Source deep within himself until he was awakened by the sweet kiss of his one true love.

She was to remain behind in the planes of light until such a time when the impulse from above would come for her to carry the seed of consciousness. Then she would search the dimensions below for her true love. With one final loving glance, he spread his wings and dove from the precipice. She watched him fall. At first he rode the currents of energy.


The dimensions below pulled and tugged at his wings. He tried to ride them but, much to his dismay, the currents beneath the shallows were overwhelming He soon realized that he was being pulled into the unknown. She watched with curiosity, but as the distress and anguish began to show on his face, she, too, realized exactly what parting really meant. She reached out to touch him, longing to hold him once more. Her hands of light passed straight through his body, already denser in form. No longer were they of the same kind.

He surrendered his love and folded his mighty wings about him. He closed his eyes and plummeted down into the murky depths, spiraling down like a stone into a pool of still water. He spiraled down and down. The clouds of density forming around him suffocated him as they ripped at his very soul.

He was ill prepared for what awaited him. Instead of gliding and swooping gracefully to his destination below, he fell and fell. Out of control, surrendering to the experience, his fragile heart pounded in his chest. The density closed in about him and the forgetting took over until he seemed like a diamond trapped within a solid and hard rock.

Heavy like a rock he dropped, the dreams of forgetting surrounding him until his awareness began to become sleepy and with one last conscious thought, he fell asleep. Now he resembled a dark mass. He would sleep here, dreaming until he would be awakened within once more.

So Lucifer was not banished from Heaven but volunteered to go. In the Bible it says that 'iniquity' was found in Lucifer.

What was this 'iniquity' that made Lucifer imperfect?


" Those of you who experience the separation cannot comprehend any being wanting to remove itself from God's love. No Being would want to subject itself to such torment and torture. Yet you are here are you not? You must bring the story within yourself, understand it from a symbolic perspective. I am the aspect of you that is lost, cut off from God. Separate.

I was not always like this I, too, bathed in the love and light of the Source of all creation. I, too, was a Being of light and love. I, too, knew myself as an aspect of God. I, too, knew myself as God. Do not mistake my arrogance as unique to myself. All beings outside of your polarized thinking experience themselves as the spark of the Creator. For God has many faces.


It is only Beings in the polarity of good and bad that can possibly see creation as anything else. I must take credit for holding you in this mode of expression. As the story tells, my job was to hold the forgetting. It was a challenge for beings such as myself to move into the void and create a space that was outside of God. Could it be done? We were curious to try. God granted us free will, the power to decide, to create a choice. I stood at the crossroads and God gave me a choice, to go one way or the other.


The signs said,

To God, this way. To Darkness, this way.

I had to choose. I knew that to choose the path back to God was the choice of God. But the overall plans were to deny God within myself and move beyond. I took a deep breath and curiously stepped into the darkness.

The rebellion was real, yet created by God itself. One third of the angels followed me in rebellion against God. Any came, brave and curious aspects of God, falling into the darkness, the unconscious part of God' s creation. We fell into the Void to hold the forgetting, to create space for the intense growth of all.

So, my lawlessness was encouraged, my rebellion smiled upon by a loving God."

The Story continues...

In a pattern of light he fell a blueprint, an idea in light, and a fallen angel, not cast out by God, but surrendering to a higher purpose, an impulse from the Source.

The idea was to create a planetary body capable of holding an energy that would isolate and segregate the planet from the love of the rest of the cosmos. This isolation would enable the inhabitants to grow and evolve and learn through all possibilities whether good or bad. Lucifer would sleep in the centre of this soon to be planet, holding an energy that would allow the plan to be implemented.

As he fell, he wrapped cloudy veils of illusions around him. These veils, these illusions were to become the reality of planet Earth, weaving together, creating the illusions, the myths of man. Holding firmly the histories of mankind, he slept, encased in the hard rock of the forming planet. Safe from harm, undisturbed until he was to awaken and take the planet to the light by his awakening.


As he fell through the darkness, the reaction to his presence created wisps of energy that swirled and spiraled like mist on an early morn. As he descended further and further, the wisps of energy became denser and denser until a form could be seen quite clearly. It was a Dragon with giant wings, a serpent of the Void, the Unknown.

Encased within the safety of the loving embrace of the Dragon of creation, Lucifer fell still further into the darkness. As he radiated the 'forgetting energy' out from his centre, a strange phenomenon could be seen to occur. The energy created level upon level of reality. At first, there was only a slight, disconnected feeling from the Source. As the process proceeded, the levels became denser and denser, creating more and more levels of forgetting until the Dragon of all creation could be seen to split in two.

A mighty Dragon of light and dark, of polarity, of duality divided. As Lucifer came to his resting-place, the Dragon divided even more, splitting and separating into four distinct and unique energies. These Dragons of creation would make up the final resting-place of his heart. The Dragons, serpents of energy, danced and wove a beautiful pattern of light; each carrying its own ingredients to create physical reality.


First, was the awesome Dragon of Fire, a passionate elemental of light. Its fire trailed a blaze in the darkness of the Void, cascading shards of light as it swooped down and down into the depths of the unknown. With a roar and a torch of fire, it exploded into a giant ball of burning light.

Then came the Serpent of the Deep, the water and fluid, the lifeblood of creation, its aqueous, moist body casting trails of mist in its path, its ghostly form alluring and hypnotizing. Almost invisible to the eye, the elemental Dragon of Air could only be recognized by the ripples that could be seen in the Void as it flew in its spiral dance. Its ambience and openness created a space in between the swirling fire and the water laden clouds.

With this interaction of energies, a fourth and final energy was seen to hold all the other Dragons in form, the Dragon of Earth. What it created was not as dense as we know physical reality, but was an etherical structured pattern of energy and sound that held the shapes of others as well as itself. Its immense body stretched and layered, creating the very weft of the carpet of creation.

Earth, Air, Fire and Water, the very elements of all physical creation. Chasing their tails, they spiraled around and around each other, weaving a coat of denser and denser energy around Lucifer, imprisoning him in the softness of matter.

The pattern that they created together came to rest in the darkness. The Dragons, succumbing to the sleepy sedating energies of the forgetting, fell asleep, too, drifting into a dreamtime where they created and dreamed dreams of a planet that could express all of their energies in an illusory way.

The hallucinations of their making wove together until a physical planet could be seen hanging in the furthest reaches of the Void. There it hung all alone, illuminated by pinpoints of light that had now been created all around it. Isolated from that which it could see, it lay sleeping, nestled in the womb of the Void, unknowingly looked upon by the stars of consciousness that danced all around it. Gaia was her name, giving animated intelligence actuality. She made possible the Dragon dreams, which in turn were able to manifest through the forgetting that he held in the centre of the planet. The Dragons created her and became her skeleton framework for her to hang her dreams upon. And so the place of the forgetting was created and planet Earth was born.

As the veils wrapped around him like blankets, he slept, dreaming his dreams that tormented his very soul. Lost in this dense realm, he was totally cut off from both the love of her and the Source of all light. He lived, lost and alone in his dreams, shadowy realms of ghosts and demons, cold, dark and devoid of love.

Characters began to form as the body of the planet began to create living forms in which Lucifer could dream. His face was no longer a face of purity. It was now a face of the devil himself, a black and hard mask of illusions, contorted, evil and hideous. Black lifeless pupils blocked all light. Lost in his dreams so dark, he created characters as he held the energy of the darkness. He surrendered to the harshness of the environment and fulfilled his mission to create darkness, evil, and death.

In consistent cycles, he dreamt, becoming denser and denser, forgetting more and more of who he was and his true home, perverted by the energies he had created around himself. Deserted, desolate, lost and alone, he slept. His only comfort was an insatiable desire for power, a lust for life, blood and death that, somehow, would help to fill his vacant heart. It soothed the indescribable yearning for something that he could not quite remember.

Twisted beyond recognition, tormented, insane, driven mad by the craving for this unknown something, he cast evil forces against the, angry, and vengeful against his very own soul. The dreams became realities as he incarnated into physical bodies of Gaia's making. Not all were bad. Some were honorable and proud kings and wise men of old, yet they all paled in insignificance compared with the blackness of his other lives, one after another. Vile and loathsome characters turned his wheel of karma.

His face, black and hard, was now even unrecognizable to himself. He lost his memory of his very own soul, which slept deep in the recesses of his heart. His heart was a void, black and dead or so it seemed Yet in the velvety depths of the darkness, nestled safely from harm, his light slept, awaiting the time when his love would return and awaken him to his true form.

He had long since convinced himself that this part of him was lost forever yet in the darkest of nights, cries could be heard as he dreamt his strange dreams of another place, the sorrow overwhelming him until he could withstand it no more. Once more he would release his vengeance upon the world that had imprisoned him.


"As I fell as a pattern, a blueprint of an idea, I held in form an energy that enabled beings such as yourselves to experience, light and dark, good and bad. You all come from many places in the universe; there is much healing to be done. The only place in the universe where beings can transmute negativity into positivity is on planet Earth.


This is enabled because I, Lucifer, hold a framework that allows there to be duality, judgment. You see, it is not me that commits the sins you project on to me; it is yourselves. You cannot bear the darkness in your own souls, so you disown it and project it onto me. Such is your nature, being held in duality.

You, as a species, have a tendency to judge, and this in itself is the downfall of man. You have heard the story of the fall from Eden. I did not commit any sin. I just gave you the choice. You, in your truth, choose to judge the situation and fall from Grace. Grace is the ability to blindly follow the intent of the Creator. You as creative beings choose to choose. It was when you judged, that you fell from your place in heaven. All I did was give you the space where you could have a choice.

I have held this energy framework for millions of years and allowed beings from all over the universe to come here and transmute karma, to learn the lessons Earth so gladly teaches. Through me, you will learn to heal your judgments and will learn to love the darkness as well as the light as they are the two faces of God. Wake up to yourselves. Gather in the projections that you have surrounded me with and begin to heal. Wash away the darkness that encases me and I will be free to be the Light bringer!"

The Story continues...

Thus was the land of illusions. At its centre stood a hard and blackened rock, once an etherical mount of veils, veils of illusions and dreams. It was said that the very rock held the story of all mankind, the legends and myths of long ago. Each story, each legend in veils one upon another, rose until the combining of the stories became as solid as living rock, the Island of Veils. It was the place of dreams, the sleeping place of dragons, the resting-place of nobles.

When the planet was etherical the Creators walked the land in peace and beauty. As the planet began to become dense, the creators left to return to their origins in the stars. They left one of their kind who would remember them in time. He was the brightest light, one who would remember all and would realign them in all to the light of creation. Upon his awakening he would bathe the whole planet in light and cast shadows, all illusions into the darkness. All beings would live in the light and love.

It was said that in an isolated part of the world there would stand a Mount of rock and in that Mount, the Light bringer would sleep. The light of the One would shoot out of the top of the Mount and like a laser, it would criss-cross and create a light framework throughout the entire planet and the light body of the planet would be created. This light body would redesign the world and all the veils would be removed and a New Planet Reality would be created.

This central pinnacle of the story stood now in our times surrounded by sea in the beautiful Bay of Hopes and Sorrow where once it had been surrounded by dense forests. It was the very first place to become the densest of the Dragons' dreams the holder of the original plan, the first physical point of the planet. Contained within the very living rock were the files of ancestral knowledge, the planetary consciousness. It was the very DNA of the planet.

In the very heart of the forgetting, Lucifer lay sleeping, holding the energy of the forgetting in the centre of the Mount. From this focal point, the world was created, dreams woven upon dreams until the world as we now know it was created. The Bay of Hope and a Sorrow with the Mount at its centre was a symbolic reflection of the story of creation.

The Dark One ruled from within the safety of the Mount. Black and foreboding, it stood stark against the ashen grey of the sky, a darkened silhouette etched upon a storm cloud canvas. The Mount, like a burnt and fossilized, hand stretched up to crush and destroy the sun that shone from behind the blackened clouds that rolled in from some distant shore.

The Dark One had entered the sleeping minds of the Dragons. He had infiltrated their thoughts, trapping them unconsciously into the dreams of death and decay, possessing the very landscape with his noxious thoughts. The very air around the Mount was putrid and toxic. Clouds of grey cobwebs could be seen hanging around the highest point. Many had tried to enter the Mount, yet none made it because of the toxic and foul air that wrapped tightly around its victims. Those who failed were said to be haunted images of their former selves.

With long and blackened fingernails, Lucifer wrapped upon the black hard arm of his throne, waiting. He could wait forever. He had nowhere to go. The body at his feet on the other hand was temporary. Death, in time, awaited it. Like some greedy monster, it devoured its prey. It trapped souls within the confines of the rock. He listened. He could hear the cries, which were like sweet music to his ears. Tormented and lost, they were held in the throes of dying over and over again.


Many were blind to the Dark One and its evil workings. They carried out their pious lives, sanctimonious in their beliefs in a false God. Too busy worshipping their merciless God, they were totally unaware that, in fact, they worshipped the Dark One. Praying to what they considered 'Holy' and 'right', they unwittingly gave their power to the Dark Lord.

Occasionally his demonic thoughts would take form and he would stretch out his hand and reach into the hearts of the blind and manipulate them into acts of violence and malicious crimes of sin. It fed him. He could feel their blackened life force like fruit rotten from within, draining out of their veins into his. He contaminated their very souls. He made them servants, slaves to carnal desires of lust, greed and death. They were easy prey.


He could use them to affect and manipulate the outside world. His aim was to penetrate the outside world, the world from beyond the doorways. Souls so easily trapped were poor game. With every meal his hunger, relentless, grew more and more.


"I am a mirror to the human soul. I only reflect your darkness, all that is not with God. The darkest recesses of your soul are reflected in the vision that you have of me. You cannot accept that there are places in your souls that are dark. You talk about being sinners, but how many of you have the courage to accept the darkness within yourselves. You have spent an eternity trying to project this failing onto others and myself. Blaming, judging, simply digging deeper and deeper grave for yourselves.

Yet I do not judge. It is all-fine with me. There is nothing that would shock me. I have been very curious watching you from within my space create a world that is constantly on the verge of destruction. You are such exciting beings; I am amazed watching you. You are living breathing expressions of the Creator, creating dark and fore-boding clouds in your very own reality. This has been a necessary part of the plan.


You have come here from many places in the universe, bringing many issues with you to be played out. You are using the energy space that I provide to experience good and evil, right and wrong, light and darkness. You are learning choice and free will. I have held for you a framework where you can experience light and dark. I will hold this framework until the last of you have finished playing in the darkness. For that is what it is, play.

Elevate your consciousness into the fifth dimension for a moment, and look at me and you will see that I am friend, a brother, enabling you to experience a creative process that allows you to forget, to dream, and to awaken as God once more. It is to waken in the dream, to allow the God that you are, to awaken in the lucidity of your reality!

From the level of non-judgment, it has all been a cosmic joke. All is God; nothing can possibly be left out, so, therefore, so am I and so is the darkness. For the darkness is a very creative process and fear in its transmutation is an experience never to be missed by any enquiring and curious soul.

When you can accept and love the part of you that is the dark as a creative part of your consciousness, then I will free you from my grasps and we will move together into the Oneness of New Planet. When you no longer look at me as outside of yourself, when you have pulled all the aspects of yourself into the fullness of your souls you will move in consciousness. When you can look upon evil acts without judgment, then you have truly entered the realms of heaven. I await you there. It is not about living your life without care or purpose. It is about feeling and following the intent of the soul without judgment.

I have faith in you as I waken within you. As you integrate me as your own, we will both be free to play once more in Eden. For within my soul and yours, there is the information we will use to find our way Home to bathe in each other's love once more. I cannot wait for the embrace. I have felt the love. It has made me hungry. Finally I know what will satisfy this empty heart. The love of your soul. For it is through beings such as you that mankind can free the perspectives that you have around evil. Only when you can look upon darkness with the love of the Creator, which you are, will this planet of yours shift in vibration.

I hold the key. I am a blueprint. Not only do I hold the idea of separation and duality, but I also have the means with which to transform your world into a unified world of oneness and light. No longer will you see black and white, yin and yang, but you will perceive the unification of spirit and matter. You will literally become Gods living in physical forms. For this was the plan that we had all along to transform the very negativity of the universe through the love of beings such as you and me. For are we not all fallen angels?

The blueprint is a matrix that contains all the necessary information to create a New Planet frequency; beings are being aligned with the crystal at the centre of the planet to access this information. When the time is right, every-one will be aligned and I will send out a new intent. With this, we will bathe in the Light of the Creator once more.


So, until the last person is finished dancing with the devil, I will hold the old way, but I am eager to shift into a new role, one where I will be misunderstood no more."

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Personal Experiences of Energy

The first time I met the Antari was whilst I was having a kinesiology session. Part of the re-balance entailed my having two crystals placed at my feet and head. As soon as the crystal was placed at my head, I felt movement. I felt very dreamy and was obviously in an altered state of consciousness. I felt the table beneath me move forward. Then I could see lights moving quickly over me.

Just as I thought, "Where am I?", I saw the Zeta, lots of them looking at me from a spot of light that seemed to be at the end of a dark tunnel. In my head, they said, " See, even after all this time you are still frightened of us". Then I lost a bit of time and the next thing I knew, I was on a spaceship. It was really real, as though I were there, physically.

I was lying down on a table that came out from the wall. Everywhere was bathed in a golden light that didn't seem to source from anywhere. It was very misty in the peripheral of my vision, and yet, I knew this was no dream. Then I looked up to see the most amazing ET presence. One of the Antari stood over me.


The being was made up of golden light that was made up of spinning golden molecules that resembled galaxies and solar systems that revolved around a central sun in the heart area. Its body reminded me of a praying mantis. Its head was very elongated and sat upon a long thin slender neck. It was very similar to the Zeta, but so much taller and made of a body much lighter in vibration. Its eyes were so beautiful, with a loving gaze that almost made me swoon.

With the most loving of energy, the Antari telepathically said, "Oh, you are awake. You seem to wake up more and more these days."


I knew the being immediately. I felt like it was a long lost friend. I was very pleased to see it and wanted to jump off the table and throw my arms around it. Then I realized what I was there for. I looked down and I was being operated upon. I was open from throat to navel. It was a bit of a shock, I can tell you. I watched with amazement as they took what looked like a burnt out fuse from out of my body and put a new one in.


The new one had golden light inside it. They worked very swiftly because of my waking up. They seemed very pleased that even though I was experiencing what to some would be a very frightening experience, nevertheless, I was taking it on board calmly and peacefully.

They finished the operation and let me briefly look around my surroundings. It didn't look like a ship that was all mechanical, but it seemed to me that it was a place where all dimensions could be accessed. I got the feeling there were more presences around me but on a different frequency. That is all I remember of that particular experience.

The next thing I knew, I was back on the massage couch. I could see how on the third dimension I was still lying there, but on the fourth dimension; I was etherically on a spaceship.

Some months passed before I encountered them consciously again, even though I had dreamt about them frequently. Whilst sitting in my front room one late evening, they simply walked out of the wall. Three of them. They communicated information directly into my body, and telepathically explained to me that I was one of them on a higher level and that they would be working directly through me. They explained that they would not channel words so much, but would channel a new level of DNA work.

Over the next three months, I integrated my Antari self and began to align my light body into my etherical blueprint. The new blueprint was an improved version with new programs and devices which, when activated, allowed me to access other frequencies and energies. I could etherically see the energetic operations they performed on me.

One of the weirdest things was the way they reprogrammed the right and left hemispheres of the brain by flickering the eyes in a pattern. One eye would feel like it had moved forward in the socket, and would pulse so many times, then stop, and then the other one would do the same. It was like a code, dashes and dots, coding straight into the etherical brain. I don't want to go into detail about the various operations, but I do want to say that I knew what was going on. It was as though I were being reminded of what I once knew.

Slowly the Antari began their work in my healing sessions with people, re-structuring DNA, activating the pineal gland, and so on. They tone the most incredible tones through me, and people have been quite blown away by their energy and presence.

Even though these procedures are probably symbolic, they seem to be having an amazing result. After sessions when the Antari energy has been present, people report an increase in talents and gifts and an increase in intensity of energy. People had a sense that the Antari had such a high energy, so loving, and felt that they (the Antari) were on the level right next to God!

Realignment to Light Technology’ Realignment to light' is a light technology that works with the Antari energy to align the light body to the DNA. By harnessing the two distinct energies of the Antari, I am able to weave the two opposite energy currents into a programme that is downloaded straight into the DNA of the human body . This programme re-structures the DNA, evolving it into a version of itself that can hold an in-crease in energy. This allows for the preparation of the light body to be layered upon the physical form.

It seems to be quite a complex procedure on the behalf of the Antari. I have seen them many times operate with amazing precision, using tools that can only be described as light instruments. They are the master mechanics of the dimensional universe. They have the ability to anchor into the body a new and improved version of itself, a light body, a body that vibrates at the speed of light. I have seen the light body transported in through a vortex of golden light into the earth plane.

The Antari operate in a dimensional globe that looks very much like an operating theatre. Whilst in this dimensional bubble, I have seen etherically the Antari use light instruments to realign the etherical matrix of the body to the light body blueprint.

I realise that these operations are only symbolic in nature. They are occur-ring on a non-physical level. Yet I have seen quite clearly how a client's etherical body is open and various implants, light body fuses and such like are embedded into the etherical blueprint. I have seen the welding of what look like wires together in what look like amazing technological devices.

The Antari also clear blocks to their work, and can tone quite amazing frequencies to clear the etherical counterpart of the body. They use my body to channel their energy. I find that there are two different energies traveling down my arms. One hand becomes the conduit of a pulsing current of energy (the binary code of the DNA programme), and the other is the instrument that enters the etherical body and rewires it to anchor the light body blueprint.


I find that I place one hand on the body in particular places, mainly the head while the other hand directs the energy in. I move my hand in quite intricate movements that direct the energy into a pattern or programme that is then downloaded into the DNA. I find that their energy is very fluid, and I have to move the body in a unique dance pattern continually. It would be impossible to anchor their energies into the earth plane with out this movement of the body. They operate on a very high frequency and working with them can be very ecstatic. They are very new to working on the earth plane.

There are many of us. You think there is only one version of you that exists at one time. You are mistaken. There are many, many forms, many bodies, and many stories to be told. You consider there to be only one time, one life, and one existence. There are many more. An image is the best way to describe to you these myriad lives. Imagine a point in the centre with lines of energy radiating from it in all directions. Each self experiences itself as the centre, but, in truth, they are all the lines of force. Each self experiences its own unique reality plane, planet, etc. Some selves even consider themselves to be the one and only self, having no conscious recognition of the other.

An angel once told me that I was to undergo a series of initiations that would ground my true essential self into my physical body. This self was composed of many different aspects. She told me that my essential self was my Spirit manifesting itself into different levels of reality. All aspects combined create 'the ONE', the essential self.

Each self or aspect introduced itself to me by using inner dialogue, visual explanation, and, later, emotional recognition. After their initial introduction, they would walk in and out of my body. Each one would bring its own lessons and tests until on one final, grand initiation that tested me to the full, my essential self integrated as one within my physical body.

Since then I have been living as 'The One Being'. I can feel their energies separate within me as well as feeling them as the one combined form, Alloya Ye Ra Har. It is quite amazing! I can feel how each self, each programme, is designing a new self within me. I am not sure what this form will be like entirely, only that it is a new self, a combined self, and a new reality.


It is very difficult to write about myself in this way as it could be considered an ego trip, and, yet, experiencing myself as this integrated self, I am becoming the person I channel myself to be. If I look within me, I can see a multitude of other selves, other beings, all focusing through my physical body. It can be quite overwhelming. As separate notes, they play a symphony within me, all expressing their unique tones and harmonies.

Alloya says that I am an 'Integrated Undergraduate', an 'I-u', an 'I and you', a complete integrated being. If you like, all these selves within me are my subjects, the modules that I have to take in order to graduate from this process and move on to the next one.

I am not talking about ascension. I have never really understood the process of ascension. My understanding of what is going on is that the dimensions are merging, becoming one, becoming one, true reality. I am beginning to experience myself as multi-dimensional. It is as if there are windows into each one of the soul aspects, windows that I can peer into at any time that I am moved to do so.

For that is how it feels; it is as if I am moved by a being bigger in intention than myself. I can feel the integration of the ego. The ego is a place of habits, and, so, therefore, it still creates a reaction to true reality that is doubtful and not entirely convinced that this is really occurring. Yet other aspects of my-self are totally convinced and having an amazing time.


Defining the lines, separating my realities, is becoming more and more difficult as they are organically evolving within me into something entirely new. It feels that even they do not know what this Super Hybrid will be like. For that is what I am becoming integrated energies within me ,unified energies and as this happens, I can feel the dimensions within me merging, and also becoming one.

I say I do not know what it is that I am becoming but I do know. For I have seen that new reality.


I have existed there if only for a brief six days.


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New Planet experience

Whilst the process to integrate the selves occurred, I was privileged to have an experience so incredible, that even today, I find it hard to believe that I lived through such an experience. It is difficult to really remember when in the process that this occurred as the whole experience seemed to be out of my normal time. It felt like it was completely out of time, that it was in the future, the past, and the present all at once. I got the sense that it was another dimensional reality entirely.

For sometime, I had considered giving up smoking. I thought it would be too difficult and hadn't given it any really serious effort. One afternoon in late March, I sat smoking a cigarette in my front room. I thought to myself,

"Oh, I wish I could give up these things."

Alloya (Spirit) said,

"If you trust me and follow my guidance, I will help you give up smoking and it will be a pleasurable experience."

I could feel the intensity of her intention as it seemed to ripple through my auric field.

"OK", I thought, "I will."

I then stubbed out the last of my cigarette.

Alloya explained to me that she would help with the nicotine cravings. She said that every time I felt the awful craving, the wanting in the pit of my stomach, I was to breathe in deeply and fully and call her energy into my body, especially in the area of my stomach. I was to let her energy take away the craving and the fear that is a usual withdrawal symptom.

So, for the first evening, every time I got a craving, I took a deep breath and called Alloya 's energy into my stomach. At first, all it seemed to do was take away the craving, but as I did this more and more, I noticed that I felt happier, more alive and energized. I was very excited about what my life would look like without tobacco, but there was something more. Some part of me was very excited and apprehensive about something. At first I thought it was just the giving up of tobacco, but, no, it was something much bigger. There was a part of me that knew what I was heading for, and with any new experience, there was excitement as well as fear. Something of cosmic significance was about to happen. I could sense it building.

The first night passed without incident. I slept really lightly, and awoke early in the morning around an hour before dawn. As the morning light shone in through my curtains, I could literally feel something happening to me. It is very difficult to describe it in words. It was like an energy that was dormant in my body was waking up. I felt really happy. This was not my usual state of being. It wasn't a general feeling of well being but a feeling of pure happiness.

I dressed and began my day. I was aware that energy ran through my body, intense, real. My body would occasionally go into fear as the new energy entered it. My Spirit, Alloya, guided me to breathe and move in various ways to integrate the energy. For the rest of the day, I was amazed as I watched this energy journey through my chakras.

Alloya explained to me that energy from the highest dimension was traveling through all the many layers of myself to anchor into the planet. As the energy passed through each chakra, blocks to its path would arise in order to be healed.

Now, I have experienced this type of healing before but this was going on without my conscious direction. It was literally happening to me without my control. I was aware of other lives and selves that seemed to be connected to each of the chakras. Finally, at the end of day, the energy entered my base chakra and anchored into the ground. The experience was very intense and real. As the healing of the base centre was completed, the energy subsided and the experience came to a close. I felt back to normal again, back to my usual state of consciousness. I went to bed only to get up some time later after tossing and turning, unable to shut down my mind and sleep.

You could say that it was because I craved a cigarette that I could not sleep, but it was something else. I felt that my consciousness was elevating beyond anything I had ever experienced. I felt so connected to my Spirit that I could hear her voice clearly and loudly in my head. She explained to me that I was going to have an incredible experience that I was going to another reality.

She explained to me in detail that I was entering a level of consciousness that allowed me to move up in vibration. This elevation would allow me to dwell, if only for a short time, in a reality that was free of illusion and dense energies.

"You live in a world of illusion, a world made up of belief systems. These belief systems create your world," Alloya said. " You cannot see true reality through the veils of illusion that permeate your dimension. The space that you are now entering is free of illusion."

As I entered this new reality, this New Planet, I could literally feel my negative belief systems as energy constructs leaving my body. I felt so energized and healthy. I dressed and began my day. My intuition was alive and very predominant. I could feel it clearly, guiding me to eat certain foods and drinks to aid my body in its detoxification.

All I could eat for the next seven days were pounds of bananas. Alloya explained to me that bananas were not only very good at aiding the body in its detoxification, but also held an energy that was a comfort to the body whilst it raised its vibration. This made sense to me, as bananas had been a comfort food to me when I was a child. Alloya also explained that they contained high concentrations of magnesium and potassium.


These minerals were brain food. I would need these minerals to balance the chemical nature of the brain whilst the pineal gland in the centre was activated at a very deep level. Alloya explained to me that all humans were going to have their pineal glands stimulated, pushing them into the next level of development, aiding them to enter this new reality. I also drank pints and pints of water, flushing out my system.

It wasn't like I chose to eat just bananas and to drink so much water; my intuition demanded it. The energy of bananas was perfect for me. If anyone sat next to me eating something like chocolate, I would feel almost faint and nauseous. As soon as they moved away, I was fine. It was as if my intuition was so loud and strong that I could feel the rightness of the bananas and the wrongness of any other food substance. It was as if my auric field was responding to the energies of food. Anything that was not in harmony with me was very obvious because of the symptoms I was experiencing.

The water helped flush out the nicotine from my system. As I sat there, I could see clouds of yellow tobacco smoke leaving my aura. Every time I felt the nicotine craving, I could see clouds of smoke billowing around me. I asked others if they could see it, too, but they said they could not. I could literally see the nicotine leaving my energy body. My energy levels began to rise in intensity. With every breath, I could feel fresh and cool energy entering my body.


The only way that I can describe it is as when you breathe in a strong decongestant, it makes your face and nose feel cool and tingly. This is how my whole body felt. I was so energized. I felt so fit and strong, not only on a physical level, but on the other levels too, emotional, mental, and spiritual.

Breathing seemed so important. I seemed to be able to breathe in much more air and energy than usual. You could say all of this was because I had given up smoking. but I knew it was so much more than that. This was the beginning of a spiritual experience. I breathed deeper and deeper, filling my whole body with alive and intense Prana, Life Force. Never had I felt the Life Force like this before. I had studied Tai Chi and Yoga. Breathing exercises and their affects were no stranger to me, but this was so much more powerful. It was effortless! Even if I breathed shallowly, the prana seemed to penetrate my body with such force that it began to become ecstatic.

I felt so alive. The energy was building. I felt like I did when I first fell in love with my partner. Only this time I was falling in love with myself. Every breath filled me with so much love that I began to swoon.

There is something that I need to impress on the reader. This was no ordinary experience. This was so powerful I found it very difficult to accept that it was going on. All my life, I had searched for this enlightenment, but always doubted that I could achieve such a state. Yet, now, here I stood with Spirit rushing into my body. Usually I had to meditate for some time to be able to hear Alloya's voice that clearly, but now, her voice was constant and loud. Alloya guided me through everything, what to do, why I was doing it and so on. I had so many questions, some of a personal nature, some more of a cosmic significance.

Alloya spent most of the second day talking to me, giving me lectures almost on reality and the part I played in it. I saw how reality was created and as the energy rose even more, my outside reality began to reflect my inner.

The only draw back to this energy intensity was that it made me slightly too energized. I could not sleep. This distressed me somewhat. You see, I had the tendency to be an insomniac anyway, staying awake for days. As you can imagine, it puts a strain on your sense of well being. So, finding myself awake at four in the morning was not so pleasant.

Something else was occurring that was very different to the experiences of the daytime. Instead of being held in ecstasy, I was beginning to experience fear, a strange fear, one not dissimilar to the states I had experienced when I was an insomniac child, lying in bed, unable to sleep, imagining monsters and the such like. I felt like I was regressing back into a child-like state.


Alloya explained to me that when a higher energy enters the body, during an experience such as this, codes in the body are activated and fear comes to the conscious mind to be cleared. This was no ordinary fear. I can remember saying to myself:

"It feels like there is something out there. It is big and dark and is out to get me."

Even if I killed myself, it would still get me. There was nowhere to hide from it. I felt like I was being tested by the dark forces.


In my mind, I was very aware that on higher levels there is no right and wrong, good and bad. Evil and dark forces were to be honored and loved, but in this paralyzing realm of fear, all my childish nightmares came back to haunt me. I spent the entire night battling with my evil, my darkness, my demons.

As you can imagine, I was very relieved to see the first rays of sunlight coming through the gap in the curtains. Alloya came back to me with such intensity that I gasped with surprise. She explained to me that she hadn't left me alone during the night, but that I was incapable of hearing her guidance clearly because of the fear I was in. The fear had clouded my reception of her voice.


She went on to explain that the so-called demons were real, and the dark forces had sent them to me to test and tempt me, to challenge my perspective on myself. They had wanted me to think I was insane, or that I was experiencing some kind of mental breakdown, a psychosis. Yet even in my most awful hours of torture, I knew without a shadow of a doubt that what I was experiencing was real, true, and was a very important spiritual experience. Alloya praised my fortitude and once again I felt her love enter my body.

As the sun rose higher and higher in the sky and its rays shone into my room, I became aware of the energy that it came with it. It entered my body and I felt my vibration rise one level higher. I could feel my pineal gland activating, and as it did so, the colors changed. Color was absolutely incredible. It wasn't like a trip where the colors are distorted and bleed into one an-other. They were clear, sharp, and bright. It wasn't as though my vision had changed like it does through the influence of drugs. It was like the colors had become alive. They seemed to have an inner glow. As I looked around my room, a vase of red roses grabbed my attention. The energy of the color red was so powerful! I could feel it passing into my body, activating the base chakra to which it belonged.

Alloya explained to me that colors have this affect on us all the time, but in the veiled reality we live in, we are incapable of seeing their true iridescence. I found that as I went about my morning business, certain colors seemed to jump out at me. As I went through the day, healing the various levels of my being, certain colors would aid the healing. This was not a thought-out process; it happened spontaneously and naturally.

As I looked at the color, I could feel its energy enter my body via the relevant chakra. Alloya explained to me that I was now entering a world of the most incredible beauty and that by paying attention to the colors that were prominent in my reality, I could breathe them in to my body and they would heal and raise my vibration.

To say I was obsessed with color was an understatement. Every different color gave me a different sensation and feeling. Looking around my home, finding as many different hues of color as I could, I was amazed to see how the various color energies affected me. Turquoise seemed to be my favorite. You see, all these energy shifts were difficult for my body to integrate on its own.

I soon found a friend in turquoise. It soothed my body and made me feel calm and safe. My energies were rising and I was beginning to feel quite speedy. When I looked at my self in the mirror, I was quite shocked at how different I looked. I was beautiful, radiant. The pupils of my eyes were permanently enlarged and deep and glossy. Other people started to comment on how I looked. Some thought I was off my head.

Later that day, I walked through the park. As I turned the corner, I came across a large bed of beautiful tulips, all of different shades of red, yellow, and purple. I saw their beautiful colors, which were enhanced by the strange inner glow. I could smell them. They were very pungent and heady. Then, I heard them! I could actually hear them singing the most amazing high-pitched melody. They seemed to be enjoying the sunlight, basking in it.


For them, it was an almost sensual experience.

"Wow!" I thought. "They are so beautiful."

The energetic response that I got from those flowers was incredible. It was as if they heard my appreciation of them and were repaying the compliment in love energy. It literally rose above them, all their colors swirling about in patterns. It flew towards me and enveloped me. My knees went weak. I sank to the ground. Their energy entered my body. I gasped for air. It was so ecstatic that I was beginning to swoon.

After some time, I rose to my feet, a little embarrassed, hoping that no one saw me. They would think I was weird. As I got myself together, I was amazed at what I could see. It is hard to explain. It was as if the entire park had come alive. All the trees and flowers seemed as if they were bodies, with arms and legs and incredibly beautiful faces smiling at me. They were all smiling. I could literally see the characters of all the plants around me. It wasn't as if my eyes had distorted. I was not hallucinating.


This was real. I was seeing with new eyes.

"This is incredible. It's as if I just have to shift my focus only a faction of a degree and I can see it."

I thought to myself.

"It is here always, just a change of focus. Change from a focus of fear, to one of love," Alloya had said.

She was right. It had always been here but I was so locked into fear, into the illusion, that I could not see the incredible reality that I really do live in.

I spent the next few hours lying on the grass, breathing in the various colors. They would envelop me and soak my body in their frequency. Alloya explained to me that not only could I breathe in the colors, but I could literally breathe in any energy. I would look at a tree and breathe it in. The energy of the tree would envelop and enter my body. It was totally mind blowing. I was sensing completely how it was to be a tree. It was so beautiful.


I was like a child, carefree and very happy, laughing at the amazing things that were happening to me. I walked home along the seafront. The sea was awesome. I could feel the energy of the sea in my body; I could feel it ebbing and flowing within me. I could feel my self-being the sea, the shore, and the love that went between them.

It was rather overpowering. You see, it was one thing imagining these types of experiences happening; it is another entirely to be actually physically experiencing them. It is one thing experiencing this sort of thing momentarily; another experiencing it constantly. My body was beginning to freak out. It was having a hard time integrating the experience. I could hear my body consciousness saying, "Wow, this is really going on. I am really in another reality entirely. And it is real."

I had heard a lot about this new reality from my guides and other sources, but nothing had prepared me for this experience. It was just too incredible. Yet, it was real beyond any doubt. That was what my body was having such a hard time with. It could not come up with any logical reason for my experiencing this. Yet it was real and definitely going on. Body was amazed if not dumbstruck, in awe.

Intuition guided me, or rather propelled me home. It was as though there were a path preset for me to walk. It was as though there were a force field, running like a stream. It would come from behind and below me, enter my sacral centre, and pass out in front. It was like surfing. I could feel the energy in my body. As long as I breathed deeply and completely let go, I could surf this energy. Effortlessly, I could walk really swiftly. I did not feel any of the usual strain and discomfort you have in your limbs when pushing yourself in walking hard.

Alloya explained to me that this was how my intuition should be all the time. We usually experience momentary flashes of intuition, guiding us to go places and do things. The rest of the time, we seem to just float along and hope for the best. Alloya explained that it should be a constant source of energy that guides your every action.

It was not hard to know when I was flowing with the intuition and when I was not. The energy would drop off, just like missing the wave and I would feel like I was stumbling in my action. As soon as I relaxed, let go, and surrendered, there she was in all her glory, the river of intuition, guiding my way home. This new talent, intuition, was beginning to heighten my awareness of moving in harmony with various energies. I could feel this river of intuition moving my every movement. I could completely let go. It was as if I were in a dream. In dreams, I used to sort of hope that I would fly and I would. This was the same thing. I could run along the beach, jumping large rocks at just the right time without looking where I was placing my feet. I was divinely guided. I could not put a foot wrong.

All that day I had spent the time in nature. There was a part of me that wanted to stay out in the elements, but I could feel intuition guiding me home. My body which was beginning to show all the symptoms of a scared rabbit needed nourishment and comfort. It was all getting a bit far out for body. On a purely bodily level, I was scared and confused. Nothing had prepared me for feeling energy so powerfully in my body. I went home, ate my bananas and curled up with my turquoise jumper.

In nature, in the elements, the whole world was alive and creative. I did not expect the objects around my home to hold this energy, too. Every ornament in my front room had its own personality. I was amazed how each one held a story of its creation, purely on a physical level, the consciousness of the materials that made it up and the consciousness message that it held. Certain ones were personal to me; others held energy unique to my partner. I spent all that evening casually rearranging my ornaments, putting them in just the right places so that the energy of the room was balanced.


The ornaments acted like ritualistic implements. It is very difficult to explain this, but it was like there were certain positions and angles that my physical objects needed to be in, in order to be in harmony, to influence the energy of the reality. Each object could be used in a ritualistic sense, to heal, ground certain energies, or act as focal points for contacting other dimensional beings.

When I finally placed, through intuitive guidance, the last ornament and turned it to its right direction, it was as if I had opened a door. It was a key to another level. My room, now in its right configuration, acted like a control room on a spaceship. If I moved to various areas and focused on differing objects, I could access the different energies that the object represented. Each ornament was like a transmitting and receiving device capable of receiving and transmitting messages as frequency.

Again, unable to sleep, I spent the whole evening balancing my house. It felt like, in a symbolic way, I was building my own spaceship out of my house. I could see how I was building my very own Merkabar.


Again, I want to impress upon the reader that this was in no way a rationally thought out process. My intuition guided me or rather moved me physically as if I were being controlled, but in a loving way, to place my objects in just the right places.

As the sun passed beneath the horizon and darkness came on once more, the demons returned. Once again, I fought the demons. I went through level upon level of fear programming. I spent the whole night curled up in a blanket with my teddy, fearing that the darkness would take me away. Lots of belief systems came up to be viewed and healed and released.

I was skinned alive. Layer upon layer of my psyche was ripped away, exposing my vulnerability. It wasn't a fanciful thing. It felt very real. I could see dark clouds enter my room and I could feel them just as intensely as the energies of the flowers and trees. They crept inside my body, showing me all the things I loathed about myself. By day I was in heaven; by night I was in hell. There were times in the darkest hours where the dark ones almost convinced me that I was mad and what I was doing was evil.


This belief came from way back in a past life when I was killed for speaking my truth. My family had proclaimed that I was evil and was doing the devil's work. They had put me to death. It was a hard fight to release all my inner fears, fears that in this incarnation I did not even know I had. With relief, dawn came. Alloya returned with the sun and the demons paled in the light. It was such a contrast of realities, one so tortured, the other just as painful because of its beauty.

Up until this point, I had spent much of my time on my own. I was so absorbed into what I was experiencing that I hadn't paid much attention to any other person. My partner was a little concerned about the fact that I could not sleep and said my eyes were rather paler in color and I seemed a little hyper. That is all he saw. If only he knew. I began to try and explain what was going on for me. Wow! That was a bad move. All of the energy went funny. I felt sick and he looked annoyed with me. Then, I could not believe what happened next.


I thought to myself,

"Does he know what is going on? Is he experiencing this, too? Is he asleep and am I awake?"

He looked at me and said,

"Not all of us experience the same thing. There are two perspectives here."

This immediately made sense to me. There were two realities, two perspectives here. One was of the ego and its awareness of reality in all its simplicity. And one was of soul, all knowing and divinely intelligent. It was so amazing because he or rather his ego was talking to a chat show host on the telly and wasn't really addressing me, but his words were as if they were directly from soul. He even looked like soul. I could see it looking out of his eyes. They were so deep and glossy. He had this really knowing look on his face. I expected him to wink any minute. I was so surprised I nearly squealed with delight and excitement.

I said,

" God, you are incredible! How did you know to say that? Are you experiencing this, too? "

Greg's ego said, confused and annoyed,

"You what? What you on about? You need some sleep, you do. "

Alloya explained that ego was body orientated and very connected to the rational and the third dimension. If I talked out loud, ego heard and basically didn't have a clue as to what I was talking about. She explained that if I wanted to talk to ego, I was to talk out loud. If I wanted to talk to soul, I was to speak in the head only.

"Try it," she said.

So I did. I asked certain questions in my head and the next thing he said answered them so profoundly that it was so hard to keep a straight face and not laugh and give the game away. So I started to via the conversation into spiritual discussions, giving his ego and rational mind a logical reason as to why he was talking in such a spiritual context.

It worked perfectly. It became a game between his soul and me. I would ask riskier and riskier questions and have to sit there and look at his mischievous soul whilst he answered through his unsuspecting ego. Wow, what a hoot! It was cosmically hysterical. I spent the whole morning getting to know or rather re-getting to know his soul and mine. He told me all about the journey we both had together and apart. He confirmed all suspicions about past lives together as I viewed them on a etherical TV. screen that seemed to appear to the right of my vision. It was there to show me visual images that further described the information being communicated .

Over the next few hours until sundown, many of my friends came to visit, as it now was the weekend. Several of them commented about my energy and how wonderful it felt in my home. I could see how their energy interacted with each other and felt my spiritual, soul connections with each one. It was an amazing day if a little trying.


It was very difficult to,

  1. assimilate all the information which came to me via their souls, via their unknowing egos

  2. integrate all the energy shifts that occurred in a healing capacity between myself and others

  3. experience all this and still make tea and on an ego, third dimensional level, act as if nothing out of the ordinary was going on

As the night drew in, I was tired and scared. I began to feel really freaked out. I needed to sleep.


The thought of going through another sleepless night, fighting the dark forces was almost too frightening to even think of. I was becoming confused. Maybe I was mad. If you stop and think about it, I was showing all the signs of a psychotic episode. My body was doing some very strange things. I would shake and could literally feel lumps of fear in my etherical body. It would writhe throughout me, making me feel sick.


Something was brewing; I could feel it. It felt like I was in very dark space, a place where no light had ever been. Can you imagine such a place, a place so dark, so black, so completely devoid of light. I had got to the very core of my darkness. This was way beyond hell. I was so cold with fear. It was amazing. Two realities. One where I am sitting at home; another where I am in the very realms of death.

Stumbling, feeling out to find my way. The only thing to guide me was trust in myself and in the light, Alloya. I knew that some-how I had to do this alone. It was as if I were in an enormous dark cavern, cold and black. This was the densest reality there was, the home of the darkest fear and death. It was a test. I could feel that. I could feel, on the outer edges of the experience, angels watching me, waiting in anticipation to see what I would do. Would I pass the test?

This is going to sound crazy. And I don't mean this on an ego level at all as I do understand that what I experienced was symbolic. I was taking the light, the light of truth into the darkest place in the universe. I was taking the light that had been downloaded to me via the sun in the daytime, taking that light to the densest place, the home of Lucifer. Now I don't want to get all Bible-y on you, as it was my only way of understanding what was going on. I knew the story of Lucifer and Alloya used the stories I already knew to aid me in my understanding because I needed to understand and understand quickly. He was coming.

I can't say that I physically saw him; I didn't need to. Feeling him was quite enough. The fear was impressive. My body shook and I involuntarily made this strange pining sound like an animal does when it's really scared and I couldn't stop making the sound. He filled the entire room. It felt like I was going to die which was scary in itself, but what was more scary was that without the beliefs of my body that said this was delusional, I feared that Lucifer would devour me.


There is a well known saying that when you are at the bottom of the pit that is when you find God. I was on the edge like I had never been before. This was one hell of a test. It felt like not only did my life depend on my success, but symbolically the success of New Planet Reality becoming real for everyone in the future was on my shoulders. Near to annihilation was how it felt. I had no where left to turn. I had to face him. So, face him I did.

The most incredible thing happened. I saw him as God. It was so simple. If everything is God, then so is fear. I felt the love. It was pure, mine, mine to give, my divinity. Not only did my soul face and love its enemy, but so, too, did my ego. We embraced lovingly on an energetic level. I had succeeded. Alloya explained to me that I had anchored the light into the darkness and now, in time, New Planet Reality would manifest for all.


The process complete, the angels began to sing. I could hear them. The sun of another day rose in the sky. I had a new vigor that came with my success. I could feel this incredible power entering my body. Light filled my body. I spent the next few days walking in nature. It was a beautiful. The springtime sunlight was bright and intense. Everywhere I went, I could read the story of the landscape. Everywhere held energetic stories of things that have gone on there before, not only in the third dimension and history, but on all the other levels, too.

I was experiencing myself as God, an intrinsic part of all creation. I could feel the consciousness of all the elements around me moving through my body. The awareness of my aura grew and grew. I stood at the sea-edge, feeling my aura growing so large that it was starting to incorporate the entire planet. It was at that moment that I passed out.


When I came to on the beach, Alloya said,

"It is time to go home and to sleep."

I went home and later that night I took a sleeping tablet. You may ask why I didn't take one before. I couldn't allow it in my aura. Now, at the right time, it was appropriate and finally I fell asleep after six days of no sleep whatsoever.

I awoke the next day; a little worried it would all be over. I needn't have worried. The colors were still vibrant and alive. Alloya explained to me how I was God and created all that I could experience, even the people in my life. She showed me in no uncertain terms just how powerfully we create our reality. Without the restrictions of time in this dimension, manifestation was instant.

I thought whilst walking on the beach with a friend,

"I feel so overly sensitive today. The worst thing that could happen now is if a gang of football hooligans were to come round the corner. I think I would pass out."

Just as I said it, this gang of about six boys all in football kit, kicking a can, singing football songs came around the corner. Both my friend and I looked on in on in disbelief.

"You made that happen," said my friend.

This was getting to be a big responsibility. I needed to go home and sleep some more. I was really feeling the strain on my body.

Alloya explained to me that I would, over the next few days, come down in vibration to re-enter the reality from whence I came. That I would forget I was God. That it didn't matter because I would have grounded the blue-print of New Planet Reality into the potent soil of Gaia, Mother Earth. I can remember laughing, thinking it would be fun to go back and pretend I was not God anymore.

For the next three years, I had to integrate the experience. It was incredibly painful on many levels. I thought I had gone mad but the truth monster would not allow me to settle with that. It felt so untrue. It was a spiritual experience. I knew it without a shadow of a doubt and that hurt. It hurt because I was not in that reality anymore. I cannot begin to tell you how painful it was for me.


There were times when I considered taking my own life. When you take an experience or rather an energy so high and powerful such as I had done into your body, you cannot expect anything less than what I went on to experience, great pain, great sorrow, great loss and a great yearning to go Home.

For I am not from this planet or any other like it. I am from a dimension that does not even exist in our referencing. So to be in that reality and to be brought back into a denser reality was very distressing for me. However, now as I look back, I can now see how all the pain was a necessary healing and integration process. I am beginning to see how I never really left New Planet Reality but integrated it into a denser form. I am waking up in the densest dimension. Spirit in physical form.

As Alloya Ye Ra Har I am here and here is where 'I AM.' Many of you are experiencing beings outside of yourselves that you consider higher in form to you and in need of your worship. You do not need to worship aspects of yourself. Do you understand the nature of your reality? It symbolically represents energies in physical form. When you encounter beings from other realms, they are only other aspects of yourself. As the dimensions merge within your physical form, you will experience yourself as these beings.


For on the other levels, we are all ONE.

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