III - Polly
Polly first contacted me in late 1992, before she even finished
reading INTO THE FRINGE.
“I am on page 176,”’ her letter said, “and
I had to stop to write you.”
A passage discussing alien interest in human sexuality had struck a
chord that resonated with some of her possible experiences. In the
small town where she lived, Polly said, she couldn’t find a good
support system because the only UFO study group in the area had no
women. She asked if I could put her in touch with other female
abductees “for mutually beneficial correspondence.”
What she needed
to discuss was too intimate for sharing with anyone other than
another woman with similar experiences.
“I have been involved with the UFO phenomenon apparently all my
life, and my children also are or have been involved,” she wrote.
“My father also has had experiences, but he is very careful whom he
talks to about them, as he is respected as a technical person and is
active still in [a military organization].”
Polly explained that she needed “a woman abductee buddy” because of
the sexual nature of some of the events she had endured. “I have all
my life been seriously traumatized, with the symptoms of a victim of
long-term incest,” she wrote, noting that her obsession with
“fantasies of strange sexual abuse involving [unfamiliar] intrusive
instruments” began when she was four years old.
And its consequences had deeply affected her adult life.
stopped me short with your discussion of alien-instigated sexual
obsessions,” she continued. “I have since my teen years found myself
every few years in a totally irrational sexually obsessive
relationship, characterized by some intelligence talking to me in my
mind, directing my actions, and apparently setting up bizarre
coincidences to stage interactions.”
For the most part, Polly noted, her personal relationships had not
been obsessive. But having learned from experience that she could be
externally manipulated in her sexual activities, she no longer
sought out such involvements.
“I now simply stay out of all
relationships of a sexual nature,” she told me. “The sexual and
‘psychic’ energy in [the last relationship] was intense to the point
of being ridiculous, totally ‘directed’ and involved frequent
telepathy and transference of feelings. I am in counseling for
childhood incest, but there is only so far I can go with it, because
I don’t have a human incest background.”
Polly’s letter listed several UFO sightings and alien-encounter
incidents in her family’s experiences, and most of the details were
familiar from my research with other abductees.
The list included,
“interactions with ‘Elves’; a creature that seemed to slosh through
physical objects as if they were water; the usual zigzagging lights;
lights that appeared outside my window every night at about the same
time and watched me for several hours; maddening poltergeist
activity; and many, many vivid ‘abduction’ dreams.”
“I make no claim for them,” Polly wrote, “but I know how they felt,
a sense since young childhood that something was in my head to keep
track of me, a squealing sound sort of in my head which seems
associated with contact, and bedroom visitors which my dog, my son,
and I all saw.”
Polly had merely listed these events, but as a researcher I was
interested in the details.
I was also interested in the person who was trying to cope with this
phenomenon. Replying to her letter, I asked for more information
about her experiences and offered to be a good listener, both as an
abductee and a woman. Although I had no recollection of any sexually
oriented encounters myself, I had learned much from others who had
been through such events.
And my husband Casey, whose full account
is related in
INTO THE FRINGE, had himself experienced a sexual
scenario with what appeared to be a hybrid alien female when he was
a very young teen. Such events, I knew, were real in terms of their
sensations and aftereffects, and any understanding of these
scenarios would shed important light on the overall abduction
I explained these two concerns when I answered Polly’s letter, and
she agreed to share her information with me as part of my ongoing
research. Through letters, phone calls, and taped discussions, I
learned much about Polly and the things she and her children had
experienced. A tall, fair, striking woman in her mid-forties,
Polly’s ethnic background is European, primarily Celtic, and
Scandinavian. She is an excellent artist, but much of the time in
supporting her family she has worked at rather physical jobs. Polly
was born in 1946 in New Jersey and grew up in the Southeast.
Widowed, she now lives with her children in the Adirondacks.
In addition to the various UFO sightings they had witnessed in this
area, it soon became clear that her youngest son, Sam, was also
having current alien encounters. In his taped communications and the
drawings and reports to Polly which were shared with me, Sam showed
unusual maturity and insight for an eleven-year-old.
Everything they told me came strictly from their conscious
recollections which, concerning any given event, were very
incomplete. Polly relegated some of her experiences to the “vivid
dream” category, a common response of many abductees. The statement,
“I make no claim for them,” meant that she could not objectively
verify these events as part of our “usual” reality.
Some of them are
similar to the virtual-reality scenario (VRS) dream discussed
earlier, and some seem to have been simply the surfacing memories of
actual events. Nonetheless, to Polly they were “experienced” events,
and if they occurred strictly within a mental or psychic framework
they still gave her every semblance of reality. The nature of that
“reality” was often ambiguous, however, but there were some
experiences she had verified as “real” because they had been
multiply witnessed or perceived while she knew herself to be in a
conscious state of mind.
These began very early in Polly’s childhood.
“When I was four years
old,” she told me,
“I saw the skinny being who appeared in silhouette against my window
shade. It was
night, but a bright light, perhaps orangish in color, shone from the
other side of the
shade. The room was dark except for the illumination outside the
shaded window. The being turned to approach me. When I get to this
point in the memory, I start shaking my head and saying, ‘No, no’
and then the memory stops. I tell myself if the memory comes over me
again, I will get beyond this point and find out what happens next,
but I never do.”
This was also the age, probably not coincidentally, at which she
began having the sexual fantasies of “intrusive unfamiliar
instruments” used on her. Additionally she reported,
four, I had a sense of something having been put behind my left
The next event possibly related to alien activity occurred around
the age of fourteen:
the onset of an obsession with understanding “the workings of the
“It was like I awakened to a sense of
cosmic mission and to an apocalyptic sort of sense of human destiny.
I felt I must understand the universe. It became a constant
undercurrent of striving which persists even now.”
Given the reports
of other abductees, some of which will be presented later, it was
interesting that she related this “job and task on earth” to
When she was in her late twenties, living in a different location,
the next event took place.
“Outside the cabin in the Blue Ridge
Mountains,” she said, “very loud stomping, like several men in work
boots, suddenly began on our front porch after no sound of approach.
We saw shadowy figures accompanying the very loud stomping. But I
don’t remember it stopping. I recollect we went to sleep in the
midst of all this commotion, which of course makes no sense if we
were lying only a few yards from prowlers. We awoke in the morning,
remembered the stomping and shadowy figures, and went outside to
hunt for footprints but found none.”
In early 1987, however, Polly had a conscious look at her mysterious
intruders. While sick in bed, she said,
“I had a couple of bedroom
visitations by two black-robed figures. They had large slanted,
glowing, lemon-yellow eyes with no pupils, just like lights. The
black-robed figures were about four feet tall. They were identical
except that one was a little lighter, like charcoal gray instead of
black. When they moved they did everything simultaneously to each
other. They glided through my son’s toy box when they left-the lower
parts of their robes just went right through it.”
Polly noted that this event occurred before she had ever seen the
cover of Whitley Strieber’s COMMUNION or any other representation of
the typical Gray alien figures.
“Someone asked me if I had asked the figures what they wanted. My
response was NO! I didn’t want to give them any openers! My feeling
was that they had come to take me permanently, and I devoted all my
energy to rebuking them.”
An extremely unusual series of events commenced in late 1987.
whole thing started with a dream,” Polly explained. “I dreamed I was
flying over the Atlantic toward the Mediterranean. A white plane
with red markings shaped like a small Concorde was approaching me
from the opposite direction, the east.
“Shortly after this dream,” Polly continued, “I noticed that I was
having conversations in
my head in French. This was most apt to happen around 4 p.m. My
communicator identified himself as a professor in a Russian
university. I had a sense of it being near Kiev. At night he would
privately beam out psychic messages toward the West in an effort to
expose a situation of psychic warfare which he claimed was being
waged between political powers worldwide, and in an effort to help
bring about peace between the then-USSR and the West.
“One thing I remember him saying very strongly was
la guerre, maintenant c’est la guerre, and he emphasized
telling me that psychic warfare was now being waged, directed to
influence people in high positions and others who could serve the
purposes of the perpetrators-perhaps obscure people who could
nevertheless influence events and public opinion.”
Her last contact with Evec was in December 1987 as she drove her
son, through a snowstorm, to another town. The driving conditions
took all her concentration, so she was startled when the French
“Evec was saying that he wanted me to join with him in prayer for
world peace. So I tried praying in French, and that was a total
disaster. I don’t remember whose idea it was, but we decided to pray
in Latin, and that went much better. I was saying things from the
Mass in Latin, clearly seeing the snowy surroundings and driving
competently, but just as clearly I began to see, like in some sort
of parallel vision, the inside of a (probably Russian Orthodox)
There was a priest in a dark red robe with some kind of
tall, funny hat. The interior was not ornate, but the ceiling was
high and there was a lot of rich, polished wood. There was a choir
consisting of both men and women.
“I wish I had had a tape recorder in my head. The choir was singing
the most magnificent mass I had ever heard. I could clearly
distinguish that it was sometimes in eight-part harmony. It was all
in Latin, and it was definitely not any mass that I have sung or
This went on for a long time, the whole rest of the ride. I don’t
recollect it ending, but we
did arrive at our destination. This was the last time I ever heard
from Evec. I had the
feeling we had accomplished all we could together. He had not been
These two events in 1987, Polly’s visitations by the black-robed
beings and the recurrent telepathic conversations with Evec, marked
the onset of what would prove to be frequent UFO and alien-related
activities in her family’s lives. It seemed to focus on Polly and
her youngest child, Sam.
A few months after Evec’s last communication, Sam had an encounter
that paralleled Polly’s experience with the black-robed beings. At
age six, he saw “black figures flying about the room.” Although they
were similar to the beings Polly had witnessed, Sam described these
characters as “smoke-like” with red eyes. They told him, Come with
us, we’ll take you to a better place.
But Sam wasn’t convinced of their good intentions, and even though
he was quite young he refused the offer. “No way,” he replied, “I’m
not going anywhere with you guys!”
After this incident both he and Polly had a number of experiences
sightings, mainly witnessed from a nearby hill, and a series of the
“vivid dream” events that indicated repeated alien encounters.
“We’ve seen many UFOs with colored lights around them or shooting
out from them,” she said, reporting that it was “common to see white
central lights flash amber, red, and blue.”
This was also the onset of several experiences with what Polly and
her family referred to as the “Elves.” These beings, she said,
“would squeak-talk very loud at night” and were extremely
frightening to another of her children who also witnessed some of
this activity during the most intense period of activity in 1989 and
Around this same time, in September 1989, Polly’s family also had an
experience with a different sort of creature. They perceived it as
“sloshing” through solid matter, moving “through physical objects as
if they were water.”
In spite of no clear confrontation with this
being, Polly felt that it was,
“reptilian, huge and loud,” making
“crashing sounds in the woods like some very large two-legged
creature lumbering through the woods in a very wet area. This sound
had no approach and no departure,” she said, “but there was the
definite sense that the perpetrator of all this noise was
approaching us. This occurred on a night which included a lot of UFO
activity. We witnessed UFOs apparently pursued by fighter-reconnaissance
at the air base.”
Polly, Sam, and others in her family have had a number of
sightings, not only from the hill but also from other parts of the
area. In June 1993, for instance, while Sam was traveling in a car
driven by a family friend, he watched three UFOs cavort in the sky.
“Sam saw three bright UFOs,” Polly related. “A bright light suddenly
appeared high above and a little ahead of them. It moved quickly
downward, then disappeared as suddenly as it had appeared. Then a
second appeared suddenly with no gradual approach, to the left of
where the first one had, then zoomed across the sky to the right and
Shortly after this, the car turned onto another
street, and Sam watched a third light appear suddenly. It flew a
short distance and then went out of sight.
Within a matter of a few weeks, Sam had another sighting, this time
of three UFOs together. And the following month, after yet another
impressive sighting, Sam wrote me himself about what he’d seen on
the night of August 19.
“Last night was awesome for UFOs,” his
account began. “I saw one triangle-shaped one which made a whooshing
sound for a long time. It looked like it might have been similar to
the triangular one sighted in Belgium in 1988 or 1989. We saw it on
TV. The one I saw was flying low....I had heard a whooshing noise
Another impressive sighting occurred on August 30, in the same area
of the previous sighting. Sam said that this one was a large diamond
or triangular shape with blinking lights on the front and rear.
looked to be really high,” he said, “but I could still see it good.
I could see solid matter inside the light pattern” as the UFO arced
across the sky.
Alien contacts continued to occur, usually recalled the morning
after the event as both
dream-like and yet real.
“Sam told me of an abduction dream which he
frightening,” Polly wrote in December 1992, “and this is unusual for
him, as he is the only
one of my children who seems to seek them and even to miss them. It
included some interesting disclaimers to usual UFO accounts, such as
‘there was gravity, I was not floating.’
He said the interior was
about ten feet by ten feet, rounded on the outside, but he felt
inside there were some corners. He said it was ‘spinning and
wobbling’ and throwing him around. He was frightened and recollected
not wanting to enter the craft. He also recollected being able to
see out a window of the craft part of the time and could see stars.
He said he felt it was ‘a blessing’ that he was able, briefly, to
Sam also said he sensed having had contact at some point with “bad
aliens who are red, not gray,” tacitly identifying the ones he had
otherwise remembered as Grays, the same sort of figure so many other
abductees have reported.
Even more disturbing for Sam, however, was
a dream he reported to Polly on the night of March 3, 1993.
“Sam just took me aside,” Polly wrote, “to tell me about a dream he
had last night. He said, ‘Can I talk to you in private? It’s
personal.’ He has a partial memory of this dream, or else the dream
itself was a fragment. He was with some people approaching the
entrance to a UFO. He went through an entry way which led to a place
that was all white, but he commented, ‘You know how scientists say
dogs are colorblind to our colors? I felt like maybe I was
colorblind to their (ETs) colors and it wasn’t really all white.’
“He said he was in a line with other people and the person in front
of him was older than he. This young man proceeded into the craft
and approached a long, white tube. He put his penis into the tube.
After a little while he apparently withdrew it and left by some way
other than the entrance. Sam was next. He did the same thing with
the tube as the man before him had done, but his memory ends at this
point. He felt this had something to do with the aliens wanting
sperm. He said there was no sound and he did not see any aliens. He
kept asking me for reassurance, saying, ‘That was just a dream,
“He does not read adult level books and I had never mentioned the
sexual intrusions to him. It seems that just in the past year his
experiences have become less agreeable to him. Previously he was the
one of my children who seemed to feel a need and desire for ‘them.’
That is not completely gone, but certainly some intrusive elements
have been introduced. Damn it, Karla, something is sexually
molesting my eleven-year-old boy!”
After pondering on the situation a while, Polly commented,
the motive is not sperm gathering, but control. What affects the
depths of the human psyche more than issues related to our
sexuality? It is a perhaps unadmirable fact that sexual identity is
probably the deepest, most primitive, most powerful identity concept
that a human being has. Violate sexual identity in a situation where
the human is made to believe that he/she is totally powerless, and
you have gained a measure of control probably unattainable by any
other single act.”
Like Polly, I was concerned about Sam’s discomfort with this
scenario, and its
implications. I was also fascinated by his statement that he had not
seen any aliens in
the experience. Later, Sam expanded this thought on a taped
conversation he and
Polly sent me.
“In UFO dreams,” he said, “after I’ve done what they
make me do, they don’t let me see them. It’s like they make me want
to do it, even though I don’t want to. I see maybe them disguised as
humans, or humans hypnotizing me. I’m not sure if they’re humans.”
Polly also had a number of abduction or UFO dream-events which felt
extremely real to her and sometimes included human-looking figures.
Many of the details, some of which will be described below, are
amazingly similar to cases I’ve investigated and which other
researchers and abductees have consistently reported. She also
occasionally found typical marks on her body, although without any
memory of getting them, including “IV-type bruises” on the bend of
her arm and “bruises in a triangular pattern” on her upper arm.
Polly’s abduction dreams became so frequent and realistic in their
details as well as in their effects upon her that in 1991 she began
keeping a journal of the dreams and of actual UFO sightings, from
which the following excerpts are taken.
“August 31, 1991. I was with a group of people in a light colored
room, and aliens were testing us for AIDS. I was found to have some
strain of it, but they seemed to be communicating to me that it
would not kill me or even seriously harm me. I don’t know if this
was because of something they did. Others had it as well-many of us
were in the same situation. I think communication was telepathic.
“One thing that has characterized my UFO dreams has been an intense
feeling of Wow, this is really This is the real thing!. This is
really happening. Typically I am out of doors and I see a UFO or
UFOs in the sky. They land or one hovers above me. When I felt the
dizzying sense of spiraling upward [in a previous event she had
described], that one was different because I was conscious of being
in my bed and being spun and sucked upward into a UFO. I think my
mind was sucked out of my body.”
Questioning the ‘reality’ of this dream about AIDS, Polly noted that
she had in fact been diagnosed with lupus erythematosis, an
auto-immune disorder, during her teen years.
“October 19, 1991. I remember a dream of a week or so ago which
involved aliens. I recollect exiting a craft with them. I remember
flying before we landed. There were other humans on board. Some of
us went up front, but on the lower level the underside was clear-not
glass but something thick yet perfectly clear. We could see down to
a spread-out village below. It was daylight.
The landscape below was
fairly flat, maybe some low hills off to our left beyond the
village. We landed, and I remember that I and others exited the
craft with the aliens, whose form was like a very simplified human
form-no muscle development evident. I think they may have had on
form-fitting suits. They had no hair. I recollect something about
some covering which had a seam near where an ear would be, but this
is a vague memory. They were quite tall, not the four-foot type.”
“October 23,1991. I dreamed I was holding a baby for the purpose of
healing it. He was in
a room at the end of a building that was like a nursery. None of the
babies’ parents were
there. I think I dreamed of a lot of stuff happening in this
building. I can still mentally see
the face of the baby very clearly. I held it on two occasions. It
was blond and blue-eyed,
a little boy, and could hold himself erect when you picked him up.
His eyes were
crossed, one worse than the other, and as I held him he started to
get a little better. When I held him the second time, he was strong
enough that I could prop him on my hip.
“Then when he was wanting to nurse, I had this really weird thought,
sort of apart from the dream, like standing off a little watching
the dream. I thought, What if he isn’t really a baby? What if he is
really some midget pervert? I emphasized this last part because it
indicates an awareness that we might be interacting with something
less human and less innocent than it seemed.”
“October 26, 1991. I was in some sort of medical situation in which
my head was the object of attention. There were doctors around me.
Before my head was the object of attention, I remember sitting up -
something about my stomach hurting. I was sitting on something flat,
and they were somehow making me travel very fast. I was afraid I
would slide off the end and expected them to care, but somehow they
did not seem to care. I remember when I sat up I said I could
breathe better that way.
Then they were going to put long
needle-like things in the sides of my head, and I remember thinking
in my dream, When the aliens do this it doesn’t hurt; it is just
pressure. Then I started saying over and over again, I’m in outer
space, I’m in outer space, and they put the long needle things in,
and I could sort of hear them going in, like a scraping sound, and
feel pressure but no pain.
“The next thing I remember, I was like flying from west to east. I
approached a four – corners intersection in the country. I felt like
it was just west of [the hill where she and her family often
witnessed UFO activity]. It was like they somehow landed me there,
at that intersection, and the next thing I remember my eyes opened
abruptly and I was in my room. When I woke up I kind of felt
different than from a regular dream, like there was something more
real about that experience.”
[It became even more realistic when, in
the summer of 1993 Polly came upon that very intersection while out
driving. It was a remote, unpopulated area west of the hill.]
“November 17,1991. Actual sighting, not a dream. Returning at night
from the mountains which lie to the east of us, I saw a distant UFO.
It changed color from red to white to red, etc., but was not a plane
because it hopped around so much in all directions-quick movements.”
“December 21, 1991. Had dream of sighting and being abducted by UFO.
I was with some young man on a roadway on a hillside. I think there
were big evergreens around, and down the hill a bit was an open
field.... We went down to about the middle of the field and looked
back up the hill. Soon the UFO appeared, larger and larger as it
approached us. It glided low over the field and landed very close to
us. My left arm was linked through the young man’s right arm.
remember feeling, This is it-like this time it’s really coming
close. When it landed right near us, I said to the young man, ‘Well,
here we go!’ Three beings came out of the UFO. They were
human-looking, dressed in black or very dark colors, male, and
surprisingly, taller than we were. I believe they took hold of us
and began taking us to the craft, but it didn’t feel real
unfriendly. The three were pretty much identical. I don’t remember
faces. It was like they had one mind.”
“January 30, 1992. Had a clear and detailed UFO sighting dream. It
was daylight and I
was looking east. I saw a UFO which was white and pale blue against
blue sky. It
hovered in one place for a long time while I and others viewed it. I
remember looking at the portholes or windows. Then there was a scene
where the UFO beings were among us and were taking all those who
loved war and aggressive military attitudes and actions. They were
taking even children. I was not among those taken. We were made to
leave and we knew that the military-minded would suffer, and we felt
really bad for them. I think a lot of the aliens were tall and close
to human-looking, but also others were sort of like the Grays but I
think lighter. I know some had big eyes.”
“February 28, 1992. MAJOR UFO DREAM - felt very real. I was standing
with another person or people-may have been first in my car, me
driving. I saw them [UFOs] above and got out, pulling over to the
left. I think there was one we saw very clearly and two others more
distant. There were also planes up there, military looking planes.
remember feeling, This was so realistic. We waved our arms to draw
attention, and the clearest one began coming nearer. I was thinking,
They are going to take us; how am I going to deal with this? And
then it was like the atmosphere of my mind changed. I was suddenly
in a state of mind where I could handle this, not go into some kind
of fear-shock at the absolute strangeness of it.
‘The UFO was sort of grayish, not all lit, and some aliens
approached us, also grayish. They were not human looking. I think
there were three, but I especially focused on one who was either
sort of leaning forward so that his head was more noticeable than
any other part of him, or else I just noticed his head the most. I
said something to the effect that we were really going with them,
and in my altered state of mind I felt I could do it, but I knew I
would be subjected to them in the craft.
It was like I knew, but in
my altered state, well, I can’t turn back now, might as well accept
it. After that I don’t remember anything. I think I felt a little
responsible, like I had involved the people with me in this and
maybe it was not good for them. I had a slight bloody nose when I
woke up, but think it was related to a cold.”
“June 23, 1992. [Recounting an actual event that preceded the dream]
my son Sam and I felt compelled to go up on the hill at 10:30 p.m.
as there was a glow in the sky which we felt must be from the sun,
as it is not much after the longest day in this north country. When
we got up there we felt intensely peaceful. Everything was very,
very still, although there is often a wind up there when there is
none anywhere else. There were a few fireflies.
Then I saw a larger,
brighter flash of light in the grass across the road from where we
sat. I said to Sam, ‘Nothing is really happening, but I feel like if
we stay any longer it will.’ I felt that if we continued to sit
there with our minds focused, we would interact with some energy
there and something would happen. I felt it had already begun to
happen, but that we still had the option of breaking it off and
They returned home, and that night Polly had a UFO dream.
walking or otherwise traveling along a road at night,” she
described. “I first saw lights, then saw UFOs-round, a little bigger
than stars, and not as bright as stars. They were up to my right,
quite near the tops of the trees. I said, ‘Wow! I’m really seeing
them!’ Then I looked up. There was one overhead which descended
closer and closer to me. I could clearly see the round bottom part,
like an opening. I said, with a little fear, ‘Okay, take me.’
“At this point I felt a feeling of being lifted which was like no
feeling I can adequately
describe. It was like being sucked by force, a dizzying, blinding,
overwhelming force. While it was happening I felt intensely that the
experience was absolutely real, and in most dreams it never occurs
to me to pass judgment on the reality of anything. I was sort of
afraid, totally caught up in it (literally and figuratively), very
aware of the sense that it was real, and feeling, Well, I’m in it
now, so wherever I am going it is not under my control.’ I couldn’t
see much, but I felt such an incredible feeling of being lifted
higher and higher, like it took my mind.
“After the lifting I was aware of being in a white place, but it was
not the standard ‘round’ white room of many UFO reports. I think it
was white like white paint, and I recollect a corner, which is also
not typical, and some sort of black or dark object. It was like I
was seeing only one little part of this place.
“Another thing I recollect was being in some sort of craft and being
behind the pilot, who sat on the left side, and noticing his head.
It was hairless, apparently with a skull similar to ours, and the
skin was white like putty. He turned toward me and appeared to have
on some sort of clown mask, although it did not really look like our
typical clowns. It had the color orange on it and was otherwise
white like plastic. The feeling I got from this pilot was of a
detached sort of kindness, not any malevolence but also nothing that
could really be called emotion.
“I have some recollection of coming into a base or land while in
this craft. It was light, like daylight (whereas I had been abducted
in the dark of night). I could see a building, I think with a flat
roof, and an outdoor area to my right of the building. I also
vaguely recollect at some point desiring to see more clearly and
‘them’ doing something so that I could, and things came into better
focus. In the outdoor area beside the building there were flowers
and shrubs and children playing, human children.
‘The pilot was still with me when I found myself inside the
building. He said they call us something like ‘the short round ones’
and showed me models of humans between three and four feet tall.
These models looked to be made out of hard plastic or something
similar and were orange and white. I pointed out to the pilot that I
was exactly his height (5’7”). He was thinner built than a human
man, maybe a little lighter weight than I, though I am small-boned.
A few other aliens were present, also.
“In this building were some human children. Now that I think about
it in my waking state, maybe they call us ‘the short round ones’
because they have so many of our children. Our children, when
healthy, are rounder than they. They appeared thin and lightweight,
but it was hard to judge because they were clothed. I don’t have a
clear recollection of their clothing, I think light-colored
“I felt I was not the only adult human there but that there were
more human children present than human adults. Near me was a little
blond-headed boy about three years old.
I picked him up and held him, and he really seemed to like that.
Then I said, ‘Where is
your mommy?’ and he looked sad and didn’t say anything. I got the
strong feeling that
the pilot who stood to my left and others of his kind very much
disapproved of my
asking that question.
Then I noticed a little girl, also blonde. I
feel she was eleven
years old for some reason, though I think she was more the size of
an average nine-year-old. I asked her if she was the boy’s sister, and she said no.
I had the feeling they
had no kin people with them. The little girl also seemed sad, and I
remember feeling grateful that ‘they’ hadn’t taken my children from
me, but I was sad about these children and the many others.
‘There was a big window arched at the end to my right. Outside the
window was a little play yard. A dark-haired human woman was tending
a group of human children. I felt she was no kin to them, except
that they were all human. I did not see the other adults whom I felt
were there somewhere.
“I recollect that there was a process of returning me, but I don’t
remember it in any detail now. I felt that the experience within the
piloted craft seemed ‘staged’ somehow for the benefit of my belief
system, but the intense lifting feeling felt somehow necessary and
“January 24, 1993. Three nights in a row I have had dreams including
UFOs, a craft, and beings. The next night in actual awake reality, I
watched UFO activity in the sky, two luminous fiery balls a little
bigger than basketballs.”
One of Polly’s most vivid and recent dream-events she reported to me
at length in a letter, complete with drawings of the creatures she
“On the night of June 27 (1993),” she wrote, “I had dreams which
included vivid visual impressions of aliens and appearances of very
bright, very real-feeling lights. The aliens did not look like what
I would have depicted if you had said, ‘Draw a typical alien.’ The
characteristics were a pronounced brow-ridge, convolutions or folds
on the forehead and beside the eyes, eyes back under shelter of the
brow-ridge, and gray or gray-green skin.
They were proportionately
tall and thin. There were at least three and I am pretty sure more,
standing closer together than I have drawn them. I am not sure about
my depictions of nose and mouth, but nose and mouth were somehow
represented. I’m also not sure about details of the lower body.
“I remember being utterly fascinated with their brow folds and the
folds beside their black eyes, but not looking directly into those
eyes. Also with the texture of their fairly tough skin, which was
sort of like an artist’s kneaded eraser. I have a recollection of
having been very close to the one on your left [in drawing], so
close that my face was right up by the right-hand side of the face,
looking closely at those folds. Then I recollect being back a little
further from them seeing the group standing together, but I don’t
know what happened first.
“I felt as I awakened that what I retained were two fragments of a
much more detailed experience, as if I had sort of mentally
photographed those two segments to ‘bring back’ as souvenirs-yes, it
was almost as if they posed for these memories! That is why I could
get so close to that one without having to become engulfed by his
eyes, and it is why they stood so obligingly in that little group!”
Polly and Sam reported these and a number of other experiences for
almost a year,
many of which seemed to be reflections or memories of fairly current
experiences. And once
she felt more comfortable with our relationship, she was able to
address the sexual issue
and share the painful memories from her childhood.
‘The area of my psychology which I feel has been most damaged by
‘them’ or by some very early influence,” she confided, “is the area
of my sexual concepts. At approximately age four, I became obsessed
with sadomasochistic sexual imagery. The images involved a little
girl on a flat table similar to a doctor’s exam table, but I think
it may have been metallic looking, silver metallic, a little grayer
than actual silver. I remember being obsessed with these images day
in and day out, and I would try to detach from them by saying that
the little girl was not me, but yet at the same time I knew it was.
“Sometimes there would be one ‘person’ doing things to the little
girl and sometimes several. There were generally those who observed.
I had the sense of both males and females present. Occasionally a
female would do a procedure, but more often a male.”
There were machines involved, as well as probes and needles. ‘The
intrusions involved what I now understand to be the genital area,
but I did not understand at the time, as well as the rectum. Also, I
do recollect needles to the navel, and this now makes sense when I
read adult women’s accounts of intrusions through the navel. My
sense of the ‘people,’ if it ever was clear, is now indistinct.
early medical history does not include anything like this.
“One thing I did which could have been a cry for help and an attempt
to resolve this situation was that I drew pictures of these events.
I remember especially at five and six drawing the little girl on the
table and the ‘people’ around her with the intrusive machines. I
showed these pictures to my mother, but I have no recollection of
her reaction except that I don’t think she shamed me.
“If I had been molested by adult family members I don’t think I
would have had images of an exam table and needles associated with
machinery, especially at ages three and four. I think these images
had to have come from some source outside my own imagination. This
early influence imprinted my sexuality with the dynamics of
sadomasochism. I feel this imprinting set me up to be victimized and
set me up to expect all sexual encounters to involve humiliation by
In fact, she said, whenever she found herself in ‘power-sex’
situations, ‘There was a voice that would talk to me and say,
Everything is right on schedule. Everything is going as planned. But
the plan did not prove benevolent toward me!”
The overall discernible effects of all their experiences on Polly
and Sam, to this point, are several. Sam has an overly mature
outlook for his age, evincing an interest in questions of cosmic
importance including reincarnation and the history of the human
race. And, after the sperm-taking scenario, he is also, according to
Polly, very uncomfortable with the idea of alien intrusions upon his
For Polly, too, the sexual aspects of her life
have been altered by these events. She avoids sexual involvements
now, in an attempt to regain control over the compulsions that have
caused many problems for her in the past.
She has no explanation for the alien intrusions into her family’s
life, only a strong sense that this involvement has been with her
for a very long time. Most of it has been unseen. In addition, or as
part of the UFO events, Polly has experienced internal
communications from “spirits,” although she cannot identify them
“They so often enter or I enter them in a sense,” she explained, “in
a sense in which we each or all allow each other to be there
simultaneously. I don’t know if this is a UFO thing, but they are
Her experiences comprise many elements: UFO sightings, entity
encounters, dream-events, physical effects, spiritual teachings, and
a sense of an unknown mission she must perform. In their
experiences, Polly and Sam have both felt positive and negative
presences, fellowship and fright, which makes it hard to place all
of the events into a single framework, the acts of a single group.
There is also the question of human involvement, since both of them
report encounters with humanoid figures that have not yet been
clearly discerned or identified.
The amassed data from reports like Polly’s show that the abduction
agenda is much too complex for any of the current explanations, both
in the events and in their effects on the individuals involved.
Certainly on the individual level, the phenomenon is profoundly
disturbing and transforming, but it is even more so when the massive
numbers of people having abductions is considered.
The agenda, given
this level of pervasiveness, must involve much more than the
transformation of the individual. The entire society is beginning to
feel its effects, and there would seem, from the testimony of
witnesses like Polly and the other women in this project, to be much
more yet to come.
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IV - Lisa
Whereas the accounts from Polly and Pat contain several elements
that may not be familiar to most students of the abduction
phenomenon, Lisa’s experiences are much more “typical,” in one
sense, comprising many recurrent details-although, as these accounts
are meant to show, the accepted definition of the “typical”
abduction is woefully inadequate.
A thirty-five-year-old wife and mother of two children, Lisa and her
husband Neal have lived in southern Alabama for the past fifteen
years. Her medium build and thick brown hair reflect her ancestry of
Italian and Scotch-Irish. To all outward appearances, Lisa’s life
seems quite normal. While her husband works at a good job in heavy
industry, Lisa takes care of her home and children, involved in the
usual activities of a family with teenagers, and she enjoys
gardening as well as more strenuous outdoor activity.
I met Lisa and Neal while I was in Florida to give a presentation on
abduction research. Several of the local UFO group’s members invited
me to one of their homes for a more informal and intimate
discussion, and when I described a few of the less well-known events
some abductees have reported, Lisa suddenly became very interested.
We spoke privately, and she told me that some of the things I had
just discussed were familiar to her, from her own experiences.
had some conscious memories of encounters with the typical Grays, as
well as missing-time episodes, multiple-witnessed UFO sightings,
unexplained body marks, telepathic communications from unseen
sources, and many dream-memories of ambiguous reality - except in
those instances where other evidence pointed to an actual event.
While the details of Lisa’s life-long involvement are certainly very
typical, the alien intrusions are clearly more intense and frequent
than in many such cases. Equally intense are her emotional reactions
to these encounters and her need for help in coping with them.
“Meeting other abductees has helped me feel not so isolated,” she
wrote me shortly after that first meeting, “but my depression is
still severe. I can’t believe I have them [alien interactions] so
frequently. If they’re trying to wear me down, they’ve about
succeeded. The flashbacks just don’t yet make sense, or maybe they
have no intentions to.
I’m starting to have military flashbacks, and
my phone clicks and goes crazy. The ‘Morse code’ and humming in my
ear has literally driven me up the wall.... I don’t want to be used
for experiments or reproductions, but how do I stop them? I pray
until sometimes I’m prayed out. Why won’t God help? By the way, I
don’t feel special or chosen like they said.”
I began my investigation with Lisa by asking about any unusual
childhood events. Her
responses showed a pattern of activity going back as far as she can
sounds of things walking through the house,” she said, “have been
going on since I
was small. The shadows [dimly discernible figures] happened more in
my later life, from
twenty years old on. Like I said, they do it [appear] right in front
of me.” She also
recalled episodes of missing time in childhood. “I would go to the
twenty-five acres when I was a child-and come back, and it would be
And the missing-time experiences still occur.
“Now, I’ll look at the
clock and roll over and look at it again, and sometimes it will be
an hour later and other times four hours,” she explained, “and I
could swear it hadn’t been but a few minutes. It makes me
disoriented after I realize there’s been some missing time. It’s
hard to go on when something robs you of your life, and you have no
memory of it.
“The Grays appeared about three or four years ago,” she continued.
“Before that, I didn’t know what was causing these things, but the
shadows I’ve seen forever, seems like.”
In 1980, however, Lisa did see something very different from the
shadows, in a terrifying event.
“A being appeared to me,” she
recalled, “when I was a couple of weeks pregnant. We had just got
into bed and Neal already seemed ‘out of it,’ and the being appeared
on the end of the bed, squatting, telling me mentally the child I
was carrying was special and it would be a boy. I almost had a
I threw the covers over my head as the being was
leaping toward me, I believe, and said, ‘In Jesus’ name, take it
away!’ It disappeared, and I fell quickly asleep. It was about three
feet tall, dark-skinned, leathery looking. I don’t remember anything
The child, incidentally, did turn out to be a boy. Now in his
teens, he has proven to be extraordinarily intelligent, with an IQ
that tested above 140 when he was seven.
After going through Lisa’s
early memories, I asked her to fill out a preliminary questionnaire
which focused on a number of events most often reported by
abductees. A comprehensive comparative chart of the responses to
this questionnaire by all eight women is presented on p. 231.
Because Lisa’s experiences are so very typical, however, many of her
responses will be discussed here in some detail, as representative
of reports from numerous abductees.
She had already mentioned a couple of these things-the odd phone
disturbances, the beeping and humming sounds in her ear - and there
were other details, internal and external, which are often part of
the alien abduction phenomenon.
For instance, there were sightings of unexplained lights, within the
house as well as in the sky. Lisa described “large whitish-yellow
lights in the sky that blink out like a light switch and fast-moving
streaks of light.” She has also witnessed “large and small balls of
red or white light bouncing in the house” and blue, orange, and
white lights flooding in through the windows from craft outside.
couple of passages from her journal show some of these typical
“August 10,1993. When I got ready to go to sleep at 11:30 or so, my
cat noticed it, then I did - a small ball of light bouncing through
the room. It was just zipping around. I probably saw it for fifteen
seconds, then it went out of the room. In the morning my eyes were
burning and irritated.”
“August 24, 1993. Woke at 1 a.m., felt something was happening,
looked around the room, fell back asleep. Woke up at 4:25 a.m. with
white lights turning, like strobe lights, outside of my bedroom
window. Before I could race to the window, it was gone. My eyelids
were very swollen in the morning, and also my back hurts.”
“March 27, 1993. Felt uneasy, like having a nightmare, struggling
and thrashing about, and then feeling sort of paralyzed. I felt the
need to scream and resist, and I yelled, ‘No!’ two or three times.
Trying to wake Neal up, I grabbed onto him. I was being lifted off
the bed by a force, but I struggled and somehow broke out of it.
When I looked around the room, a reddish-orange light flashed in the
house and then went to the side and it seemed white. This was about
1:00 to 1:20 a.m.”
Another common report involves bizarre, unexplained behavior of
electrical equipment in the abductee’s environment, and, as an
excerpt from Lisa’s journal shows, this has also frequently occurred
with her and Neal.
“At about 3 a.m. my husband and I were waked up by the radio going
crazy, the front porch light blinking, and the touch-light lamp in
the living room on bright.” Even the phone began to act oddly,
ringing and crackling incessantly with no one on the other end of
the line. “Finally we just had to unplug the phone,” her journal
noted. “I was scared.”
This was not an isolated event, as other entries in her journal
“May 10, 1993. About midnight or so, the kids’ radio came on
and the lamp in the living room came on twice. Neal and I had
Unexplained activity of helicopters over the home, following, as it
does so often after UFO activity, shows up in Lisa’s case. For her,
it began in early 1993, as her journal notes.
“March 15, 1993. About 12:20 or 12:30 a.m. I saw some beautiful blue
lights coming down the hallway [through a window from a craft near
the house], then somewhere around that time I heard a helicopter
over our house by my bedroom window. It stayed for a while, then
left. It appeared on the scene moments after the craft was leaving.
Couldn’t sleep rest of the night.”
“May 29, 1993. At 3:30 p.m. my son and I saw a dark helicopter pass
over our house.”
“September 22, 1993. Helicopters were still flying at 11 p.m. The
humming and ‘Morse code’ were almost deafening again.”
“September 23, 1993. Went to bed about 11:30. I ‘dreamed’ about the
Grays telling me how easy it was to get me. Then it changed to a
room where there were autopsies going on. Somebody human-sounding
was talking, and a woman was lying on a table who had been ‘done.’
They said some people had a Y-incision and some a straight incision.
She was a white woman, probably in her forties. Also, sometime
during the night a helicopter was flying close to our house, but I
couldn’t get up and fell back asleep. So tired in the morning.”
Lisa has many of the symptoms typically reported by other abductees,
including stress, sleep disruption, depression, a sense of having a
job or task to perform, disturbing dreams of massive UFO landings
and of widespread disasters.
“I feel they have said they love me and that I was special (yeah,
sure), and they say that I will be used for some purpose,” Lisa
commented. “Probably to tell others about them. I’ve had dreams
telling me to go to isolated places and store food. Can’t remember
more. I have had small glimpses of catastrophes, just a flash of
severe starvation, not enough to remember.”
A journal entry from December 1992 records one of the dreams of
massive UFO presence which is very commonly reported.
“In this dream
,” Lisa notes, “I was in the dark with someone, looking at the night
sky, and the spaceships were coming in landing. I told someone,
‘They’re finally coming’.”
Among the events of actual abduction scenarios-whether recalled
consciously, in flashbacks, or in memories surfacing in dreams -
Lisa’s experiences include almost every type of reported event. Most
women, for instance, have undergone physical, specifically
gynecological, examinations while in the hands of the aliens. Lisa’s
account echoes the usual scenario, beginning with the memory of
being “on their spaceship on a small examination table all scrunched
“My legs were put as close to my bottom as possible. They had
something holding me open while they inserted [something] or did
their exam. The table seemed to be at their height. Seems like there
were two of them. I remember looking up between my legs and the
alien looking back at me. It seemed to be very uncomfortable. I
can’t remember more after looking at the Gray.”
On another occasion, Lisa remembers being less cooperative during an
“giving them a hard time about being examined. I remember
asking them, ‘How would you like me to do this to you?’ I don’t know
what they said...I’m sure they sedated me.”
The following morning,
she suffered from a sore chin and a bruise on the top of her right
A journal entry from July 1993 shows how disturbed she has felt
during some of these examinations.
“Had a ‘dream’ of being on their
spaceship in a huge room on a table with the Old One examining me,”
she noted. “I was fine until he showed me an instrument (I can’t
remember it now) he was going to use on me. Then I got upset. He
placed his hands on my head, and I don’t remember anything else.”
Lisa also recalls, more than once, being shown alien or “hybrid”
babies. An entry from October 1993 states,
“I gave birth to a
fair-looking baby and called it a star baby. It had real light blue
eyes with unusual pupils.”
One of the most commonly reported events is that of an alien’s face
up very close to the abductee’s face. Some researchers, taking their
cue from abductees’ descriptions of this event, call it a
“mind-scan,” and whatever else this activity does, it certainly
seems to control the abductee mentally.
Lisa remembers this
occurring on several occasions.
"The ETs like to put their noses
almost on my nose,” she explained, “and when they do this I just
stare into their eyes. Sometimes that’s all I ever see, their eyes,
and nothing else that’s happening.”
Besides being told by the aliens that she is “special” and “chosen,”
as often happens
with others, Lisa has also recalled scenarios of training or
instruction. In a November 1993 dream, for example, she was in a
brightly lit room talking with some people whose identity she can’t
recall. They were telling Lisa how she should go about discussing
the aliens with other people. “I was being told I needed to learn
better how to speak about them,” she said.
And she has been given information about the aliens’ interest in
human genetics, another common communication. Two entries from her
journal typify this event.
“August 16, 1993. In one ‘dream’ Neal and I were raising weird
creatures, and another [part] was where they [aliens] were telling
me how they have been genetically altering us gradually. I felt like
we were their pet project or something.”
“August 20, 1993. Woke at 2 a.m. and at 4:53 a.m., got up and went
to kitchen for something to eat. Had a ‘dream’ of an ape or gorilla,
whatever you want to call them, sitting on my bed holding my hands,
and someone was saying, They are you and you are them. Very
nauseated in the morning and had sweated very badly last night.”
Other, more specific, physical effects have also been reported in
Lisa’s experiences. In addition to the nausea and eye irritations
that she suffered after certain abductions or abduction ‘dreams,’
Lisa has also found patterns of bruises, and puncture marks that
couldn’t be accounted for in any mundane way.
She has the well-known scoop marks, for example, one on her lower
right leg and another on the upper part of her right arm, which are
permanent. Temporary marks, however, are much more commonly
reported. In Lisa’s case, these have included a triangle of circular
bruises on her hip-the triangle pattern shows up more frequently
than any other design-scattered bruises on other body parts, such as
the bridge of the nose; the bottom, top, and heel of the foot; the
wrist; inside the arm very close to the armpit; all around the knee;
and on top of the hand.
But bruises aren’t the only marks that show up. Like Polly and
others, Lisa has found damaged areas in the bend of her elbow and
scratches, which she is certain were not accidentally inflicted, in
unusual places. After one particular abduction in October 1993, in
which she recalled being in a pool of water with the aliens around
her before they took her to an examination room, Lisa found a
scratch across her lower left jaw, as well as two bruises on the
outside of her left knee.
And she has had patterns of bruises which
are so commonly reported that we have come to refer to them as
“clamp marks” because they appear to have been left by either three
- or four-fingered hands grasping the upper arms or the thighs very
All of these physical effects are very familiar in abduction
reports, as are instances of blood found on the abductee’s body or
bedclothes after an encounter. Lisa, too, has had this occur, in
situations where the blood could not be explained as coming from a
bloody nose or some other injury.
It is clear, then, that Lisa’s abduction situation has involved most
of the “typical” scenarios
and events, even including episodes where she has been shown how to
operate a craft
and has been warned about the physical dangers of touching a craft
during certain phases of operation.
But she has also experienced several of the less familiar events -
less familiar, that is, in terms of abduction research findings
which have been made public. Regrettably, much of what abductees
have reported has not been publicized, for a number of reasons. In
some cases, as with alien-human sexual activity, this may be because
so many abductees are unwilling to talk about such intimate things.
In other cases it is the researchers themselves who are reluctant to
expose some aspects of the events, fearing they will push the
credibility of their audience, especially their desired audience of
professionals and academics, too far. Some parts of this phenomenon,
they fear, are simply not “politically” acceptable, no matter what
the abductees themselves insist they have experienced. Lisa and
several other of the women whose experiences are reported in this
book, therefore, are to be commended for their courage in discussing
The first highly controversial area is that of sexual activity. It
is important to remember, when reading the following journal
entries, that the aliens have superb “virtual reality” capabilities
and that without external verification it is impossible to know if
the memory or dream of an encounter reflects an actual event. This
is especially important when assessing reports of sexual activity
with the aliens, for in some situations people tell of seeing
celebrities, religious figures, and even dead acquaintances.
One of the first sexual situations Lisa remembers happened in late
1989, beginning with her conscious awareness of the aliens’
presence. Lying in bed, she woke up and saw a group of aliens, one
of which held a wand-like instrument, around the bed. The tallest of
the beings was touching Neal’s chest.
“I looked at them,” Lisa
explained, “and told them not to touch him and to leave him alone.
That’s the night I got to see them for a few seconds in an unaltered
state. Then they pointed the wand at my forehead, made me feel
dizzy, and I was out. I believe that’s the night they made me have
sex while they watched.”
The sexual interaction involved another abductee. Lisa said the man
gave her his name, T. M. Reiss, which he spelled for her.
me they had been abducting him since he was a child,” she said. “He
was very sorry.”
In a couple of the sexual scenarios, Lisa recalled interacting with
creatures of some sort. These types of bizarre reports turn up less
frequently in the research, but they are not unheard of. She
recalled the first episode as a dream-event, in which she and a
gorilla-type creature were sexually engaged. Lisa woke up after
having this ‘dream’ when the sound of a “breathing device” brought
her to consciousness.
She saw a dim figure in the doorway step out
of sight and then, as unlikely as such a response always seems in
these situations, she went back to sleep. The action, however, was
not yet over. At 3:25 she woke up again, flinging her arms about and
trying to rouse Neal, who was completely unresponsive. She saw a
lighted object outside the bedroom window, and she could feel an
energy controlling her body.
"They had some force on me,” she said, “stopping me from getting up.
When the craft [outside] started to lift up, it broke the force. I
ran outside, but I really can’t say for sure if I saw something.”
On another occasion, while lying down during the day, Lisa dreamed
about a number of sexual situations. Something like a small horse
was involved, as well as a “dolphin,” some Grays, and “a dark,
leathery, scaly creature” whose features she couldn’t clearly
recall. After waking from this dream, Lisa experienced the “humming
and Morse code” noise that occasionally plagued her internal
After a similar ‘dream’ in which Lisa was placed with several
animals in sexual situations while being observed, she awoke the
next morning with a bruise on her lower ankle and a tender area on
the back of her head, in spite of no consciously recalled injuries
to these areas. And immediately following another dream-like sexual
episode with what appeared to be a well-known public figure, Lisa
awoke in her bed and saw a nebulous form move quickly across the
room and disappear. Startled and frightened, it took her a long time
to fall back asleep, and in the morning she felt nauseated.
Such things made it hard for her to dismiss all these dream memories
as mere figments, yet they were such scant evidence as to give no
certainty of the events’ reality. Whether they were real or dreams,
there is the question of motivation.
“I believe sometimes I’m made
to dream odd things,” Lisa said, “to see my reaction to them.” A
poignant journal entry reveals how confusing this activity can be,
how vulnerable it leaves the abductee. “Dreamed Neal and I made
love,” she noted. “I hope it was him.”
The second controversial area reported by Lisa involves, as with the
case of Pat in the previous chapter, the viewing of “new bodies.”
She told me that her memory of seeing a new body occurred sometime
in late 1992. Although she was keeping a journal by that time, which
recorded UFO sightings, conscious events, and dreams, both
alien-instigated and the normal, self-generated variety, she refused
for some reason to include this event in the record.
Lisa recalled lying on a table aboard a craft, with her “new body”
“I got out of my old body,” she said, “and stood next to
it. I was looking it over, and I even looked at my teeth. The body
was perfect, but it had my long hair that I used to have. Somebody
said they could make people believe that was me,” she continued,
“even though it was perfect and with long hair. I wanted so badly to
get in it, but I did not. I don’t remember who the beings were in
the room with me, just being overwhelmed seeing the body. I don’t
remember how I got back in my old body.”
Later, in 1993, Lisa had experienced another dream-event about this
“Dreamed of showing my new body to some friends,” her
journal records, “and reading to them from a special book about
humankind. I was reading with some clear instrument like a triangle.
Don’t remember what I was reading.”
This scenario of reading a book
during an encounter, by the way, is a little-known detail reported
in a number of separate cases.
Similar dreams recurred in which she found herself displaying the
new body. In one
briefly recalled episode she was showing it to her doctor, and in a
much more involved dream, Lisa felt as if she had actually died in
order to get into the new body, which she then showed to her husband
and some other people.
There were other details of this dream that
suggest it may at the very least have been a screen memory of an
actual event. She insisted on keeping her son with her, for example,
explaining to her husband that the son “is one of us, like me.” Lisa
had been told in a past encounter that the aliens were interested
only in her and her son, not the entire family.
The encounter in the new body was followed by a more familiar
situation, in the exam room.
“A doctor and a nurse were giving me an
examination,” she recalled, “and telling me I had hepatitis. But
they were giving me some sort of vaginal exam. I told them to leave
me alone, that they weren’t my doctors, [but I] don’t remember
In addition to the sexual encounters and the alleged cloning
capabilities of the aliens, a third controversial topic avoided by
many researchers focuses on military involvement with aliens and
abductees. For Lisa, as is so often the case with abductees, the
first memory of a possible encounter with the military surfaced in a
“I was being interrogated by the military,” she said, “pushed and
made to lie crouched on the ground. In the back were some trucks,
and beside them were guys in black uniforms standing watching me.
The men asking questions were in regular military clothes. They held
me down with the butts of their guns. They told me to give them the
knowledge, and they said ‘at any cost.’ I told them I didn’t know
what they were talking about, and they just repeated themselves.”
Since that dream in August 1993, however, Lisa has had other
memories of this particular ‘event’ come to the surface. The most
detailed recollection came as part of a situation which closely fits
the definition of the VRS dream discussed earlier. On the night of
December 19, 1993, Lisa had several dreams of a very ordinary sort.
But in the midst of these regular dreams, she suddenly found herself
in a situation and environment that had quite a different ‘feel’ to
“All of a sudden I’m surrounded by military men, some in black
clothes and some in green,” she noted. “I was being made to walk
hurriedly on the grounds of some installation. I don’t know how I
got there or left. The soldiers were rude to me. I told them to stop
pushing on me.
“Then we went into an office of some type that seemed plainly
decorated. It looked like white walls and no pictures, and the desk
and chair were plain. A man was sitting behind the desk. He was a
little heavy and looked slightly balding, but his hair was short. He
had on green clothes and no medals or name as I could tell. He
started asking me questions, about what I felt on the aliens. It
seemed like he was wondering about how to get the public prepared.
“I told him that a lot of the public was already aware, and some
would never accept it. I asked him how he could expect that, since
we don’t all agree on other things. We talked, I believe, a little
about religion and politics. I believe there were other people in
I probably wasn’t allowed to look.
‘Then I think they brought me something to drink. I don’t remember
more. I just know this man looked bewildered and concerned. I
believe the alien issue has gotten out of control in his opinion. I
expressed to him that I was tired of the game-playing.”
For Lisa, then, the abduction phenomenon’s parameters include
witnessed UFO sightings; conscious perceptions of lights, probes,
and aliens in the house; conscious telepathic communications;
bizarre external physical reactions from inanimate objects in her
environment; conscious perception of missing-time episodes;
unexplained physical marks on her body; and a number of
virtual-reality/dream scenarios involving both human and alien
In a nutshell, this is an accurate general definition of the
phenomenon as reported by numerous abductees. But as the eight
representative accounts here demonstrate, the details of that
scenario are highly bizarre, variable to an absurd degree from case
to case, invariably intrusive, sometimes physically painful,
spiritually ambiguous, ingeniously deceptive, and, at every level,
Three experiences Lisa has recently reported will make this point
The first, which she recalled in a dream state, began inside an
“I was on a table,” Lisa said, “and it looked like
I was being pushed down a hall with bright lights. They [her
attendants] were quickly strapping my feet down with straps that
looked like velcro. I don’t know what these beings that abducted me
looked like. Then something was inserted in my left ear, I think. I
told them they were killing or hurting my brain, then I blacked
In the next remembered scene, something very different was going on,
this time involving other humans.
“I believe the FBI came to arrest
me,” Lisa said, “and they called me by my maiden name. One man was
really mean to me.”
Lisa remembered nothing more, but she wondered
the next morning if the soreness in her left ear and her throat had
anything to do with the memory of the ear probe.
The second experience, which she recorded as a dream, also involved
some physical procedure aboard a craft, but it began on a rather
“I dreamed I was given a heavenly audience,” Lisa
reported. “I believe it meant that they [aliens] invited me to speak
with them, but I don’t remember about what.”
A physical exam
“I saw myself on a table in a spaceship and alien beings
standing at the end of my feet, telling me or each other that I was
an excellent breeder,” she recalled.
“A reptile-looking creature was
getting on top of me, I guess to rape me.”
After this, she
remembered nothing more.
The final experience had a much more conscious element to it than
the ‘dreams/ in spite of its more ‘fantastic’ nature. Lisa had gone
to bed early on this night and awoke at 1:10 a.m. Preparing to fall
asleep again, but still awake, she began to feel a growing sense of
some “pressure” which became very intense.
“I looked up at the ceiling over me,” Lisa said, “and saw images
that looked like vultures or the phoenix bird. There seemed to be
two of them... trying to chase each other off. Their eyes glowed
green, I believe. Then there appeared a spirit form. It seemed to
have white hair and a beard. I started yelling frantically, ‘Oh,
God, oh, Heavenly Father!’ over and over and trying to get myself
free from the force. I felt my eyes roll back in my head.
“Then I felt a great pulling, and I’m not sure if I was in spirit
form or my body, but very quickly I was in the clouds and sky. I
looked down and saw the lights of a town and vapors of the clouds.
The spirit took me to a wall or some sort of tunnel, and I was going
to be taken in. I don’t remember more of what I saw. The next thing
I know, I was back in bed and looking at the same birds
disappearing. I came out of the odd state I was in and went to the
kitchen, I was trembling so bad. The clock said 3:40.”
“God help me,” Lisa concluded, “whatever I was seeing.”
and the phoenix, after all, are very different creatures who embody
quite different concepts.
A time loss of two and a half hours occurred that night. And so did
a serious injury to Lisa’s back. The “great pulling” that took her
upwards jerked her with such force that the next day she could
hardly walk. The pain continued getting worse, and when she
consulted her doctor, she was told that the spinal damage could
In this one instance, at least, the event was more
than virtual reality.
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