- Per your request for
further information about the impact of Morgellons on
the mind. As you know, I've had it for over 10 years and
offer this information based on all of that experience
and, as you well know, many years of intense research
into this catastrophic affliction. Your 8th Morgellons
Special - Psychological, Emotional, Personality and
Relationship Impacts - should also be listened to
carefully by all Morgellons victims.
I sincerely hope the below helps.
It has long been common knowledge
among Morgellons researchers that the effects of this emerging
plague are not limited to simple physical manifestations. As do
many other new and emerging diseases, Morgellons attacks the
mind of all victims as well as their body. In so doing, it
is at once both obvious and subtle in it's symptomology. Perhaps
the most pervasive and common baseline defining this duel attack
is a form of Depression that often makes its appearance
during the early onset of the condition.
Depression is an insidious condition that debilitates a victim
while often leaving them completely clueless as to the process
that is affecting them. Of course, as we know, Depression is not
the sole domain of Morgellons victims. It is an "umbrella"
condition and finds fertile ground in many traumatic life-events
as well as pathologies.
It is important at this juncture to emphasize that the
demonstrative behavioral effects upon the personality of a
subject afflicted with Morgellons, (and to some extent, Lyme)
generally go beyond the normal behavioral parameters that define
classical Depression. We can call it Depression with a
"twist".... It is a curious phenomena and one that is still
poorly recognized and/or understood.
For lack of more concise terminology, the "twist" can be roughly
described as "selective negative personality trait enhancement."
It is an extremely novel and subtle effect but one that is part
and parcel of the Morgellons personality profile.
The denial that accompanies this behavioral modification is
commensurate with that of Depression. The victim rarely notices
their own negative enhancements. However, such changes do not
often escape the notice of those closest to the victim. They in
turn, often find themselves increasingly powerless to negotiate
a relationship where the rules they formerly co-existed by no
longer apply or are being arbitrarily changed.
As a result, many Morgellons victims unwittingly engage in a
form of relationship 'suicide' where relationships are almost
invariably destroyed by stealth personality traits that target
the very people closest to them and who form their primary
Behavioral modification in a Morgellons victim generally occurs
in the initial stages of the disease. These appear to be changes
that are always rooted in the natural proclivities that existed
in the makeup of the personality prior to affliction. However,
prior to Morgellons onset these personal and socially
counterproductive personality traits are ones that were usually
partially or completely controlled, regulated or suppressed.
Morgellons appears to create in its victims a condition which
allows a certain number of these formerly sub-dominant behaviors
to become "enhanced" to varying degrees. During the high season
of initial onset, a victim, (Even if he or she is made aware of
the issue) will be unlikely to be able to exert effective
self-control or to take personal responsibility for modified
behaviors in question.
The forms and types of negative behavioral examples available
for impartial examination are legion. Judgmental excesses as
well as compulsive completion and procrastination issues are
usually but not always the locus of these matters.
Fault projection in a relationship, (especially if the tendency
was pre-existing) is also quite common. This particular
enhancement is usually directed at a spouse or significant
other. It is one of the more personally destructive effects of
Morgellons and has been the ruination of many formerly healthy
and rewarding relationships.
It is worth noting that most Morgellons victims who have
weathered the first few years of affliction have slowly come to
an awareness of this phenomenon and it's effect upon their lives
and the lives of those around them. With the dawning of this
awareness comes a belated self-understanding and the beginning
of the painful journey toward a compromise/solution that enables
the Morgellons patient to engage in a functional or
semi-functional life once again.
It is long and difficult struggle
but one that is its own reward in the end.
Editor's note - Here is the 8th Morgellons Special
For the many in the Morgellons community who have lost
families, husbands, wives and relationships to this stealth
nightmare, we hope Cliff Mickelson's letter helps both those with
Morgellons and those close to them realize that the mental changes
they are seeing are more than real... and they play for keeps.
MORGELLONS SPECIAL No. 8
Personality And Relationship Impacts Cliff Mickelson, Jan Smith