by Christine Colebeck
Today is my daughter's sweet
16th birthday but we will not be celebrating. Instead I will light a candle
and when I blow it out I will make a wish in my daughter's memory. My wish
is for all mother's worldwide, that you will educate yourselves and that you
make informed choices so that you may prevent unnecessary tragedy and be
spared from my pain.
After 41 weeks of pregnancy, on July 27th, 1986, a perfect and healthy
little baby, Laura Marie, made her entrance into the world. We were welcomed
home by family and friends anxiously waiting to meet the new family member.
They showered her with so many beautiful, little tiny, pink dresses, we
joked that she would never be able to wear them all in one lifetime.
Our lives changed completely and now revolved around stroller walks in the
park, visiting friends, changing diapers, night feedings and shopping for
more little pink dresses. We were parents now, we had a family and life was
I took Laura for several baby check-ups at the pediatrician. She was a kind
and gentle older woman. At 3 months old, the pediatrician was very pleased
with Laura's development and weight gain and vaccinated her with DPT OPV. I
didn't even question her, I knew that all my friend's babies had this same
vaccine and "all good mothers" vaccinated their children to protect them. I
left the pediatrician's office and walked home.
Laura was very fussy, which was unusual. She was crying loudly all the way
home in the stroller. When we got home, I realized she had urinated so
heavily she wet everything in the stroller. Then her cry turned into
screaming and she developed a fever, her leg was very swollen and red, and
felt hot. I called the pediatrician who told me this was "normal" and to
give her Tempra. I gave her baby Tempra and I felt better, the pediatrician
had assured me this was normal.
Laura continued to scream and I could no longer console her. My every
instinct told me this was not normal but I was young with my first child and
trusted the doctor. I could not hold Laura in my arms because she screamed
louder as any movement of her leg seemed to cause her terrible pain. I put
her in the swing and she cried herself to sleep. I was so relieved, the
Tempra was working and the doctor must have been right. I began to feel
silly for all my worrying. A short time later, Laura woke up screaming and
spent the evening screaming and sleeping on and off.
She had no appetite and nothing made her stop crying. Finally it was bedtime
and she cried in her crib, until she fell asleep. She had never cried
herself to sleep before and I felt very bad for letting her but if I held
her, she screamed louder. My husband came home from work and I told him
about everything that had happened that day. Laura was sleeping soundly in
her crib and we were both relieved that she seemed to be feeling better and
decided not to worry... I should have worried.
In the morning I awoke and was startled to realize my husband had slept in
for work. I immediately knew something was wrong and the worry from the
previous night came rushing back to me. I quickly ran to her crib, with a
feeling of dread. She did not look right. I closed my eyes tight and opened
them again, and considered the possibility that this was a dream, but when I
opened my eyes she looked dead.
I went into shock and after that, much of this day remains a blur. I touched
her and she was very warm. I screamed for my husband to call 911.
I watched as he performed CPR, my body was frozen and I couldn't move. He
tried to revive our child to no avail. He was shouting for me to open the
door for the paramedics, I was temporarily jolted back to reality and I went
and opened the door. I could now move but couldn't speak. I just stood there
numbly shaking my head, feeling completely helpless as dozens of paramedics,
police and firemen rushed past me into our home.
I didn't cry, and I wanted to
scream at them to leave her alone but I couldn't speak. She was on the floor
and they were shocking her tiny body, in the little bedroom with the yellow
painted walls and clown wallpaper. I stood there praying in my head that
they would just leave her alone, that they would get out of her bedroom and
that I would wake up from this horrible dream.
Then I heard someone saying there was a faint pulse and I suddenly felt
hopeful. She was rushed from the house in an ambulance. It was then that the
homicide detectives led us into another room and the interrogation began.
They decided that my husband and I needed to be questioned in separate
rooms. I immediately realized they suspected that we had done this to our
child. We all know that perfect children do not suddenly die for no reason.
I was silent, I had already decided in my own mind that this was somehow all
my fault and although I wasn't quite sure what I had done to kill her, I was
convinced that I had somehow caused this to happen.
Perhaps, I was being punished by
god for a sin or perhaps it happened because I had let her cry herself to
sleep that night. The fact remained that my child was dead and "good
mothers" do not have dead children.
My husband began to protest loudly about the line of questioning and he
demanded we be taken immediately to the hospital, to see our child. The
detectives finally took us to the hospital and put us in the "bad news
room." The doctor came and insisted we sit down before he spoke to us.
He began telling us that they
had tried this and that and then finally he said the words that would echo
in my ears for a lifetime:
"She is dead."
The pediatrician whom I so
respected and adored broke down and cried when I gave her the news on the
phone. She went back and forth defending the vaccine that she was told was
safe, and blaming it for killing my child and those who told her it was
She then told me that she also had another patient, an infant boy, die after
this same vaccination.
Then the detectives took us home for more questions, often repeating the
same questions several times until they grew tired of asking them. The
questions constantly centered around our involvement, then they searched the
house and checked for signs of forced entry. My husband repeatedly told them
that he thought the vaccine had killed our child and told them over and over
about her unusual behavior since she was vaccinated.
Everyone we knew arrived at our house. I made coffee and tidied the house,
like it was any other day and we were having "guests". Shock is a strange
and wonderful thing and of course you don't know you are in it.
My parents finally insisted on taking me to their house for a few days,
while my husband and his friends had the horrendous task of packing up the
nursery because I couldn't stand to look at it any longer. The room I had so
lovingly made was now empty and a source of great pain.
Several days later, after the funeral and the tiny white coffin that was so
small my husband carried it alone, I finally came out of shock and allowed
myself to cry a river. I cried for all the things I would never do with my
daughter. All the ballet classes I would never take her to, the wedding I
would never attend, the grandchildren I would never know and all the dreams
I would never realize with her. I cried for all that was and all that would
never be. There was an emptiness inside of me that threatened to swallow me
up whole, as I fell into the depths of grief during the darkest days of my
The detectives eventually became satisfied that we had not harmed our
daughter in any way and the investigation into her death ended. We were then
left without answers.
The doctors did not want to talk about her death being related in any way to
the vaccine and, one after the other, refused to answer our many questions.
I was repeatedly told that vaccines were for "the greater good." I was even
told that loss of life through immunization was "expected" in the war
against disease but these losses were considered to be at "acceptable"
However, this did not feel very
acceptable or good to me as a mother with empty arms that ached for my
child. The coroner finally told us months later that the cause of death was
determined to be "SIDS" (sudden infant death syndrome), meaning "no known
cause," and refused to release a copy of the autopsy report to us.
It took almost a year for us to obtain this report and to our great horror,
we realized that the autopsy summery was copied directly from the vaccine
product monograph under the heading "Contraindications" as follows:
"Sudden infant death
syndrome has been reported following administration of vaccines
containing Diphtheria, tetanus toxoids, and pertussis vaccine. However,
the significance of these reports is not clear. One common factor is the
age where primary immunization was done between the age of 2 to 6
months, a period where most sudden infant death syndromes are found to
1occur with a peak incidence being at 2 to 4 months."
There was no toxicology testing
performed and the pediatrician never filed an adverse vaccine reaction
report with health authorities. I later learned that most vaccine-induced
deaths in this country are listed as SIDS and SIDS statistics are NOT
included in vaccine adverse reaction data, even if a child dies only a few
hours after receiving inoculation. This data is presented to physicians and
the public to reassure them that vaccines are safe.
The government's own literature advises that there has been little or no
testing in the area of vaccine safety or efficacy. Essentially, our children
are the test. According to their literature, immunization is "the most cost
effective" way to prevent disease. Nowhere in their literature does it claim
to be the safest.
We are trading our children's
lives to save the government money. We are told that the benefits outweigh
the risks but many of the diseases that we vaccinate for are not even life
threatening; however, the vaccine itself has the potential to kill.
Vaccines kill at a much higher rate than we are led to believe. We play
vaccine roulette with our children's lives and we never know which child
will fall victim next.
If the odds are 1 in 500 thousand for death, 1 in 100 thousand for permanent
brain injury, 1 in 1700 for seizures and convulsions or one in 100 for
adverse reaction, are you willing to take that chance? Are any odds
acceptable enough to convince you to gamble with your child's life?
I can assure you that death from vaccination is neither quick nor painless.
I helplessly watched my daughter suffer an excruciatingly slow death as she
screamed and arched her back in pain, while the vaccine did as it was
intended to do and assaulted her immature immune system. The poisons used as
preservatives seeped through her tiny body, overwhelming her vital organs
one by one until they collapsed. It is an image that will haunt me forever
and I hope no other parent ever has to witness it.
A death sentence considered too inhumane for this county's most violent
criminals was handed down to my beautiful, innocent, infant daughter, death
by lethal injection.
Today, on my daughter's birthday, I will grieve not only for the loss of my
own child but for all the innocent children for which the benefits of
vaccines do not outweigh the risks and are unnecessarily sentenced to death
by lethal injection, under the guise of "the greater good."
The true war is not against
disease; we have somehow become our own worst enemy by putting our faith in
science instead of nature. Today, I call on all mothers across the world to
join me in putting an end to this senseless slaughter of our most precious
resource, our children.
Response from Dawn
Dear PROVE Members
I am forwarding this ... as a tribute to baby Laura and all the other
children who have been injured or killed by a vaccine so that parents
can learn another side to the vaccine story.
When I was almost 8 months pregnant with one of my daughters, I had
volunteered to go to the Travis County Morgue with Karin Schumacher who,
for years before she went to Law School, ran the NVIC news-list. Karin
asked me to help her go through autopsy reports of infants listed as
SIDS deaths and look at vaccination information. I will never forget the
experience. We sat there in this basement buried in infant autopsy
reports as my own baby kicked and turned inside of me.
Here were two of our observations:
1) A highly disproportionate
amount of SIDS deaths clustered at 2, 4, and 6 months -- which are the
very times infants are vaccinated. If vaccines had nothing to do with
these, the numbers should have been randomly spread throughout the first
6 months of life. Not so. I challenge the naysayers to go to any morgue
in the country and to be honest and see what I'm talking about.
2) It was shocking at how rare it was for the vaccine information to be
recorded and how little investigating into the cause of death of these
babies was actually done. It floored me that the when the vaccine
information was even mentioned, it was often so incomplete. Medical
examiners routinely missed asking for this indispensable information and
failed to note the correlation of the date when the child died to even
raise the question.
One of the things that struck me when reading Christine's story ... is
that here we are 16 years later and so many doctors are still
downplaying and denying the risks of vaccines and healthy babies are
still dying after being vaccinated.
the most offensive things that Senator Frist has
in his vaccine bill which shields the drug companies from all
liability when a vaccine injures or kills someone is that he is
proposing that the federal government increase the amount of money that
a parent receives from the government compensation program when their
child is killed by a vaccine.
Parents are not willing to
be bought off with this blood money. Elected officials like Frist who
want to eliminate the financial responsibility of the drug companies all
together and throw the bone to parents that the government will pay them
more if the government mandated vaccine kills their kid need to be voted
out of Congress.
If you haven't
sent your email notes to your senators to oppose S
2053 yet - PLEASE do! If drug companies have ZERO threat of
liability, the one thing we can be certain of is that stories like
[Laura's] will become far more common.
The key to change is education. Fortunately, the Internet allows parents
to educate parents. Please stop for a quiet moment after reading the
note and say a prayer for all the babies whose lives were ended before
they even got a chance to really start ... and then take the time to
forward this on to other parents.
SenatorFrist's Vaccine Bill S 2053
Dr. Mercola's Comment:
I strongly urge you to forward this particular piece to everyone --
parents, expecting parents, women in their childbearing years, and
anyone who may know such individuals - and ask them to forward it on,
too. One of the greatest powers of the Internet is that we can spread
important information quickly; another is that we are not (yet!)
restricted from doing so by government or corporate bodies.
Laura's tragic story is, sadly, anything but new. For years, as you can
see via the links below or by searching on Mercola.com,
I have warned against vaccines, as have
other credentialed physicians. The good they may do is overwhelmed by
the harm they inflict, from the trauma of being stuck with endless
needles to inflicting the very disease they are supposed to guard
against to, as this story shows, death.
There are alternate and vastly safer methods that all begin with
a truly healthy diet as outlined in my Eating Plan;
of course, drug manufacturers and the government they have purchased
don't want you to believe that the foods you consume and the habits you
adopt are the primary solution to establishing immunity to diseases and
living longer. They want you to believe that their pharmaceuticals,
including vaccines, are essential to your existence, and your
Their wealth relies on your dependency, and so they will do everything
to crush the notion of "natural" - meaning they don't profit from it,
and you take back the control - health.
They will spend three billion dollars this year
alone in advertisements for their pharmaceuticals, preying on
unsuspecting consumers' hopes and fears with these carefully crafted
campaigns. Apparently, they will not even stop at killing our children
to feed their greed.
Again, I encourage you to check out the links below, and to use the
powerful search feature on Mercola.com, using terms such as "vaccine" or
"pharmaceutical manufacturer," to find out how the traditional medical
establishment is putting your life and the lives of those you love at
risk -- and how to take back your health.
"You were created to live in perfect health your entire