by Bernhard Guenther
As the the cosmic energies of our planet become increasingly-infused
with the contrasting expression of light and dark frequencies during
this Time of Transition, many of us (whether we are conscious or not
of this elevation in contrasting vibrations) are experiencing
breakdowns and breakthroughs at an accelerated pace.
We are being
awaken - to align with the divine force.
This process is bringing
up anything that is not of the same frequency that our spirit is
currently "downloading" in order to be transmuted. Many things are
transpiring and shifting on multi-dimensional levels which lie
outside of our conscious awareness.
The strong currents of
these galactic waves are pressuring us to ride the flow of
Any resistance and/or
desperate need to control this process (based on fear) can cause us
to get sucked into the undercurrent and be held under, until such a
time as we can get back on the wave again, i.e. learn our lessons
and keep doing the necessary clearing work in order to embody the
hyperdimensional perspective, the anti-divine, dark occult forces
are operating on overdrive, trying to lock as many human beings as
possible into a frequency prison (which will be heightened with the
dawning of the
Transhumanism/A.I. agenda, which enables "soul
snatching" to occur) so as to counteract the "Divine Awakening
Force" and thus ensure they do not lose their "food" source.
Yet, this increase
of friction and suffering has a teaching-function - as part of the
evolution of consciousness - and serves as a catalyst and
opportunity for internal alchemical initiation for those people who
have the soul-seed capacity to truly start questioning everything
they ever believed in/were told/taught by official culture.
it can activate an engagement in sincere self-work and embodiment
practices (soul growth/integration).
The choice to
"answer the call" is, as always, within each Individual, and also
depends upon his/her soul potential (and personal lessons), for not
everyone is here to "awaken" in this current cycle (and there is
no judgment around that) as we are also in the midst of a Timeline-Reality
This is, after all,
the apocalypse, which means "unveiling", not "destruction" (and
"occult", for that matter, means "hidden", nothing inherently to do
with "evil" intent).
The Hyperdimensional Matrix
Anyone who is are
familiar with my work knows that I write and talk a lot about the
Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System (HMCS), i.e. the non-physical
occult hostile forces and their mechanisms which aim to keep us
To recap this
phenomenon in a nutshell: humanity is not on the top of the "food
chain", and humanity is not in control of its sovereign decisions on
a 'macro' scale.
The idea of "free
will" is, in many aspects, an illusion.
Most of what you
see on the world stage is manipulated and designed to create this
"food" frequency of scarcity-fueled fear and reactivity…to keep
humanity in a frequency prison, governed by forces who operate
outside of our five-sensory perception.
These forces work
through us/others (including through the elite/controllers on a 3-D
level, whom they use as portals/puppets to carry out their agenda)
and distract us by projecting the shadows of separation
consciousness on the wall/world stage (divide & conquer) and
any belief in external authority) is also an "archonic"
creation; the perfect foundation to keep people stuck in an endless
loop of conflict with each other, ensuring that we remain
disempowered so as to produce all
they require to keep well-fed.
beings in the spiritual realms for whom anxiety and fear
emanating from human beings offer welcome food. When humans have
no anxiety and fear, then these creatures starve.
People not yet
sufficiently convinced of this statement could understand it to
be meant comparatively only. But for those who are familiar with
this phenomenon, it is a reality.
If fear and
anxiety radiates from people and they break out in panic, then
these creatures find welcome nutrition and they become more and
more powerful. These beings are hostile towards humanity.
feeds on negative feelings, on anxiety, fear and superstition,
despair or doubt, are in reality hostile forces in supersensible
worlds, launching cruel attacks on human beings, while they are
is above all necessary to begin with that the person who enters
the spiritual world overcomes fear, feelings of helplessness,
despair and anxiety.
But these are
exactly the feelings that belong to contemporary culture and
materialism; because it estranges people from the spiritual
world, it is especially suited to evoke hopelessness and fear of
the unknown in people, thereby calling up the above mentioned
hostile forces against them."
Rudolf Steiner - Die Erkenntnis der Seele und des Geistes
However, this is a
"concept" that is really hard for most people to grasp and accept,
and is most often ridiculed and laughed off as "sci-fi", "conspiracy
nonsense" or "mental/psychological delusion" because it's so far out
their conditioned beliefs and view of life (a perspective that is
inserted into our minds by the same "force").
And yet, despite
the cynical skepticism, all of the ancient mystery schools, true
shamanic insights, and esoteric teachings (much of which have been
suppressed and/or distorted over thousands of years for obvious
reasons) have conveyed this truth for 'the ones with eyes to see and
ears to hear', using their own language and symbolism, be it,
General Law" (Esoteric Christianity)
Predator/Fliers - "The topic of all topics" (Shamanism,
(Native American Spirituality)
Hostile Forces (Sri Aurobindo & The Mother, The Integral
It also relates to
phenomenon and alien forces that have genetically modified human
beings - downgrading our race from the original blueprint - eons
It is not a "fairy
tale" nor "superstition". Our entire (modern) civilization is, for
the most part, a product of this "force"…our society is an "alien"
construct which we have been led to accept as arising from "human
nature" - a condition wherein pathology has become normalized.
Don't wait for this
Knowledge and Truth to be brought to you via TED, Oprah, The NY
Bestseller list, mainstream "science", let alone any politician or
celebrity-style spiritual gurus... and don't believe me either… find
out for yourself!
But I suggest you
not ridicule/judge - or have an "opinion" about - something until
you have sincerely researched it yourself… which, in this case, also
implies sincere esoteric self-work in order to perceive these forces
directly, to "see the unseen" beyond appearances… and to ultimately
free yourself from its influence via tapping into your own embodied
connection to the Divine and Spirit within, i.e. DNA activation to
reconnect with your original blueprint prior to our collective (and
ongoing) genetic modification.
"We are asleep
- in a dream state - and mistakenly think we are awake.
One of the
fundamental aspects of the ontological category of ignorance is
ignorance of this very
ignorance; he not only does not know, he does not know that he
does not know.
We are in a kind of prison but do
not know it.
This BIP (Black Iron Prison, i.e. hyperdimensional
matrix) is a vast complex life form which protects itself by
inducing a negative hallucination of it.
is self-perpetuating; it makes us unaware of it. We are supposed
to combat it phagocyte-wise, but the very valence of the (BIP)
stasis warps us into micro-extensions of itself; this is
precisely why it is so dangerous.
This is the dread thing it
does: extending its android thinking more and more extensively.
It exerts a dreadful and subtle power, and more and more people
fall into its field (power), by means of which it grows.
This is a
sinister life form indeed. First it takes power over us,
reducing us to slaves, and then it causes us to forget our
former state, and be unable to see or to think straight, and not
to know we can't see or think straight, and finally it becomes
invisible to us by reason of what it has done to us.
We cannot even
monitor our own deformity, our own impairment.
Being without psyche of its own
it slays the authentic psyches of those creatures locked into
it, and replaces them with a spurious microform of its own dead
doctrine of combating the 'hostile world and its power' has to a
large extent been ossified by and put at the service of the
The BIP warps
every new effort at freedom into the mold of further tyranny.
The Empire is only a phantasm, lingering because we have gone to
So long as the
root of wickedness is hidden, it is strong. But when it is
recognized, it is dissolved. When it is revealed, it perishes…
It is powerful because we have not recognized it.
of pseudo-realities begins to produce inauthentic humans very
The artifact enslaves us, but on
the other hand it is attempting to teach us to throw off its
enslavement. Compassion's highest power [embodied higher love]
is the only power capable of solving the maze.
measure of a man is not his intelligence or how high he rises in
this freak establishment. No, the true measure of a man is this:
how quickly can he respond to the needs of others and how much
of himself he can give.
If the final
paradox of the maze is that the only way you can escape it is
voluntarily to go back in (into it), then maybe we are here
voluntarily; we came back in.
was the loss of amnesia.
your origins, and they were from beyond the stars."
Philip K. Dick
"Due to the
lack of a state of higher awareness, the planet Earth is a small
hell, where by divine grace or infernal evil, the individual
neither notices nor evaluates
his precarious condition or the cloudiness of his awareness.
Like true madmen, each sapiens, like Don Quixote, the Castilian
nobleman, strikes out against his own windmill. Thus,
battle after battle, youth is lost, illusions die, purity
withers, and the last glimmers of lucidity gradually disappear.
If we were
perverse gods or immoral despoilers, we could not invent a
better method to make a group of slaves work peacefully than to
make them believe, by means of collective hypnosis, that they
are happy and important.
We would then
have perfect robots who would work untiringly, producing what we
desire. In addition, these robots would make and maintain
It could be
argued that sapiens, unlike other species, sows, produces, and
labors only for himself and not for other beings.
This is true
for the products and material sapiens uses for his own
maintenance. No non-human species steals the material product of
On the other
hand, this is not the case with the subtle fruit produced by the
human nervous system in everyday life.
This fruit is
rapidly reaped by certain beings who are much higher on the
evolutionary scale than the human being; veritable gods of
space, who profit from human efforts, but in turn fulfill
certain cosmic functions and occupy an important position in the
have been mentioned previously: they are the
Archons of Destiny.
All of Earth's
inhabitants are under the sway of one or more of these 'gods',
who regulate, shape, and direct the destiny of humanity. But
this is not so for the destiny of the Hermeticist, who attains
his vital autonomy at a certain moment, releasing himself from
the mandate of the Archons.
The Archons of
Destiny are terrifying beings, not because they are evil, but
due to their cold and inexorable severity in the manipulation of
If we were to
establish a symbol for these beings, no doubt they would be
depicted with a whip in their hands, a girdle of bristles or
netted wire with which they chastise humanity in order to ensure
their progress, although this evolution may be imperceptible
during our earthly time.
these occult judges pitilessly provoke a world war in which
millions of people die.
Sapiens, in his
extreme fight for existence and in his various relations with
the natural and social environments surrounding him, inevitably
experiences all kinds of tribulations, suffering, deceptions,
and other experiences, both pleasant and unpleasant.
As a consequence, his emotional
and nervous systems develop certain embodied elements, that are
extremely powerful, and which abandon the human body in the form
of vibrations (everything vibrates; matter is only vibratory
These vibrations are
transmitted through antennae incorporated in the biological unit
which are tuned to the frequency of the Archons, who then reap
this power and use it for purposes we cannot divulge, again
stating that they accomplish a cosmic function.
It is thus that
sapiens is unwittingly stripped of the most noble product he has
produced; the final distillate of human experience, the broth in
which lies the blood, the soul, and the very life of the
lived for this, suffered, loved, enjoyed, worked, built things,
went to war, studied, investigated, only to prepare the golden
broth of his life.
understand that the "central computer" only exists in relation
to the Archons of Destiny as an instrument to control sapiens.
The object of
life [from the archonic perspective], the reason for which
sapiens was created [via genetic modification/engineering], is
not for him to enjoy life in the garden of the Lord, but rather
to be a pawn in his vineyards, a worker so perfect he can act as
cultivator and food at the same time.
If man could prevent his golden
broth from being stolen, with this vital product he could become
equal to the gods, rapidly evolving by integrating within
himself the products from the chemical laboratory of his
This is exactly
what is done by the student of Hermeticism, who is temporarily
freed by the Archons of Destiny.
individual, by virtue of his understanding and responsibility,
has no need for an overseer with whip in hand to oblige him to
evolve through suffering, as he takes responsibility for his
evolution into his own hands, and if he deems it necessary,
submits himself to the same temporary suffering in order to
attain eternal happiness.
This is in
contrast to the profane or worldly person who chooses fleeting
pleasure at the expense of eternal suffering.
revealing of secrets which are hidden from sapiens. Let us
spread a cloak of silence on this subject in order to comply
with the mandate of the esoteric Sphinx who demands silence.
Speech and silence are two swords, which must be handled with
sublime skill in order not to disrupt universal harmony.
Those who have "eyes to see"
will understand everything not stated in the written word, but
in the cryptic language of the initiate.
For those not
in this state, it is best that they understand nothing and
continue to sleep tranquilly. Ultimately, the Archons run no
risk of a bad harvest from a possible rebellion of sapiens.
Sapiens is too blind to see where the danger is really found.
It is sad to
observe the tremendous limitation of sapiens, who shuts himself
up in the small world of stereotypical concepts, of memorized
knowledge, of imitation, and mechanisms of compensation and
disability prevents him from realizing just how small the
cubicle is which imprisons him.
And, thus, with
a mind made up in advance, he accepts, condemns, or tolerates
without bothering to intelligently analyze the situations with
which he is confronted."
The Stellar Man
The Process of Awakening
Despite the madness
and seemingly-increasing chaos enveloping the outside world - or
rather, because of this development - I see more people
experiencing an "awakening" in their lives.
At the same time,
the same intensification of energies has other people getting caught
in (and unconsciously aligning with) the divide & conquer
agenda of the occult forces, as we currently see manifested in the
shadow projections (or worship) which surrounds their latest
authoritarian puppet installment,
Donald Trump (and thus
generating all of the resulting emotional "loosh" for the
hyperdimensional puppeteers to feed upon), which I've written about here.
"In the big
picture, it really does not matter what person is the President,
what organization is spraying chemtrails, running the cabals,
or financing negative alien "black op" projects.
They are a symbol of a collective
"mind controlled puppet" playing out their role as the unseen
force manipulates their ego's behavior to keep the same 3D
structure feeding the same vampires.
They will just pluck another
dominating ego persona from the masses to play out the same fear
How Much Are You Willing To Know?
Some people believe
themselves to have finally "woken up" from the manipulation of the
Matrix Control System.
However, the word
"awake" seems to be a very abused and overused word these days.
What I notice is
that more people are becoming aware, for the most part, of the
symptoms of the Matrix on a 3D surface level (which is encouraging
to see and a good start), but mistake that for having truly "woken
up" in the holistic sense of the term, and therefore most of them
oftentimes don't follow up or keep "going", especially with regards
to inner self-work.
Our inner voice -
stemming from the real self ("speaking" to us through a
sense-embodied intuitive knowing, not via head-centric
thought-injections), hidden behind the socially/cultural
conditioned/programmed mask of personality we identify with - also
whispers to us to go deeper, if we can hear and heed its "signals".
These echoes are
hardly recognizable at first, but become more audibly-apparent as we
shed our layers of conditioning, programming and trauma/wounding.
It's the voice of
Spirit and the Divine, asking us to recognize our true nature, to
keep going deeper within… to self-realize, self-actualize.
the comprehensive embodiment of imagination that surfaces in
observation and finally ripens through the reinforcement of
experience, thereby inculcating knowledge.
This, in fact, is the
short story of life."
It should be noted
that "awakening" is a process that is different for each and every
one of us as we reach towards higher/broader levels of
relatively speaking, you can be "awake" to the basic 3D aspects of
the Matrix, but if you get stuck there (especially when there is
lack of sincere inner work taking place), you'll still be subjected
interferences and manipulation, especially when you're caught in
the external expression of shadow-projection.
Being "awake" (or
"woke", as the cool kids like to say) about the matrix and the
various control mechanisms and deceptions - and based on a purely
intellectual informational level - is a necessary stage of growth,
but only the very beginning stage of a true Awakening …and cannot
even be called "taking the red pill" from an esoteric
This stage of
awareness are mere baby steps which must be taken prior to crossing
the threshold towards self-realization, which entails esoteric
self-work, embodiment [soul integration] and alchemical internal
transformation in order to reach a higher level of
being/consciousness... one that is based upon frequency vibration.
mind can't go there, and is, in fact, an obstacle to higher
awareness beyond the five senses. This is not a very pleasant
process at times, especially at the beginning stage, for it results
in utter disillusionment and death of the conditioned personality,
which doesn't like to give up and let go of control that easily.
For that reason,
many people in their process of seeking "truth" wind up avoiding
sincere inner work by constantly externalizing the "dark"
(especially with regards to shadow projection) side of reality, and
thus get lost in the information swamp or hooked on sensationalism,
mechanical activism, or wind up locked in the tunnel vision of the
3D matrix, decorated as it is with shadows on the wall, which is a
puppet-on-a-string-pulling trap in itself, and only works in favor
of the occult matrix architects.
But "self-work" -
to truly "Know Thyself" - is also a tricky thing, and
self-deceptions in this pursuit are very common.
Some people tend to
over-estimate themselves with regards to their level of
They claim to "know
themselves" when they actually mistake "the Self" for their
personality (with its more subtle programming/conditioning
features)…or they talk about "living their truth", which can also be
a falsehood which misleads/distorts the actual calling of the self,
and instead acts as a self-justification, a denial, and a buffer.
I also see people
talking about the hyperdimensional matrix, claiming to be "free"
from it, but don't realize/see how it's still working through them,
especially when they get trapped in victim, blame, martyr, or savior
consciousness archetypal programming.
It is important
to understand the fundamentals of true deep self-work, especially
since much of that has been corrupted and over-simplified via New
Age/pop-spirituality and pop-psychology mechanisms.
The most difficult
aspect to grasp in esoteric self-work is detecting and confronting
the moment-to-moment lies we are telling ourselves, and the
buffers/masks we create so as to avoid the internal friction that is
necessary to ignite the alchemical fire of transformation within.
oneself is a very big, but a very vague and distant, aim.
Man in his
present state is very far from self-knowledge. Therefore,
strictly speaking, his aim cannot even be defined as
be his big aim. It is quite enough if a man understands that he
must study himself. It must be man's aim to begin to study
himself, to know himself, in the right way.
the work or the way which leads to self-knowledge. But in order
to study oneself one must first learn how to study, where to
begin, what methods to use.
A man must
learn how to study himself, and he must study the methods of
self-study. The chief method of self-study is self-observation.
properly applied self observation a man will never understand
the connection and the correlation between the various functions
of his machine, will never understand how and why on each
separate occasion everything in him 'happens'."
In Search of the
Now, I don't take
myself out of this critical equation, and would never claim to be
fully "awake", let alone "enlightened".
vastly-different levels and steps on the "spiral out"; one step
cannot be claimed to be "better" or" worse" than another, it all
depends upon one's individual soul lessons/path (which includes
divine timing with regards to what we're being shown, which is not
left to the impatient ego to determine), and the current condition
of one's state of being and sincerity/self-honesty.
I can see in myself
how hard it is to stay truly conscious every single day, how some
dormant programs still resurface, enticing me to react mechanically
(under the illusion that it was actually my "true self" calling to
me), how my mind tries to rationalize/justify itself at times.
I can see and sense
how the occult hostile forces still try to interfere through my own
mind via thought injections, tempting me with old cravings, or
trying to generate a reactive response in me by working through
others (who are not aware of at all that this is occurring).
It's certainly not
as severe as it was in the past - and I can see/sense it more easily
- but "waking up" demands "super-efforts" (Gurdjieff)… not in terms
of "doing", but with regards to,
suffering (not giving in to internalized programs)
grounded in the body and in the present moment
zero-point non-reactive consciousness
and "working" (not forcefully),
conscious connection to spirit within as an instrument for the
Divine without any sense of ambition, pride or vanity, without the
egoic self-centered notion (and illusion) of the "me" personality.
This entails a
basic understanding of how to observe oneself and how to do
"self-work", as well as how the matrix actually operates on the
unseen levels through us - not just an intellectual understanding,
but an embodied Knowing… to truly "see" it in the world, in oneself…
to see the unseen.
We cannot do this
work alone all the time (especially at the beginning of the
process), for we all have blind spots and need "alarm clocks" from
others who are also engaged in the same work - people who can
provide us with "mirrors", observations which don't stem from their
own shadow projections… people who can also offer us support and
So, it's tricky
work to engage in, and the potential for self-deception and
over-estimating one's level of awareness (or "awakened state") is
What does it mean to be
But what does it
actually mean to be truly and fully awake?
entering slippery territory here - a place where we meet the
limitations of words and language. It is something the mind cannot
comprehend via a thought process or language decoding, for it is an
internal experience beyond thought, emotions and feelings; a higher
state of Being.
As Lao Tzu
Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao",
the classic Zen metaphor of mistaking the finger pointing at the
moon for the moon:
"To point at the moon a finger is
needed, but woe to those who take the finger for the moon…"
understanding of limitations firmly established, we can, however, do
some basic "finger-pointing".
before, beyond being simply "awake" on an intellectual level - and
thus seeing through the deception and illusion of the Matrix
externally (and the various levels within that) - the true, deeper
and real awaking can only happen within, beyond thought.
It ties into what
it was written in a previous
essay about the embodied Individual:
Individuality in this context is the embodied individualized
soul as a conscious transducer for higher energies, being
the "instrument" for Divine Will. Individuality DOES NOT mean
ego/personality identification (the false "I"), or what the
matrix/official culture promotes as "Individuality" which is
most often a "cult of personality".
In the same
context, becoming a sovereign emancipated Individual does not imply
that one is an "independent" human being, separate from everything
That illusory idea
stems from the over-riding head-centric male aspect of
consciousness, the (inner) tyrant who is identified with
self-achieved (false) independence.
From a spiritual
and holistic perspective, being a sovereign embodied Individual is
based upon a deep recognition (on an embodied level) of
the interrelationship of life, fully tuned into nature and the
Divine/Spirit as an individualized (but not separate) expression of
it - a fractal aspect of the universal Hologram. It stems from the
feminine aspect of consciousness, which is grounded in Being.
emancipated Individual is not influenced by external
influences/intrusions which the Matrix attempts to inset into their
consciousness: any form of rulers/authority (including
hyperdimensional interference) or social/cultural
But he/she is also
not an isolated, "independent" and separate being, but deeply
connected to (and in alignment with) nature, spirit and the Divine,
as a conscious vessel/transducer for Divine Will.
Being (or the Zen
notion of "non-doing"), in the true meaning of the word, does not
mean that one is just passive (another common misconception).
It is the still
point (zero-point non-reactive consciousness) from which our
wholeness can be informed by the world's wholeness (listening to
world through the body, anchored in the pelvic floor/gut, the seat
of the feminine aspect of consciousness), and then respond to it
from this grounded space.
It is from this
state of Being wherein spontaneous, perfect action arises - action
that is in alignment with nature and Divine Will.
is receptive to "what is", contrary to the reactionary "tyrant"
of the male aspect of consciousness (nothing to do with gender),
who is threatened by the present moment (and, essentially,
afraid of the Feminine), addicted to "willful doing" and
head-centric analysis, with a desperate need to control the
"outside world", which only results in more and more
fragmentation, for the intellect/mind can never ever perceive
is the capacity to take up all experiences and organize them
around the divine centre.
The aim of the
psychic being [soul/higher self] is to form an individual being,
individualized, "personalized" around the divine centre
["growing" the soul to become fully embodied in one's being].
the experiences of the external life (unless one does yoga [not
to be mistaken for the physical practice] and becomes conscious)
pass without organizing the inner being,
while the psychic being organizes these experiences serially. It
wants to realize a particular attitude towards the Divine.
Each individual is a special
manifestation in the universe, therefore his true path must be
an absolutely unique path.
similarities, there are resemblances, there are categories,
families, ideals also, that is, a certain collective way of
approaching the Divine, which creates a kind of "church", not
materialized but in a more subtle world - there are all these
things - but for the details of the path, the details of yoga
[union of the human individual with the universal and
transcendent existence], it will be different according to each
individual, necessarily, and conditioned physically by his
present bodily structure, and vitally, mentally and psychically,
of course, by former lives.
individualized in a collectivity, one must be absolutely
conscious of oneself.
And of which
self? - the Self which is above all intermixture, that is, what
I call the Truth of your being. And as long as you are not
conscious of the Truth of your being, you are moved by all kinds
of things, without taking any note of it all.
thought, collective suggestions are a formidable influence which
act constantly on individual thought. And what is extraordinary
is that one does not notice it.
that one thinks "like that", but in truth it is the collectivity
which thinks "like that".
The mass is
always inferior to the individual. Take individuals with similar
qualities, of similar categories, well, when they are alone
these individuals are at least two degrees better than people of
the same category in a crowd.
There is a
mixture of obscurities, a mixture of unconsciousness, and
inevitably you slip into this unconsciousness.
To escape this
there is but one means: to become more conscious of oneself,
more and more conscious and more and more attentive.
It is thus that
gradually, slowly, with perseverance, first of all with great
care and much attention, one becomes conscious, learn to know
oneself and then to become master of oneself."
of the Mother"
Sri Aurobindo Library
From an absolute
perspective, what is being described is essentially the
dissolving/transcending of the "I" we think we are… this opens up to
experience a realm beyond duality, where there is no sense of
We grasp, however
fleetingly, a unity with all that is, embodying an instrument and
unique expression of the Divine in tune with the natural flow of
It is a state
beyond thought, desire, or even emotion and feeling - a state of
pure Being, fully tuned into the present moment.
petty instrumental action of the human will there is something
vast and powerful and eternal that oversees the trend of the
inclination and presses on the turn of the will.
There is a
total Truth in Nature greater than our individual choice. This
apparently self-acting mechanism of Nature conceals an immanent
divine Will that compels and guides it and shapes its purposes.
But you cannot
feel or know that Will while you are shut up in your narrow cell
of personality, blinded and chained to your viewpoint of the ego
and its desires.
For you can
wholly respond to it only when you are impersonalized [embodied]
by knowledge and widened to see all things in the self and in
God and the self and God in all things.
The state of ignorance in which
you believe that you are the doer of your acts persists so long
as it is necessary for your development.
as soon as you are capable of passing into a higher condition,
you begin to see that you are an instrument of the one
consciousness; you take a step upward and you rise to a higher
The Integral Yoga
This state of
fully-accessed being-ness is obviously not what most of us
experience in our striving for awakening, let alone on a consistent
However, what I
have noticed in myself and others is that more and more people
experience glimpses of this state here and there, or slowly approach
it with the growing sense of,
"being in this
world but not of it", like a witness/observer… not from an
intellectual "seeing" or "thinking" perspective… this impersonal
"witness" also recognizes that you are a part of the game,
seeing through the veil of all appearances and manifestations of
the "one consciousness expressing itself in infinite variety".
It is an embodied
experience, beyond the self-image identification of "I".
It is not attached
to any thoughts. It's a state where there is not will-full doing,
nor any sense of "personal will", as it has suddenly morphed and
conjoined with Divine Will.
desires, vanity, the need to be "liked" or "desired", the notion and
pressure to "become" something/someone, any comparison/competition
with others (and resulting judgments), or even "dislike" of others
all fall slowly away, as do any triggers and reactive behaviors.
It's the ultimate letting go of egoic control, and a surrender to
life and spirit, realizing that control was an illusion all along.
There is a deep and
embodied sense of peace and trust, of faith and "being taken care
of" (as in trusting the flow of life), knowing that any challenge
that will come up serves as a deeper lesson for the purpose of a
true awakening. It is the end of fear, the death of
ego-identification, and re-birth of the real "I AM" - embodied
spirit - expressing itself uniquely through "you".
It is being in flow
with the Tao, the Divine Will of nature, as it is flowing and
expressing itself through you without resistance and, as Sri
Aurobindo mentioned above, you
begin to see that you are an instrument of the one consciousness.
work and carry on their affairs from the ordinary motives of the
vital being, need, desire of wealth or success or position of
power or fame or the activity and the pleasure of manifesting
their capacities, and they succeed or fail according to their
capability, power of work and the good or bad fortune which the
result of their (conditioned) nature and their Karma.
When one takes
up the yoga [work towards Awakening, union with the Divine] and
wishes to consecrate one's life to the Divine, these ordinary
motives of the vital being have no longer their full and free
play; they have to replaced by another, a mainly psychic (soul)
and spiritual motive, which will enable the sadhak (spiritual
seeker) with the same force as before, no longer for himself,
but for the Divine.
The only work
that spiritually purifies is that which is done without personal
motives, without desire for fame or public recognition or
worldly greatness, without insistence on one's mental motives or
vital lusts and demands or physical preferences, without vanity
or crude self-assertion or claim for position or prestige, done
for the sake of the Divine alone.
All work done in an egoistic
spirit, however "good" for people in the world of the Ignorance
is of no avail to the seeker [and will keep the door
shut to the Divine].
I do not mean
philanthropy or the service of humanity or all the rest of the
things - moral or idealistic - which the mind of man substitutes
for the deeper truth of works. I mean by work action done for
the Divine and more and more in union with Divine, merging one's
will with Divine Will.
is not easy at the beginning, any more than deep meditation and
luminous knowledge are easy or even true love. But like the
others it has to be begun in the right spirit and attitude, with
the right will in you, then the rest will come.
One becomes liberated from the
shackles of the outer nature; one becomes aware of one's inner
being and sees the outer as an instrument; one feels the
universal Force doing one's works and the Self watching or
witness but free;
one feels all works taken from one and done by the Divine Power
acting from behind the heart.
referring of all one's will and works to the Divine, true
[embodied] love and adoration grow, the psychic being
[individualized soul/true self] comes forward.
Love and Knowledge go together and self-perfection becomes
possible - what we call the transformation of the nature.
certainly do not all come at once; they come more or less
slowly, more or less completely according to the condition and
growth of the being. There is no royal road to divine
All this insistence upon action is
absurd if one has not the light by which to act.
of action think that by human intellect and energy, making an
always new rush, everything can be put right; the present state
of the world after a development of the intellect and a
stupendous output of energy for which there is no historical
parallel is a signal proof of the emptiness of the illusion
under which they labour.
It is only by a change of
consciousness that the true basis of life can be discovered:
from within outward.
But within does not mean some quarter inch behind the surface.
One must go
deep and find the soul, the (true) Self [behind the masks of the
conditioned personality], the Divine Reality within us and only
then can life become a true expression of what we can be instead
of a blind and always repeated confused blur of the inadequate
and imperfect thing we were.
The choice is
between remaining in the old jumble and groping about in the
hope of stumbling on some discovery or standing back and seeing
the Light within till we discover and can build the Godhead
within and without us."
The Integral Yoga
It is also the
state wherein we are not subjected to any attacks or
interferences of the the occult hyperdimensional forces, since we
find ourselves resonating on a higher frequency, beyond their
vibrational realm, i.e. we have truly transcended the Matrix.
The "reality" we
subsequently experience is of a much richer and more subtle
impression, not bound to the illusion of linear time, hence there is
no pressure to do, no hurry, no impatience.
dissipates, to be replaced by an embodied responding to what is -
and what life brings - that is uniquely tuned to our soul lessons
and talents; it guides us from an embodied inner place without
expectations and attachment to outcome.
Goal setting and
ambition are replaced by a quiet aspiration with intentions but
without expectations or need to control.
Making choices and
decisions don't stem from a thought process anymore or any
head-centric analysis of "should" or "shouldn't", but emerge from a
gut-level of nonverbal intuitive knowing.
Life becomes like a
dance in the river of life as we don't fight the current anymore,
being in the "zone", locked into the rhythm of life (Tao).
Contrary to popular
beliefs, this awakened state is not a constant feeling of "bliss" or
ecstasy (even though there can be peak experiences like that), nor
is it a "feeling" of love or happiness. It really transcends
anything we usually experience in ordinary consciousness states that
are related to emotions and feelings.
transcends the duality of pain and pleasure, happiness and
There is a deeper,
silent contentment, a grounded calmness and sense of peace, not
depending on any external circumstances… a sense of slowing down and
It's a place of
true freedom. Thoughts may still come and try to attach themselves,
but it becomes easier to detach from them - to release from
believing in them or identifying with them. This sense of detachment
is, however, not an intellectual form of dissociating, but an
embodied recognition of one's true nature in contrast to the
illusion of thought (and who we "think" we are).
One recognizes that
the mind is just a tool, a servant, but not be looked upon as the
master/guide. It's not about demonizing the intellect either, for it
needs to go through its own transmutation to become an instrument
for the Divine, accessing higher knowledge (Gnosis).
We can also still
"use" it in practical ways to live out our daily routines, since we
didn't just "check out" of our existence here on Earth.
the contrary, we are more involved with reality - more
fully-embracing of life - and whatever this dance may bring in full
conscious participation with the rhythms of life, we will
participate in… without attachment and will-full doing.
"All of us, in
our own process of awakening, will visit the limitation of our
personal will. Most of us will visit it several different times,
on deeper and deeper levels, until it is fully extinguished.
The loss of
personal will isn't really a loss at all. It's not as if we
become the doormat of humanity, that we stop knowing what to do
or how to do it.
By surrendering the illusion of
the personal will, a whole different state of consciousness is
born in us; a rebirth happens. It's almost like a resurrection
happens from deep within us. This resurrection is very
hard to explain, like many things in spirituality, but in
essence we start to be moved by the completeness and totality of
of this kind of movement is very vivid in the Taoist tradition,
which focuses on the expression of the Tao, or the truth,
through us. If you read through the Tao Te Ching or look at some
of the Taoist teachings, you start to get a feel for how
willfulness is replaced by a sense of flow.
When you get out of the driver's
seat, you find that life can drive itself, that actually life
has always been driving itself.
When you get out of the driver's seat, it can drive itself so
much easier - it can flow in ways you never imagined. Life
becomes almost magical.
The illusion of
the "me" is no longer in the way. Life begins to flow, and you
never know where it will take you.
As their sense
of personal will diminishes, people often say to me,
even know how to make a decision anymore."
This is because
they are operating less and less from a personal point of view.
There is a new way of operating, and it is not really about
making this decision or that decision, the right decision or the
It is more like
navigating a flow. You feel where events are moving, and you
feel for the right thing to do. It's like a river that knows
which way to turn around a rock - to the left or to the right.
It's an intuitive and innate sense of knowing.
This kind of flow is always
available to us, but most of us are too lost in the complexities
of our thinking to feel that there's a simple and natural flow
to life. But
underneath the turmoil of thought and emotion, and underneath
the grasping of the personal will, there is indeed a flow.
There is a
simple movement of life."
The End of Your
speaking, over the past few years I've had more glimpses into that
state of 'flow' being, and started to increasingly experience life
and "reality" on a different level that is hard to even put into
I'm more and more
grounded in the present moment, unconcerned about the past or
before, by no means do I claim to have fully "awoken", let alone
achieved a real state of "enlightened" existence, but there have
been internal changes within me - which reflect my "outer" reality -
that are undeniable (which have also resulted in an exponential
increase in positive synchronicities).
There is also more
joy and simple contentment and gratitude in my heart, as well as
humility for the mystery of life; a deeper trust and faith in the
here and now and the "universe"…a sense that I'm being "taken care
of" and "supported".
Yet, my personal
emancipation and embodiment process continues, and there are always
more lessons to learn.
I still have my
days when I get stuck in the head, get disconnected, reactive,
project (and my ego gets the best of me), melancholic, down on
myself, or caught up in a thought loop, but it's not even close to
the state of Being I was in a few years back.
Many of us
experience glimpses or subtle impressions of what I described above,
but most of the time they don't stay with us, and aren't permanent
by any means. That is normal as well, so even when the "light"
diminishes and we get caught up into our thought loops and
mechanical behavior once again, we must not despair.
Much is happening
behind the veil, as Spirit is busy doing its work.
process is not a linear process. Many factors come into the journey
as it is so very different for each of us. From a broader
perspective, we all are where we need to be when it comes to soul
The trap is to
compare ourselves to anyone else, or get caught in the mindset of
what "should" be happening, or where we "should" be with regards to
our inner development, or become bogged down in our mind's idea of
"success" and "failure", all of which most often results in anxiety,
depression, impatience, frustration or anger.
When I find myself
in such a state (especially when a thought of "should/shouldn't"
comes up), I use it as a feedback signal that I'm currently dis-embodied
(not in my body) and disconnected from my true self/spirit (in the
absolute sense, we are never disconnected, of course) and I don't
attempt to make any decisions from that state.
Instead of fighting
it, acting out of desperation, or forcing myself to get out of it, I
surrender to it - meaning that I don't avoid these feelings, nor act
upon them, but simply accept and observe them.
Usually, I go into
meditation to fully feel them in my body (other times I'll dance or
take a walk in nature) and also inquire deeper into any thoughts
associated with these emotions, since there is usually a feedback
loop between thought and emotion - one triggering the other.
As I surrender to
what is, an underlying (false) belief from the past (based on
conditioning/wounding) - which the thought is associated with -
usually comes to light… or I sometimes sense an archontic thought
injection, bringing it into conscious awareness through simple inner
perception without identifying with it, which helps to dissolve the
thought, i.e. metaphysical detachment.
Sometimes this also
results in emotional processing (without resulting judgment) by
"loving what arises" and just feeling into it with unconditional
Self-love - as in
wholeness, accepting the "dark" and "light" within, without judgment
- is a key ingredient in this process.
Traps on the Path towards
Let's look at some
of the traps on the journey towards awakening, and also examine some
of the pitfalls we can fall into in the wake of experiencing a
glimpse into the profound "other-ness" of an awakened (if still
All traps described below (this is merely a
selection of the main ones I have observed in myself and others) can
happen at any given stage of the awakening process, and many can
Personally speaking, I've fallen into many of
these traps in the past (and learned the hard way), and some of them
still creep in here and there if I don't "catch myself".
Bypassing (first coined by John Welwood in 1984) is the use of
spiritual practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with our
painful feelings, unresolved wounds, and developmental needs.
engage in spiritual bypassing when we bypass necessary basic
psychological work, believing ourselves to be more (self) aware
than we actually are, and thus over-estimate our state of being.
It relates to intellectualizing higher spiritual truths, ideas,
and concepts, and thereby distorting/diluting them in order to
avoid facing our blindspots and conditioned personality.
Bypassing also reveals itself when we judge negative emotions as
something "bad", "un-spiritual" - a virus to be
avoided… believing that "being spiritual" means to always be
nice, positive, smiling and non-confrontational (resulting in a
lack of boundaries and reality-avoidance).
detachment (intellectual/stuck in the head)
numbing and repression
overemphasis on the positive
anger-phobia (most often resulting in passive aggressiveness
and a "make nice" mask)
overly-tolerant compassion/weak boundaries
development (cognitive/intellectual intelligence often being
far ahead of emotional intelligence - > lack of embodiment)
debilitating judgment about one's negativity or shadow side
of the personal/physical relative to the spiritual -
of having arrived at a higher level of being
efforts to kill/eradicate the ego, or judging it as "bad"
statements (absolute/higher "truths") such as "everything is
perfect", "it's all an illusion", "we are all one", "love is
all there is" as philosophical (intellectual) concepts to
avoid dealing with the not-so-pleasant aspects of every day
life in this 3D duality (bypassing responsibility and
lessons of our 3D incarnation)
spiritual practices to escape unpleasant emotions; for
example, using meditation to dissociate from emotions,
rather than transmute them.
immersed in spiritual bypassing, we like the light but not
And when we're caught up in the grosser forms of
spiritual bypassing, we'd usually much rather theorize about
the frontiers of consciousness than actually go there,
suppressing the fire rather than breathing it even more
alive, espousing the ideal of unconditional love but not
permitting love to show up in its more challenging, personal
To do so would be too hot, too scary, and too
out-of-control, bringing things to the surface that we have
long disowned or suppressed.
But if we really want the
light, we cannot afford to flee the heat.
"What gives light must endure burning."
And being with the fire's heat doesn't just mean sitting
with the difficult stuff in meditation, but also going into
it, trekking to its core, facing and entering and getting
intimate with whatever is there, however scary or traumatic
or sad or raw.
bypassing is largely occupied, at least in its New Age
forms, by the idea of wholeness and the innate unity of
Being - "Oneness" being perhaps its favorite bumper sticker
- but actually generates and reinforces fragmentation by
separating out from and rejecting what is painful,
distressed, and unhealed; all the far-from-flattering
aspects of being human.
trappings of spiritual bypassing can look good, particularly
when they seem to promise freedom from life's fuss and fury,
but this supposed serenity and detachment is often little
more than metaphysical valium, especially for those who have
made too much of a virtue out of being and looking positive.
A common telltale sign of
spiritual bypassing is a lack of grounding and in-the-body
experience that tends to keep us either spacily afloat in
how we relate to the world or too rigidly tethered to a
spiritual system that seemingly provides the solidity we
may fall into premature forgiveness and emotional
dissociation, and confuse anger with aggression and ill
will, which leaves us disempowered, riddled with weak
The overdone niceness that often characterizes
spiritual bypassing strands it from emotional depth and
authenticity; and its underlying grief - mostly unspoken,
untouched, unacknowledged - keeps it marooned from the very
caring that would unwrap and undo it, like a baby being
readied for a bath by a loving parent.
bypassing distances us not only from our pain and difficult
personal issues but also from our own authentic
spirituality, stranding us in a metaphysical limbo, a zone
of exaggerated gentleness, niceness, and superficiality.
frequently disconnected nature keeps it adrift, clinging to
the life jacket of its self-conferred spiritual credentials.
As such, it maroons us from embodying our full humanity.
Cutting through spiritual
bypassing means turning towards the painful, unwanted, scary
shadow elements of ourselves.
To do this we must cut through our numbness and defenses,
approaching it with as much care as we can. If doing so
seems to heal our heart, we are on the right path.
heart heals, it opens and expands, not shatters. When we denumb and become more comfortable with our own comfort we
see what drove us into spiritual bypassing. This is a
challenging journey to say the least.
True spirituality is not a
high, not a rush, not an altered state.
It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times
call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible;
something radically alive and naturally integral; something
that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating
spiritual deepening as something to dabble in here and
Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or
buzz of knowingness, not a psychedelic blast-through or a
mellow hanging-out on some exalted plane of consciousness,
not a bubble of immunity, but a vast fire of liberation, an
exquisitely fitting crucible and sanctuary, providing both
heat and light for the healing and awakening we need."
Bypassing also ties into Spiritual Materialism, coined by Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche
and defined as,
"a distorted, ego-centered version of
spirituality" where we "deceive ourselves into thinking
we are developing spiritually when instead we are strengthening
our egocentricity through spiritual techniques."
to getting "addicted" to spiritual teachings and practices, with
people continuously looking for the next workshop, the next
teaching, the newest guru in town, going from one seminar to the
next, traveling all over the world to find "truth", going from
healer to healer, "master" to "master", in the hopes of someone
healing them or bringing them "enlightenment".
Materialism also shows itself by building a library of spiritual
techniques that their ego likes to "show off" to
prove their worthiness - to reveal how much of a "properly
spiritual" person they are, and how much they have read, "know",
The sense of
feeling better than others who are still be plugged into the
Matrix, or who haven't had any profound awakening experiences;
the lure of looking down on them is the most common trap many
people fall into.
This is especially the case when truth seeking
is not combined with inner work. In the more extreme
manifestation of superiority, we lash out on others, calling
them names and attacking them personally for being "blind" and
not aware (most often conducted via the internet/social media,
hiding behind a screen).
The delusion of
superiority is, in fact, a symptom of still being plugged into
the Matrix, since the Matrix feeds off of
Service to Self (STS)
ego separation-consciousness (with its manifestation of
"competition" in people's personal and/or professional lives).
We see this attitude play itself out most often in "truth
seekers" who just "woke up" to the basics of the 3D matrix (the
political illusion, government corruption and relating symptoms:
the banking cartel, fake war on terror, lies of the mainstream
media, false flag attacks, etc.) and lash out on people who are
still asleep and hypnotized. In a sense, this is a normal stage
As the saying goes "The truth shall set you free, but
first it will piss you off" (ironically enough, this was coined
by CIA controlled opposition asset Gloria Steinham).
is not to be judged as "bad" (spiritual bypassing), but we need
to remain mindful to avoid projecting it outwardly.
subject also ties into shadow projection. When we get
emotionally riled up and project that reactive energy onto
others - coming from sense of superiority - we actually feed the
occult forces in the hyperdimensional realms.
It stems from the
"predator mind" by which these forces work through us,
triggering mechanical/reactive behaviors to produce the "loosh"
frequency they feed upon.
There are varying degrees of
superiority complexes, with various manifestations which we all
can fall into (from subtle to very apparent). As long as we have
an inner sense of superiority (especially the disease of moral
superiority) or "specialness" in comparison to others - even
without any external projections - the matrix has its hooks in
This can also happen to "wanderers",
(individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density
(4th or 6th density) into this 3rd density with a specific
mission to accomplish in order to assist humanity), who are very
identified with the wanderer ("starseed") concept (seeing
oneself as "better" than "humans"), and the ego feeds off of
this divisionary mentality.
This is also how negative forces
target, hijack and derail wanderers from their mission - by
appealing to the shadow aspect of their ego.
The trap of
superiority is so common that it is almost a "natural"
by-product of the awakening process.
It can manifest itself at
any given stage, even after having had a mystical awakening
experience which the ego then hijacks. In other words, the ego
believes itself to be awake, turning into a "spiritualized
Many self-proclaimed masters/gurus (or even popular
figures in the "truth movement") have big superiority issues
(cult of personality disorder) which their followers often feed
with their "worship" and hierarchical-authoritarian programming,
coming from a self-perceived inferior state of being, and thus
putting another person on a pedestal.
what the practice or teaching, ego loves to wait in ambush
to appropriate spirituality for its own survival and gain."
More often than
not, we have no control over when thoughts/feelings of
superiority enter us.
It can happen as a mechanical reflex
response - as the sudden appearance of feelings of jealousy or
anger. The key is self-observation, not trying to get rid of it
(the axiom "what we resist persists" applies here), to say
nothing of judging ourselves for thinking/feeling that way,
which is very self-defeating.
Avoid trying to push it away or
acting on it; instead, we keep to working on ourselves, which
helps to eventually detach our vibrational field from such
thought intrusions; by not identifying with them positively
(accepting) or negatively (judging ourselves/forceful
resistance), we can slowly release them.
Patience is key here.
A good thing to
keep in mind that everyone reading this article was once fully
"asleep", caught up in the Matrix control mechanisms - none of
us were born "awake".
We've all had our individual awakening
moments, realizing that we have been believing in lies our
entire lives, and that path to freedom is different for each of
That's where compassion and empathy come in, for both
ourselves and others, even though blind/unconscious people who
"dream to be awake" tend to support the matrix agenda, and hence
unknowingly do a lot of "harm" despite their well-meaning
intentions (for example: the belief in government, engaging in
the political puppet show, which stems from a "Stockholm
Syndrome" mechanism which is based on social conditioning, i.e.
authoritarian programming, and hence feeding into the divide &
It is important, though, to not fall into
"blind compassion" or intellectualize compassion, which can
result in a fake mask of "compassion" and pity for others,
which, ironically, also stems from an unconscious sense of
From a bigger picture perspective, it is also
important to keep in mind that not
everyone is here to awaken during this current cycle.
is nothing wrong with this truth, and there is no judgment…it is
merely a function of the cosmic equilibrium.
compassion is rooted in the belief that we are all doing the
best we can.
When we are driven by blind compassion, we cut
everyone far too much slack, making excuses for others'
behavior and making nice situations that require a forceful
"no", an unmistakable voicing of displeasure, or a firm
setting and maintaining of boundaries.
These things can, and
often should be done out of love, but blind compassion keeps
love too meek, sentenced to wearing a kind face.
compassion is kindness rooted in fear, and not just fear of
confrontation, but also fear of not coming across as a good
or spiritual person.
mute our essential voice, our openness is reduced to a
permissive gap, an undiscerning embrace, a poorly boundaries
receptivity, all of which indicate a lack of compassion for
ourselves (in that we don't adequately protect ourselves).
Blind compassion confuses anger with aggression,
forcefulness with violence, judgment with condemnation,
caring with exaggerated tolerance, and more tolerance with
forcefully trying to wake up others
Many of us who
have taken the "red pill" and are increasingly-seeing through
the lies and illusions of official culture can be eager to tell
others what we have found out and realized in our journey.
want others, especially our friends and family, to "wake up" as
We see how they suffer needlessly, supporting the forces
which are oppressing them and leading them astray, so our
intentions to wake up others are coming from a well intended
place; sometimes, they're just coming from a place of excitement
with regards to sharing information.
However, two things are
important to understand and apply: External Consideration and
Consideration" means adapting to the worldview/beliefs
of another person, and thus not pushing information onto someone
who didn't ask for it in the first place.
approach involves supporting other peoples' 'illusions' because
they are not ready to hear the truth, let alone be assisted in
becoming "un-plugged" from the Matrix Control System. In
esoteric terms, "Giving without (sincere) asking" is a violation
of free will.
It may interfere with the soul lesson/path of the
other person involved - an individual who needs to learn certain
lessons for him/herself, even if that entails long periods of
suffering and struggle.
context, we cannot "do" anything for another person, nor "save"
them - if they are not engaged in the process of sincere
self-work and earnestly seeking truth for themselves, it will
most likely be counterproductive to engage with them by
providing a contrasting point of view.
The "asking" part of the
equation doesn't have to be verbal in nature - it depends upon
the situation and context.
On the other hand, not every "asking"
cue is sincere, so trusting one's intuitive hunches regarding
what to share (and what to withhold) is important; simply being
"curious" is not a sincere form of "asking".
people who simply pry into the occult from mere curiosity,
we have nothing to say. They will obtain just as much as
they deserve, and nothing more.
"Ask and ye
shall receive, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be
opened unto you" is equally as true today, in relation to
esoteric knowledge, as it was 2000 years ago…
It invariably presupposes that
the supplicator and the knocker are
in real earnest, and that they seek only to satisfy the deep
yearnings of the immortal soul.
The doorkeeper, or
guardian of the temple of truth is as mute as a granite rock
to all others.
They may supplicate, they may shout and bawl
until they are hoarse, they may knock and buffet the door
until they rouse a nation with their clamor, and if they
approach in any other spirit than [earnest desire to satisfy
the deep yearnings of the immortal soul], it is all to no
We can never take the Kingdom of Heaven by storm."
Brotherhood of Luxor - Initiatic and Historical Documents of
an Order of Practical Occultism"
Enclosure" relates to having a strategy with regards to
how to present information that may challenge another's belief
Sometimes it is more productive to remain silent than
to drop "knowledge bombs" on an unsuspecting mind, let alone
trying to convince another person through argument and debate
(which only creates the emotional loosh for the occult forces to
This also ties into the saying,
"Do not give what
is holy to the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest
they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in
pieces" - such is the biblical description of "cognitive
dissonance" in its most basic of terms.
At other times, however,
directness and "calling a spade a spade" is needed as an
appropriate response as well.
The drive to
seek out truth in oneself and the world - and act upon it with
integrity - has to come from oneself.
No one can do it for
another, and no one can push another to do it, until he/she
himself/herself realizes the precarious times we live in (most
often arising as the result of personal suffering and
disillusionment), acts upon it, and starts to work on
Oftentimes, people do not start to sincerely seek
truth or engage in deeper self-work until they have suffered,
and are confronted with the inevitable disillusionment which
subsequently arises, and surrender to it.
use psychological or esoteric terminology, the basic fact
remains the same: human beings do not earn free will except
through self-discovery, and they do not attempt
self-discovery until things become so painful that they have
no other choice.
If the individual makes no effort to expand
his consciousness so that he can understand the nature of
his total enfoldment and can begin to cooperate with it,
then it will seem that he is the pawn of fate and has no
control over his life.
He can only earn his freedom by
learning about himself so that he can understand what value
a particular experience has for the development of his whole
What we can do,
however, is spread some "seeds of awareness", giving people some
"food for thought" so to speak, without trying to convince
him/her of the veracity of the information, nor having any
expectations about how they'll receive it.
Some seeds sprout,
some never blossom, but never underestimate the butterfly-effect
Each situation is different, of course, which goes
back to "External Consideration" and "Strategic Enclosure".
"If you do
find an extraordinary truth, shall we say, from
extraordinary evidence, more than likely, then in the course
of your life, if you come upon that, you quickly learn there
was a path to that view.
And it may be complex, it may be
simple, but there was a way to it. You don't jump straight
to it without the intermediate stages.
And the more remarkable
that truth is the longer it takes to deeply
acknowledge and know it - know it at a very inner [embodied]
Yet, we can
observe that there is sort of a tremendous impulse to want
to share our discoveries with people and to prove to them
and to underline things and expound what we believe.
everybody has to wake up for him or herself. I've said this
over and over.
You cannot really do it for anyone else. So
it is both unrealistic and unwise to say, to expect someone
touted in a mainstream view of politics and culture and
education to suddenly entertain [esoteric and fringe ideas].
outstanding the revelation the longer it takes to get to it.
So we have to sort of respect that in a way. We have to
expect also that it takes time for people to understand what
is real and what is unreal. All
we can do is set forth our discoveries and let people make
of it what they will.
And that takes discipline and
a high degree of self-confidence. And amongst academics that
is not always to be taken for granted. Because it is not
just academic discipline but it is personal disciple in your
own growth in your own being not just the computer element
of our minds but all of the rest of the faculties as well.
And if we
falter in our convictions, if we constantly need validation
and reassurance then we start to compromise even our own
materials. It is better not to do that at all. Just play
your own game.
Do your own thing and get as sharp and
authentic as you can. And don't stop and keep doing it.
it brings to mind the question of what actually is it when
we say truth. And I very much feel, having worked with all
levels of sort of philosophers, and academics, and
psychologists, and mystics, and new agers…that being smart
is not sufficient to know the truth.
And I would say that the truth
reveals itself slowly depending on the intellectual,
emotional, transcendental awareness of the individual. And
those last two elements are sorely lacking in the average
I would say.
So their inquiry is necessarily therefore flat
and rather one-dimensional. It is limited, to put it
politely, like a [person] who cannot see the real substance
of a situation because he does not really get it.
sincerity, humility, and insight."
At the same
time, I also feel (and have seen) that the ideas of "external
consideration" and "strategic enclosure" have been used as a
buffer, an avoidance strategy, and a rationale to excuse people
from being outspoken about the important issues which our world
is facing in this day and age - or even with regards to what we
truly think and feel, our own sense of vulnerability and
Oftentimes, there is this irrational fear and paranoia
about what others may think of us as individuals if one is more
outspoken - allowing opinions to frame our own sense of
More on this
topic in a past essay: Vocation
and Seeking Truth - The Challenge of Making a Living while
Exposing and Transcending The Matrix
Trap of wanting
to help others
This trap is
closely related to the drive behind forcefully trying to wake
Since, in many instances, there is obviously nothing
wrong with wanting to help others - and in fact, it is often
encouraged to be there for others in need - respecting free will
applies here as well, since we cannot truly help anyone who is
not willing to help him/herself, or who is not asking for it.
The desire to help and be of service is also coming from a
well-intentioned place; however, if we start to give people
unsolicited advice, or tell them what they "should" or
"shouldn't" do, we are not being considerate, but rather, are
coming from a place of selfish desire to change the other
person, especially when we disrespect previously-established
This doesn't mean to stay silent when people behave
in abusive ways towards others and we need to step in to provide
support against injustice. Again, it all depends on the specific
situation and context.
be necessary to develop oneself to such an extent that it
would be possible to know and understand enough to be able
to aid someone else in doing something necessary for
himself, even when that person was not conscious of the
need, and might work against you, that only in this sense
was love properly responsible and worthy of the name of real
the best of intentions, most people would be too afraid to
love another person in an active sense, or even to
attempt to do anything for them; and that one of the
terrifying aspects of love was that while it was possible to
help another person to a certain degree, it was not possible
to actually "do" anything for them…
If you see another man
fall down, when he must walk, you can pick him up.
although to take one more step is more necessary for him
even than air, he must take this step alone; impossible for
another person to take it for him."
The drive to
help others can also come from a place of avoiding our own
"stuff", and most often the advice we give others is what we
need to apply to ourselves, first and foremost.
We have much
more impact in helping and inspiring others if we live by
example (as embodied frequency anchors), but we ought to be
careful of the superiority complex creeping in, as well as the
savior complex (addressed later).
The notion of "Service to
Others" (STO) has also become very distorted, in particular
amongst the "New Age" religion, where STS (Service to Self) is
usually mistaken for STO, especially when we primarily "help"
others to make us feel better about ourselves, or even feel the
need to tell others how much we have been of service, and
thereby feed off of the attention/adulation.
This ties into the
"spiritualized ego" deception.
Michael Topper gives an overview
of the STO/STS dynamic from a higher perspective here.
Both traps -
trying to wake up, and attempting to help others - can be
particularly challenging in intimate relationships, when one
partner starts to wake up and is engaged in sincere self-work
and truth seeking, but the other partner isn't.
If both partners
don't start "looking in the same direction" and have no
foundation of sincerely working on both themselves and the
relationship, separation is oftentimes inevitable, for both
partners wind up essentially interfering with each other's soul
It is important to note that
relationships take on a whole new level when both partners are
sincerely engaged in truth seeking and self work, and hence
mainstream-style relationship psychology has its limits, since
it usually approaches relationships from a "matrix" perspective,
without considering other factors, such as "The
Dark Side of Cupid/Love Bite and Hyperdimensional Interferences
Trap of the
Revolutionary Mind (stuck in 3D)
This is also a
very common trap: we get caught up in the tunnel vision of the
3D Matrix (fighting it externally), which is, after all, only a
manifestation (symptom) of the non-physical hyperdimensional
By doing so, we inadvertently feed into the Negative
Realm's agenda of divide & conquer, and then the "matrix has us"
by working through us, feeding off of all the projected
It also ties into the limitations of 3D
thinking (stuck in the head) with regards to trying to "fix" the
world, as well as the mis-perception of "evil" and trying to
eradicate it, instead of transcending it/the matrix.
is based on a lack of awareness/understanding of the occult
hostile forces operating outside our range of five-sensory
what happened in 1914 - or for that matter at all that is
and has been happening in human history - the eye of the
Yogin sees not only the outward events and persons and
causes, but the enormous forces which precipitate them into
If the men who fought were instruments in the hands
of rulers and financiers, these in turn were mere puppets in
the clutch of those hidden [hyperdimensional] forces.
When one is habituated to
see the things behind, one is no longer prone to be touched
by the outward aspects - or to expect any remedy from
political, institutional or social changes.
The only way out
is through the descent of an [embodied] consciousness which
is not the puppet of these forces but is greater than they
Forces of Life - The Integral Yoga
addressed this trap (also related to the trap of "fighting
evil") in more depth in previous essays:
self-defeating state of being which some people find themselves
in at some point on their awakening journey is the notion of
meaninglessness, or "nothing matters anyway".
We can slip into
this dis-empowering state even after having had experiences of a
deeper experience of self-realization (wherein we embody the
wholeness and unity of it all, with the dissolution of the "me"
personality and loss of separative consciousness, giving way to
an an all-inclusive, expansive experience of the Divine,
realizing the illusion of the dream state we have been caught
This is also how the ego can sneakily hijack such
profound experiences after the "coming down" period commences in
the wake of such revelations, thereby distorting "higher" truths
(such as "all is illusion") into a sort of paradoxical,
don't see any purpose to do anything at all, for whatever we do
is irrelevant, since we believe that nothing matters anyway from
the absolute perspective, which from THAT perspective is "true".
However, the trap is to assume "god's point of view" (not
talking about any external religious idea of "god") and
"forgetting" that we still have to play our roles in alignment
with Divine Will, incarnated into a body and placed within the
grand scheme of the evolution of consciousness.
of creation from the "One" transduce through all expressions of
energetic manifestation, intermixing with our incarnated Being,
and are all a unique expression of "God", which (from a
individual perspective) is our unique soul path with all its
expressions, unique talents, and lessons (i.e. "purpose").
This trap is
even more severe when one uses absolute truths such as "all is
one" and "all is illusion" from a strictly intellectual
belief-structure perspective, without ever having experienced a
true embodied awakening.
Many followers of the non-duality
philosophy can fall into that trap, reinforced by their own
rationalizations and over-estimating their level of Being.
see this as well in distorted New Age spiritual teachings that
have co-opted and distorted "higher truths".
the "meaninglessness" trap can also occur when we get
overwhelmed by the collective meltdown madness. As we shed the
layers of illusions and lies we've been indoctrinated with, and
can perceive more and more of the normalized pathology in our
world (with millions of programmed people dreaming to be awake),
we can succumb to a state of "frozen shock".
This rigidity can
hold its grip when we get stuck in the necessary process of
disillusionment and the resulting sensations of despair,
depression and hopelessness take hold; we only see negativity in
our world, and isolate ourselves from everything and everyone
(note: learning to be alone in solitude - not to be mistaken for
loneliness - is a necessary lesson to learn in this process as
We then tell ourselves that,
"it is of no use", "the world
will always be as it is", "there is nothing I/we can do",
"nothing matters", etc..
This is the ego's desperate grip to not
let go, to recommit to the illusion of separation, and it also
hijacks the process of "making the darkness conscious" by
turning it into self-loathing negativity.
attacks and interferences can also increase during this "dark
night of the soul", trying to keep us in the "underworld of
darkness", even to the point of pushing us into suicidal
mentioned before, the disillusionment process is a necessary
(and in fact, positive) stage of the awakening process (i.e the
dissolving of illusions).
Hence, feelings and periods of
despair, depression, shock, loneliness, and meaninglessness are
normal symptoms of a deeper soul awakening, and there is a light
at the end of the tunnel if we have faith and persist without
giving in to the darkness within and without.
lays the groundwork to ignite the inner alchemical fire of
transmutation; from lead (matter/ego-consciousness) into gold
Some people can
become so infatuated with living a "spiritual life" - or get
trapped in the revolutionary mindset - that they use it as an
excuse to avoid dealing with ordinary daily affairs.
to reject anything which they don't perceive as "spiritual" (or
what they see as "the matrix" reality) in a knee-jerk/black &
white reactionary way - such as not paying their bills, rent or
feeling too "good/spiritual" to even get a source of income and
work. In the more extreme cases, they tend to manipulate, leech
(and essentially feed) off of others in order to provide for
themselves (and themselves alone).
of the material world is another area of a distorted
understanding with regards to the spiritual life (the flip side
of that coin is using spiritual concepts as a
justification/means of obtaining materialistic
Many truth/spiritual seekers believe that
their inability to function in the "3D world" and inability
(refusal) to manage ordinary daily affairs is like wearing a
badge of merit - a proof of their great spirituality ("I am too
This ties into the martyr complex as well
(addressed later). The Zen saying "Before Enlightenment:
chop wood, carry water; after Enlightenment: chop wood, carry
water" applies here, which basically means having humility.
applies to the trap of "fighting the 3D matrix".
matrix control system mines us for our energy, and keeps many of
us preoccupied with survival and "making a living" while
stealing from us (taxes) or manipulating us into debt (or
worse), we need to be strategic planners in order to avoid
attracting unnecessary negative attention from the matrix that
could compromise both our ability to function and to be of help
When we refuse to deal with ordinary life affairs -
stemming from an inflated sense of being "spiritual" or an
emotional reactive "fuck the system" attitude (projected at the
symptoms/shadows on the wall of the 3D matrix) - the "matrix has
us" in this case, too, for we essentially react out of
ego/survival consciousness, which is exactly the frequency where
the matrix overlords want us to be.
focus their whole energy and life to get "off the grid" or look
for loopholes and ways not to pay their taxes, essentially
trying to live "under the radar", which can compromise their
ability to be of service. It can also become an "escape"
avoidance strategy, based on 3D-survival thinking.
obviously not condoning the tax (theft) system, nor am I against
striving towards self-sustainability or living "off the grid"
(quite the contrary), we need to be cautious not to fall into
the 3D revolutionary (round we go back to the point again)
mindset trap, nor into reactionary black & white
As it is mentioned in various esoteric
teachings, such as "Gnosis" by
first steps on the track [way of access towards awakening -
transcending the General Law/Hyperdimensional Matrix], man
must apply the principle: 'feed the crocodile so that we are
In other words,
sometimes we need to feed the "crocodiles" to keep them calm,
i.e. play by the matrix "rules" to an extent in order to protect
ourselves so we can continue with the Great Work and not draw
unnecessary negative attention upon ourselves.
Trap of Victim
and Blame Consciousness
As we wake up
to the "horror of the situation" (as Gurdjieff described it) and
realize the madness of the world - with sleeping people
"dreaming to be awake", as well as our own sleep state and
conditioning - it can feel like we're caught in a prison, and
that analogy is correct in many ways.
As a result of this
"shock", it can be natural at first to feel like a victim and
blame the powers-that-be (the global elite on a 3D level, or
their hyperdimensional puppeteers) for our situation.
getting caught up in blame and victimhood is essentially a dis-empowering
state that feeds the matrix.
While the whole set-up feels like
being in a prison, from a higher perspective, life on earth is a
"school" for the evolution of consciousness, and all there is
are essentially soul lessons.
When we are
subjected to personal attacks (hyperdimensionally, or from other
people), or have to deal with difficult interpersonal
relationships (where we tend to blame others or our partner for
what they/he/she has done "to us"), and we go into reactivity,
the matrix is being nourished.
Obviously, this doesn't mean to
put up with abuse, and boundaries need to be made. However,
essentially, we cannot blame others for how we feel.
victim/blame frequency is exactly what the hyperdimensional
matrix feeds off of, and "they" want us to engage in
interpersonal fighting, for it all creates the emotional "loosh"
for them to feed upon.
The moment you take anything personally,
the matrix has you, triggering your self-importance
(identification with your personality/ego).
"Self-importance is our greatest enemy. Think about it -
what weakens us is feeling offended by the deeds and
misdeeds of our fellow men.
Our self-importance requires
that we spend most of our lives offended by someone.
Every effort should be made to
eradicate self-importance from the lives of warriors.
Without self-importance we are invulnerable.
Self-importance is not something simple and naive.
one hand, it is the core of everything that is good in us,
and on the other hand, the core of everything that is
To get rid of the self-importance that is rotten
requires a masterpiece of strategy.
In order to
follow the path of knowledge one has to be very imaginative.
In the path of knowledge nothing is as clear as we'd like it
to be. Warriors fight self-importance as a matter of
strategy, not principle.
is nothing else but the proper use of energy. My
statements have no inkling of morality. I've saved energy
and that makes me impeccable. To understand this, you have
to save enough energy yourself.
take strategic inventories. They list everything they do.
Then they decide which of those things can be changed in
order to allow themselves a respite, in terms of expending
The strategic inventory covers only behavioral
patterns that are not essential to our survival and
well-being. In the strategic inventories of warriors,
self-importance figures as the activity that consumes the
greatest amount of energy, hence, their effort to eradicate
One of the
first concerns of warriors is to free that energy in order
to face the unknown with it. The action of rechanneling that
energy is impeccability.
effective strategy for rechanneling that energy consists of
six elements that interplay with one another. Five of them
are called the attributes of warriorship: control,
discipline, forbearance, timing, and will.
They pertain to
the world of the warrior who is fighting to lose
self-importance. The sixth element, which is perhaps the
most important of all, pertains to the outside world and is
called the petty tyrant.
tyrant is a tormentor. Someone who either holds the power of
life and death over warriors or simply annoys them to
distraction. Petty tyrants teach us detachment.
ingredients of the new seers' strategy shows how efficient
and clever is the device of using a petty tyrant.
strategy not only gets rid of self-importance; it also
prepares warriors for the final realization that
impeccability is the only thing that counts in the path of
If seers can hold their own in
facing petty tyrants, they can certainly face the unknown
with impunity, and then they can even stand the presence of
mistake average men make in confronting petty tyrants is not
to have a strategy to fall back on; the fatal flaw is that
average men take themselves too seriously; their actions and
feelings, as well as those of the petty tyrants, are
Warriors, on the other hand, not only have a
well-thought-out strategy, but are free from
tyrants take themselves with deadly seriousness while
warriors do not. What usually exhausts us is the wear and
tear on our self-importance.
Any man who has an iota of
pride is ripped apart by being made to feel worthless."
"The Fire from Within"
happened "to us", in light of the process of awakening, we need
to become aware of the victim archetype that is strongly
embedded in our collective psyche in order to empower ourselves
and take self-responsibility for our healing, growth, and life
of the Victim archetype is a fear that you cannot survive or
will not survive.
Not just physical survival but the
survival of your identity, your hopes and dreams or sense of
self. Deep down there is a belief that you don't deserve to
thrive and the Victim is a way to have passive control over
your life. All victims are entitled.
It may take you some
time to see your own sense of entitlement but it is
important to identify it to be able to transform this
interesting archetype from shadow to light.
the Victim may be the most difficult thing you do but it is
the most life altering as well.
The Enlightened Victim
understands that real power comes from within and is bound
up with personal responsibility. When you are the
Enlightened Victim you cannot blame others because you can
see that the loss of power happens from within. It would be
useless to look for empowerment where it does not exist.
Enlightened Victim asks "what can I do with the situation
that I have been given?"
this great scene from The Lord of the Rings movie where
Frodo, feeling victimized by the fact that the ring of power
has come to him, says to Gandalf:
"I wish the ring had
never come to me. I wish none of this had happened."
And Gandalf answers him wisely:
"So do all who live to
see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we
have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to
There are other forces at work in this world Frodo,
besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the Ring.
In which case, you were also meant to have it. And that is
an encouraging thought."
Here Gandalf shows Frodo where
his true power lies.
There are some things in life that are
not for us to decide but we can decide what to do with what
we have been given, or what has happened to us. It is a very
The Enlightened Victim is not afraid of weakness and
fragility because you maintain vulnerability as a strength.
You have learned that power can be found even in the worst
You are no
longer afraid of failures, losses, tragedies, suffering and
misfortune because none of these outer circumstances has the
power to control your life.
Vulnerability is the
keystone of your strength because it allows you to discover
different kinds of power and especially recognize the
strength of openness.
Vulnerability makes you pliable and
willing to be changed by your circumstances without losing
Understanding the Victim
We see the
victim/blame archetype playing out on social media these days as
A good way to check yourself in order to ensure you are
not falling into that trap (and thereby essentially giving your
power away energetically) is to observe how easily you get
triggered/upset about other people's posts, opinions, pics, etc…
especially on a baseline emotional level.
Observe how you may be
projecting inner turmoil onto people you have never met
personally, nor talked to face to face… taking things
personally, getting offended, even if you feel justified in
doing so because you were "attacked" (by the way, there is
nothing wrong with blocking/deleting people - making clear
boundaries is important, too!).
Observe, when sharing personal
stuff, if it is actually coming from a place of self-pity and
blame, instead of honest vulnerability that's supported by
humility (not to be mistaken as "self-diminishment") and
personal responsibility... or posting something in order to seek
out attention, which relates to Narcissism.
All this of
this emotional "loosh" - based on egoic self-centeredness - is
sustenance for the Matrix. It's tricky at times to catch it in
yourself, and the ego/predator mind can camouflage itself and
shape-shift like a chameleon.
self-honesty, and observing oneself are key tools to deploy in
order to check in with our actions and thoughts at all times in
that regard (a good question to ask oneself: what is my true -
most often hidden - intention for posting this or that?).
this is especially true in relation to the internet and the archonic A.I. infection we are all exposed to via technology,
keeping us head-centric and isolated (despite the positive side
of connecting, networking and sharing information).
At the same
token, it's important not to blame ourselves, especially when
buying into the New
Age distorted idea of "You Create Your Own Reality" and the
over-simplified idea that you "created" everything in your life,
based on your thoughts and emotional state.
"Law of Attraction" (as it is commonly used these days in
corrupted New Age/pop-spirituality concepts of "You Create Your
Own Reality") is a gross distortion of its true esoteric meaning
and source, just as the saying "Ask and You Shall Be Given" has
also been corrupted from its original esoteric meaning and
watered down into "I can have anything I want from the
"universe", if I just "ask" for it and align my thoughts and
emotions with my desires".
First of all, the "law of attraction"
(based on the saying "like attracts like") was geared towards
the sincere seeker engaged in esoteric self-work, meaning that
he/she will "attract" (through his "SINCERE asking") anything
that will help him/her for his/her soul evolution with the aim
of union with the "One", i.e. soul embodiment, self-realization,
The phrase "Ask and You Shall Be
Given" relates to esoteric Knowledge, Truth, assistance, and
"occult secrets" that will help him/her on the path , not a
"thing" (or job, money, relationship) based on the ego's
he/she will be "given" or "attract" is not up to "him/her", but
relates to his/her soul lessons and even includes (besides
"positive" things, such as the right teacher/teaching, and
assistance appearing at the right time) challenging situations,
trials and initiations (including attacks by occult forces,
which can be teachings/initiations in disguise) that may seem
"negative" to the uninitiated eye, but are necessary lessons for
him/her to pass through as part of the awakening process.
have nothing to do with "attracting them because of his/her
In the end, it's about letting go of the
monkey mind conditioning, and realizing the illusion of
"personal will" (ego identification) so as to give way to Divine
Will - becoming an embodied sovereign Individual, a conscious
instrument for Spirit to work through, expressing itself in this
reality plane by merging with him/her/it as a unique frequency
Trap of Savior
and Martyr Consciousness
On the other
side of the victim coin is the Savior/Martyr complex, which ties
into the previously-discussed 'waking up/helping others' trap.
This inflated state - being identified with the "savior" - is
based upon the illusion that there is something "wrong" with
reality (as in, the creative force of the Source/God/Universe
from which all originates/is manifested from, is somehow a
"mistake") and we therefore need to "save" or "fix" the world.
By assuming "god's point of view", and thus resulting in a sense
of grandiosity and feelings of "special-ness" (superiority
complex), this trap ties into the misconception of what "evil"
actually is, and how it operates within the duality of light and
It doesn't mean to just sit by either, but rather, to
actively engage in the evolution of consciousness, with all of
the collective and personal lessons contained within that
process, in order to become frequency anchors in alignment with
complex is also very common in people who are overly-identified
with the the 'wanderer/renegade/starseed/family of light'
concept, which their ego hijacks so as to put themselves on
pedestals while "looking down" on humans (as mentioned before in
the superiority trap).
This topic is explored in depth in this
Purpose, and Esoteric Work in this Time of Transition.
It also relates
to people who are very attached to (and identified with) what
they perceive as their "mission" and "purpose".
While we all do
have our individual callings in life - which we can (and should)
be passionate about - it is important to keep in mind that
purpose is not a definition, but a process, and should be seen
in light of our individual soul evolution and how it aligns with
our unique talents, our development, and our lessons to learn.
The moment ambition, pride, will-full doing or a need to "prove
ourselves" kicks in, we are not aligned with spirit within, but
rather with ego-consciousness… cravings take over, and the matrix
complex is an even more exaggerated form of the savior complex -
it is activated whenever we feel we need to suffer "for others",
and pride ourselves for carrying the weight of the world on our
It shows itself when we proudly "show off" how we are
being "attacked" for what we do (activism or speaking out) and
often needlessly put ourselves into compromising situations to
somehow prove how right we were all along.
This behavior is also
based on a lack of external consideration and strategic
enclosure as explored before in this article. It relates to deep
dogmatic religious programming as well, especially the Christian
idea that "Jesus died for our sins", and ties into the
collective external savior program, with the masses looking for
someone to save/lead them (based on authoritarian programming).
In order to
avoid any of these traps (or pull ourselves out of them again if
we fall into one), humility and modesty are key assistants on a
basic foundational level:
"Like it or
not, humility exists only in the wake of arrogance.
people know humility for itself or opt for it right away.
Most of us have fallen into arrogance and egotism
and have failed. We come to humility after having thoroughly
tested the alternative.
True humility is a choice we
make each time there is a confrontation, and unless a person
is supremely comfortable, self-assured, and safe, he or she
cannot easily be humble.
The dynamically modest person
chooses to be humble out of strength.
The humility of the Changes [I Ching / Yijing] is an active
power. As such, it is more than a moral position: it is a
akin to compassion - at least in the sense that true
compassion means extending one's energy and talents on
behalf of others. One cannot be merciful from a position of
Remaining humble even when you
are under great duress, staying self-possessed in the face
of insults, and refusing to bully others with your position
and power are all examples of humility from the vantage of
are humble will gradually discover other advantages. They
will not hesitate to go beyond themselves. With nothing to
prove, they are willing to explore new situations.
they might make mistakes.
They may even suffer
embarrassment. But the humble person acknowledges and
accepts that. The immodest make mistakes too - but they try
to hide their errors and deny their fallibility.
worsens their mistakes and increases their isolation.
"The Living I
Ching; Using Ancient Chinese Wisdom to Shape Your Life"
THE PATH TO THE TEMPLE OF SECRETS
of Secrets is located on a high mountain, and everywhere
thorns are covering the path leading to the Temple.
inconceivable, mysterious height of the mountain is the
reason why many people doubt the existence of the Temple of
Secrets. Some think of it as a Fairy Tale, some consider it
an old Myth and others believe it to be the Truth.
the narrow path stands Ignorance, with her sisters Stupidity
and Laziness, and they tell awful tales to the travelers and
of horrible adventures the travelers will encounter if they
set foot on this path.
That is how lazy Human Beings and
fearful Human Beings can easily be persuaded to turn back.
There are a
few Human Beings on which ignorance attempts her deceptions
They climb up the first part of the thorny steep
path, and when they are about half way up the mountain, they
reach a plateau on which they find the Temple of Self-Love.
Next to this Temple stands Self-Conceit, Pride and Know
it-All and they offer the traveler a cup, out of which he
drinks his own Self in great gulps and thereby becomes
intoxicated with himself, with his own "I."
travelers then become so intoxicated with themselves that
they imagine that their Temple, the Temple of Self-Love is
the Temple of Secrets and there is nothing, but nothing,
above them. The inscription on this temple, the Temple of
Self-Love, reads as follows: The Sanctuary of the Wisdom of
passions and wantonness are the servants of these priests.
However, those whose heart searches for the truth will not
find any satisfaction with this and they will keep on
thousand steps from this Temple you will find a very
secluded little hut, inhabited by a hermit, with the
following inscription above the door: The Residence of
The man who lives here guides
the strangers to the residence of humility, which in turn
leads them to Self-Recognition. This Divine Beauty becomes
the traveler's companion, and with her, he conquers the
Whosoever tries to reach the Temple of Secrets without this
Divine Beauty can very easily be misled by his Self-Love,
and as a result, will follow the wrong path.
for knowledge will lead him to the Temple of Curiosity.
inhabitants of this Temple are: fraud, seduction and
deception, the founders of most of the secret societies, and
those Human Beings who in search for the Truth and for the
Temple of Secrets will, if they join these Secret Societies,
be robbed of the ability to see with their Soul.
then led to the top of the mountain, where they fall into
the abyss or into the labyrinth or maze, in which they will
walk in circles for eternity without finding the Truth.
alone is the best guide. This alone will lead the seeker to
the Master of Teachers of all secrets. This Master Teacher
is the pure will.
This pure will becomes the friend of the
highest of knowledge and they enter into a bond of eternal
union [Divine Will].
knowledge of the effects of the Eternal Light of godliness
in all created beings is True Magic in Theory. The
conception of this Light, or the transition from the
intellect to the will, is True Magic in Practice.
Principles of Higher Knowledge, 1788
Occult Hostile Forces Targeting
traps on the awakening journey relate more to our inner attitude and
ego-hijacked spiritual insights, experiences and knowledge
(including knowledge of how the matrix works), which leads to the
ego believing itself to be the awakening self.
The way I use the
term "ego" is in relation to identifying with who we "think" we are,
the conditioned personality, or anything we "do" based on the
illusion of being separate, caught in a fragmented state of
consciousness, i.e. lack of wholeness, (which is also the result of
the division of the inner male and female that shows up in the body-mind (head)
split that is so prevalent in our modern society).
However, all of the
traps mentioned before are also "enhanced" by hyperdimensional
interference and attacks which lie "outside" of our ego-structure or
shadow issues - as important as Shadow work is from a Jungian
perspective, it has its limitations (as does psychological work in
general, which it was addressed in this
The occult hostile forces affect us in more ways than we
are aware of, especially with those people who are actively engaged
in consciousness-raising activities, spiritual self-work, seeking
truth, and speaking out about it. Be it through our own minds, like
psychic attacks or entity attachments, or forces working through
others who are being used
as "portals" to vector us off our path, vigilance is essential.
Think of Agent Smith being able to inject himself into any character
in the virtual world within the film "The Matrix", trying to stop
Neo from awakening to his actual abilities.
people - people who are asleep, plugged into the Matrix, the grand
illusion - can become unconscious "tools" and puppets of the Matrix,
deploying tactics like peer pressure/social ostracization to make
sure no one jumps out of line.
addition to the weak and defenseless, [these hidden] vampires
seek out people who are on the verge of a quantum, evolutionary
leap in consciousness, but have not yet fully integrated their
realizations and come out the other side.
individuals are in an energetically sensitive and "charged"
condition, and their openness and vulnerability invites the
vampiric entities to help themselves and gorge on the light of
their prey's expanding awareness.
thriving on the absence of light, vampires can be said to be
"light-eaters," as they draw and consume the light belonging to
others into the cavernous black hole of their congenital
Economically speaking, vampires want to corner the
market on energy, on light, so as to centralize their power and
generate the light-energy source themselves, they need to steal
and use the reserves of the beings harnessed in thrall to them.
The emerging positive-and healthy elements in the other person
are either co-opted, neutralized, or corrupted. Once their
victim is cornered, the vampire literally wants to keep their
captives under lock and key.
vampiric wetikos try
to destroy others' light, as it reminds them of what they've
killed in themselves, while simultaneously trying to appropriate
the fight for themselves.
see their job as "arresting" the creative expressions of love,
because genuine love threatens their reign of terror.
The strategy of these predators
is to distract us so as to keep our attention directed outward,
thereby stopping us from finding the light within ourselves,
which would "kill" the vampires.
If we hold up a mirror
and reflect back the insanity being exhibited by those stricken
by the wetiko psychosis, we run the very real risk of being
accused of being the ones who are crazy.
lf we do manage to connect with the light within ourselves and
try to share it with others, these nonlocal vampiric entities
(what I have in previous writings called "nonlocal demons," or
NLD for short), not bound by the 3-dimensional laws of space and
time, will try, via their "connections" to the nonlocal field,
to stop, us by influencing other people to turn against us.
can destroy us, or, if we have the meta-awareness to see what is
happening and are able to skillfully navigate our way through,
can serve to further strengthen our intention, deepen our
connection with the light of lucidity [within], hone our skill
of creatively transmitting our realizations, and cultivate more
It is as if these psychic, nonlocal
vampires are guardians of the threshold of evolution."
"There are highly conscious forces
whose sole aim, apparently, is to discourage the (spiritual)
seeker and divert him from the path he has chosen.
The first sign of their presence is easily perceptible: joy is
clouded, consciousness is clouded, everything becomes shrouded
in an atmosphere of melodrama and gloom.
Personal distress is a
sure sign of the enemy's presence. Melodrama is a favorite haunt
of these forces; that is how they are able to create the
greatest havoc, because they play with a very old teammate
within us, who cannot help loving melodrama even as he cries out
generally make a point of forcing us into sudden, extreme, and
irrevocable decisions in order to take us as far away as
possible from our path - a pressing, exacting vibration that
demands immediate compliance; or else, they take apart, with
remarkable skill, the whole system of our quest to prove that we
are deluding ourselves and that our efforts will come to
More often, they bring about a state of depression,
playing with another well-known teammate within us whom Sri Aurobindo calls the man of sorrows: a fellow... covering
himself with a sevenfold overcoat of tragedy and gloom
[self-pity], and he would not feel his existence justified if he
couldn't be colossally miserable.
The method for dealing with these
adverse forces is the same as for the other vibrations: silence,
inner stillness that lets the storm blow over.
We may not succeed the first time in dissolving these attacks,
but more and more they will seem to take place on the surface of
our being; we may be shaken, upset, yet deep down we will feel
the "Witness" in us, unscathed and unaffected - he is never
We fall and get back up again, each time becoming
The only sin is discouragement.
In practice, the [sincere]
seeker will be far more exposed than others [for his/her aim is
a threat to the occult hostile force's agenda]."
"Sri Aurobindo or
the Adventure of Consciousness"
Anyone who is on
the verge of a true awakening will attract the attention of these
forces, and it has not always the result of having negative thoughts
or a negative attitude (as is claimed in the distorted New Age
version of the "Law of Attraction").
The simple reason for their
sinister acts is that they don't want to lose their "food" source,
and so they attempt to derail you in the midst of your frequency
shift (as a result of the awakening process).
They especially target
our own blindspots, wounds and predominant ego-identifications,
which are different for each of us. For example, if you have an
inherently built-in "white knight" syndrome, they will enhance your
savior complex, as well as inducing you into the trap of
(forcefully) trying to wake up/help others.
Or, on the other hand,
if you suffer from low self-esteem and self-pity (most often due to
past trauma/childhood wounding), they will enhance the victim
complex. Same goes for the superiority complex, and so on.
that I mentioned in the traps section can and will be augmented by hyperdimensional interference and thought injections.
That's why, in
light of the awakening process from an absolute perspective, the
most important part of the experience is to get out of the head and
not identity with any thoughts which reside in there, regardless if
they come from our own internal ego-structure or are infused via
The way out is by instilling a calm and
grounded non-reactive state of being, anchoring to an embodied
higher frequency, which results in activating our original blueprint
prior to genetic modification so as to transcend the matrix.
before we can do that, we need to clear the vessel within, and that
is much harder work than fighting the matrix externally (which is
futile anyway, at the end of the day), especially when getting stuck
in its 3D manifestations.
It is through
"mistakes" and attacks that we learn and grow - at the end of the
day, even these forces (whether they are working through others or
targeting us directly) are our "teachers", making us aware of where
our work is required within our inner-verse.
When it's all said and
done, these are just lessons and initiations to help us become more
aware and conscious.
The trap lies in the possibility that we might
get stuck within a lower vibration (or purely-3D "thinking") prison,
and get bogged down in negative emotional "loops", projecting them
onto others and the world-at-large.
"While we may
not always be the source of injustices against us, we are the
cause of its entrance into our lives.
The Matrix, even with all
its imbalances and corruption by those freewill entities who
have overstepped their place in nature, is nevertheless still a
learning program entirely responsive to our own ignorance and
It may be a predator's choice to attack, but it is
our choice to accept the attack and succumb to it.
Control System can only trip us via the elements within us that
correspond to its low vibratory nature. If we ignore our
intuition, have blind spots in our awareness, or engage in
ignoble feelings and behaviors, then these are the avenues
through which we are had.
Attacks serve to identify our own weaknesses, thus
providing focus for where to take the next step on one's path of
In the absolute sense the Matrix
Control System serves to accelerate your spiritual growth, and
although its agents see you as the enemy, know that you can
utilize them as teachers.
You do not need to seek them out, for they will find you as you
progress in your learning path.
Most importantly, know that you
will never be given anything you cannot choose to handle
is always a spiritual test before being able to attain the next
stage of power.
Each time you have to make progress, you have to
undergo an examination. When Divine manifestations take
place, they have also to pass through great difficulties and
sufferings as a result of oppositions of dark and anti-divine
forces which have had a hold upon earth since the creation.
Those dark powers always oppose
the new Lights because they do not want to give up their grip on
the earth and sometimes their hostility even takes the
form of war on earth [created and initiated by occult/hyperdimensional
forces working through their human puppets], but in spite of all
obstructions the Divine Will succeeds at last."
of the Mother" - Sri Aurobindo Library
Paranoia and Attachment to Experiences
I see more and
more people becoming aware of the hyperdimensional matrix forces
and how they might possibly be interfering with their own lives,
working through them or through others close to them.
encouraging to witness, for awareness and education about this
topic helps many people to heal and work through their
At the same time, I also see people getting caught
up in paranoia mode - or the victim/blame complex kicks in.
Oftentimes, I also notice (in some people I work with) that they
are actually not dealing with entity interference, but with
their own thought projections (based on fear/paranoia) that have
taken on a "life" of their own and have become "entities", so to
speak, but are not directly-related to the occult hostile forces
interjecting from a different realm.
people can also get very attached to their experiences and
"story" on an unconscious level, while at the same time wanting
to heal and move on (via a conscious healing process).
unconscious attachment and inner contradiction results in an
inability to fully let go and heal, as the ego actually feeds
off of the story/experience by strongly identifying with it.
Usually, there is an unconscious "self-importance" or a sense of
feeling "special" at play here in relation to having these
experiences which define one's self-image (i.e. who we "think"
Sometimes, it is also just an underlying morbid
fascination with the topic, and a part of themselves (the
"predator mind") that actually "likes" the drama identifies with
Essentially, it still provides the frequency which
these forces lock onto; meanwhile, none of this is recognized by
the person on a conscious level, which shows how tricky it can
be to deal with these forces in order to establish a sovereign
embodied state of being (complete with energetic boundaries).
I see the same
pattern occurring in the fringe/UFO/alien community, where some
researchers and people who had/have encounters with occult
hostile forces (in whatever shape or form they manifest,
and specific names we give them) are getting caught up in a
tunnel vision, and tend to "forget" or miss the point of
essentially transcending the occult influences/interference via
sincere esoteric self-work, embodiment and anchoring to a higher
While it is obviously important to understand the
"modus operandi" of the hyperdimensional entities and educate
ourselves (and others) about it, we need to be careful not give
"them" more power by giving them too much "attention".
a black & white scenario and as always, each situation is
This also relates to the Trap of getting stuck in
the rabbit hole of information overload, which I've
considered the modus operandi of telepathic suggestion in
detail because it forms the real basis of every kind of
Whether it be a discarnate entity, a being of
another order of evolution, a demon from the Pit, or merely
the panic-stricken soul of a selfish friend, clinging to the
life of form regardless of consequences, in all cases the
opening gambit is the same.
Until the aura is pierced,
there can be no entrance to the soul, and the aura is always
pierced from within by the response of fear or desire going
out towards the attacking entity.
If we can inhibit that instinctive emotional reaction
[zero-point non-reactive consciousness, grounded in the body
- embodiment/soul anchoring], the edge of the aura will
remain impenetrable, and will be as sure a defense against
psychic invasion as the healthy and unbroken skin is a
defense against bacterial infection."
Self-Defense -The Classical Instruction Manual for
Protecting Yourself Against Paranormal Attack"
"It is so
that they [the hostile suggestions] must be regarded -
without interest, with indifference.
That removes the
necessity for constant struggle which is itself a form of
interest, and it is as discouraging and more to these
To think too
much of the hostile Powers is to bring in their atmosphere.
One has to recognize them when they come and repel them, but
to think much about them, to fear, to be expecting or
looking out for them is a mistake [for it invites
them]. It is better not to trouble about the
Keep your aspiration [to the
embodied I AM presence] strong and sincere. If you begin to
concern yourself about the hostile forces, you will only
make the path more difficult.
The worst thing for sadhana
[spiritual self-training and practice] is to get into a
morbid condition, always thinking of "lower forces,
the sadhana has stopped for a time, then let it stop, remain
quiet, do ordinary things, rest when rest is needed - wait
till the physical consciousness is ready. My own sadhana
when it was far more advanced than yours used to stop for
half a year together. I did not make a fuss about it, but
remained quiet till the empty or dull period was over.
adverse forces take advantage of any perturbation of that
kind, for it opens, as it were, a passage to their action.
Fear is the one thing that one
must never feel in face of them, for it makes them bold and
Moreover, fear, calls the thing feared - it must
therefore be thrown out altogether.
so with everybody so long as there is not the positive
siddhi of transformation by which it becomes contrary to the
very nature of the instrument to respond to these vibrations
- because they have become foreign to it. Till then all
depends on the vigilance of the consciousness and its will.
The repetition of the response does not increase the
difficulty - it only retards the clearing out of the
Sincerity and Radical
The most important
part in the process of and work towards awakening is self-honesty,
how sincere we are with ourselves.
As mentioned at the beginning of
this essay, lies to the self are the most harmful and biggest
stumbling blocks in esoteric self-work and also the hardest to
As we gain higher levels of awareness and consciousness, we
realize the responsibility we have, what "awakening" truly is about
and how challenging true freedom actually is for it entails letting
go of control (the illusion/limitation of personal will), realizing
that we cannot blame anyone or anything.
the most fundamental forward movement towards the integration of
light and shadow within.
Without it, we run aground in the
quagmire of judgment and denial. It is the foundation of the
shamanic journey, which requires that we immerse ourselves in
the waters of perpetual renewal.
Shamanic forgiveness instigates
a dynamic that employs not only the emotions and intellect, but
reaches the very fountainhead of behavior - the DNA - setting up
new neural pathways and changing the chemical balance within the
In this way,
the electromagnetic field then holds a resonant support system
for forgiveness, creating an inner dialogue of compassion. When
we forgive, we embrace absolutely our response-ability within
the interconnectedness of all creation.
The gateway to the path
that leads to the transmutation of the life-death-rebirth cycle
is opened through forgiveness, and is the shedding of the first
layer of mortality, initiating the journey from victimhood to
The more sincere we
are in this process, the more we will detect the traps we can get
caught up in, and the more predominant our inner voice (Spirit)
becomes as it increasingly "checks in" on us.
Conversely, the more
sincere we are in this process, the less we'll be able to pretend to
ourselves - and to the outside world (and others) - of being someone
we "are not".
Essentially, it's about coming out of hiding,
dissolving the buffers and masks that cover up the real "I".
have found over the years of working with people, even people
who have had very deep and profound awakenings, that most people
have a fear of being truthful, of really being honest - not only
with others, but with themselves as well.
the core of this fear is that most people know intuitively that
if they were actually totally truthful and totally sincere and
honest, they would no longer be able to control anybody.
We can not
control somebody with whom we have been truthful.
We can only
control people if we tell half-truths, if we shave down what is
true. When we tell the total truth, our inside is suddenly on
the outside. There's nothing hidden anymore. For most human
beings, being that exposed brings up incredible fear.
people walk around thinking,
"My god, if anybody could look
inside of me, if anybody could see what is happening in there,
what my fears are, what my doubts are, what my truths are, what
I really perceive, they would be horrified."
Most people are protecting
They are holding a lot of things in. They are not
living honest, truthful, and sincere lives, because if they were
to do so, they would have no control. Of course, they don't have
control anyway, but they would have no illusion of control,
don't get out of childhood without having many experiences of
being wounded for telling the truth. Someone said, "You can't
say that," or "You shouldn't say that," or "That wasn't
As a result, most of us have very deep underlying
conditioning that being just who we are is not okay. We have
been conditioned to believe that there are times when it is okay
to be truthful and honest, and there are times when it is not
okay to be truthful and honest.
Most human beings actually have
an imprinting - not only in their minds, but in their bodies and
their emotions - that if they are honest, if they are real,
something bad is going to happen.
Somebody is not going to like
it. They won't be able to control their environment if they tell
But telling the
truth is an aspect of awakening. It may not seem like it,
because it's very practical and very human. It's not
transcendent. It's not about pure consciousness, it's about how
pure consciousness manifests as a human being in an undivided
We must be able to manifest what we realize, and we must
also come to grips with and start to notice the very forces
within us that keep us from manifesting truthfulness in every
time I've given a talk like this in public, someone will come up
to me later and say,
"You know that talk you gave on
truthfulness and honesty and all that?"
And I'll go,
remember the talk."
And they'll say,
"Well, somebody came up in
the parking lot afterward and decided that she needed to tell me
all the rotten things she thought about me, in the name of
And I just kind
of shake my head. I hesitate to even give talks on this topic,
because it's so easy to misunderstand.
Truth is a very
high standard. Truth is not a plaything. To tell what is true
within ourselves is not to tell what we think; it is not to tell
our opinion. It is not to dump the garbage can of our mind onto
All of that is illusion, distortion, projection.
Truth is not unloading our opinions onto someone. That is not
truth. Truth is not telling our beliefs about things. That is
not truth. Those are ways that we actually hide from truth.
Truth is much
more intimate than that. When we tell the truth, it has the
sense of a confession. I don't mean a confession of something
bad or wrong, but I mean the sense where we come completely out
Truth is a simple thing. To speak the truth is to
speak from a sense of total and absolute unprotectedness.
To tell truth with any
consistency, we not only have to meet every place in ourselves
that is afraid of telling truth, we also have to see the belief
structure we have that tells us,
"I can't do that."
Those belief structures are by their very nature based in
To know this is not enough; you have to actually see
it, to really perceive exactly what you believe. What are the
exact belief structures that cause you to go into duality, that
cause you to go into conflict and hiding? Only then can you tell
truth in the way I'm discussing here.
Freedom is the
realization that everything and everybody gets to be exactly as
they are. Unless we've come to that point, unless we've seen
that this is how reality sees things, then we're actually
withholding freedom from the world. We're seeing it as a
possession, and we're only concerned with ourselves.
How good I
can feel? How free I can feel? True freedom is a gift to
everything and everybody.
thing is allowing the whole world to wake up. Part of allowing
the whole world to wake up is recognizing that the whole world
is free - everybody is free to be as they are.
Until the whole world is free
to agree with you or disagree with you, until you have given the
freedom to everyone to like you or not like you, to love you or
hate you, to see things as you see them or to see things
differently - until you have given the whole world its freedom -
you'll never have your freedom.
This is an
important part of awakening, and it is an easy part to miss.
Again, if we were fully awake, it would be impossible to miss
this, but most people do not awaken all at once.
The idea of
freedom is very important, however.
Everybody gets to be as they
are. Only when everyone is allowed to be as they are - when you
have given them that freedom, the freedom they already possess -
do you find within yourself the capacity to be honest and real
We cannot be true as long as we
are expecting or wanting others to agree with us.
That will cause us to contract - maybe they won't like what I
say; maybe they won't agree; maybe they won't like me. When we
are protecting ourselves, we are also withholding freedom from
When we realize that we are the one and only
Spirit that manifests as everything and everyone, in the very
nature of that realization is total freedom for all.
There is a
certain fearlessness in this realization. People sometimes come
to me and say,
"Well, Adya, there's still some inner place" -
and, I find, it's often a very early childhood place, "that's
afraid to just be what I know to be true."
And, of course, I'll
"You have to look at it, to see how you, yourself, formed
certain belief structures based on what happened in the past.
You have to look into it and see if those belief structures are
But also, we need
to recognize that we have no way of knowing or predicting how
the world will receive us.
Part of being awake is being willing
to be crucified. If we think that to be awake means the whole
world will agree with us, then we are in a total delusion.
consciousness there is a deep taboo that says it is not okay to
realize the truth of being. I'm not talking about preaching it,
necessarily; I'm talking about just being what you perceive.
This taboo says,
"That's not okay. You will be crucified for
that; you will be killed for it."
Of course, in our human
history, people have been killed for it.
We have a long history
in many societies of getting rid of or killing truly enlightened
beings, because true enlightenment does not conform to the dream
In fact, many times the
dream state feels offended and threatened by true enlightenment,
because a truly enlightened being cannot be controlled. Even the
threat of death cannot control an enlightened being.
Thus, as a human being, we can't
have these childish ideas that enlightenment means "everybody
loves me." Maybe
everybody will love you, but more likely some will and some
won't. But when you have given the whole world its freedom, then
you have gone a long way toward finding your own freedom. They
are tied inextricably, one to the other.
The most important thing is not
that you try to convince anybody of the truth that you see. What
is really important is that you are truthful with yourself. If
you can be truthful with yourself, then you can be truthful with
no real usefulness in becoming overly focused on being truthful
with everybody else.
Although that's necessary, the place to
start is with yourself:
Can you be totally sincere with
Can you go to that place that is beyond blame, beyond
judgment, beyond should and shouldn't?
Can you go to that place that is so sincere you won't shy away
from any part of yourself that is still in conflict; you won't
use the perception of truth to hide from something that feels
less than liberating?
It is really a
question of sincerity.
As I said, this is not a self-improvement
program. Once you discover the level of sincerity and honesty I
am describing, you find that sincerity and honesty are
manifestations of the absolute nature of being.
To be this sincere with
yourself may not be easy, initially. You may see things about
yourself you don't want to see.
You may see the parts of
yourself that stand in seemingly stark contrast to everything
you have realized. Nonetheless, this is where awakening moves;
awakening moves toward and into that which is not awake.
Sincerity is what allows this movement to happen, and it does
happen if you are real with yourself.
completely out of hiding, being willing to see every point of
fixation, every way you go into division, enables this part of
the journey to continue. As this happens, you feel your heart
opening, your mind opening; you feel yourself opening on levels
that you never dreamed possible.
These levels are not just
transcendent of humanness, but also right within your humanness,
because there is no separation between your human being and your
Sincerity is the key.
You have to be willing; you have to want to see everything. When
you want to see everything, you will see everything.
A lot of
students who come to see me have the unconscious idea that
enlightenment means one should be able to feel complete
happiness, total bliss, and total freedom in any situation.
is one of the unconscious beliefs that many people have about
awakening, and it's another misperception.
If you believe
the misperception that enlightenment is only about happiness,
bliss, and freedom, you will be motivated to transcend or escape
those areas of your life that feel less than fully functional.
But sooner or later, as we become more awake, we find that there
is more and more pressure to encounter and deal with those areas
of our lives that we have been avoiding, where we are less than
I have found
that a lot of people become quite afraid when they start to
realize where this whole movement of awakening is taking them,
that it is taking them into an area where they will be called to
be unusually honest and real and come completely out of hiding.
This is contrary to the idea of awakening being simply a
transcendence of life, the finding of a safe haven in some inner
experience where we don't have to deal with life as it is.
Awakening is, in fact, quite
the opposite: it's a state of being in which we find the
capacity to deal with our lives as they actually are.
But as I
said, many people are afraid of this part of the process,
because it demands that we come out of hiding on every level."
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Coming out of
hiding - and being sincere with oneself - can be
particularly-challenging for people who predominantly live in their
heads (caught in the male aspect of consciousness).
possesses a strong intellect that has the ability to rationalize and
self-justify everything (including crafting a clever exterior
persona), especially in relation to the lies stemming from the false
personality - it also has a tendency to get trapped in
analysis-paralysis, being unable to recognize anything
"above/beyond" themselves, i.e. the higher intelligence of the
Divine and Spirit.
Caught in overriding thought loops and the
rationalizing mind, the door to the Divine is therefore shut - they
are cut off within the prison of the monkey mind.
mechanism behind this behavior is actually unconscious fear,
stemming from ego identification. Fear of the loss of control.
of surrender to the flow of life/Tao (with the resultant illusory
fear of chaos) which is itself based on the fear of nature (the
feminine aspect of consciousness) and, essentially, fear of true
love and freedom.
It also ties into the fear of being
"insignificant", fear of not being "strong" (fear of appearing as
"weak"), fear of "not knowing" (and essentially the "unknown"), and
fear of how others will perceive us if we'd open up to deeper,
authentic expressions of humility and vulnerability.
habit is constant self-justification.
When this becomes strong
in the seeker, it is impossible to turn him in this part of the
being to the right consciousness and action because at each step
his whole preoccupation is to justify himself. His mind rushes
at once to maintain his own idea, his own position or his own
course of action.
This he is
ready to do by any kind of argument, sometimes the most clumsy
and foolish or inconsistent with what he has been protesting the
moment before [but not obvious to him], by any kind of mis-statement
or any kind of device.
This is a common misuse, but non the less
a misuse of the thinking mind; but it takes in him exaggerated
proportions and so long as he keeps to it, it will be impossible
for him to see or live the Truth"
The Integral Yoga
"If man does
not accept his situation and, in particular, his inner state as
it appears to him, thanks to brief illuminations from the
consciousness of the real 'I' - if he is obstinate against all
evidence, justifying his Personality by protecting himself
behind logic, legitimacy and justice, he will then turn his back
on the path of Access, and thrust himself further into the
Nobody can reach the path of Access to the Way [of
union with the Divine], without first passing through an
interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse [disillusionment]."
Life as a Catalyst and Teacher
For those of us who
keep working on ourselves with sincerity and radical self-honesty -
facing the lies we've been telling ourselves (stemming from the
egoic mind/personality and social/cultural conditioning, augmented
by thought injections of the occult hostile forces), realizing the
futility of "personal will", etc. - and as a result have had
glimpses into our true nature and birthright which lies hidden
behind who we "think" we are, the gifts begin to reveal themselves
in weirdly wonderful ways.
We start to see, feel and align more and
more with the natural flow of life (Divine Will) which is "simpler"
than we "think" it is.
As Adyashanti said:
"This kind of flow is
always available to us, but most of us are too lost in the
complexities of our thinking to feel that there's a simple and
natural flow to life. But
underneath the turmoil of thought and emotion, and underneath the
grasping of the personal will, there is indeed a flow. There is a
simple movement of life."
As a result we also
start to simplify our lives and slow down. No longer driven by
ambition (with its side effects of competition/comparison),
conditioned/vital cravings, the need to "become", and externally
looking for love and happiness, we surrender to the simple movement
Compartmentalized, will-full doing and reactivity are
replaced by an embodied call-and-response to life itself. At the
same time, we don't avoid life, nor do we see ourselves as
better/worse than anyone else.
We recognize (on an embodied level)
the unity and interrelationship of all that is. It's not a state of
constant "bliss" and "awe", but rather a sober and grounded state of
being, fully embracing life, whatever may come.
We also recognize
that life itself is our greatest teacher and catalyst for awakening.
No longer mechanically/outwardly projecting our inner fragmentation,
we realize the teaching-function of everything in our everyday life.
We don't use "spirituality" to avoid life, nor do we seek out "peak
experiences" - we engage in everyday life more fully in the present
moment, for that is the real "peak" experience (when we are fully
tuned into life on an embodied level).
There is no need for "more"
We start to trust
life more and more (and as result we trust ourselves more and more
as well), not because we expect life or spirit to give us anything
we "want", but because we know that life (as the movement of the
Divine) is supporting and helping us to remember ourselves,
assisting in our awakening process.
We instinctually-comprehend that
life and spirit will essentially guide us towards what we "truly
want" and need (including lessons we need to learn) from a soul
perspective, not based on the ego's whims, entitlements and
Interestingly, this surrender (and letting go
aspect) is the hardest part for most people to accept, for they
don't like to hear that control is an illusion; they most often
equate relinquishing personal will with "defeat" or "failure", and
fear that without taking "control" of their lives, they won't find
happiness, fulfillment, prosperity, etc., or will usher in utter
chaos by doing so, all of which is matrix programming lies to keep
humanity trapped in this fear-survival frequency.
But nothing could
be further from the truth.
The surrender/letting go process (in
alignment with the awakening/embodiment journey) leads us eventually
to true joy, love, contentment, fulfilling relationships.
the pathway to our vocation, purpose and calling in life, as well as
abundance that can't be measured in materialistic terms (however, it
doesn't mean you have to be "poor" nor completely reject materialism
so as to be "spiritual", which is another misconception of
But it also requires faith and trust, stepping out of
one's comfort zone and embracing the unknown and unpredictable. The
"counter-arguments" for this process are the voices of the ego or
predator mind (occult forces), reinforced by the matrix cult-ure
that worships personality over essence. It doesn't like to give up
its reign (and doesn't give up easily), for it would mean the end of
its rule. These thought injections are not stemming from the true
"self"/the real "I".
We then know that
any difficulties and challenging situations that may arise are
opportunities for a deeper awakening, most often resulting in
"shocks" that are necessary to shake us up and yank us out of
Despite these moments of "fierce grace", we also
experience more and more beautiful equanimity and moments of bliss,
happiness and joy that don't depend on any external factors.
less afraid of discomfort and the unknown, realizing on a deeper
level that life is not about "winning" or "losing", but all there is
are lessons, and that we are being guided and helped at every moment
if we can tune into our own magnificence.
are getting more in touch with our intuition, our internal guidance,
connected to spirit within (and essentially, with Divine Will), all
of which are uniquely expressed through us as sovereign embodied
Life then becomes
indeed more effort-less, as we don't try to fight the current of
life (Tao), but trust that the river of life carries us where we
need to be, and delivers to us what we need to experience, based on
our unique soul lessons and talents.
measure our own success in terms of our personal comfort and
security, the "universe" measures our success by how much we
So long as we use comfort and security as our
criteria for success, we will fear our own intuitive guidance
because by its very nature it directs us into new cycles of
learning that are sometimes uncomfortable.
In developing your
skill [of intuition] in your own life, you must trust your gut
responses - a fact I cannot emphasize enough."
From a bigger
picture perspective, this is how we transcend the Matrix as well,
even though we still live in this world (since we haven't gone
anywhere physically), but start to experience "reality" and life on
a whole different level ("being in this world but not of it").
Essentially, we realize that "heaven" is right here, right now, and
always has been within us, even though that impression may sound
ignorant, ridiculous or "escapist" to anyone who hasn't had this
experience, and keeps pointing at the shadows on the wall in an
effort to prove what he/she perceives as the "real world".
it is far from being anything close to "escapist", because there is
no denial of the "dark" either, in fact there is deeper "seeing" and
understanding of "evil" (beyond its 3D manifestation) and its role
within the duality of 3D experience, as seen in the light of
evolutionary consciousness with all the "different faces of god".
But no words or "arguments" can convince such a person, and there is
no need or pressure to do this anyway, since everyone has to realize
that for him/herself, an internal realization, for it is beyond
language and words.
No one can show it
to us or bring it to us. No one is "bailing us" out, no leader, no
savior, no authority, until we answer the call of the divine voice
within, which lies hidden behind the illusory constructs of
It's a higher state of being, an
embodied experience which the mind and intellect cannot come close
The differing states of reality-experience which
manifest within (and between) human beings during this time of
transition is also becoming more and more apparent, and relates to
the Timeline-Reality Spilt (explored in a previous
essay), for some people reinforce and fall deeper into a dream
state (while dreaming to be awake, mistaking reality for illusion
and illusion for reality), getting caught up in the Matrix with all
the "traps of agreement" laid out by the occult forces.
others start to increasingly (and courageously) wake up to their
true nature, becoming conscious transducers of Divine Will as
frequency anchors within the unfolding of the "cosmic plan".
is also no judgment about these differing journeys, because the
"splitting" from a higher perspective also reflects the cosmic
equilibrium and the vast difference in soul lessons for each human
being to embody in this day and age.
human being is destined to awaken, each in their own "time" and own
way (and over lifetimes) as we play out the cosmic drama/comedy.
However, we are far away from experiencing any notion of a
"collective" awakening in any near "future". So, embark on the path,
watch out for the traps, don't be afraid of the dark, and most
importantly, enjoy the ride.
The only way out is through, and there
is light at the end of the tunnel…in fact, the tunnel is made of
"This isn't a
journey about becoming something. This is about unbecoming who
we are not, about undeceiving ourselves.
And so one of the most
important steps is to come into agreement with your life so that
you're not turning away from yourself in any way.
amazing thing is that when we are no longer turning away from
ourselves, we find a great amount of energy, a great capacity
for clarity and wisdom, and we start to see everything we need
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