Chapter Twelve: Preventing Reaccessing of the Survivor
This is by far one of the most important chapters I have written in
this book. Why?
Deprogramming cannot be consistently successful if the person is
still in contact with the abusers. Survivors will take one step
forward, then will find themselves knocked down internally. All the
hard work in therapy will be undone or set back. They and their
therapist will find that they have trouble finding internal alters.
Whole systems may shut down. A child presenting system may come out.
Confusers and scramblers will take over therapy sessions and
blockers will block therapy.
No one chapter can ever be totally comprehensive in how to prevent
reaccessing. What I will share are some of the more common ways that
the cult and trainers will try to reaccess individuals, and give
some techniques on avoiding this.
The cult has a vested interest in keeping its members. After all, it
has spent generations telling its members that if they leave they
will die, be killed, or go psychotic. It makes them quite unhappy to
see someone who is quite alive and very clearly not psychotic leave.
It also makes their more restive members question the truth of what
they have been told if they see someone get out. Having a member
leave may break the hold of some programming in other members.
Trainers especially hate to see anyone leave, and grind their teeth
over this problem at night. People leaving the cult is considered a
training failure and the trainers may be punished severely.
So, the cult has come up with certain ways to keep their members
with them, willingly or unwillingly. These include, but are not
E.T. phone home (phone programming) : the individual will have
personalities whose sole job is to call and report to the trainer or
cult leader. These are often young child alters who are eager to
please, starved for attention and nurture, and who are heavily
rewarded for calling back in. Any survivor who attempts to leave the
cult must deal with the urge to phone home. To phone their abusers.
To phone their friends who are in the group. To phone their parents,
siblings, cousins, or aunts. This urge may become overwhelming at
times and worst of all, the survivor may be totally amnesic to the
fact that the people they are calling are cult members who are
urging them, in code, to come back. Common phrases used include:
your 'family' loves you, misses you, needs you. So and so is ill and
needs to see you. You are so special to us. You are so valuable. You
need to come see us. Why are you so distant? Why haven't we heard
from you lately?
The list goes on and on. Sweet, kind phrases with double meanings,
placed in the person during training sessions. Trainers are not
stupid and know that if cult members said "come to the ritual
meeting at midnight next week", the survivor would run the other
way, and be validated as well that they are not making things up.
So, they ingrain code messages behind innocuous phrases such as
described above. These, and other messages, are meant to trigger
In recontact programming, (ALL ILLUMINATI MEMBERS HAVE RECONTACT
PROGRAMMING, IT IS NEVER LEFT TO CHANCE) the person has parts whose
only job is to have contact with their trainer or cult leader, or
accountability person (person one step above them in the cult).
These parts are heavily programmed under drugs, hypnosis, shock,
torture, to have recontact. The individual will feel restless,
shaky, weepy, afraid if they try to break this programming. It will
often be linked or joined in to suicidal programming (see previous
chapter for more on suicidal programming). They may experience PTSD
symptomology, or even flood programming, and internal self
punishment sequences, as they fight this programming internally.
Siblings are often cross trained to access each other with special
codes. Remember when.... may initiate this. I love you, or, your
family loves you, can also be used. Phrases will be individual,
depending on the person's family members and background.
Certain clothing or jewelry worn can be used to draw a cult loyal
system, such as a color coded system, or jewel system , to the
front. The person must physically resemble the person the individual
was "keyed into" during the programming sequence, to prevent
inadvertent popping out of alters by anyone wearing a ruby pin, for
example. This kind of cueing will be based on sight recognition of a
person, plus the clothing color or jewelry being worn a certain way.
Phone calls from concerned family members, friends, and cult members
will flood the survivor's phone lines and answering machine,
especially during the initial getting out phase.
Hang up calls, three or six in a row, or calls where a series of
tones are heard, may be used as cues to recall the individual and
fire off internal programming.
Birthday, holiday or we miss you cards, or letters, may be sent with
trigger codes imbedded in them.
Flowers with a certain number of flowers, or color may be sent.
Daisies may fire off daisy programming internally.
The possibilities are almost endless, depending on the trainers, the
group the person was with, and the people they are most bonded to in
the cult. Special training sessions will be given, with code words
and cues built into the system's programming.
If all else fails, hostility will start. "You don't love us" will be
heard, even when the survivor has stated repeatedly that they care.
Boundaries drawn with cult members will be misinterpreted as lack of
concern, or withdrawal. Accusations, guilt, and anger as well as
manipulation will be used as hooks to make the survivor feel guilty
for withdrawing from the cult.
Isolation programming may activate, as the cult support system is
withdrawn in the survivor's life, and they try the difficult task of
developing healthy, appropriate relationships outside of the cult.
Often, the therapist will be the survivor's lifeline and sole
support at first. The individual may fall into codependent
relationships quickly, or relationships with other survivors to fill
the void in their life. At worst, desperate for caring and feeling
isolated, they will make friends with the first kind person they
meet. This person could be a cult set up, sent to initiate a
friendship quickly. Survivors should be wary of "instant
friendships" or instant bonding with others. Most good relationships
take time and effort.
One of the most difficult tasks, but most important safety wise,
will be for a totally amnesic presenting system to realize who their
abusers really are. It will seem unbelievable, when back parts come
up in therapy, and disclose that beloved, or even barely tolerated
family members are in the cult. Believing these parts and listening
to them will be crucial to safety. Protectors will be important to
the survivor's safety, especially if they are willing to give up
cult allegiance and help keep the person safe. Outside
accountability with safe persons is extremely important. The problem
is that generational Illuminati survivors have often been surrounded
all their lives by a network of other cult members. Unknown to them,
their closest friends and family members are part of the group.
Amnesia poses the greatest danger to the survivor in the beginning
stages, as they will trust people before they remember that they are
A survivor may remember the father taking them to rituals, and
believe that their mother or grandparent is safe. Only later in
therapy will they remember that mother or granny was actually their
trainer, since the most painful memories tend to come later. The
survivor may only remember ritual abuse in early childhood, and
think they were let go at a certain age. This is extremely rare,
since the group has put in years of effort into training them.
Almost never will they just "let someone go" in generational
families. But they may be given false or screen memories, especially
if they are in therapy, to confuse the survivor and the therapist.
The client will need to listen to and believe internal parts who
have more information than they do, and take appropriate steps to be
safe. This will probably mean cutting off contact with perpetrators
at this point. Again, outside accountability is paramount. Safe
houses, a women's shelter or a safe church family may be
alternatives. One of the worst things the survivor can do is
isolate, or go out walking late at night alone, or go camping in the
woods by themselves. Abduction will often occur in these scenarios,
when the survivor is alone and vulnerable. Safe roommates can help
keep the survivor safe.
Locking up the phone in the trunk of the car may help if phone
programming is intense. This gives the survivor the chance to wake
up or stop phone calls, if an alter has to get up, find the car
keys, turn on the light, go outside, and open a car trunk, bring the
phone inside and hook it up again before making a phone call.
Building a support system through safe support groups, a good
therapist, church, or work can also help. Whenever possible and
practical, moving away from the town or state where the survivor was
active in the cult can help. Why? Remember the survivor's whole
support network was the cult in their old town. The trainers and/or
family members have invested time and effort into the survivor and
have a big stake in their coming back. If the survivor moves far
enough away, a cult group in the new city or state will not know
them as well, and will not have a lengthy history with them. This
can help decrease the chance of reaccessing by the cult, in
conjunction with good therapy and a safe support network.
The survivor will have to rebuild their support system anyway, so
why not do it as far as possible away from people they have known
who might hurt them? It can be intensely triggering to the survivor
to see their old trainer walking down the street towards them, and
inside alters may destabilize or feel unsafe. This is one case where
distance is good.
One caution though: even if the survivor moves, they will need to
work intensely on blocking internal recontact programming at the
same time, or they may be quickly reaccessed. Trainers will often
send the person's system codes and grids over the internet to cult
groups in the new city, and will try to send someone who physically
resembles the trainer or a family member to initiate contact with
Internal communication and letting inside alters know that they can
change their jobs will help. Reward internal reporters for changing
allegiance and committing to keep the survivor safe. The cult used
to reward them for doing their job; now the survivor can reward them
for changing jobs. Develop new interests, work or hobbies that can
help the survivor meet new, safe people. The survivor may want to
practice friendship skills in support groups, as long as they are
run by reputable, safe therapists.
Be aware that holiday dates are often important dates for
reaccessing. Calendars are available that show important holidays
for SRA groups. Birthdays are also dates when the individual is
expected to return and there may be programming surrounding this.
Callback programming (where the person is given a specific date or
holiday when they are to return to the cult, or be punished) may
need to be broken as well. Allowing the alters who went through the
programming to share their memories, acknowledging their needs, and
trying to meet those needs in healthy ways will bring healing.
The survivor will need to go through a period of grieving for loss
of contact with family members and friends in the cult. No matter
how abusive, how disliked, it can be very difficult to cut off with
perpetrators, especially if they were the only people close to the
survivor. The survivor needs to acknowledge the difficulty of
creating a new, healthy, cultless support group. The survivor needs
to recognize that learning new skills and developing healthy
friendships will take time.
One issue often brought up by survivors is: how much do I tell
others about my past? This is an individual decision that the
survivor and therapist need to look at together. In general though,
caution in sharing is best, since sharing too much about the
survivor's past may draw the wrong people to them. These people may
be dysfunctional, or possible cult members. It is usually best to
base new, non cult friendships on healthy aspects of the person at
first and very gradually share small bits of information as the
friendship progresses, and sharing seems appropriate.
With time and
opportunities, the survivor will learn the importance of appropriate
boundaries and will want healthier relationships in their life.