Chapter Eleven: Suicidal Programming
I have decided to write an entire chapter about suicidal
programming, since it is often the most dangerous programming that
the survivor will face during their healing process. ALL ILLUMINATI
SURVIVORS WILL HAVE SUICIDAL PROGRAMMING PROTECTING THEIR SYSTEMS. I
emphasized this to also reiterate the need for good therapy and a
strong support system for the survivor.
The Illuminati know and realize that with time, individuals in their
group may start to question what they are doing. Or they may become
disenchanted with their role. They may even desire to leave the
group or try to dismantle their own programming.
The trainers are well aware of this possibility and to prevent this,
will always program in suicidality. The suicidality, or suicidal
programming, may surround one or more systems internally. It may be
layered into more than one system.
From earliest childhood, survivors have been conditioned to believe
that they would rather die than leave their "family" (the Illuminati
group). This is the core, or basis of suicidal programming. It will
be closely linked to loyalty to one's family as well as the group
(remember, this is a generational group and leaving it may mean
giving up contact with one's parents, spouse, siblings, aunts,
uncles, cousins and children, as well as close friends). These
people will all try to contact the survivor, and try to draw them
back into the cult, asking "don't you love us anymore?", or even
becoming accusatory and hostile if the survivor does not respond the
way they wish. The survivor will be told that they are "crazy". Or
delusional. That their family loves them and would never be part of
a cult. The family members will all still be amnesic, unless
something happens to trigger their own memories.
One of the most frequent suicidal programming sequences placed
internally will be "come back or die " programming. A family member
may activate it by telling the survivor that they are missed and
their family wants to see them. If the survivor fails to return, the
programming will start running. It can only be deactivated by a code
word from the person's trainer or cult contact person. This ensures
that they will recontact. If the survivor tries to break this
programming, they will need assistance, both internal and external,
Hospitalization may be needed in a safe facility that understands
DID and programming, as well as suicidality, as the alters inside
will begin fighting if the person tries to break the programming.
They have been programmed to commit suicide, or be shattered
internally, or at the very least, severely punished, and are afraid
of the repercussions of not obeying. The survivor will need to get
to know these internal alters, and reassure them that they no longer
need to do their jobs.
Chronometric suicidal programming is another type placed within.
This does not need contact with family members to activate. In fact,
it is activated automatically after a certain amount of time WITHOUT
cult contact. Controller alters and/or punishing alters will have
been programmed that if a certain period of time goes without
contact with the trainer, they are to commit suicide. They will be
told that the only way to prevent this is recontact with the
trainer, who knows a command code to halt the program. The time
interval may be anywhere from three months to nine months, each
system is different. Call back programming may have this type of
programming as a back up, to ensure that it is followed through on.
Systems layered programming is a particularly complex form of
suicide programming where several systems (up to six at a time), are
programmed to fire off suicide programming simultaneously. This
always needs hospitalization for the survivor's safety.
Honor/dishonor programming is common in military systems. In this,
the military parts are told that an "honorable and courageous"
soldier will take his life, rather than reveal secrets or leave his
"No tell" programming will often be reinforced by suicidal
Access denied programming, which prevents unauthorized access both
externally and internally, will often be reinforced by either or
both suicidal/homicidal programming.
Almost all suicidal programming is put in place to either ensure
continued obedience to the cult's agenda; to ensure regular
recontact; or prevent the individual or an outside person from
accessing the person's system without authorization (i.e. the
correct access codes, which the trainers are careful to use at the
beginning of each session). It will frequently block therapy, as the
survivor will be terrified, and rightly so, of dying if they reveal
their internal world, or disclose their history.
First, both the survivor and the therapist need to find out what
suicide programming is present (it's a safe bet it's there, no need
to ask IF it is present). Internal communication, and finding out
which alters or fragments hold suicide programming will be
important. Physical safety, whether with a safe outside person, or
inpatient hospitalization, while working on suicide programming is
extremely important, as this programming may either drive the
survivor to self destructive behavior, or back to the cult. Dealing
with suicide programming assumes that the survivor and therapist
have initiated good system communication internally. This is
extremely important, since the survivor will need cooperation inside
with dismantling suicidality.
Letting alters inside know that they no longer have to do their job,
that they can change, may help. Reality orientation, letting them
know that if they kill the body, that they will die, may also help
(many times, these parts have been deceived into believing that they
themselves will not die, if they do their jobs. This means they need
to hear the truth). Having controller alters, high alters with pull
inside the system, agree to help the therapist dismantle the
programming will help. But be aware that SOME INTERNAL SUICIDE
SEQUENCES WILL BE PUT IN THAT EVEN CONTROLLERS CANNOT DISMANTLE.
Creating a safety committee inside whose main job is to keep the
body safe and ask for help if suicidal programming begins to kick
in, BEFORE ACTING OUT OCCURS, will also help tremendously.
As the survivor develops trust with their therapist and realizes the
value of life, and that life can be much better than it has ever
been before, they will become more willing to reach out and ask for
help if they become suicidal. The survivor may also find that they
encounter core despair. This despair may have been used by the cult
to run suicidal programming, but it is not programming itself. A
very young core split may have taken many of the feelings of
despair, hopelessness, failure to thrive and desire to die, that the
child felt growing up in a horribly abusive atmosphere. This is not
programming but true feelings, and it will be important to
differentiate this from programming. If core despair comes up, the
alter containing this may also report having been trained to NOT
SUICIDE, or give up. The trainers will do this, if despair begins
overwhelming the subject at an early age, to prevent the child's
The survivor's cognitives, helpers, nurturers, will all need to be
gathered together to help this part of the core heal. There will be
intense, and rightful, grieving and anguish for the immense pain
that the young child suffered. Hopelessness will come out. It can
help if alters with happier memories can try and share their
memories with this very young part. External support and caring can
also make a big difference. Healing the immense pain held by this
core split will take a long period of time and should not be
hurried. Antidepressants can help, as the depression may be shared
through all systems. Messages of hope, new and positive experiences
can all help the survivor work through this type of programming, as
well as journaling, poetry, artwork and collaging the feelings.
Time, patience, support, the ability to vent feelings in a safe
manner and physical safety when needed, will all help immensely as
the survivor works through these issues.