by Bernhard Guenther
"At the moment we are
at a decisive turning-point in the history of the earth, once
From every side, I am
"What is going to
Everywhere there is
anguish, expectation, fear.
"What is going to
There is only one
"If only man
could consent to be spiritualized."
And perhaps it would
be enough if some individuals became pure gold, for this would
be enough to change the course of events. We are faced with this
necessity in a very urgent way.
This courage, this heroism which the Divine wants of us, why not
use it to fight against one's own difficulties, one's own
imperfections, one's own obscurities?
Why not heroically face the furnace of inner purification so
that it does not become necessary to pass once more through one
of those terrible, gigantic destructions which plunge an entire
civilization into darkness?
This is the problem before us. It is for each one to solve it in
his own way."
Over the past few years,
I've gone through some more profound inner changes and realizations.
Some of them I've shared
in previous articles and essays. However, this year in particular,
it has accelerated to another level. There is a deeper calling
arising within me. I've noticed these changes in others, and maybe
you can relate to them as well. This growth period also entailed
accelerated suffering, igniting more vulnerability and humility
More "stuff" has
surfaced, not only associated with present lifetime wounds and
"issues" but also related to past lives, ancestral traumas and
larger karmic lessons. At the same time, there have been more
experiences of higher divine love/joy, which are not dependent on
any external factors, that come with it as this (inner) work is
getting more refined.
A big part of this inner growth period is related to my relationship
It felt like Divine Grace
brought us together. Our connection accelerated my (our) internal
process in a way I certainly didn't expect, and I don't think I
could have done this by myself.
In fact, I even felt
(before meeting her a couple of years ago) that I've had hit a wall
in my own process.
I knew deep inside that
only via meeting my "shakti" and learning through experience a true
deeper human love that I'd be able to progress to the next level;
which is ultimately tied to my connection to God and love for the
But this growth period and our relationship wasn't and isn't all
love and bliss. In fact, more stuff came out of the shadows and dark
for both of us, triggered in the crucible of this alchemical union,
which wouldn't have surfaced to be made conscious of for us as
It was an Ascent and
Descent at the same time as "the Work" continues. The higher the
love we aspire to experience, the deeper we need to go into our
shadows, wounds, and traumas and heal/transmute everything that is
holding us back from this.
The fundamental essence of Laura's and I's relationship is that it
has its foundation in the Divine and our personal/individual
relationship to the Divine, so we don't use each other as our
primary source of fulfillment and "happiness".
This also implies
engaging in the necessary essential psychological work, shadow work,
and trauma work - together and as individuals - so that we clear our
vessels so that we may anchor the Divine within and don't
spiritually bypass our issues.
This is not easy work at
times (to say the least) let alone also having to deal with
interferences that try to disrupt our relationship, be it working
through others projecting on to us, or through thought injections
from these forces working through our own minds, ego, blindspots,
"What the Divine
Mother is now birthing in all those open to her is a vision of
total relationship between heart, mind, body, and soul, so that
through that deep sacred relationship, we can come into the
unified force field of reality, become completely embodied and
present, and use that inner love to express our longing to see
the world transformed.
What is really at
stake is this: If we continue to have a vision of relationship
as purely personal, purely private, and something that we
cultivate only for our own pleasure, we will keep feeding the
tragic narcissism that is now ravaging the planet on every
The real thrust and purpose and meaning and divine importance of
relationship is to give us the fuel to take on the world, the
energy to keep on pouring ourselves out for the creation of a
new world. It is critical to remember that this crisis we are
facing is a crisis in which the sacred powers of love in the
human soul are being diverted by distraction, by greed, by
ignorance, by the pursuit of power, so that they never irrigate
the world and transform it.
What is needed is a
vision of evolutionary relationship as a relationship that helps
us come into the real, take responsibility for it, and enact our
sacred purpose with a partner, and for the world:
when two lovers
come together in this dynamic love consciousness, they
create a transformative field of sacred energy, from which
both can feed to inspire their work in reality.
Both beings need to
be plunged individually into a deep and passionate devotion of
the Beloved [Divine], by whatever name they know the Beloved,
because without both beings centering their life in God,
the relationship will never be able to escape the private
From the very
beginning it must be centered in the Divine. It must be a
relationship that is undertaken in the coscious presence of the
Divine for the Divine's great work in the Universe.
relationship that is centered in God, and that has God as the
prime actor in the relationship, will be able to bear the
vicissitudes of authentic love, of dealing with the challenges
of life and service in the world."
"Evolutionary Love Relationships"
Andrew Harvey & Chris Saade
Having said that, I'm not
implying by sharing my experience that everyone needs to have a
partner to do this work.
For most of my life, I've actually been
single and living in solitude - hermit style. But it has been part
of my individual soul lesson and progress to find that entering a
relationship like this is an integral part of my path. It felt
destined. We all also have our unique path, soul lessons, and karma
to work out; hence, any comparison is not only futile but
Over the past six years, I have also increasingly felt the call to
aspire and surrender to the Divine. I clearly "see" and experience
now that this surrender/aspiration is a necessity for anyone on the
path towards Awakening to truly transcend the matrix (regardless if
one does it through a relationship or not).
This higher alignment is
the essential trajectory for humanity as a whole if we genuinely
want to make the "shift" so we don't end up in another "Dark Night
of Civilization" - as it has happened to past ancient civilizations
- which resulted in destruction and the necessity to repeat the
I have felt this call within over the years, but in
earlier times it was still driven partly by an "intellectual"
understanding of the Divine; not an embodied inner realization.
However, we also need to acknowledge that we all are engaged in our
own individual processes.
We all are where we "need to be" and why
this is, is based on many unknowns that our minds can't understand.
At the same time, there is also a collective process that is
occurring in regard to the bigger picture of the evolution of
consciousness; which we are all affected by and influenced by - and
this manifests differently for each of us.
Everything is connected
and interrelated, nothing is isolated or separate; even though our egoic mind perceives it that way. There is a higher Divine plan/Will
doing its magnificent work on unseen levels.
Many of us will experience this acceleration of breakdowns and
breakthroughs. This process results in more pressure to awaken and
thus can result in more suffering by its tendency to bring up
"stuff" we have suppressed, sometimes, even for lifetimes.
become more sensitized we also start to feel the suffering and pain
of the collective and all of humanity more and more.
how we handle the intensity of these energies, it can either break
us down and cause us to spiral into more suffering and despair, or
it can break us open to higher states of consciousness - if we
choose to engage in this process consciously and don't fight/resist
Most often it's both at the same time, the ascent and descent,
as consciousness widens all around us and the process of
For the ones who decide to "answer the call" to engage in this
process consciously, life takes on a whole new meaning and aim as
they start to respond to something deep within them. This call often
arrives as a very soft and quiet voice at first and is hardly
noticeable. Yet, it is there, the lotus flower within; the voice of
our psychic being, which directs and guides our evolution.
inner call inspires us to embark on the path, driven by questions
"Who am I?"
"Why am I here?"
"Where did I come from?"
It is then that we start to question everything,
looking for the truth of our being.
This call is the starting point
of the seeker as he/she starts his/her quest and adventure.
Approach of the Seeker
If we are sincere in our seeking and questioning, we soon will
realize that the Work needs to happen on all levels:
physical/somatic, emotional/psychological, mental/intellectual, and
Various esoteric teachings have pointed out and described
the Great Work in their own language, pointing to this alchemical
process that happens on the path towards awakening.
But life has
also become more complex in our modern, isolated, and increasingly
technology-driven world. The matrix is on over-drive to keep
humanity locked in a frequency prison and separated from spirit.
These occult matrix architects have their teaching function in the
bigger play of spiritual evolution; they are inviting us into a more
holistic and integral approach to self-work.
They are pushing us to
not retreat from the world or look to escape it but to engage in
this Work in our every-day lives.
Despite the seemingly ensuing
darkness taking over the earth, the Light from above is descending
as well, creating more and more pockets of Light. This light
anchoring on the planet will also increase instances of Divine
Grace, and many of us are already bringing in the Light to this
planet as anchors of these higher frequencies.
Yet, the Divine can only express itself through us and to the extent
of our inner alignment and how purified our vessel is. This process
of purification allows us to bring forth the true Self and live with
our psychic being at the front, instead of living with our
traumatized ego-personality running the show.
We are all dealing
with individual challenges and lessons in order to go through this
process; and we all have our own distorted filters based on wounds,
trauma, conditioning, and ego-identification; that need to be
cleansed into a clearer perception.
In the end, it's the same ONE
Divine Force that is attempting to infuse all of us with the divine supramental consciousness, by asking us to clear our vessel from the
lower egoic/animal self.
By rising into this higher level of Being
we give an alchemical birth to a new human - one that is a pure
embodied vessel of the Divine.
To clear our vessel, heal ourselves, embrace life, and get a better
understanding of ourselves and the world, the Work of the seeker is
four-fold, each aspect representing one part of his/her Whole:
physical, emotional/psychological/somatic, mental/intellectual, and
Taking care of
your physical body/vehicle via the right diet, exercise
(including body-mind practices) and becoming a
self-responsible adult in everyday life creating your
inner work, embodiment, and engaging in somatic
psychotherapeutic work to work through, heal and transmute
your wounds and traumas that are stored in the body.
the world, the matrix, deprogramming yourself from
social/cultural conditioning, and understanding
higher/universal laws so you can see through appearances,
deceptions, distractions and have a bigger picture context
in light of the evolution of consciousness. [Intellectual]
work to connect with your essence (true Self, psychic
being), anchoring the Divine force and aligning with Divine
Will via aspiration - rejection - surrender. [Spiritual]
Art by Morrigan
These four aspects are all interrelated and affect and influence
It's not a linear, step-by-step approach but an
integral, holistic, and multi-dimensional process. Depending on
where each individual is at and what his/her lessons are, any of
these points could be a priority for a period of time. However, it
all comes down to this surrender to the Divine; which must happen in
order for us to fully spiritualize our Being.
Engaging in this holistic work on all levels; physically,
emotionally, intellectually and spiritually; will also align you
with your vocation and deeper soul purpose, which is in alignment
with Divine Will.
As you start to live more authentically from
within and practice self-responsibility for your unique karmic
situation, you bring forth your true essence, and this alignment
within your Being results in "right action" externally; helping
others and the world to awaken during this Time of Transition;
according to the specific gifts and talents you have to offer the
world during this period.
In other words, your creative power will increase as you become a
clearer vessel for the Divine. This is the real "secret" of reality
creation - aligning your little "personal" will with Divine Will.
mentioned before, it's important to understand this process and how
it manifests differently for each of us
Imbalances in The
If we don't engage in the work holistically (on all levels), it can
result in various imbalanced consequences.
While there are many
variations, I will generally outline the ones I have seen the most,
including in myself.
Overfocus on the
Physical Body and External Life While Neglecting Inner Work
Many people tend to be overly focused and identified (even to the
point of obsession) with their physical body/appearance and physical
health, fixated only on diet and exercise; but don't engage in any
form of inner psychological/spiritual work. The obsession with
physical looks and youth is very predominant in this day and age.
see this trend with the continued rise of cosmetic surgeries; as
people start to self-mutilate their bodies in the quest for physical
This act of surgery from a somatic perspective creates
even more trauma in the body; as the body does not know that this is
merely cosmetic and takes in these experiences with the same fear as
it would an unplanned violent attack.
All of this trauma done to the body has become normalized based on
us accepting these distorted and socially conditioned "ideal" body
images, thus we see it as perfectly "normal" to seek to emulate
them; often driven by our own unresolved unconscious wounds,
traumas, and insecurities.
We try to "compensate" by making the
external "perfect" so that we do not have to face our inevitable
mortality or the false core beliefs that we may hold that we aren't
"good enough". This topic is a big "elephant in the room" topic and
is often a difficult thing to realize for those who have gone "under
the knife" themselves.
Obviously, we want to be and need to be physically healthy; but
staying fit, healthy, and "looking good" goes way beyond exercise
and diet; so its important to not become neurotically attached and
addicted to this quest, otherwise it often results in eating
disorders or a disordered relationship with exercise (which keeps us
from reflecting on the unresolved unconscious wounds and traumas
that may be behind them).
Taking care of our body via the right diet
and exercise is important, but true health is holistic and goes way
beyond taking care of the physical body alone. Health also relates
to living an authentic life and taking care of your inner life;
emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually.
We can also become overly focused on career ambitions and external
success in the world (which can be detrimental to health), once
again, most often driven by unconscious wounds/trauma and the need
to compensate for "holes" within ourselves - which are often filled
with unfelt/unprocessed life experiences - which we avoid feeling by
seeking to fill them by external accomplishments.
Gabor Mate shares below a compelling case about a woman who got
diagnosed with stage 4 cancer (even though she was successful
professionally, seemingly "happily" married with kids, and
physically fit/healthy) due to her people-pleaser program and
avoidance of facing her childhood trauma and shadow, which resulted
in her living an inauthentic life.
Authenticity vs. Inauthenticity
We start living an inauthentic life when we fall into the trap of
comparison and are very concerned about what other people think of
us and the way they see us, resulting in a people-pleaser program
and a lack of boundaries.
We then build a fake persona to appear a
certain way based on the social image we'd like to portray. We then
start to identify with our external ego-personality and create a
further disconnect from our true self/essence. Any feelings and
emotions that contradict the ideal image we have of ourselves then
get pushed into the unconscious.
This also results in suppression of
our wounds, traumas and "negative" emotions which we don't like to
feel, express, and show.
Authenticity doesn't mean to just express any desire or compulsion
we may have or act out from our neurotic narcissistic ego - it means
to act from our true self. Therefore, genuine authenticity means to
be in touch with our inner self; our body, our feelings, our spirit;
and express this essence through the instrument of the
We then don't shy away from pain and discomfort but
see it as a sign to adjust, engaging in inner work without trying to
escape or fill our internal emptiness through external means. There
is no division between our outer and inner life.
Inauthenticity is based on an internal split; a contradiction
between how we act, what we say and do, and how we feel internally.
When we get stuck in inauthenticity, we lose our inner guidance
connected to essence/the Divine. Inauthenticity is also the result
of head-centric living and disembodiment, it is a state where we
live disconnected from the wisdom of our bodies.
The more severe the
body-mind split, the more we look externally for happiness,
guidance, and fulfillment. Most people live inauthentic lives
because of social and cultural conditioning.
desires, needs and wants they have and the lives/careers
they pursue because of these needs/wants/desires, are most
often not their own based on who they truly are within, but
have been programmed into them via official culture and/or are the result of
trying to fill their emptiness/holes within based on unfelt wounds
and trauma (that they might not even be consciously aware of).
needs/wants/desires are also based on growing up in a world where
pathology has become normalized, and their programming from growing
up in this toxic culture.
These conditioned/programmed goals and enjoyments in life serve as
buffers to avoid facing the pain they are holding on an unconscious
They don't know who they are and don't know that they don't
know. There is no true individuality on that level of being but only
mechanical living under the illusion of free will; influenced by
group/hive mind mass consciousness and matrix occult forces.
time, living an inauthentic life can result in depression and even
illness and disease - no matter how much care you may take of your
physical body with the prescribed "right" diet and exercise.
Spiritual Work Without Psychological Work
People who are only focused on "spiritual work" and neglect
psychological work and avoid facing their early childhood wounds and
traumas can easily fall into spiritual bypassing.
Even though they
may have some spiritual peak experiences at first, they will find
themselves repeating the same ancestral patterns within their own
lives without understanding what drives these patterns. This is
particularly important for anyone who is very attracted to Eastern
These old esoteric traditions have their place and
contain timeless wisdom and gnosis, however, the times have changed
and Westerner's (and Western-influenced cultures) now need a more
holistic integral approach to self-work; which considers the modern
times we live in and the complex psychological pathologies that have
arisen out of them.
Unlike tribal communities, many people now live
disconnected from their bodies, nature, and live in isolation
without the support of or connection to the people who live on the
land around them.
This "first world" style of living, with all its technological
advances and comforts, has become almost completely disconnected
from spirit and nature. With the rise of materialism and science,
which has become the modern "religion", we are now faced with the
dawning of the A.I./Transhumanism "God".
As a result, we've become
traumatized simply by trying to adjust to a world that doesn't
recognize Spirit but is based on a head-centric mental
consciousness. Many of the issues and problems we're dealing with
were unknown in ancient times as spirituality was still an integral
part of everyday life.
Hence, we need to look at our basic psychology as well and address
how these changes have affected us, even to the point of changing
the wiring of our nervous system and basic biology. Any spiritual
realizations we have will not create any lasting changes if we don't
find ways to integrate these realizations into one's whole being and
practice them in every aspect of daily life.
On a positive note, there have also been groundbreaking advances and
discoveries in psychotherapy, and new modalities like somatic trauma
therapy can help heal us our bodies in a more holistic fashion by
showing how our childhood wounds get stored as trauma in the body
and then proceeds to affect our adult lives (the inner affecting the
outer) which can certainly help us to implement our spiritual
realizations in a more lasting way.
John Welwood (who originally
coined the term "spiritual bypassing") talks about the importance of
combining psychological and spiritual work in his article
Psychology of Awakening:
"Spiritual realization is relatively easy compared with the much
greater difficulty of actualizing it, integrating it fully into the
fabric of one's daily life.
Realization is the movement from
personality to being, the direct recognition of one's ultimate
nature, leading toward liberation from the conditioned self, while
actualization refers to how we integrate that realization in all the
situations of our life.[…]
Many Westerners have tried to take up this model, pursuing
impersonal realization while neglecting their personal life, but
have found in the end that this was like wearing a suit of clothes
that didn't quite fit. Taking on the challenges of a fully engaged
personal life - finding right livelihood in a complex materialistic
world, being involved in a committed intimate relationship, dealing
with the social and political concerns facing us at every turn -
inevitably brings up unresolved psychological issues.
reason, Western seekers may also need the help of psychological
methods to help them more fully integrate spiritual practice and
realization into their lives.[…]
Psychological and spiritual work address different levels of human
existence. If the domain of spiritual work is emptiness -
unconditioned, universal, absolute truth - the domain of
psychological work is form - our individual, conditioned ways of
experiencing ourselves and the world - or relative truth.
practice, especially mysticism, points toward a timeless trans-human
reality, while psychological work addresses the evolving human
realm, with all its issues of personal meaning and interpersonal
It can be difficult to understand or appreciate why we might need to
resort to psychological work when many Asian spiritual practitioners
have found liberation solely through the profound teachings and
practices of Buddhism for thousands of years.
But it helps to
recognize that the highest, nondual Buddhist teachings, which show
that who you really are is absolute reality, presume a rich
underpinning of community, religious customs, and shared moral
values that the West mostly lacks.
Modern Western culture is marked
by social isolation, personal alienation, lack of community,
disconnection from nature, and the loss of the sacred at the center
of our lives. And the Western self is riddled with inner divisions -
between self and other, individual and society, mind and body,
spirit and nature, or the guilty ego and the harsh, punishing
superego - that were mostly unknown in the ancient cultures in which
the meditative traditions first arose.[…]
While spiritual traditions generally explain the cause of suffering
in general terms as the result of ignorance, faulty perception, or
disconnection from our true nature, Western psychology provides a
more specific developmental understanding. It shows how suffering
stems from childhood conditioning; in particular, from static and
distorted images of self and other that we carry with us in the
baggage of our past.
And it reveals these painful, distorting
identities as relational - formed in and through our relationships
Spiritual traditions that do not recognize the way in which ego
identity forms out of interpersonal relationships are unable to
address these interpersonal structures directly. Instead, they offer
practices - prayer, meditation, mantra, service, devotion to God or
guru - that shift the attention to the universal ground of being in
which the individual psyche moves, like a wave on the ocean.
becomes possible to enter luminous states of trans-personal
awakening, beyond personal conflicts and limitations, without having
to address or work through specific psychological issues and
This kind of realization can certainly provide access to
greater wisdom and compassion, but it often does not touch or alter
impaired ego structures which, because they influence our everyday
functioning, prevent us from fully integrating this realization into
the fabric of our lives.
Thus, as Sri Aurobindo put it, "Realization by itself does not
necessarily transform the being as a whole. One may have some light
of realization at the spiritual summit of consciousness but the
parts below remain what they were."
For psychological and spiritual work to be mutually supportive
allies in the liberation and embodiment of the human spirit, we need
to re-envision both paths for our time, so that psychological work
can serve spiritual development, while spiritual work can take into
account psychological development.
These two traditions would then
come together as convergent streams, furthering humanity's evolution
toward realizing its true nature - as belonging to the universal
mystery that surrounds and inhabits all things - and embodying this
larger nature as human presence in the world, thus serving as a
crucial link between heaven and earth."
The Psychology of
In the same article mentioned above, Welwood describes a case of how
"spiritualizing" our issues and suppressing negative emotions (in
this case, anger) can lead to blind compassions and avoidance of
healthy assertiveness and boundaries.
If we just view things from an
absolute perspective ("higher truths") but don't take into account
the relative situation we can easily fall into spiritual bypassing
and miss this opportunity to heal trauma and childhood wounds.
"A client of mine who was desperate about her marriage had gone to a
spiritual teacher for advice. He advised her not to be so angry with
her husband but to be a compassionate friend instead. This was
certainly sound spiritual advice.
Compassion is a higher truth than
anger; when we rest in the absolute nature of mind, pure open
awareness, we discover compassion as the very core of our nature.
From that perspective, feeling angry about being hurt only separates
us from our true nature.
Yet the teacher who gave this woman this advice did not consider her
relative situation - that she was someone who had swallowed her
anger all her life. Her father had been abusive and would slap her
and send her to her room whenever she showed any anger about the way
he treated her.
She learned to suppress her rage and always tried to
please others by being "a good girl" instead.
So when the teacher
advised her to feel compassion rather than anger, she felt relieved
because this fit right in with her defenses. Since anger was
threatening to her, she used the teaching on compassion for
spiritual bypassing - for refusing to deal with her anger or the
message it contained.
As her therapist, I had to take account of her relative situation
and help her relate to her anger more fully. As a spiritual
practitioner, I was also mindful that anger is ultimately empty, a
wave arising in the ocean of consciousness, without any solidity or
Yet while that understanding may be true in the
absolute sense, and generally valuable for helping dissolve
attachment to anger, it was not useful for this woman at this time.
Instead, she needed to learn to pay more attention to her anger in
order to move beyond a habitual pattern of self-suppression, to
connect with her inner strength and power, and to relate to her
husband in a more active, assertive way."
Many Eastern spiritual traditions talk about the necessity of ego
dissolution to pierce through the illusion of separateness to
re-connect with our true Divine nature and embody Spirit.
there is truth to this process in the context of the awakening
process and the evolution of consciousness, it is necessary for many
to also develop a healthy ego-personality and individual self before
they look to dissolve their sense of who they are.
Many people have been wounded and not "seen" by their early
attachment caregivers to the point where they lost this sense of
self and it didn't develop, to begin with, and this often results in
their adult lives from issues of insecurity, low self-esteem, and
sometimes they may even consciously or unconsciously dislike or hate
This is often fueled by guilt and shame that they carry
from these early experiences, resulting in them blaming themselves
for any lack of love they received, rather than facing the truth of
what happened and the suffering it caused for them.
Building a healthy ego is the necessary prerequisite before trying
to get rid of it. You cannot get rid of something you didn't have to
begin with. For some, this seems like a paradox, but it is a natural
part of this process of soul individualization.
We first need to
separate ourselves from the group/hive mind and mass consciousness
before we can engage in the Great Work of ego dissolution to unite
with the Divine.
As Carl Jung said:
"The first half of life is
devoted to forming a healthy ego, the second half is going inward
and letting go of it."
"But this spiritual truth and true aim of his being is not allowed
to appear till late in his journey: for the early preparatory
business of man in the evolutionary steps of Nature is to affirm, to
make distinct and rich, to possess firmly, powerfully and completely
his own individuality.
As a consequence, he has in the beginning
principally to occupy himself with his own ego. In this egoistic
phase of his evolution the world and others are less important to
him than himself, are indeed only important as aids and occasions
for his self-affirmation.
God too at this stage is less important to him than he is to
himself, and therefore in earlier formations, on the lower levels of
religious development, God or the gods are treated as if they
existed for man, as supreme instruments for the satisfaction of his
desires, his helpers in his task of getting the world in which he
lives to satisfy his needs and wants and ambitions.
egoistic development with all its sins and violence and crudities
is by no means to be regarded, in its proper place, as an evil or an
error of Nature; it is necessary for man's first work, the finding
of his own individuality and its perfect disengagement from the
lower subconscient in which the individual is overpowered by the
mass consciousness of the world and entirely subject to the
mechanical workings of Nature.
Man the individual has to affirm, to distinguish his personality
against Nature, to be powerfully himself, to evolve all his human
capacities of force and knowledge and enjoyment so that he may turn
them upon her and upon the world with more and more mastery and
force; his self-discriminating egoism is given him as a means for
this primary purpose.
Until he has thus developed his individuality,
his personality, his separate capacity, he cannot be fit for the
greater work before him or successfully turn his faculties to
higher, larger and more divine ends. He has to affirm himself in the
Ignorance before he can perfect himself in the Knowledge."
Spiritual Work/Escaping the Matrix while Avoiding/Denying Physical
[Note: This section relates to the chapter "Avoidance of every-day
responsibilities" in "The Perilous Path Towards
The rejection of the material world is another area where people
come to a distorted understanding with regards to living a spiritual
life, while the flip side of that coin is using spiritual concepts
as a justification/means to obtain more and more materialistic
objects, fuelling consumeristic addictions which often results in
hedonistic physical indulgence (like you see distorted in the rise
of "the Secret" and many various "manifestation" techniques and
wearing an iron collar
Many religious traditions, including Buddhism, Hinduism,
Christianity, and Judaism, have promoted the practice of Asceticism.
Ascetics live a life characterized by abstinence from sensual
pleasures and renunciation of material possessions for the purpose
of pursuing spiritual goals.
This old dogmatic religious approach is
based on the idea that life on earth is misery which one needs to
The Christian Catholic church infuses its followers with the
guilt-trip that one is born in sin and the flesh (body's sensual
desires) are "evil" and that one needs to be saved (by Jesus) to be raptured into "heaven".
The ascetics of the Eastern dogmatic
religious traditions view life and physical reality all as "Maya"
For some ascetics, they feel that in order to get out of
the wheel of karma and the cycle of rebirth they must reject
The more extreme forms of asceticism may also
include severe body self-mutilation, and often include meditating in
graveyards covered in the ashes of dead bodies, which they practice
to demonstrate that they can and will completely transcend the
physical world in order to achieve Nirvana; often living in
seclusion and isolation from the rest of the world.
The New Age Ascension
Interestingly, we can see a similar ascetic approach of trying to
escape the world in the "the New Age fringe movement". Over the
years, more people have become aware of the hyperdimensional matrix
and occult hostile forces controlling humanity on unseen levels.
There is a lot of talk about the earth being a "prison planet" and
that the "tunnel of light" that is said to be experienced after
death is a "trap" that keeps us enslaved via "soul-recycling". In
other words, they view that reincarnation is a trap that we need to
[I have written
about the "tunnel of light trap" and "reincarnation trap of
recycling souls" before. It's a theory I don't entirely
agree with for reasons outlined in 'Soul
Evolution, Universal Laws, and Karma in The Body.']
This also ties into the popular New Age idea of "ascension" in order
to move into 5D, 6D… all the way up into 12D (whatever that is). The
focus of some of these ascension teachings is on getting away from
this physical existence and even out of the body (or not
reincarnating because "the earth is a prison") to "ascend" into
another "higher" existence/world.
Many of these New Age ascension
teachings are based on spiritual bypassing and overestimating one's
level of being by creating peak faux enlightenment experiences. Some
of these New Age ascension fringe ideas sound very similar to the
old ascetic dogmatic religious ideas mentioned before: denying the
physical world, seeing physical existence as "evil" (a prison),
needing to escape into "heaven" and exiting the reincarnation
Same idea, just different package in New Age
Our body is truly the vehicle for "ascension," but we must anchor
the divine force within ourselves by being grounded in this body and
the earth in order to bring this plane of reality into a higher
level of being. Through this process of soul integration, we
essentially transcend death itself.
This is a long evolutionary
process and ties into what Sri Aurobindo meant by stating that man,
in his current state, is a transitional being.
We are in a transition and our state of being, including all the
matrix manipulation/interferences (seen and unseen), are part of the
evolution of consciousness. There is no error in or anything wrong
with reality, nor are we trapped here. Everything we experience has
its teaching function in light of the process of soul
The idea that the earth is a prison planet we
need to escape from and that reincarnation is a soul-trap also
instills the victim/blame consciousness in us - which is exactly the
disempowered state that the hyperdimensional occult forces want us
to get stuck in. Ironically, it may as well be that the
hyperdimensional matrix forces are behind these life-denying ascetic
ideas and "escape the matrix" theories.
In order to truly transcend
the matrix we must spiritualize our being and the world - not escape
As I wrote in the aforementioned linked article Soul Evolution,
Universal Laws, and Karma in The Body:
People who firmly believe
that this 3D existence is just a "prison" also fall into the victim
trap which keeps them entrapped in the "prison," ironically.
perceiving the world this way, they may also fail to recognize and
connect with the immense beauty of life. I see the matrix control as
a prison and school at the same time, but no one is here against
their "free will."
According to Universal Law, an agreement and
choice were made to be "in the matrix" at some level in the "distant
past" (even if done via deception/temptation which is symbolized in
"The Fall from Eden").
In the end, we are all here to experience
soul evolution and the greater evolution of consciousness.
Many truth/spiritual seekers wear their inability to function in the
"3D world" and inability (refusal) to manage ordinary daily affairs
like a badge of merit - as proof of their awakened state ("I am too
spiritual/woke to…") This ties into the martyr complex as well.
"Before enlightenment: chop wood, carry water; after
enlightenment: chop wood, carry water",
...applies here, which basically
means for us to have humility before/after any "spiritual
experience" and continue on with our "ordinary" lives.
This also applies to the trap of "fighting the 3D matrix". While the
matrix control system mines us for our energy and keeps many of us
preoccupied in survival mode and "making a living" (while stealing
from us (taxes) and/or manipulating us into debt), we need to be
strategic planners in order to avoid attracting unnecessary negative
attention from the matrix that could compromise both our ability to
function and to be of service to others.
When we refuse to deal with
ordinary life affairs; often stemming from an inflated sense of
being "too spiritual", or an emotional reactive "fuck the system"
attitude (projecting at the symptoms/shadows on the wall of the 3D
matrix) - the "matrix has us".
In this case, it keeps us in a
primary state of reactivity where we get stuck in a sort of
ego/survival/poverty/scarcity consciousness, which is precisely the
frequency where the matrix overlords want us to be in.
Some people focus their whole energy and life trying to get "off the
grid" or look for loopholes and ways not to pay their taxes, mostly
trying to live "under the radar," which can compromise their ability
to be of service to others by keeping them focusing too much of
their energy on avoidance/survival.
It can also be used as another
"escape" from the 3D world.
While I'm obviously not condoning the
tax (theft) system, nor am I against those who feel they are drawn
towards striving towards self-sustainability or living "off the
grid" (quite the contrary), what I am pointing out is that we need
to be cautious not to fall into the "3D revolutionary mindset trap"
(trying to save the world), nor into reactionary black & white
thinking and behavior.
As it is mentioned in various esoteric teachings, such as "Gnosis"
by Boris Mouravieff:
"From his first steps on the track [way of access towards awakening
- transcending the General Law/Hyperdimensional Matrix], man must
apply the principle: ‘feed the crocodile so that we are not
In other words, sometimes we need to feed the "crocodiles" to keep
them calm, i.e. play by the matrix "rules" to an extent in order to
protect ourselves so we can continue with the Great Work and not
draw unnecessary negative attention upon ourselves.
Psychological Work Without Spiritual Aspiration
When we focus on psychological work alone and don't aspire to
something higher beyond our ego-structure via a consistent spiritual
practice, we can get "stuck in the mud" of the unconscious,
constantly looking for more trauma in our lives and then engaging in
never-ending "processing" to heal from it.
We can also get addicted
to our suffering because of identification with our "story,"
forgetting that these wounds and traumas don't define us.
Psychotherapy also usually only uncovers childhood wounds and
traumas in this lifetime (most often related to our parents) and the
process "ends" there - but it doesn't take into consideration
spiritual/universal laws (like karma), ancestral, past life trauma,
as well as agreements of entrapment with occult forces which could
have resulted in entity attachments that we may have been carrying
with us for lifetimes.
Having said that, we don't necessarily need to engage in past life
regressions either since the accumulation of every lifetime is
happening within this present lifetime, and all previous lifetimes
are therefore somatically accessible through the body of this
We also have the power to reject/eject entities
ourselves via healing/closing the entry point for these forces -
which was often created through trauma. The most progressive
psychotherapeutic works widen their perception of reality to include
the multidimensional spiritual domain.
Psychological self-work can become an endless loop of rabbit hole-ing
because there is always more to dig into - especially in light of
hyperdimensional attack possibilities where thoughts/emotions are
injected into us.
There are also many instances where what Western
Medicine would deem as a "mental illness" is merely a spiritual
crisis (rather than a psychological pathology), and these
identifications with "psychological issues/labels" and perceiving
these "chemical imbalances in the brain" as a "life sentence" makes
us identify with these states as "us", rather than work to
understand the hidden workings/spiritual components behind them.
Even worse, being stuck in these tunnel visions of psychology
(especially when it comes to solely "treating" them with psychiatric
medications and being subject to their myriad of side effects) can
make things worse in the long run by killing our "soul", so to
speak, and cutting us off from our Essence; when the reality is that
any crisis is simply part of the healing process and there is
nothing "wrong" with it.
While these medications can be a useful
"band-aid" for a period in certain cases, they present no long term
own process and experiences dealing with severe depression,
despair and suicidal tendencies in my early twenties; I realized
that depression, anxiety, and many other "psychological issues"
people are being labeled with are in fact a normal reaction to
growing up in a society that is very much removed from nature
and spirit. It's a sign of a healthy "spiritual immune system"
to reject the pathogen of culture and influences of a pathological society.
These "psychological issues" are not pathologies in the sense that
mainstream culture/society interprets them, where it sees people
from a purely biological perspective and then treats these "chemical
imbalances" in the brain with pharmaceuticals or
Depression, for the most part, is a
cry/call from the soul/spirit begging for attention. It's a healthy
response to the normalized pathology of the world we live in.
As Krishnamurti said:
"It's no measure of health to be well-adjusted to
a profoundly sick society."
Depression is, most often, a spiritual
crisis; and it doesn't get healed by focusing on and then treating
the symptoms rather than the causes.
I also noticed and have experienced throughout my life that if you
have faith and are sincere in your questioning and efforts to seek
truth, no matter what it turns out to be or how much you suffer, the
"universe" (Divine) will respond with help, support, and guidance in
whatever form is necessary for you in that moment; whether it be
through a book, a person, healer, or teacher; coming into one's life
at the perfect moment.
That is also the true meaning of the esoteric
phrase "Ask and you shall be given".
The "New Age" and Oprah-style
"pop-spirituality" have distorted this idea into gaining more
material fulfillment (ie: millions of dollars, a mansion, the
perfect relationship, etc) which is based on the ego's socially
conditioned desires of what people believe will bring them
In fact, lots of popular self-help style books are based on
adjusting a person to the workings of the matrix ideas of "success,"
rather than helping them to become truly sovereign and transcend
this matrix programming altogether.
A lot of deeper esoteric truths
have been distorted, diluted, corrupted or even left out entirely so
it can be morphed into emotionally appealing and oversimplified
"sales bits"; which we also see a lot in the so-called "New Age
Getting into the body is a fundamental part of the Work as well,
which means not getting caught up in the intellectual
"analysis-paralysis" which many head-centric "top-down"
psychotherapeutic focus upon. It is also essential to watch out for
the victim-consciousness states that may come as a result of getting
"stuck" and identifying with our story and trauma, which happens
when we look to blame others for our circumstances and the way our
lives have gone.
We all have our own unique experiences to learn
from in the process of awakening and our unique karmic situation was
designed by the Divine exactly to facilitate this process within us.
In the end, all there is are lessons for the purpose of soul
Spiritual/esoteric work aims at connecting us with our true Self,
This is the essence of who we truly are. Our true
Self/psychic being is the part of us that is untouched by all the
trauma, wounds, or occult hostile forces that we may have been
subjected to. It is our eternal Self; a pure expression of the
Divine. Psychological work, when used wisely, will help us to clear
the "vessel" within; so that we come more into contact with our
This process transforms the conditioned wounded
ego-personality into a clearer expression of Essence, bringing the
psychic being to the front and not letting the lower self (with all
its unconscious programs) run the show anymore.
But we need to make an effort to "self-remember" by engaging
intentionally in spiritual work in order to facilitate this process
of bringing forth our Essence, as well and both aspire and surrender
to the Divine so we don't get stuck or lost in the mud below (ie.
constantly digging in the subconscious).
Ultimately, the trap of
doing psychological work alone is that it is mostly based on going
back into the past; without realizing that our current state of
(spiritual) evolution and the current state of man is only
transitional - we are evolving towards a fuller expression of being
as we are being pulled by the Divine Light from Above and into "the
"I find it difficult to take these psychoanalysts at all seriously
- yet perhaps one ought to, for half-knowledge is a powerful thing and
can be a great obstacle to the coming in front of the true Truth...
They look from down up and explain the higher lights by the
lower obscurities, but the foundation of these things is above and
not below. The superconscient, not the subconscient, is the true
foundation of things.
The significance of the lotus is not to be
found by analyzing the secrets of the mud from which it grows here;
its secret is to be found in the heavenly archetype of the lotus
that blooms forever in the Light above."
"Here we touch upon the fundamental error of our modern psychology:
it fails to understand anything because it searches below, in our
evolutionary past. True, half the Secret may be there, but we still
need the force above to open the door below.
We were never meant to
look behind, but ahead and above in the superconscious light,
because it is our future, and only the future can explain and heal
We appear to progress from below upward, from past to future, from
night to conscious light, but this is just our small momentary
understanding that obscures the whole, for otherwise we would see
that it is not the past that impels us, but the future that draws us
and the light above that gradually pervades our darkness - for how
could darkness ever have created all that light? If we had been born
out of darkness, we would end up only in darkness.
"This is the
eternal Tree with its roots above and its branches downward," says
the Katha Upanishad. (VI.I)
We feel we are making great efforts to
progress toward more understanding and greater knowledge; we have a
sense of tension toward the future. But this is still our limited
If we had a different perspective, we might see the superconscious
Future trying to enter our present. And we would realize that our
sense of effort is just the resistance put up by our denseness and
darkness. The future does not move only from below upward, otherwise
there would be no hope for the earth, as it would end up exploding
in the sky from a supreme psychic tension, or falling back into
The future moves also from above downward; it penetrates
deeper and deeper into our mental fog, into our vital confusion,
into the subconscious and unconscious night, until it illuminates
everything, reveals everything, heals everything - and ultimately
Yet the deeper it goes, the greater the resistance
- for this is the
Iron Age, the time of the great Revolt and Peril - but also the time
of Hope. At the supreme point where this Future touches the
rock-bottom past, where this Light bursts into night's nethermost
level, God willing, we will find the secret of Death and of immortal
But if we look below and only below, we will find mud and only
Activism and Fighting the Matrix Without Sincere Inner Work
This topic ties into the "Trap of the Revolutionary Mind"
and the "Trap of Fighting Evil" which I have addressed in more
If we don't engage in both inner psychological and spiritual work,
our well-meaning efforts to fight the matrix, injustices,
atrocities, and any activism will be reactionary and driven by
unconscious impulses driven by our own wounding.
We then easily fall
into the trap of projecting our shadow and anything we have not
healed within externally onto others in an "us vs. them" or "me
against the world" mentality.
These unconscious shadowy parts of
ourselves are our blind spots; the unhealed traumas that we may
carry are then also used by occult entities to tag into,
manipulating us like puppets on strings by fueling our reactive
behaviors and feeding off all the
emotional "loosh" we create when
we get triggered and then project those emotions outside of us.
Many people also tend to use activism as an avoidance to face
themselves and easily fall into the "victim/saviour/persecutor"
trap, blaming the system/matrix for their suffering/misery or
becoming a "rescuer" whose ego feeds off the idea of "activism" to
make them feel better about themselves (egoic self-importance).
These reactionary behaviors are also based on a lack of knowledge of
universal laws and how the matrix actually works through us and
humanity on unseen levels:
We can then also fall into the Trap of
Identification and feeding into
the Divide and Conquer agenda of the
of Both Inner and Outer Work
While there are other imbalanced variations of the four points
mentioned above, it all comes down to engaging in both inner and
Inner work in this context relates to emotional,
psychological, somatic, and spiritual work that helps us to get more
in touch with who we truly are behind the layers of wounds, traumas,
and social/cultural programming/conditioning. Ultimately this
internal process is about Individualization and Embodiment.
embodied doesn't mean to simply be in "touch" with the physical body
(like through paying attention to diet/exercise). Embodiment (from a
spiritual/esoteric perspective) is the process of soul integration,
connecting to one's "higher self" and becoming a conscious vessel
for spirit to work through our bodies; it relates to the alchemical
marriage of the inner male and female, where Being and Doing become
Based on various esoteric teachings, the soul is something human
beings need to develop or grow from a consciousness seed, and then
we work to embody the fullness of our soul via spiritual/esoteric
work. In the average person in today's post-modern maze, the soul
remains in an embryonic state and is thus not fully individualized.
Until the soul has matured, one's identity lies in the mechanical
false personality and is open to manipulation on all levels.
embodied soul, on the other hand, becomes the seat of the real
self's creativity and dynamism, and the personality blossoms as an
expression of one's higher (immortal) identity, connected to spirit
and the Divine within.
Outer work relates to taking care of our physical body, being a
responsible adult with the practicalities of our lives, creating
right livelihood, and being able to provide for oneself. It also
entails learning about the world, the matrix, and understanding
higher/universal/occult laws so you can see through appearances,
deceptions, and distractions (while applying critical thinking and
using your intuition) and hence can make wiser decisions that are
aligned with Truth.
Inner and outer work need to go hand-in-hand.
The more that we are embodied and understand/apply universal and
metaphysical higher laws, the more we become aligned with our
vocation and soul purpose and have a more positive impact in the
world and in our lives.
Laura and I have explored this topic in our
4th episode of the
Cosmic Matrix podcast. We discussed spiritual integrity and the
importance of engaging in a balance of both inner and outer work. In
spiritual communities, this imbalance shows up in a variety of ways.
For example, many well-meaning "truth seekers" tend towards being
overly focused on the external world while lacking a balance of
sincere inner work and embodiment. On the other side of the coin,
there is also the New Age trap of too much "self-work" which often
results in narcissistic tendencies; whereas people are overly
focused on their internal experience without understanding the world
This can create an excessively solipsistic world view
by taking a truth and distorting it into a lie like you see in the
"You Create Your Reality" scene.
Furthermore, many people who call themselves "spiritual teachers"
make no effort to understand the external forces that affect us;
like the matrix, universal laws, and how occult forces manipulate
Despite their well-meaning intentions, through their
ignorance, they end up supporting a negative agenda and often even
end up worshipping occult forces who disguise themselves as
"positive" ones or they allow these forces to act through them by
tagging into their own thirst for money/fame/power.
addressed in this episode include the trap of ambition on the
spiritual path and seeking fame and recognition (along with other
ego temptations), the fear of speaking out and much more.
Surrender to The Divine
However, all the necessary inner work (relating to healing wounds,
traumas, shadow work) and "external" work of intellectually
understanding how the matrix operates (or any form of activism) is
futile in the long run if it is not eventually matched with this
sincere aspiration and surrender to the Divine.
At the same time, if
we are really sincere in our internal process and truth-seeking
(within and without), we'll inevitably ignite the divine spark
within us (the psychic being), and the aspiration/surrender to the
Divine will follow this natural call - when we are ready. This is
not a rational decision but an embodied inner call and drive.
This necessity to surrender to the Divine has become more apparent
to me as well via the emergence of something within me, a higher
guidance, as I realize the illusion of control of my ego-personality
and the illusion of personal will which often results in will-full
doing (trying to "force" what "I" want into creation).
I also sense
the immense resistance my ego and lower nature puts up at times
(which I wasn't always aware of in the past or
justified/rationalized away), including the occult hostile forces
which try and interfere with the process - especially during leaps
I truly understand now what Sri Aurobindo meant by
"This yoga is a battle".
It's very humbling and this process
has opened me up to deeper compassion; for myself as well as for
Over the past few years, I've gotten deeper into the work of Sri
Aurobindo's Integral Yoga.
To be clear, for me, this is not about
worshipping him like a "guru" or making a dogma of his teachings
(which is more of a revelation.) It's way beyond that. Anyone can
verify this for him/herself when studying his work.
I can't possibly
summarize here what he has done for humanity and the effect his work
has had on me (and continues to have on me); which also resulted in
profound inner realizations (and confirmed my own insights and
experiences) on what "needs to be done" to anchor the Divine within.
It's all very humbling, and there is much work ahead.
Yet, "Truth is a Pathless Land" (as Krishnamurti said) which also
goes back to the four points of holistic work and our individual
lessons and process. Regardless of where we are at as individuals
and what teachings or modalities we currently follow and work with,
ultimately it's about this surrender to the Divine - whatever that
may mean for each individual.
Talking about the Divine and God is a tricky subject and most often
a triggering one (especially for those who have had bad experiences
with Catholicism and the church). In fact, when I was introduced to
Sri Aurobindo's work five years ago by a friend, I first rejected
his work without even looking into it, simply because I got
triggered by his name.
It sounded to me like "just another Indian
Guru" based on my aversion to any "guru" types, the western
commercialization of India and distortion of yoga, along with the
exposures of various pathological gurus.
It actually took another friend to give me his book "The Hidden
Forces of Life" with quotes from Aurobindo's work about occult
forces to open my mind and pierce through my resistance (clearly the
Divine was trying to reach me since all this was very synchronistic
as several outside sources tried to introduce me to his work).
Reading this book dissolved my previous judgment - which I can admit
was based on ignorance, assumptions, and projections. As I started
to learn more about his life and work, there was definitely a deep
resonance; and once I began studying his (and the Mother's) writings
more deeply and I immersed myself in Integral Yoga.
For a brief overview of the work of Sri Aurobindo & The Mother watch
However, in the beginning, I also had trouble with a concept he
mentioned often; this "surrender/aspiration to the Divine". I also
got triggered by the words Divine and God (side note: there are
always lessons in anything that you get triggered by). I felt like I
was giving my authority/sovereignty away to an external force/being;
at least that's the way I initially perceived it.
My aversion to the
word "God" was related to the historical abuse by corrupted dogmatic
religions who have externalized this "God" figure into a punitive
man in the sky. The word "surrender" also has a different meaning
(from a spiritual perspective) to the way that the word is used in
common English language, which is most often associated with defeat,
passivity, capture, or even imprisonment.
Yet, deep down inside, I knew I had to work on my connection to
God/the Divine. Something deeper within me was calling for it. I
started to meditate daily with this increasing inner call to aspire
and surrender to the Divine, engaging in prayer and stating "this is
not about my will but Thy Will", in order to align myself with the
Divine Will of the descending higher Force.
It's not about what "I"
want but my life is in service and only in service to the Divine.
For a long time, I encountered a strong inner resistance opposing
Parts of me didn't want to give up control.
deepened my meditation practice, I realized that this resisting
"voice" was not coming from my true Self, conscience, nor was it
positive resistance/rejection of Falsehood, but it was clearly
coming from my selfish ego that "wants what it wants" and which also
lives in fear of not trusting life, the Divine, and can't let go of
Even though I have had breakthroughs since then and experienced the
Divine doing His work through me, I still need to keep reminding
myself of this full surrender - every day - for there is still
resistance, not only coming from ego, but from my unresolved wounds,
conditioning, the lower nature of the vital, the physical body, and
via thought injections of the occult anti-divine forces.
constant practice of Aspiration - Rejection - Surrender:
"There are two powers that alone can effect in their conjunction the
great and difficult thing which is the aim of our endeavour, a fixed
and unfailing aspiration that calls from below and a supreme Grace
from above that answers.
But the supreme Grace will act only in the conditions of the Light
and the Truth; it will not act in conditions laid upon it by the
Falsehood and the Ignorance. For if it were to yield to the demands
of the Falsehood, it would defeat its own purpose.
These are the conditions of the Light and Truth, the sole conditions
under which the highest Force will descend; and it is only the very
highest supramental Force descending from above and opening from
below that can victoriously handle the physical Nature and
annihilate its difficulties .
There must be a total and sincere
surrender; there must be an exclusive self-opening to the divine
Power; there must be a constant and integral choice of the Truth
that is descending, a constant and integral rejection of the
falsehood of the mental, vital and physical Powers and Appearances
that still rule the earth-Nature.
The surrender must be total and seize all the parts of the being. It
is not enough that the psychic should respond and the higher mental
accept or even the inner vital submit and the inner physical
consciousness feel the influence. There must be in no part of the
being, even the most external, anything that makes a reserve,
anything that hides behind doubts, confusions and subterfuges,
anything that revolts or refuses.
If part of the being surrenders, but another part reserves itself,
follows its own way or makes its own conditions, then each time that
that happens, you are yourself pushing the divine Grace away from
If behind your devotion and surrender you make a cover for your
desires, egoistic demands and vital insistences, if you put these
things in place of the true aspiration or mix them with it and try
to impose them on the Divine Shakti, then it is idle to invoke the
divine Grace to transform you.
If you open yourself on one side or in one part to the Truth and on
another side are constantly opening the gates to hostile forces, it
is vain to expect that the divine Grace will abide with you. You
must keep the temple clean if you wish to install there the living
If each time the Power intervenes and brings in the Truth, you turn
your back on it and call in again the falsehood that has been
expelled, it is not the divine Grace that you must blame for failing
you, but the falsity of your own will and the imperfection of your
If you call for the Truth and yet something in you chooses what is
false, ignorant and undivine or even simply is unwilling to reject
it altogether, then always you will be open to attack and the Grace
will recede from you. Detect first what is false or obscure in you
and persistently reject it, then alone can you rightly call for the
divine Power to transform you.
Do not imagine that truth and falsehood, light and darkness,
surrender and selfishness can be allowed to dwell together in the
house consecrated to the Divine. The transformation must be
integral, and integral therefore the rejection of all that
Reject the false notion that the divine Power will do and is bound
to do everything for you at your demand and even though you do not
satisfy the conditions laid down by the Supreme. Make your surrender
true and complete, then only will all else be done for you.
Reject too the false and indolent expectation that the divine Power
will do even the surrender for you. The Supreme demands your
surrender to her, but does not impose it: you are free at every
moment, till the irrevocable transformation comes, to deny and to
reject the Divine or to recall your self-giving, if you are willing
to suffer the spiritual consequence.
Your surrender must be
self-made and free; it must be the surrender of a living being, not
of an inert automaton or mechanical tool.
An inert passivity is constantly confused with the real surrender,
but out of an inert passivity nothing true and powerful can come. It
is the inert passivity of physical Nature that leaves it at the
mercy of every obscure or undivine influence.
A glad and strong and
helpful submission is demanded to the working of the Divine Force,
the obedience of the illumined disciple of the Truth, of the inner
Warrior who fights against obscurity and falsehood, of the faithful
servant of the Divine.
This is the true attitude and only those who can take and keep it,
preserve a faith unshaken by disappointments and difficulties and
shall pass through the ordeal to the supreme victory and the great
I also noticed that this surrender to the Divine is the crucial
aspect missing in most people that are engaged in self-work and
truth-seeking - as it was in myself for many years.
For some people,
self-work can turn into an isolating activity of complete
self-absorption or in an act of trying to escape the world.
though at times, we may need to exclusively focus on different areas
in our lives, it all goes back to the four points of holistic
self-work. On the other side of the coin, there are many activists
and truth-seekers who are overly focused on fighting/exposing the
dark forces in the world without any spiritual foundation or
engaging in any sincere inner self-work.
Finding the balance between both inner and outer work, fully
embracing life and surrendering to the Divine is the highest form of
spiritual activism, and doing so will naturally assist humanity in
anchoring higher levels of consciousness onto this planet.
process requires inner sincerity and outward action in alignment
with Divine Will, a powerful force.
We are all transducers of this
Divine Force, each in our own individualized way.
"The process of the integral Yoga has three stages, not indeed
sharply distinguished or separate, but in a certain measure
There must be, first, the effort towards at least an
initial and enabling self-transcendence and contact with the Divine;
next, the reception of that which transcends, that with which we
have gained communion, into ourselves for the transformation of our
whole conscious being; last, the utilization of our transformed
humanity as a divine centre in the world.
So long as the contact with the Divine is not in some considerable
degree established, so long as there is not some measure of
sustained identity, sayujga, the element of personal effort must
But in proportion as this contact establishes
itself, the Sadhaka must become conscious that a force other than
his own, a force transcending his egoistic endeavor and capacity,
is at work in him and to this Power he learns progressively to
submit himself and delivers up to it the charge of his Yoga.
In the end his own will and force become one with the higher Power;
he merges them in the divine Will and its transcendent and universal
Force. He finds it thenceforward presiding over the necessary
transformation of his mental, vital and physical being with an
impartial wisdom and provident effectivity of which the eager and
interested ego is not capable. It is when this identification and
this self-merging are complete that the divine centre in the world
Purified, liberated, plastic, illumined, it can begin to
serve as a means for the direct action of a supreme Power in the
larger Yoga of humanity or superhumanity, of the earth's spiritual
progression or its transformation."
The Synthesis of Yoga
Surrender, from a spiritual perspective, means to fully trust life.
There is nor error in creation/reality, and there is a teaching
function in every aspect of our lives. It is all guiding us closer
to the Divine and our true Self.
This implies to see through the
appearances of reality and not getting caught up in shadow
projections and victim/blame consciousness.
"In spirituality, we constantly meet this concept of "surrender".
Meaning, to be truly devoted to spiritual work, the divine asks us
to completely surrender our sense of who we are (our small ego self)
to a higher power, to see that we are mere instruments of that
power. Yet, to surrender we have to learn to trust. We have to learn
to trust reality completely.
This does not mean to trust our reactions to reality, which are
another thing altogether. Our reactions to reality -could- be
telling us the opposite of what is true - because these responses
are rooted in trauma. Many of our strong emotional reactions are
traumatic responses that were triggered by the present moment.
present moment is just the messenger. These responses disable us
from a wide range of reactions available. They keep us limited and
It also doesn't mean to trust reality as it appears, for things are
not always what they seem on the surface. Trusting reality means
trusting that exactly what is happening in your life is exactly what
is supposed to be happening. No matter how bad it is.
reality is to trust God. To recognize that there is no error in
creation. That the divine has delivered you exactly the experience
you need in this very moment.
This does not mean to stay in an abusive relationship or situation.
Not at all.
This is actually an invitation - to learn your lessons. By trusting
that the circumstances of your life exist exactly for your
This means that -everything- in your life, no matter how dark, no
matter how messed up, it also has a divine purpose.
The catch is that only by trusting the reality of your direct life
experience can you discover what its purpose is. How much you trust
reality is equal to how much you are capable of learning. You are
finally participating in your own unique karmic situation.
not just facing life - you are embracing it.
How much do you trust reality?
How much are you willing to surrender?"
What is The
This inevitable question often comes up:
"what is the Divine?", and
who is the "I" that needs to surrender to it?
It all becomes very
paradoxical as we're confronted with the limitation of language
since "the Tao that can be named is not the Tao" (as it is said in
the Zen tradition).
The Divine/God is nothing external outside of
us, and it is certainly not some guy with a beard in the Sky who
judges you based on the misinterpretations of Sacred knowledge that
the old dogmatic monotheistic religions are centered upon.
It is far
beyond any mental concepts and neither the left-brain "thinking"
mind nor the egoic mind cannot come close to perceiving it, as it
can only be understood through direct (inner) experience. "God" can
only be truly felt when the mind is silent (which is very uncommon
for most people).
I've already written about this topic in the
section "What does it mean to be "Awake"?" in
The Perilous Path Towards Awakening where I also mentioned some signs that can
show how you are becoming more aligned with the Divine:
Ambition, vital desires (based on wounds/conditioning/lower nature),
vanity, the need for attention - to be "liked" or "desired", the
notion and pressure to "become" something/someone, any
comparison/competition with others, or even "dislike" of others all
fall slowly away, as do any triggers and reactive behaviors.
A deep and embodied sense of peace and trust, of faith and "being
taken care of" (as in trusting the flow of life), knowing that any
challenge that will come up serves as a deeper lesson for the
purpose of a true awakening.
It is the end of fear and blame, the death of ego-identification,
and re-birth of the real "I AM" - embodied spirit (soul
individualization) - expressing itself uniquely through "you",
connected to all that is.
Will-full doing dissipates, to be replaced by an embodied responding
to what is - and what life brings - that is uniquely tuned to your
soul lessons and talents; it guides you from an embodied inner place
without expectations and attachment to outcome.
Goal setting and ambition are replaced by a quiet aspiration with
intentions coming from a higher guidance but without expectations or
need to control.
Making choices and decisions don't stem from a thought process
anymore or any head-centric analysis of "should" or "shouldn't", but
emerge from a gut-level of nonverbal intuitive knowing, deeply tuned
in with your soul and the Divine.
Life becomes like a dance in the river of life as we don't fight the
current anymore. This is often described as being in the "zone", a
state where we are locked into the rhythm of life (Tao) and
completely aligned with Divine Will.
Contrary to popular belief,
this awakened state is not a constant feeling of "bliss" or ecstasy
(even though there can be peak experiences like that), nor is it a
"feeling" of love or happiness. It really transcends anything we
usually experience in ordinary consciousness and is not necessarily
related to any particular emotion or feeling.
transcends the duality of pain and pleasure, happiness and suffering
- as it is a state of inner peace.
There is deeper, silent, contentment, a grounded calmness, a sense
of peace and joy, one which is not dependant on any external
circumstances or occurrences. It is a sense of slowing down and
simplifying. It's a place of true freedom.
Thoughts may still come
and try to attach themselves, but it becomes easier to detach from
them; we can effortlessly release ourselves from believing in these
passing thoughts and we no longer identify with them.
This sense of
detachment is much different from more common forms of dissociation,
like escaping into the intellect or going out of body, but it is an
embodied recognition of one's true nature in contrast to the
illusion of thought (and who we "think" we are).
One recognizes that the mind is just a tool, a servant; not be
looked upon but also not to be treated as the dominant master/guide
of our existence. It's not about demonizing the intellect but
illuminating it with wisdom, for it needs to go through its own
transmutation process to become an instrument for the Divine in
order to access the higher knowledge (Gnosis) that is available for
us - beyond the five senses.
We can also still "use" it in practical
ways to live out our daily routines, since we can't nor is it a good
idea to just "check out" of our existence here on Earth; on the
contrary, we are more involved with reality - more embodied and
fully-embracing of life - and whatever this dance may bring, we are
in full conscious participation with the rhythms of life, we are
active instruments of this divine play ("Lila"); without attachment
to any outcome or any will-full doing.
Laura and I have also explored the question "What is Your
Relationship to The Divine?" in
Below are some excellent insights by Adyashanti (linked video clips)
on the limitation/illusion of personal will and the reluctance of
the ego to truly surrender to the Divine and letting go of control
because it is stuck in this mode of "I want this, I'm afraid of
this, I don't want this, I'm attached to this, etc.", essentially
trapped and identified by thoughts, stuck to grasping to them with
either hope or fear.
It also relates to the human drive to succeed and "be something" by
constantly doing something, having something, etc.
This is what Adyashanti calls the "personal will".
"When I get the right job,
car, have enough money, find the right relationship, etc., only THEN
everything will be alright."
Even in our spiritual life, that same egoic personal will can
"hijack" spiritual aspirations:
"When I have attained peace, find
the bliss, master the pose, have healed everything, etc… THEN I'll
be (insert your own pay-off here) satisfied, happy, fulfilled,
Our egoic nature yearns to grasp onto
its own agenda and tries to take control of the process.
That's why true surrender is so hard because the egoic "I" wants
what it wants and resists letting go of control. In most of us, it
is so habitual, mechanical and even so "normal" that we can't see
this deception because we are so identified with and attached to who
we think we are and our desires.
We are often even attached to
suffering. Adyashanti makes an excellent point that any effort from
personal will trying to escape suffering and samsara (you can also
see it in light of trying to escape the Matrix) will get you even
more stuck in suffering (the Matrix).
The only way out is a truly
total surrender; which is frightening to the egoic mind as it
resists it this process of necessary disillusionment - which is what
leads to true freedom.
of Meditation and Stilling the Mind
For most of us, we live our lives on the surface of the mind, the
outer superficial consciousness of our Being.
We do this by
constantly being engaged with our minds, keeping them always in
thought and pre-occupying ourselves by the "doing" that accompany
these thoughts and their nearly endless desires. What most people
know as "relaxation" is often still a state where their mind is
engaged in the "doing" of something; be it watching movies, browsing
the internet, reading, listening to music, etc.
To some extent, we
are always engaged with something. Even at night, we often don't
truly rest but still are active in Dreamtime.
The Divine within us, the psychic Being, our true Self is behind all
thought and mental chatter, our identifications with our thoughts,
and the external distractions that surround us. Every
spiritual/esoteric tradition has emphasized this truth. For most of
us on the spiritual path, this is nothing new.
Yet we still get
distracted because stilling the mind is not something that happens
easily. In fact, even when we attempt to still the mind through
meditation the first barrier we often will notice is our own active
resistance against doing so. This is because our ego is terrified of
this inner silence as it experiences it as a type of "death" to its
fixed sense of reality and concepts that make who it thinks it is
Yet, stilling the mind is the prerequisite to come in touch with
who we truly are, the real "I." This real "I" has nothing to do with
the ego-personality we identify with or the image we have of
ourselves and that we portray to the outside world.
The first step to connect with the Divine/true Self is related to
the esoteric self-inquiry and asking this eternal question:
I ?" In other words, it begins our quest to "Know Thyself."
sincere you are with this internal inquiry (which is often an
ongoing process), the more you will realize that "your" thoughts,
feelings, desires, wants, needs, etc. are not your own but have been
conditioned or inserted "externally".
The "I" who you think you are
(and identify with) is made up of these programs, memories,
biological drives, wounds, traumas, and experiences ("good" and
"bad"); accumulated over lifetimes, embedded into your DNA
ancestrally, and influenced by the collective/environmental
consciousness (humans/culture/society/places, etc.).
"In a certain sense, we are nothing but a complex mass of mental,
nervous and physical habits held together by a few ruling ideas,
desires and associations - an amalgam of many small self-repeating
forces with a few major vibrations."
At the same time, we are also influenced by the forces of nature and
conscious forces from the higher and lower realms.
We are subjected
to the suggestions of occult hostile forces of the vital world, but
we also receive insights, creative and inspirational impulses from
Spirit, the Higher Self and divine forces which also manifest as
thoughts. Creative, sensitive people, writers, artists, and
musicians get their ideas from these lower/higher realms.
We all receive a mixture of these impressions/thoughts from the
whole range of lower to the higher realm depending on many factors.
Based on our level of Being, our intentions and aspirations in life
can either be guided from the lower nature or we can choose to align
them with higher ideals.
The direction we bring out awareness
towards determines which realm we tune into. As long as we live on
the surface of the ego-personality, the majority of this will be
unconscious and mechanical.
(On a side note, some people (left-hand path practitioners, Ritual
Magick Occultists, Wiccans, and even certain New Age rituals)
understand aspects of these laws when working in the metaphysical
realm, and then make conscious efforts to connect with the forces of
the lower vital world in order to gain more power or to
"manifest desires," resulting in entrapments of agreement. It's the
"Faustian Pact with the Devil.")
But none of the impressions, ideas, and thoughts we have are "ours"
- even though the ego loves to identify with them.
We're also not
able to distinguish where these thoughts/impressions come from as
long as we are identified with them and act on them mechanically -
until we establish the Inner Witness, connected to the true Self
which lies deep inside behind this outer crust.
This Self is behind
all thought and our grasping and identification with them.
"Constantly and unknowingly, we receive influences and inspirations
from higher, superconscious regions, which express themselves inside
us as ideas, ideals, aspirations, or works of art; they secretly
mold our life, our future.
Similarly, we constantly and unknowingly
receive vital and subtle-physical vibrations, which determine our
emotional life and relationship with the world every moment of the
day. We are enclosed in an individual, personal body only through a
stubborn visual delusion; in fact, we are porous throughout and
bathe in universal forces, like an anemone in the sea.
Each person will receive according to his or her capacity and needs
or particular aspiration. All the quarrels between materialists and
religious men, between philosophers and poets and painters and
musicians, are the childish games of an incipient humanity in which
each one wants to fit everyone else into his own mold.
When one reaches the luminous Truth, one sees that It can contain
all without conflict, and that everyone is Its child: the mystic
receives the joy of his beloved One, the poet receives poetic joy,
the mathematician mathematical joy, and the painter receives colored
revelations - all spiritual joys.
However "clear austerity" remains a powerful protection, for
unfortunately not everyone has the capacity to rise to the high
regions where the forces are pure; it is far easier to open oneself
at the vital level, which is the world of the great Force of Life
and desires and passions (well known to mediums and occultists);
where the lower [hostile] forces can readily take on divine
appearances with dazzling colors, or frightening forms.
seeker is pure, he will see through the hoax either way, and his
little psychic light will dissolve all the threats and all the gaudy
mirages of the vital melodrama."
Sri Aurobindo or The Adventure of Consciousness
Who is the "I" that is thinking? It all gets a bit paradoxical to
ask yourself this question.
If you are not who you "think" you are;
your thoughts, your name, your job, your ideas, what other people
think of you, then who are you - really? The answer can be
discovered only through direct experience. Therefore, a consistent
meditation practice that helps to still the mind is an integral part
of answering this question.
This practice slows down the way we
relate to life, so that we stop acting/thinking/feeling
mechanically, and become more internally oriented and embodied,
learning to relate to the world from the depth of this inner
The kingdom and the gateway to the Divine is within ourselves if we
can only still the mind for long enough to experience the total
peace of this experience of emptiness. The deeper you go within, the
more "you" will see and experience that all thoughts literally do
come from the "outside", while the inner witness just observes them
and does not identify with any of them.
You realize that the mind is
only a receiving station for this information and there is no "you"
generating any thoughts.
In the silence of the mind we connect with who we truly are, a whole
new reality opens up. We find ourselves in tune with a descending
higher force (the Divine) and the innermost being within us (the
psychic being) which is guiding us and doing Spirit's work through
We then also perceive the occult anti-divine forces of the
vital worlds; which try to inject us with thoughts, temptations, and
vital desires of the lower nature, all of which need to be rejected
so that we may keep ourselves in alignment with these Divine realms.
This process of deep self-inquiry is certainly not a pleasant one at
first. If you succeed in stilling the mind for long enough, you'll
first come face to face with what Gurdjieff called "the horror of
You will realize your mechanical, programmed
behaviors/thinking and identification with any thought, the lies you
tell yourself, the resistance of your ego, the buffers you have
created, the illusion of free "personal will", and that most of your
"doing" are mechanical reactions based on unconscious drives
stemming from the lower nature, social programming, wounding and
trauma, occult interferences, as well as just habitual responses
based on your conditioned preferences (likes/dislikes).
If you are sincere, this internal process of deep self-inquiry often
time will result in disillusionment where you must first come face
to face with your "nothingness" (which is how the ego perceives
emptiness). Coming in tune with this emptiness is the necessary
threshold to cross before you can be "reborn" in your true Self, for
the true self is to be found only in this non-local experience of
And once we establish Inner Silence, we can then consciously
choose to accept or reject specific thoughts and vibrations.
We then realize on an embodied experiential level that we are just
transducers of higher energies, forces, and beings working through
us. We recognize that there is no separation between us and the
world around us, that those forces of nature merely flow through us.
We experience varying forces somatically but it is our
resistance/identification to these experiences that keep us trapped
within their limited scope of reality.
When we are experiencing life as the true self there is no feeling,
emotion, or thought we attach to because none of that is us. The
true self does not grasp or hold onto any of these passing states.
Its constant state is one of true freedom.
It all comes down what we align ourselves with based on how much we
have cleared within and our aspiration/surrender to the Divine Force
as embodied frequency anchors of Divine Will.
"In this silent transparency, we will soon make another discovery,
of capital importance in its implications. We will notice that not
only do other people's thoughts come to us from the outside, but our
own thoughts, too, come from outside.
Once we are sufficiently
transparent we will be able to feel, in the motionless silence of
the mind, little swirling eddies coming into contact with our
atmosphere, like faint little vibrations drawing our attention; if
we pay closer attention in order to "see" what they are, that is, if
we let one of these little swirls enter us, we suddenly find
ourselves "thinking" of something.
What we had felt at the periphery
of our being was a thought in its pure form, or rather a mental
vibration before it enters us and comes to the surface of our being
clad in a personal form, enabling us to claim: "This is my thought".
‘Where is the I in you that can create all that?' Mother used to
ask. It is just that the process is not perceptible to the ordinary
man, firstly, because he lives in constant tumult, and secondly
because the process through which vibrations are appropriated is
almost instantaneous and automatic.
Through his education and
environment, a person becomes accustomed to selecting from the
Universal Mind a given, narrow range of vibrations with which he has
a particular affinity.
For the rest of his life he will pick up the
same wavelength, repeating the same vibratory mode in more or less
high-sounding words and with more or less innovative turns of
phrase; he will spin around in a cage, the illusion of progress
being given only by a greater or lesser extent and sparkling range
of vocabulary used.
Once the seeker has seen that his thoughts come from outside, and
after he has repeated this experience hundreds of times, he will
hold the key to the true mastery of the mind. For while it is
difficult to get rid of a thought we believe to be ours, once it has
become entrenched in us, it is easy to reject the same thought when
we see it coming from the outside. Once we master silence, we
necessarily master the mental world, because instead of perpetually
picking up the same wavelength, we can run through the whole range
of wavelengths and choose or reject as we please.[…]
If we follow [a discipline for mental silence], and remain perfectly
transparent, we will soon notice that not only mental vibrations
come from outside before entering our centers, but everything comes
from outside: the vibrations of desire, of joy, of will, etc. From
top to bottom, our being is a receiving station:
Truly, we do not
think, will or act but thought occurs in us, will occurs in us,
impulse and act occur in us.
If we say: "I think, therefore I am,"
or "I feel, therefore I am," or "I want, therefore I am," we are
like a child who believes that the disc jockey or the orchestra is
hidden in the radio set and that TV is a thinking medium.
none of these I's is ourselves, nor do they belong to us, for their
music is universal. "
Considering the vast majority of humans live on the surface
consciousness, driven by unconscious impulses, wounds, traumas,
conditioning, and identified with every thought that arises; we can
see how easily we can be controlled/manipulated by the occult
hostile forces tagging into our blindspots and lower nature of the
vital via temptations appealing to ego or via identification with
particular groups and labels (political, religious, cultural, etc)
by feeding the Divide & Conquer frequency, pitting humans against
humans and constantly engaged in a play of separation.
This is how
the matrix works, the battle of Dark vs. Light is through us as we
are the expression of higher forces and beings influencing us. It's
like Joseph Campbell said, "All the Gods, all the heavens, all the
hells, are within you."
The more we engage in the Great Work to come in alignment with our
true Self and the Divine, the more we'll have a positive impact on
the world and in our lives because we will be guided by Truth.
transforming ourselves we transform the world we create.
the more we identify with our personality and ignore our shadow,
wounding, and traumas and are only focused externally; projecting on
the outside world by falling into victim/blame traps, the easier we
can be used by the anti-divine (asuric) forces for their agenda -
without us even being aware of it.
"Always indeed it is the higher Power that acts. Our sense of
personal effort and aspiration comes from the attempt of the
egoistic mind to identify itself in a wrong and imperfect way with
the workings of the divine Force.
It persists in applying to
experience on a supernormal plane the ordinary terms of mentality
which it applies to its normal experiences in the world. In the
world we act with the sense of egoism; we claim the universal forces
that work in us as our own; we claim as the effect of our personal
will, wisdom, force, virtue the selective, formative, progressive
action of the Transcendent in this frame of mind, life and body.
Enlightenment brings to us the knowledge that the ego is only an
instrument; we begin to perceive and feel that these things are our
own in the sense that they belong to our supreme and integral Self,
one with the Transcendent, not to the instrumental ego.
limitations and distortions are our contribution to the working; the
true power in it is the Divine's. When the human ego realizes that
its will is a tool, its wisdom ignorance and childishness, its power
an infant's groping, its virtue a pretentious impurity, and learns
to trust itself to that which transcends it, that is its salvation.
The apparent freedom and self-assertion of our personal being to
which we are so profoundly attached, conceal a most pitiable
subjection to a thousand suggestions, impulsions, forces which we
have made extraneous to our little person.
Our ego, boasting of
freedom, is at every moment the slave, toy and puppet of countless
beings, powers, forces, influences in universal Nature. The
self-abnegation of the ego in the Divine is its self-fulfillment;
its surrender to that which transcends it is its liberation from
bonds and limits and its perfect freedom.[…]
Behind this petty instrumental action of the human will there is
something vast and powerful and eternal that oversees the trend of
the inclination and presses on the turn of the will. There is a
total Truth in Nature greater than our individual choice.
apparently self-acting mechanism of Nature conceals an immanent
divine Will that compels and guides it and shapes its purposes. But
you cannot feel or know that Will while you are shut up in your
narrow cell of personality, blinded and chained to your viewpoint of
the ego and its desires.
For you can wholly respond to it only when you are impersonalized
[embodied] by knowledge and widened to see all things in the self
and in God and the self and God in all things.
The state of
ignorance in which you believe that you are the doer of your acts
persists so long as it is necessary for your development; but as
soon as you are capable of passing into a higher condition, you
begin to see that you are an instrument of the one consciousness;
you take a step upward and you rise to a higher conscious level."
The Synthesis of Yoga
Meditation and Self-Remembering
However, a passive meditation practice alone, while essential, is
still not enough.
We can easily use meditation as a type of
medication, using it to escape from life and (spiritually) bypass
relating to our lives directly. It's relatively easier to find this
stillness in isolation, at meditation retreats, at a
monastery/ashram, in nature or on your meditation pillow at home.
Essentially, we need to stay connected to this inner stillness and
to the truth of our Being in our everyday life; in any circumstances
and place. By anchoring the Divine within, we see the Divine in All.
We then realize that the ego we used to identify with is only an
instrument, in service to the Divine - doing His work through us.
"But exercises of meditation are not the true solution to the
problem (though they may be necessary at the beginning to provide an
initial momentum), because even if we achieve a relative silence,
the moment we set foot outside our room or retreat, we fall right
back into the usual turmoil as well as into the familiar separation
between inner and outer self, inner life and worldly life. What we
need is a total life; we need to live the truth of our being every
day, at every moment, not only on holidays or in solitude, and
blissful meditations in pastoral settings simply will not achieve
The only solution is, therefore, to practice silencing the mind just
where it is seemingly the most difficult: on the street, in the
subway, at work, everywhere. Instead of going through Grand Central
Station four times a day like someone hounded and forever in a rush,
we can walk there consciously, as a seeker.
Instead of living
haphazardly, dispersed in a multitude of thoughts, which not only
lack any excitement but are also as exhausting as a broken record,
we can gather the scattered threads of our consciousness and work on
ourselves at every moment.
Then life begins to become surprisingly
exciting because the least little circumstance becomes an
opportunity for victory; we are focused; we are going somewhere
instead of going nowhere. For yoga is not a way of doing but of
Practicing active meditation wherever we are in daily life also
relates to Gurdjieff's concept of "self-remembering."
Self-remembering is a state of consciousness where you are fully
aware of yourself and all parts of your being in whatever you do.
It's about being completely in the present moment by being aware of
your feelings, emotions, physical body sensations, impressions, and
your actions - without identifying with any of them - while also
being aware of the outside world at the same time.
The moment you
identify with a thought, feeling, emotion and/or physical sensation
you are not self-remembering anymore nor are you in a state of
active meditation. In short, you are not truly conscious when you do
this - but living mechanically.
Self-remembering/active meditation is an internal process of
conscious attention and of observing ourselves without reacting.
However, this process is not to be mistaken for "thinking" about
yourself nor analyzing yourself and escaping into the head. It must
be a fully embodied direct experience.
You are not checked out but
checked fully in. At first, we may try to use our mind to observe
ourselves, but this will only result in getting caught in the mind
and thought, tricking ourselves that we are actually
self-remembering when we are once again disassociating into the
"To have consciousness of self is not only to be aware of oneself
mentally (in which case it would be only the mind looking at the
mind), but also physically and emotionally; that is a global
awareness… this demands a certain quality and strength of attention,
of a direct recognition on the immediate, of what-is, of having an
awareness this is global in references to oneself.
self is a state predicated on self-remembering - a conscious
awareness of the body, of being embodied, of being connected with
what is happening internally, as well as what is happening
Spiritual Survival in a
Radically Changing World-Time
True self-remembering and the state of active meditation is an
embodied experience of sensing your whole Being, being
simultaneously aware of body, mind, and feeling without any buffers,
filters, or thoughts attached to it.
Through the practice of
self-remembering, you become aware of where your thoughts, emotions,
desires, wants, likes and dislikes arise and originate from.
Self-remembering and being in a state of active meditation implies
to be embodied in the true meaning of the word. You are in the
present moment, aware of your whole Being, connected the essence.
The practice of self-remembering can also uncover unconscious
wounds/traumas from the past. These experiences become "stuck in
time" and looping as people cycle through the same karmic situations
over and over again, not understanding why these events keep
Through their ignorance, they then project their
experiences from the past into the present moment. Their triggers
are made of the karmic backlog of the tension they hold in the body.
The mechanism usually happens like this: someone experiences a
trauma being ignited in the body, they then identify with that
trauma and the feelings that it brings up, and in an attempt to not
feel it entirely they focus its cause on the outside world.
Most people's bodies are filled with tension, which is an
accumulation of their unlived karmic experience. When an outer event
triggers something within them, they miss the chance to resolve this
karma by making the cause to be something "out there", when the
present moment was just a messenger of what they already carry
The critical aspect of self-remembering/active meditation is to not
identify with our thoughts, feelings, and sensations, yet at the
same time be aware of them as they pass through our experience. We
cannot avoid these feelings but we can be aware of them - without
identifying with them.
For example, usually, we say "I'm angry,"
"I'm sad," "I'm lonely," I'm joyful," etc. but these identifications
are also not you, they are merely passing visitors within your
present experience. When you self-remember in the present moment,
you may feel anger, sadness, loneliness, joy, or whatever it is that
may be arising, but by observing what arises and feeling these
emotions you become less identified with them.
By having a healthy
relationship with our feelings (as the Inner Witness develops), we
remember who we truly are.
Usually, people try to avoid their feelings or identify with them
entirely. The biggest obstacle in healing our wounds/traumas is to
feel ALL feelings, while also not grasping at them through
identifying with them (its a fine line).
The trap of identification
is far-reaching. It not only relates to artificial concepts of
official cult-ure such as identifying with a nation/flag, a
political party/side, a religion or any belief system; but even
commonly happens when people identify with a specific personality
trait ("I'm …[insert positive or negative character trait]"), your
job/career, your astrology sign/chart, a diet ("I'm a vegan"), etc.
In short, identifying with anything you do, think, believe, or feel
keeps you trapped in a limited scope of reality.
The truth is, our
true Self is none of any of that.
Non-identification is easier said than done because it's so
automatic and mechanical and often based on social/cultural
conditioning and programming.
The deeper we dive into our bodies
somatically and touch our inner core, releasing and feeling all
feelings that we have denied or suppressed (most of them as an
unconscious impulse to resist feeling anything that goes against our
fixed concepts of ourselves), the more we touch upon our true Self:
free, joyful, and peaceful, which functions independent of any
external factors or life circumstances.
Reginald Ray talks about the issue with identifying with experiences
in his book "Somatic Descent":
"Usually when we live our life we identify with our experiences. We
think "I am this anxiety. I'm a very anxious person" or "I'm a very
competent person. I can carry through anything, I can do anything"
or "I'm a very loving person" or "I'm a person that has this trauma
or that trauma. I'm a person who feels very shaky. I'm a person who
is perpetually lonely."
What's happening here is that we are identifying our person with a
particular experience. Because we have that approach in modern
culture, it's not possible for us to really handle very much at all
because it's too threatening.
Therefore, most of us have gotten into
a pattern of walling off most of the unpleasant experience that's in
us or most of the experiences that are inconsistent with who we
think we are. We're identifying with experiences.
What we need to do is to shift our sense of who we are. We need to
step back from identifying with our history, with our traumas, and
with our problems.
Okay, so you could say, what does that mean step
back, how, step back into what? In the practice of somatic descent
(somatic/body scanning meditation) we are learning how to make
contact with that basic being, that fundamental nature, that
unconditioned openness, that sense of the infinity of the vastness
of our own being.
In other words, we're going to begin to see that the person that we
truly are (and most fundamentally are) is not the anxiety-ridden
person, the fear-ridden person, the aggressive person or whatever it
Actually, who we truly are when we look most deeply into our
own state of being is empty and it's open and it's warm and it's not
impeded. It's free and it's joyous. That's who we are. That's who we
We need to touch and be touched by this empty fastness that is our
true person, our true nature. It's a very interesting experience to
meet this depth of our own self. [In order to access this space
within us, we need to go deep into our bodies] and we're going to
have to let go of ideas about who we are and what it means to be
human that maybe we've carried around our whole life and never knew
we've had them.
We're going to touch if I might say so, the eternal part of our
self, the infinite part of our self.
And one very stunning part of
that meeting of our fundamental nature is that far from feeling
generic are neutral or empty or cold, when we touch this infinity of
openness and space at the basis of our very being, we feel more than
ever in our whole life that we've come home to our self.
feel this is truly who I am. In that space all the questions are
answered and there's a peace that is unbelievably affecting."
Self-remembering is about establishing a correspondence between the
inner and outer world without identification with it. It's a state
of conscious observation through establishing your center point in
this inner witness.
This embodied self-awareness results in
experiencing the world and ourselves (with our 5 senses and beyond)
simultaneously. In this state of being where there is no separation
and total unification of reality, the experience and the experiencer
All Life is Yoga
We need to watch out of falling into the trap of the ascetic (which
we also see in today's New Age and fringe movement mentioned before)
by separating our spiritual practice from everyday life.
All life is
Yoga, as Sri Aurobindo said. The Divine is everywhere - if we can
tune in. Through the consistent practice of Aspiration - Rejection - Surrender and with Faith and Trust combined; we can use the
stillness gained from a consistent meditation practice and our
active meditation/self-remembering (applying Non-Identification and
Non-Attachment) in our everyday life, as we strengthen our
connection to the Divine and our psychic being within, becoming more
efficient transducers of Divine Will - into all of reality.
At the same time, we also need to engage in the process of
For many of us, a meditation practice can be very
challenging if we have become so used to living in the head and are
completely disconnected from the body.
When we sit down to meditate
we may become overwhelmed with the feelings and thoughts that race
within us, or we may feel our bodies as "numb" as we begin to tune
into the disassociated state of our physical beings which is common
to trauma. In fact, meditation is best practiced once the tension in
the body has loosened up a little, which is the true purpose of what
most people know as "yoga" (asana practice) - to prepare the body
Hence body-mind practices like yoga asana practice, qi gong, dance, receiving bodywork, somatic psychotherapeutic work,
are also essential accompaniments to a meditation practice and will
help us get the most out of a practice. It all comes back around to
the four-fold approach of holistic inner and outer work mentioned at
the beginning of this essay.
How this process unfolds will be
different for each of us.
The Battle of Dark vs. Light from an Integral Yoga Perspective
The spiritual life of surrendering to the Divine is not a passive
experience but one that we must engage in consciously. It is about
becoming an active force in service for the Divine. Recently I've
listened to a very insightful series called "Evenings with Sraddhalu"
[links and videos of the talk are posted below at the end of this
It is based on the Integral Yoga teachings by Sri Aurobindo
Sraddhalu explains thoroughly the 3D matrix
manifestations of the occult asuric dark forces and how they play
out in light of the evolution of consciousness and the descent of
the Supramental Consciousness that is occurring based on Aurobindo's
work in his incarnation.
A lot of terminologies he uses are based on Sri Aurobindo's and the
Mother's experiences and teachings, but Sraddhalu explains it in
clear and understandable language.
He's also one of few spiritual
teachers who are also aware of the matrix on the deeper levels, like
in regard to secret societies, the cabal, the deep state, media
control, the banking system, the socialist NWO, ancient history, the
hyperdimensional occult forces, etc. He stresses the importance to
engage in "spiritual activism" to push back against the asuric
forces; and warns of falling into a self-centered passive
spirituality (trap of asceticism).
He also calls out the corrupted
New Age spirituality, in particular, "channeled" material which
often feeds off "savior" programming.
I found it refreshing to hear someone who fuses deep spiritual
processes with the awareness of the matrix forces that stand against
the Light. Most of the readers of my work will be aware of the
matrix topics which he talks about. He lays out an excellent
overview of the workings of the Supramental/Divine and the evolution
As mentioned before, it's based on Sri Aurobindo's
work, but the ideas he speaks to are applicable universally and also
mirrored in other complete esoteric teachings.
of Humanity, the Supramental Action, and the Matrix
The Mother mentioned a possible "splitting of humanity," which I
have also written about in 'Timeline-Reality Split,
Frequency Vibration, and the Hidden Forces of Life.'
She speaks about
how one part of humanity of people who sincerely engaged in the
divine work (within and without) will "move up" into a collective
higher level of awareness, while the pressure of the descending supramental force will disintegrate the other part of humanity who
don't do the work towards "awakening".
For anyone who cannot embody
the Divine (supramental) force that is descending onto this planet,
they will become pawns to the dark agenda and fall deeper into
confusion, ignorance, disembodiment, and suffering.
The world is also in a very fragile balance and we haven't reached
the "dark night of civilization" yet (which the Mother referred to)
which is pointing to a further disintegration for humanity. This
"dark night" is not going to be helped by us getting into a fear
frequency or a negative or paranoid state of mind, but can act as a
sober reality check for the way we may be headed if things keep
going in the same direction they seem to be headed.
potential means that we cannot spiritually bypass our inner work and
shadow any longer, nor can we bypass looking clearly at the darkness
in the world and what needs to be done to resist these asuric
hostile forces that control the matrix.
We must rise to the
responsibility to engage in both inner and outer work.
If insufficient human beings wake up to the reality of how the
dark/matrix operates by actively resisting its influences while also
doing the necessary inner work to come in alignment with their
psychic being (soul) to connect with the Supramental (Divine); we
may experience what various ancient civilizations have experienced
in past cycles (such as Atlantis), resulting in our full destruction
and the Divine pressing the "reset button" on our evolutionary
This active resistance needs to have a spiritual foundation in
service to the Divine and the Divine only. The majority of the
current state of activism on this planet still falls into the trap
of the revolutionary mind (along with the savior/martyr trap) by
being distracted by the 3D shadows on the walls; projecting their
own unresolved issues on to the world and feeding the Divine &
Conquer matrix frequency because they lack the foundation in sincere
inner work and spiritual aspiration. Sri Aurobindo also hinted at
various outcomes for humanity:
either there will be sufficient push
back by awakened humans to counter the asuric dark forces or
humanity will be destroyed due to their ignorance and passivity,
resulting in the necessity to repeat the cycle.
And in this current state, we see the majority of humans are still
very ego-driven and slaves to their mechanical and conditioned vital
Any action coming from that ego-centric foundation will be
usurped by the asuric matrix forces, eventually. There are also
those on the spiritual path who are not aware of how the matrix
forces operate and hence don't push back (relating to an imbalance
in inner/outer work.)
Some others are only willing to serve the
Divine if they "get what they want" in return as their ego hijacks
this process of surrendering to the Divine.
What is needed is for us to be ready and willing to serve the Divine
completely; yet how many of us have made that commitment -
sincerely? Putting the mirror on myself, I can see my ego's
resistance (which I mentioned at the beginning of this essay). It's
of no use to look at the world and see if people are waking up or
not, nor does it really help the world/humanity to just talk/post
about the dark forces on social media.
The question is, how sincere
are you and how sincere am I?
Not only concerning my inner
self-work, research, and spreading awareness but is my aspiration
and surrender to the Divine unconditional?
"All would change if man could once consent to be spiritualized; but
his nature, mental and vital and physical, is rebellious to the
higher law. He loves his imperfection. The Spirit is the truth of
our being; mind and life and body in their imperfection are its
masks, but in their perfection should be its moulds.
To be spiritual
only is not enough; that prepares a number of souls for heaven, but
leaves the earth very much where it was. Neither is a compromise the
way of salvation.
The world knows three kinds of revolution. The material has strong
results, the moral and intellectual are infinitely larger in their
scope and richer in their fruits, but the spiritual are the great
If the triple change could coincide in a perfect correspondence, a
faultless work would be done; but the mind and body of mankind
cannot hold perfectly a strong spiritual inrush: most is spilt, much
of the rest is corrupted. Many intellectual and physical upturnings
of our soil are needed to work out a little result from a large
The changes we see in the world today are intellectual, moral,
physical in their ideal and intention: the spiritual revolution
waits for its hour and throws up meanwhile its waves here and there.
Until it comes the sense of the others cannot be understood and till
then all interpretations of present happening and forecast of man's
future are vain things.
For its nature, power, event are that which
will determine the next cycle of our humanity."
Sri Aurobindo hinted at this cataclysmic global destruction as well
if a significant part of humanity doesn't wake up and engage in
"spiritual activism" in service to the Divine.
We see that
possibility mirrored in other esoteric traditions such as in
Esoteric Christianity and the Hopi prophecy ("There is way up and
down") as well.
Yet, the future is not set in stone. The Divine will
succeed eventually, but it may take another twenty, fifty, hundred
years or another thousand years (or longer if we must repeat the
cycle) if we don't "heed the voice of the Divine" and instead sink
deeper into the Dark Night of Civilization.
Both possibilities exist right now in this fragile balance, and it's
up to each one of us which direction we will go for no one is coming
to save us; no God, no aliens, no gurus, and certainly no
The Divine only responds and acts in direct proportion
to our own sincere collective efforts coming from within. If we take
self-responsibility to learn lessons we increase our ability to
anchor the Supramental consciousness onto this planet.
surrender to the Divine Will which is encouraging us to make this
"With the approach of the era of the Holy Spirit, everything must be
gradually brought to the light of day, not only the secrets of the
laboratory but the deepest meanings of esotericism.
The same must
happen with illusions, errors and lies, which must also be revealed
so that they can later be rectified.
The world is suffering from a lack of harmony which gets deeper on
every plane, and this is a serious danger to the moral and spiritual
recovery of humanity. It also involves a serious risk of failure in
the last stage of this Time of Transition that we are now entering,
If this risk is not overcome, the Deluge of Fire awaits us.
have to make an immense effort to ward off this fate, and we have
very little time in which to do it.
Man has only himself to blame for the greatness of the effort
needed: this is a result of his obstinate refusal to heed the
warnings that have been addressed to him time and again by the
Divine Voice, just as he continues today to blind himself to the
fact that the Deluge of Fire is being made ready."
Sraddhalu also mentions
how the Dark Forces are currently much
better organized and in fact more "unified" than the forces of light
Too many of us are still mostly concerned about
ourselves primarily from an ego-centric perspective (not to be
confused with a healthy sense and relationship with ourselves which
gives us the fundamental confidence to do our work in the world).
This doesn't imply to get into a savior/martyr state or the trap of
But it requires a deeper faith and trust in the divine
with a constant aspiration towards becoming more defined embodiments
of this higher force; while also rejecting our egoistic
tendencies/desires/attachments of the lower nature/vital and matrix
The Mother mentions that we must be "willing to lose
everything we have" when referring to this process.
All of this requires consistent practice, and this Faith and Trust
are important because for many of us it will be a while before we
can "see" or "feel" the Divine presence within and around us.
once we have had a glimpse of it, we realize that in "losing
everything we have" we gain the world, for this "everything" that we
lose is mostly related to our false sense of self and the lies we've
been living because of it - and in the letting go of this we find
Centralized-State, Anarchism, and the Ideal of Human Unity
It's fascinating that Aurobindo warned of the rise of a socialist
centralized-State/world government 100 years ago in 1919, mentioning
the danger of globalism and the individual losing all freedom under
global socialist control (which is the agenda of the [occult] asuric
He was predicting the socialist New World Order way
before Orwell did.
"The process by which the world-State may come starts with the
creation of a central body which will at first, have very limited
functions, but, once created, must absorb by degrees all the
different functions of a centralized international control, as the
State, first in the form of a monarchy and then of a parliament, has
been absorbing by degrees the whole control of the life of the
nation, so that we are now within measurable distance of a
centralized socialistic State [NWO] which will leave no part of the
life of its individuals unregulated.
A similar process in the world-State will end in the taking up and
the regulation of the whole life of the peoples into its hands; it
may even end by abolishing national individuality and turning the
divisions that it has created into mere departmental groupings,
provinces and districts of the one common State.
Such an eventuality
may seem now a mere unrealizable idea, but it is one which, under
certain conditions that are by no means beyond the scope of ultimate
possibility, may well become feasible and even, after a certain
point is reached, inevitable [note: keep in mind this was written in
A centralized world-State would signify the triumph of the idea of
mechanical unity or rather uniformity. It would inevitably mean the
undue depression of an indispensable element in the vigor of human
life and progress, the free life of the individual, the free
variation of the peoples.
It must end, if it becomes permanent and
fulfils all its tendencies, either in a death in life, a stagnation
or by the insurgence of some new saving but revolutionary force or
principle which would shatter the whole fabric into pieces.
The mechanical tendency is one to which the logical reason of man
becomes easily addicted and its operations are, too, obviously the
easiest to manage and the most ready to hand; its full evolution may
seem to the reason desirable, necessary, inevitable, but its end is
A centralized, socialistic State may be a necessity of
the future, but a reaction from it is equally a necessity; the
greater its pressure, the more certainly will it be met by spread of
the spiritual, the intellectual, the vital and practical principle
of Anarchism in revolt against that mechanical pressure.
So, too, a centralized mechanical world-State must rouse in the end
a similar force against it and might well end in a crumbling up and
disintegration, even in the necessity for a repetition of the cycle
of humanity ending in a better attempt to solve the problem.
The Human Cycle and The
Ideal of Human Unity
Sri Aurobindo also described how a real STO (Service to Others)
society based on the sovereignty/voluntaryism principle would look
like (even though he doesn't mention the exact terms) from a
However, the necessary foundation for this
"higher" unification (without oppressing the Individual) is the
spiritualization of humanity. As cited above, he talks about the
issue/trap of a "mechanical unification" via a forced socialist
governing principle (which we see happening now).
writes that anarchism is a natural reaction to the suppression of
the Individual by the centralized mechanical world-State:
"Anarchistic thought, although it has not yet found any sure form,
cannot but develop in proportion as the pressure of society on the
individual increases, since there is something in that pressure
which unduly oppresses a necessary element of human perfection.
need not attach much importance to the grosser vitalistic or violent
anarchism which seeks forcibly to react against the social principle
or claims the right of man to "live his own life" in the egoistic or
crudely vitalistic sense.
But there is a higher, an intellectual anarchistic thought which in
its aim and formula recovers and carries to its furthest logical
conclusions a very real truth of nature and of the divine in man.
its revolt against the opposite exaggeration of the social
principle, we find it declaring that all government of man by man by
the power of compulsion is an evil, a violation, a suppression or
deformation of a natural principle of good which would otherwise
grow and prevail for the perfection of the human race.
social principle in itself is questioned and held liable for a sort
of fall in man from a natural to an unnatural and artificial
principle of living."
The Blindspot of Anarchism and the Mental Fortress
However, Aurobindo also mentions that this reactionary intellectual
anarchism "has not yet found any sure form" because it is based on
limited mental principles (reason and logic) and even though the
intention is in the right place the current state of anarchism has
no foundation in this process of spiritual realization which was
The main blindspot in the
anarchism/voluntaryism movement is the
denial of the spiritual reality (many anarchists seem to be atheists
and materialists) and majority of anarchists typically hold a lack
of awareness regarding the evolution of consciousness that is taking
place and how things may be playing out from a bigger picture
perspective (including the hyperdimensional matrix).
principles, like sovereignty, are also seen and approached from a
very limited ego-personality separative-perspective and are based on
reason/logic and not from any spiritual insights/direct experiences;
with a resulting tendency to dismiss the fundamental
inter-connectedness of all that is.
Anarchists may acknowledge these concepts intellectually but this
union must be made with right/left brain and inner female/male modes
of being (creative mind/intellect, Being/Doing) working cohesively
together and not separate from one another, and often the inner
experience of unity in service to the Divine is missing within these
popular movements which are intended towards freedom.
There also seems a lack of sincere self-work and embodiment (let
alone esoteric/spiritual inner work) in many self-proclaimed
anarchists as they infuse their anti-government attitude with a
mental/rational approach of "morality" (which most often fueled by
their suppressions of anger/pain and the resulting shadow
There is also a tendency towards a distortion or
over-simplification of what some call "natural law," resulting in an
unachievable intellectual utopia that is actually ironically very
out of touch with nature and the bigger process we're going through
from the perspective of our current evolution of consciousness.
The anarchistic mindset can easily get trapped in its own logic and
the limitation of reason without considering the
metaphysical/spiritual reality that all is ONE; and this cannot be
comprehended/seen/experienced by a mental approach to "solutions" of
what system (or -ism) is "best" for humanity.
mind" tries to get rid of evil via externalizing it and getting
caught in this play of duality, fueled by their (shadow) projections
which most often result in moral-superiority, shunning and shaming
anyone who is not "moral".
But for the sincere spiritual seeker,
what is currently happening goes beyond our own mental ideas of
morality, good or evil.
"Morality works only within the bounds of the mental process; it
does not have access to the subconscious or superconscious regions,
or to death, or to sleep (which happens to take up one day out of
every three in our existence, so that a sixty-year life span would
entitle us to forty years of waking moral life and twenty years of
immortality - a strange arithmetic).
In other words, morality does
not go beyond the limits of our small frontal personality.
Therefore, it is not a rigid moral or fanatic discipline that we
want to impose on our being, but a spiritual and comprehensive one
that respects each part of our nature while freeing it from its
particular mixture; for in truth, there is no absolute evil anywhere
- only mixtures.
Furthermore, the seeker no longer thinks in terms of good and evil
(assuming he still "thinks" at all), but in terms of exact and
inexact. When a sailor needs to take his ship's bearing, he does not
use his love of the sea to do so, but a sextant, and he makes quite
sure that the mirror is clean.
If our mirror is not clean, we can
never see the reality of things or people, because everywhere we
will meet only the reflection of our own desires or fears, the echo
of our own turmoil, not only in this world but in all the other
worlds, in waking, in sleep, and in death. In order to see, we need
to stop being in the center of the picture.
The seeker will
therefore need to discriminate between those elements that blur his
vision and those that clarify it; such will be the essence of his
But the supramental power does not obey our logic or morality; it
sees far into space and time, and it does not try to do away with
evil in order to save the good, nor does it work through miracles;
it frees the good that is within the evil, applying its force and
light on the dark half so it consents to its luminous counterpart.
Wherever it is applied, the immediate effect is to touch off a
crisis; that is, to place the shadow in front of its own light. It
is a stupendous evolutionary ferment."
Sri Aurobindo or the
Adventure of Consiousness
I've written about the issues I have found with statism and the
religion of government before.
I'd also like to state, again, that
I'm neither a statist OR an anarchist. This can seem like a
contradiction or paradox to anyone who is caught in black & white
Even though I can appreciate the principles of Anarchism
from a philosophical and intellectual point of view, reading "The
Human Cycle and The Ideal of Human Unity" by Sri Aurobindo has
confirmed and brought clarity to the issues I sensed with today's
intellectual anarchism; which is that it's basic flaw is that it is
lacking in a deeper spiritual foundation. Essentially, statism and
anarchism are two sides of the same coin.
Modern intellectual anarchism is a mechanical reaction to counteract
the suppression of the individual by the government. This opposition
is needed and has its place, as Sri Aurobindo pointed out, but it is
still just a symptom of a much larger process, and eventually,
humanity will have to undergo this process of spiritualization,
which goes beyond statism, anarchism or any other form of "-ism".
In our current state/level of being and spiritual embodiment (or
lack thereof), we are not even close to the "spiritualized
anarchism" Sri Aurobindo was talking about and taking this next
possible step after the current mechanical/reactionary intellectual
anarchism that many "truth seekers" identify with today.
sense, we actually have "no choice" but to be governed because our
collective consciousness is simply not spiritualized enough to
embody and truly live this higher ideal of spiritual anarchism.
vast majority of human beings are wounded/traumatized, slaves to
their thoughts, conditioning, egoic selfish desires, and mechanical
reactions - which the psychopaths and anti-divine asuric forces that
work through them use to their benefit.
While many self-proclaimed anarchists promote sovereignty and
freedom from external governmental forces, most of them are not
aware that they themselves are not yet free from their own minds,
conditioning, wounds/trauma, lower vital desires, ego
identification, mechanical actions, and unconscious shadow aspects
(including manipulations by hyperdimensional occult hostile forces
which tag into their wounds and blind spots).
This leads them
trapped in a hopeless cycle of projecting that which they need to
address in their healing within by being overly focused on
projecting their inner dissonance externally, living under the
illusion of an intellectual "sovereignty" yet still being caught in
a head-centric disembodied, disconnected, existence.
No matter how logical and rationally sound the ideology of anarchism
is, if there is not a sincere self-inquiry, self-work, and efforts
to rejects the lower nature of the egoic self to bring forth the
true Self (spiritualizing the being though the embodiment process)
as an instrument for the Divine, the outside world won't change.
Buddha reflected on how this much this inner process affects the
outside world thousands of years ago, and yet we still haven't
gotten the point.
Even though I personally have never formally identified as an
anarchist, I've also fallen into this mental trap of being caught in
my own mental projections and rationalizations.
(or voluntaryism or any other -sim) over statism is still being
caught in duality on the level of mind. In our current state of
evolution, we're still trapped in what Satprem called the mental
a world based on living a head-centric mental existence,
shut off from Divine guidance, spiritual insight, our bodies, and
the interconnectedness of life.
We live in the age of "mental man".
This period had its place and
teaching function on the trajectory to become "superman" (coined by
Sri Aurobindo) - a human who is fully spiritualized as a conscious
divinized being who lives in oneness with all that is; having
transformed both body and matter he has transcended duality - and is
even beyond death itself.
"This implacable duality which assails the whole life of mental man
is obviously insoluble at the level of the Duality. One might as
well fight the right hand with the left.
Yet, that is exactly what
the human mind has done, without much success, at all levels of its
existence, offsetting its heaven with hell, matter with spirit,
individualism with collectivism, or any other isms that proliferate
in this sorry system.
But one does not get out by the decrees of any
ism pushed to its perfection.[…]
Now, everything must be transformed, even the body and matter, since
we are right in it. Ironically, this is the greatest service this
dark, materialistic and scientific age may have rendered us:
compel such a plunge of the spirit into matter that it had either to
lose itself in it or to be transformed with it.
Absolute darkness is
but the shadow of a greater Sun, which digs its abysses in order to
raise up a more stable beauty, founded on the purified base of our
earthly subconscious and seated erect in truth down to the very
cells of our bodies."
On The Way To
Supermanhood, Chapter: The Mental Fortress
"O Force-compelled, Fate-driven earth-born race,
O petty adventurers in an infinite world
And prisoners of a dwarf humanity,
How long will you tread the circling tracks of mind
Around your little self and petty things?
A Seer, a strong Creator, is within,
The immaculate Grandeur broods upon your days,
Almighty powers are shut in Nature's cells."
Even looking at the Auroville community in India (which was the
Mother's vision of "a universal town where men and women of all
countries are able to live in peace and progressive harmony, above
all creeds, all politics and all nationalities" and was founded in
1968) we see that it has deviated from its original intentions and
Eventually, many problems arose within this "conscious"
community of Auroville (which was based partially on anarchistic
principles) which Sraddhalu mentioned in his talks as well. We see
similar issues in many other "conscious" and "anarchistic"
The founding ideals are there, but how that plays out,
in reality, is often a very different story.
"If Reason were the secret highest law of the universe or if man the
mental being were limited by mentality, it might be possible for him
by the power of the reason to evolve out of the dominance of
infrarational Nature which he inherits from the animal.
then live securely in his best human self as a perfected rational
and sympathetic being, balanced and well-ordered in all parts, the sattwic man of Indian philosophy; that would be his summit of
possibility, his consummation.
But his nature is rather
transitional; the rational being is only a middle term of Nature's
evolution. A rational satisfaction cannot give him safety from the
pull from below nor deliver him from the attraction from above.
If it were not so, the ideal of intellectual Anarchism might be more
feasible as well as acceptable as a theory of what human life might
be in its reasonable perfection; but, man being what he is, we are
compelled in the end to aim higher and go farther.
A spiritual or spiritualised anarchism might appear to come nearer
to the real solution or at least touch something of it from afar. As
it expresses itself at the present day, there is much in it that is
exaggerated and imperfect. Its seers seem often to preach an
impossible self-abnegation of the vital life and an asceticism which
instead of purifying and transforming the vital being, seeks to
suppress and even kill it; life itself is impoverished or dried up
by this severe austerity in its very springs.
Carried away by a
high-reaching spirit of revolt, these prophets denounce
civilization as a failure because of its vitalistic exaggerations, but
set up an opposite exaggeration which might well cure civilization
of some of its crying faults and uglinesses, but would deprive us
also of many real and valuable gains.
But apart from these excesses
of a too logical thought and a one-sided impulsion, apart from the
inability of any "ism" to express the truth of the spirit which
exceeds all such compartments, we seem here to be near to the real
way out, to the discovery of the saving motive-force.
The solution lies not in the reason, but in the soul of man, in its
It is a spiritual, an inner freedom that can
alone create a perfect human order. It is a spiritual, a greater
than the rational enlightenment that can alone illumine the vital
nature of man and impose harmony on its self-seekings, antagonisms
In other words, the solution is neither statism nor anarchism, but
the embodiment of the higher Supramental Force.
This is not only a
spiritual revolution but a complete change of consciousness in the
collective/individual resulting in,
"a spiritual oneness creating a
psychological oneness which would not depend upon intellectual or
other uniformity, and compelling a oneness of life which would not
depend on its mechanical means of unification, but would find itself
enriched by a free inner variation and a freely varied outer
self-expression, this would be the basis for a higher type of human
"The saving element needed is a new psychological factor which will
at once make a united life necessary to humanity and force it to
respect the principle of freedom.
The religion of humanity seems to
be the one growing force which tends in that direction; for it makes
for the sense of human oneness, it has the idea of the race, and yet
at the same time it respects the human individual and the natural
But its present intellectual form seems hardly
The idea, powerful in itself and in its effects, is yet not powerful
enough to mold the whole life of the race in its image; it has to
concede too much to the egoistic side of human nature, once all and
still nine-tenths of our being, with which its larger idea is in
conflict; and on the other side, leaning principally on the reason,
it helps too much the mechanical solution.
For the rational idea
ends always by being captured by its machinery and becoming the
slave of the machine, until a new idea revolts against it and breaks
up the machinery only to substitute in the end another mechanical
A spiritual religion of humanity is the hope of the future. By this
we do not mean what is ordinarily called a universal religion, a
system, a thing of creed and intellectual belief. Mankind has tried
unity by that means; it has failed and deserved to fail, because
there can be no universal religious system.
The inner spirit is
indeed one, but more than any other the spiritual life insists on
freedom and variation in its self-expression and means of
development. What is meant, is the growing realization that there is
a secret Spirit, a divine reality, in which we are all one and of
which humanity is the highest vehicle on earth and that the human
race and the human being are the means by which it will
progressively reveal itself here, with a growing attempt to live out
this knowledge and bring about a kingdom of this divine Spirit upon
It means that oneness with our fellow-men will become the leading
principle of all our life, not merely a principle of co-operation,
but a deeper brotherhood, a real and an inner sense of unity and
equality; the realization by the individual that only in the face of
his fellow-men is his own life complete, the realization by the race
that only on the free and full life of the individual can its own
perfection and permanent happiness be founded; a way of salvation in
accordance with this religion, that is to say, a means by which it
can be developed by each man within himself, so that it may be
developed in the life of the race.
To go into all that this implies, would be too large a subject to be
entered upon here; it is enough to point out that in this direction
lies the eventual road.
No doubt, if this is only an idea like the
rest, it will go the way of all ideas; but if it is at all a truth
of our being, then it must be the truth to which all is moving and
in it must be found the means of a fundamental, an inner, a
complete, a real human unity which would be the one secure base of a
unification of human life.
A spiritual oneness creating a
psychological oneness which would not depend upon intellectual or
other uniformity, and compelling a oneness of life which would not
depend on its mechanical means of unification, but would find itself
enriched by a free inner variation and a freely varied outer
self-expression, this would be the basis for a higher type of human
Change of this kind, the change from the mental and vital to the
spiritual order of life, must necessarily be accomplished in the
individual and in a great number of individuals before it can lay
any effective hold upon the community.
The Spirit in humanity
discovers, develops, builds its formations first in the individual
man: it is through the progressive and formative individual that it
offers the discovery and the chance of a new self-creation to the
mind of the race. For the communal mind holds things subconsciently
at first or, if consciously, then in a confused chaotic manner: it
is only through the individual mind that the mass can arrive at a
clear knowledge and creation of the thing it held in its
Thinkers, historians, sociologists who belittle
the individual and would like to lose him in the mass or think of
him chiefly as a cell, an atom, have got hold only of the obscurer
side of the truth of Nature's workings in humanity.
All great changes therefore find their first clear and effective
power and their direct shaping force in the mind and spirit of an
individual or of a limited number of individuals. The mass follows,
but unfortunately in a very imperfect and confused fashion which
often or even usually ends in the failure or distortion of the thing
If it were not so, mankind could have advanced on its way
with a victorious rapidity instead of with the lumbering hesitations
and soon exhausted rushes that seem to be all of which it has yet
Could such a realization develop rapidly in mankind, we might then
solve the problem of unification in a deeper and truer way from the
inner truth to the outer forms. Until then, the attempt to bring it
about by mechanical means must proceed.
But the higher hope of
humanity lies in the growing number of men who will realize this
truth and seek to develop it in themselves, so that when the mind of
man is ready to escape from its mechanical bent - perhaps when it
finds that its mechanical solutions are all temporary and
disappointing - the truth of the Spirit may step in and lead
humanity to the path of its highest possible happiness and
The spiritual aim will seek to fulfill itself therefore in a fullness
of life and man's being in the individual and the race which will be
the base for the heights of the spirit… it will be all things to all,
but in all it will be at once their highest aim and meaning and the
most all-embracing expression of themselves in which all they are
and seek for will be fulfilled.
It will aim at establishing in
society the true inner theocracy, not the false theocracy of a
dominant Church or priesthood, but that of the inner Priest, Prophet
It will reveal to man the divinity in himself as the Light,
Strength, Beauty, Good, Delight, Immortality that dwells within and
build up in his outer life also the kingdom of God which is first
discovered within us.
It will show man the way to seek for the
Divine in every way of his being, sarvabha ̄vena, and so find it and
live in it, that however - even in all kinds of ways - he lives and acts, he shall live and act in that, in the
Divine, in the Spirit, in the eternal Reality of his being."
The Adventure of
We are in a birth canal during this Time of Transition.
It may take
another hundred or thousand years depending on many unknown factors
and our willingness to "heed the voice of the Divine" and
consciously engage in this process of the spiritualization of our
being. If we don't answer the call of the Divine, we may very well
experience another "Dark Night of Civilization" resulting in
cataclysmic destruction and the possibility to reset this current
point of evolution, causing us to have to relearn our lessons from
the "beginning" again - until we get it "right".
We must acknowledge that there is nothing wrong with reality; that
everything that we are currently experiencing exists exactly to
support our greatest evolution - if we choose to rise to answer the
We are in the midst of a massive multi-dimensional spiritual
evolutionary process. We need to understand that our current point
evolution is far from final. The human being, in its current form,
is a transitional being. We've been so focused on external progress,
technological solutions, and industrial achievements that we've
neglected the importance of our inner life and progress.
even this phase of egoic, materialistic, mental consciousness has
had its purpose, as we continue to spiral up and down, ascend and
descend until all and everything around us in all directions is
spiritualized into its fullest potential.
Any insistence of external action without this sincere aspiration
and surrender to the Divine is not only limited but futile. Nothing
is going to change in any permanent way externally unless we
spiritualize our being in complete surrender to Spirit and the
Divine. When we open ourselves up to the Divine Consciousness and
Force by allowing it to descend into us and gradually transform our
mind, life, and body, it results in a true union (yoga) with the
Divine and our complete perfection of this terrestrial existence. It
is the manifestation of the Life Divine and Divine's Will.
The supramental divine consciousness is already exerting immense
pressure on us to awaken into this new level of being. We must
choose to align with and to surrender to this Force; which implies
engaging in the necessary four-fold holistic work or we will "bust"
This process may also result in a "Splitting of
Humanity" as the Mother hinted at...
the Timeline-Reality Split.
In other words, it is not the time to escape the world any further
but to choose to embrace life by anchoring the divine force within
us. The adventure of this cosmic yoga towards our Divinity of
becoming fully spiritualized beings continues; as we enter into the
birth canal of our new human species.
"Man is a transitional being. He is not final.
The step from man to superman
is the next approaching achievement in
the earth's evolution.
It is inevitable because it is at once the intention of the inner
and the logic of Nature's process."
The Life Divine
Parts of the talk "Evenings with Sraddhalu" relating
to the topics mentioned above and the whole series, covering many other
topics, can be viewed